While re-reading Self Preservation A Little Too Late I realized that I wasn't as happy with it as I was when I first started writing it. I have decided to revise it and continue with the story at the same time. Once I get the first 8 chapters revised and posted I will start to post a new chapter hopefully once a week. Please bear with me, I know it has been awhile since I have updated.
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-I do not own any part of Twilight.
-All recognizable characters are property of the talented Stephanie Meyer
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I felt the eyes on me as every student at Forks High watched me walking through the hallway without Edward by my side. He hadn't shown up to drive me to school like he normally did and I had ended up walking to school in the light drizzle. Light drizzle or not, I had been soaked by the time I walked into class.
Rosalie, surprisingly, had taken me to the locker room and given me a set of clothes. It was obvious that they had been kept for me because they wouldn't have fit me if they were hers. It was a Rosalie outfit, which combined sexy without showing too much skin. I was wearing designer jeans and a turtle neck shirt with a cowl neck that showed only a bit of cleavage. I was happy that she didn't make me where the shoes that I saw in the locker that no doubt matched the outfit.
"Thank you, Rosalie." I said as she walked away from me.
She glanced back at me and looked me up and down for a second before she nodded and left.
"Hey, Bella, did you finally dump that Cullen guy?" Mike asked jogging up to me and walking with me to the hall. He had never really called him by his name, always referring to him as 'that Cullen guy.' It always made me laugh when I saw Edwards expression while Mike spoke.
"No, Mike, why would you think that?" I asked as we walked into Calculus class and took our seats. Normally I would sit with Edward but I didn't see the harm in sitting with Mike today.
"Well, he's not here." Mike said with a grin. "And this is the third time this month that he's let you walk to school. If you had called I would have come and got you."
"We haven't broken up, Mike, sorry to disappoint." I told him but his grin didn't falter.
"That's okay, we can still hang out today." I smiled at that, realizing just how sheltered I had become from before I had moved to Forks and before I had met Edward. I barely hung out with my friends anymore and the more I thought about it through the day the more angry I got. I sent Edward several texts, but with no reply I tried to call at lunch.
"Hello?" Edward answered one ring before the answering machine.
"Hey, Edward." I said, "Where were you this morning?"
"Oh, Sorry Bella, I was out hunting with Alice." He said. "What do you need?"
"I want to talk to you after school." I said, and I noticed my nervousness spike when I saw Jasper, Rosalie and Emmett watching me through the cafeteria window. I knew they could hear every word I was saying. "Are you going to be home around four o'clock?"
"Sure, I'll be waiting for you." He said and I frowned when he didn't offer to pick me up. He never let me drive anywhere myself anymore. He hung up with another word and when I looked up from my phone the three remaining Cullen's were standing in front of me. Emmett was leaning against the wall, holding Rosalie to him, and Jasper stood with his arms crossed. "Do any of you want to explain what's going on?" I asked them and none of them moved. They knew something. All three of them. Suspicions flew through my head and I watched Jaspers eyes close as he felt my emotions.
"What happens now is up to you, Bella." Rosalie said. "The question is: are you going to be weak little Bella, or finally stand up for yourself and stop taking his shit."
With those words she walked away, Emmett close behind her.
"Bella," Jasper said nodding once before leaving as well. They were all going to their classes but I walked home, using the time to think. The more I thought about it the more I couldn't help but come to the same conclusion over and over again. My heart refused to allow my head to think the words.
At three thirty I got in my truck and slowly drove to the Cullen house. Edward was at my door the second I pulled into the drive way, smiling and opening my door. I dodged his hand, offered to help me out to the truck. I preceded him into the house, ignoring every one of the Cullen's sitting in the living room as I walked up the stairs and into Edward's bedroom. I looked around at the perfectly made bed, the perfectly organized books and cd's and notebooks.
"Bella, what's wrong?" Edward asked sitting on the edge of the bed. "Normally you've sexually assaulted me by now."
"And normally you've rejected me by now, so I figured not to play that re-run out today." I said, unable to cut the biting tone out of my words.
"Bella, you know I want to wait until we're married before I bring our relationship to that level. Until after I've changed you." He spoke softly, like he was coddling a small child.
"But you're not going to change me." I said, sitting at his desk chair. "Are you?"
If I hadn't been avidly watching him I would have missed his eyes darting down.
"We agreed that if I married you, you would turn me, after we had sex." I said. "That was our deal."
"I remember what was said, Bella." He said sighing. "But your hormones are keeping you from seeing this properly. It's not safe in any way to try to have a physical relationship while you're so frail."
"Weak." I said and he frowned.
"Pardon?" He asked.
"The proper word is weak." I said remembering Rosalie's words from earlier. "I'm going to ask you a question. I want an honest answer from you. You owe me at least that much."
He frowned but he nodded and moved to kneel in front of me.
"Anything, Love." He said with a small smile.
"Are you sleeping with Alice?"
END CHAPTER ONE!