An-chan: Heyooooooooo~~~~~~ Back from China! Anyway, I guess I'll save the funny stuff for later. I'm sorry I didn't get to update while I'm there but that was because internet was so hard there, you had to go out of the dorm to be able to connect. The laptop as I said is my friend's, and she practically uses it most of the time.
I just got to use it in the last few days there. So I just decided to work on editing the chapters, and this bonus chap!
For new readers, I hope you guys like my story! And for my already-waiting-for-updates readers, I hope you don't mind me editing the content XD
For the next few days, I will be posting the edited chapters with the bold word edited on top!
There will be some minor changes, as I've spotted very annoying loopholes, especially on the events in the time line, so I will be fixing that.
I'll probably remove the other chapters for the moment too. Here you go!
The bonus chapter! The Prologue!
Shout out to Namirin who is drawing some of the scenes in this story, and Storm Skyress and her aunt!
) Meet My Guardian Angel (
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than, less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing you are perfect to me
You are personally invited
-Two years ago
The once quiet home was starting to become a mess, the workers were practically bumping to each other while they scurried about, trying to listen to the organizer's orders. The balloons were being tossed around, the garlands were strewn messily, and the flowers! They weren't even arranged yet and they only had a few more hours!
"Oh no! This is such a disaster...why in the world did I agree to go through with this?" She turned away from the horrible view of the window, but was greeted with the sight of her mother in the hallway, anxiously speaking through the phone. She sighed, the caterers again? Another addition to their dilemma, they should have been here setting up the tables an hour ago!
"Well, you did say it was because you 'couldn't wait!' and 'I love him!' right?" Her little blonde friend sat at the edge of her bed, flipping through a gag magazine without a care in the world while she was going nuts. She groaned in frustration.
"Rima!" She leaped on the bed while trying to crush her friend.
"Stop! Stop will you?" She glared daggers as her friend surrendered. "What? It was true! You didn't have to agree to this ridiculous idea anyway and force the guy..." Rima's voice ended in a whisper when she said the last part, but she heard it nonetheless.
"I didn't force him! He happily agreed even before I did!" Her friend looked at her disbelievingly.
"Urgh! Why is Utau not here when I need her?!"
Rima muttered something incoherent as Amu continued pacing around the room. Her feet became motionless in front of her mirror and she found herself staring at her reflection. She admitted to herself that she looked good, really good but somehow a nagging voice in her mind was saying good but not good enough. What was wrong with her today? Her shiny pink hair was styled to perfection. The pink locks were straightened and hung a little bit past her shoulders. She promised herself she would grow them out for the next few years. Hopefully by then it'd be suitable to his liking.
She fingered the beautiful pale peach dress that she was wearing, the dress cut elegantly and it pleasantly fitted her figure, its material was also soft and smooth to the fingers, her fingers. She hoped that one day in the future, it would be adorned with a beautiful ring.
"Stop staring at yourself in the mirror...it's creeping me out."
Amu blinked and spun around facing Rima. "I-I'm not...I guess I'm just nervous. I mean, now that you say it...It is weird. What if he doesn't come? What if he suddenly thinks I'm ugly? I mean I just turned eighteen today and-"
Her friend cut her off, "Haizz, Stop blabbering, will you? I wasn't serious, everything will turn out just fine. You look great." Rima rolled her eyes.
"Actually, I don't think this is such a good idea."
"Utau!" Amu exclaimed at the same time Rima said, "Not helping….."
Utau shrugged as she leaned against the door frame and dropped her clutch to the floor. She was wearing a simple yellow dress and her hair was tied to a messy bun. It was a fresh laid-back look that Amu hadn't seen her wear for a long time now.
"I'm just saying what I thought. I don't like this idea at all…" Rima glared at Utau and huffed.
"You're making her feel even more insecure than I originally did!"
"Well what do you want me to say? Rima? That this is fine and lie to her?" The two friends started to engage in a glaring contest.
"It's not like she doesn't know that! Besides, it's her choice anyway! What else can we do other than to make the best out of it?! "
"It's not too late to-"
"Will you two please stop it?" Amu muttered tiredly, "Rima's right, I know that this isn't the best plan but I really do love him."
The two blondes stopped arguing and set their eyes downcast. Rima frowned at the ground while Utau had this unreadable expression on her face that Amu couldn't understand.
"I mean we're all close to each other anyway, I know you'll both be happy for us… Right?" Amu smiled despite her friends' glum demeanor.
Somehow it sounded like she was trying to convince herself instead of her friends.
What was so wrong about being in love?
Eighteenth Birthday Party!
-1 hour later-
She fidgeted around her seat, restlessly standing up, lying on her bed, tossing and turning. She could hear the noise outside her door, the caterer apologizing to her mom for being behind schedule, the host testing the microphone, Rima yelling at someone to 'to get their ass here faster'.
She shot up from her lying position and ran over to the mirror to double check her look one more time.
Hair, check. Make up by Utau, check. Dress, check. Accessories, check. Heels, check.
"Something's missing." It wasn't a question, but a statement.
Something really was missing. She didn't feel complete with her image for some reason.
What is it?
Suddenly the door to the room slammed open and she yelped in surprise.
"What are you doing?"
"For goodness sake, Rima! Will you please knock?! At the very least, warn me! I almost got a heart attack!" Amu cried as her hand flew to her unstable heart.
Rima shrugged unaffectedly. "There you are again, spacing out in front of the mirror."
As Rima crossed her arms, Amu noticed that she changed into her blue mini dress and she now had a black headband in her hair.
"You look nice Rima." She smiled, if only Rima had somebody.
"It doesn't matter, I don't have anyone to impress. Anyway, your prince is just running a little late, he'll be here in about 30 minutes."
"Okay." She can't believe she had this dumb thought that he would ditch her. "Where's Utau?"As Amu wondered where her blonde friend was, she appeared.
"I'm right here. The host is just checking the flow. She said I'll be singing while the other guests eat." Utau moved to sit on her bed.
"Oh." Well, the preparations were going well. She didn't have to worry about anything. It was really just her nerves getting to her. Amu felt her mood improve and she started humming a tune as she rummaged her drawers.
"Rima?" Utau suddenly called.
"What?" Rima turned from frowning at her phone.
"I think the host wants to talk about your speech. Now." Utau silently sent a plea through her eyes.
"Really?" Rima's tone was sarcastic and she glared suspiciously at Utau, but she went outside nonetheless.
For a moment only the sound of Amu's soft melody filled the air. The happy tune almost made Utau feel bad because she was sure her next words were going to disrupt her friend's disposition.
"Hmm?" Amu stopped her search and smiled.
"I want to tell you something." Utau stood up and held Amu's hands."Do you really want to do this?"
"Of course." Amu frowned. "What kind of question is that? Like I said awhile ago, I love him. He loves me too."
"You like him. You can't be sure that you love him, Amu. You can't be sure that he loves you either. "
"What are you trying to imply?" Amu started to feel nervous again. She knew the difference of like and love, but she couldn't imagine herself with someone different in the future. She knew him since forever, she was pretty sure he felt the same thing. How could Utau not see that?
"I thought you were fine with our relationship? You know him. You know that he feels the same for me. I mean we're probably going to get married so there shouldn't be a problem."
"I am fine with it. But it's not set in stone, Amu. Don't you think you're on the lesser side of your relationship? I know you always go moony-eyed over him but do you think he looks at you the same way? Tadase is like a little brother to me, but I think there's someone out there who can love you more than that. Not like, but love. I only want the best for you Amu. Don't you think you're getting a bit too ahead of yourself?"
Amu opened her mouth to speak but if seemed like her voice vanished down her throat. She wanted to say that no, he does look at her the same way, that he does love her, and he is the only one, but how come she couldn't utter a single word? Was everything that her friend said, the truth?
How could she ignore the overwhelming feeling of happiness whenever she was with him? The days they spent together? The sweet dates he took her on and bought her cotton candy? The moments when he would hold her hand and kiss her on the cheek? He was so kind and gentle with her, how could he fake that? There might be something missing now in their relationship but it's nothing she can't fix right?
Utau waited for her answer, whatever her decision would be, she would respect it, and in the end she was just being the friend that would always support her. Somehow she was trying to say something that couldn't be said in words.
"Utau," She finally managed to choke out, "I understand what you mean, but I've set my mind on this, I'm not about to back out now. I want this, my parents want this. It will definitely make me feel more secure about our relationship. Whatever's missing between us, I can fix. Just be happy for me as a friend, can you do that?"
For some reason Utau wanted to cry, but somehow, she managed to hold it in and nod.
Though Amu was content with her best friend's answer, she couldn't help but be bothered with her words. Was this whole thing worth it? Was Tadase not good enough for her?
Or was she not good enough for him?
Outside, Rima just silently turned away from the door as the two hugged.
) Meet My Guardian Angel (
I was as quiet as the wind that blew
-30 minutes later-
The blonde man hastily stumbled inside the house, bumping into some of the guests, and politely greeting them despite being shaken up.
"What a nice young man…. "
He spotted an impatient Rima by the corner and quickly headed toward her.
"Mashiro-san! I'm sorry I'm late!" He huffed.
Rima glared daggers at him, "Tch. How could you arrive just now? Never mind. At least you're here."
"I'm really sorry, Mashiro-san." He said apologetically while scratching his head.
"Tell that to Amu… Look, I don't know what's in it for you to agree to this silly plan, but you better not back out during the last minute."
"Of course, why would I agree to this in the first place if I wasn't serious about Amu?" He had an easy going expression that didn't show anything out of the ordinary.
"Good to know." Rima turned and walked away.
"Hoshina-san!" The organizer wearing a purple dress called Utau as she started to make her way inside the house.
"Will you please call Miss Hinamori downstairs and tell her to wait in the living room? The program will be starting in a few minutes."
Utau went inside the house, where a lot of people, mostly Amu's relatives, were greeting and mingling with each other. She even saw Hinamori-san announcing to the guests to go outside. Utau scowled when she scanned the area but still didn't see the prince in question.
"Where is he?" She wondered as she moved toward the stairs and saw Rima with a frown on her face.
"Really? I don't see him…." She looked around again.
"He was just there awhile ago…." Rima turned and pointed to where she left the guy, but he was gone. Her brows connected together, "He probably went to the bathroom or something….."
"I'm going upstairs. Have you seen Kukai or Yaya?" She asked.
"No. The last time I called, they just got out of traffic." Rima crossed her arms.
"Okay, they should almost be here. Anyway, keep an eye on Tadase when you see him." She was about to go on her way when Rima spoke.
"You aren't okay with this at all, are you?" Rima's face was blank as Utau stopped on her tracks.
"I….I'm okay. I'm just worried for Amu." She quickened her pace up the stairs and toward Amu's room.
She took a deep breath as she opened the door, "Amu?"
"Where is it?!" She saw a frustrated Amu now going through her drawers.
"What are you looking for?"
"Where did I leave it?! I thought it was just here but it's not! Don't tell me I lost it?! But I remember I still had it when I woke up! I-"
"Woah, Amu. Calm down." Utau pulled Amu up from the floor. "You're going to get sweaty if you panic. What are you looking for?"
Amu felt like hitting herself for not remembering where she put it and to think she already started looking for it 30 minutes ago… Utau clearly knew that she was upset, and that panicking wasn't going to help her.
"You know that necklace? The one that I always wear? The one that has a four-leaf clover design in it?"
"It's what's missing. I don't feel safe without it….my mom's going to be so upset if I lost it!"
"Do you kno-Utau?" Her eyes widened when she saw Utau's sad expression, "What's wrong?" She forgot all her worries about the necklace when she saw her friend's face.
"Nothing. Nothing." Utau blinked a few times and smiled like nothing happened. "I'm just happy for you. That's all…."
"Really? Will you help me find it then?"
"Where did you go?" Rima stood with a poker face as she stopped Tadase from wherever he was heading to, "You're supposed to be outside already."
Tadase just smiled as he turned toward her. "I just fixed myself up in the bathroom, that's all. Sorry, Mashiro-san."
"Shouldn't you be giving that back to Amu?"
"W-what are you talking about?" Tadase had an innocent look on his face as Rima asked the question.
"You know, the thing you're holding in your right hand? The necklace that belongs to Amu?" She pointed out.
"Ahh….this, you mean…." He sheepishly grinned as he showed her the necklace. "I was just going to return it later because I found it on the bathroom floor. I wanted to surprise her…"
"Well, you should hand it back now. She'll be worried about it. It's important to her. Come on."
They both started to walk to the door when Utau and a frantic looking Amu came down the stairs.
"Amu, slow down!" Utau said while trying to catch up with Amu.
"Rima! Did you see my neck-" Amu hadn't finished her sentence when Tadase went behind her and positioned the accessory on her neck.
"Tadase-kun…." Amu muttered as her face visibly glowed and began to blush, "You found it…."
"Happy Eighteenth Birthday, Amu-chan."
"T-thank you…w-when did you get here?" She looked down and fidgeted with her fingers.
"Just a few minutes ago," He chuckled, "Sorry I made you wait."
"No!" She raised her head up and smiled, "its okay, what's important is that you're here, Tadase-kun…."
"You're too cute, Amu-chan. You look very lovely today." He twirled a lock of her hair around his finger.
"And you look very handsome…." Amu's eyes shone with so much adoration, but then when she looked into his eyes…
'do you think he looks at you the same way?'
"Come on, Amu-chan. Mashiro-san and Utau-san went out already." He slipped her hand in his and gave her a soft peck in the mouth before smiling as he led her to the living room.
Somehow, Amu was in a daze, all she could think about was Utau's words. It plagued her mind as she watched Tadase talk and smile.
"and then I-"
She suddenly stopped walking and Tadase looked at her questioningly.
She swallowed with difficulty. "Are you sure about this? Tadase-kun? My parents won't force you if you don't want to. Besides, this isn't official so you probably think this is embarrassing. You can say so now, while it's still early."
Tadase looked taken aback with what she just said. This probably wasn't worth it for him. It wasn't fair to him too.
He wouldn't be able to talk or mingle with other girls because of this. She didn't want to take his freedom away from him either.
He stepped forward and wrapped her in his arms.
"What are you saying, Amu-chan? I'm perfectly fine with this, okay? Don't be upset about it." He kissed her forehead.
"Now, let us all clap our hands for our birthday girl!" The host's voice said and a round of applause was vaguely heard inside the house when the organizer in purple suddenly came in and disrupted their moment.
"Hinamori-san! It's time to make your entrance." The organizer grabbed Amu's arm and pushed her outside.
Amu found herself facing a crowd of guests seated in elegantly decorated tables as the organizer led her to the stage.
Bubbles came out from bubble machines, giving her yard a dreamy atmosphere, and soft yellow lights lit up the fence.
She spotted her parents and her sister sitting in a nearby table, she almost laughed seeing her father cry because he thought she was 'leaving the nest'.
Amu also noticed all her friends sitting in one table, with Yaya waving enthusiastically while she ate a mouthful of cake. Rima had a little smile on her face, whereas Utau and Kukai were in a serious conversation.
What are they talking about?
She wasn't even aware that she was already in the middle of the platform until the host grinned and abruptly handed her the microphone.
"Ah…"She said speechlessly as heat crept up her neck and everyone stared at her expectantly.
She gulped and smiled and sent the host a plea for help.
The host mouthed 'message!' and Amu nodded in understanding.
"First of all, thank you for taking your time in attending my 18th Birthday celebration, one of the most important day s in my life. I would like to acknowledge my supportive and loving parents, relatives and last but not the least my friends, without you all, I wouldn't be able to become the girl I've grown to be. I hope you'll all continue to be there for me in this crucial stage and love me for who I am. Enjoy the party!" Amu huffed and tried to hide her embarrassing red face.
"Now let us call her friend, Mashiro Rima-san to the…"
As the program continued, Amu went around the tables and greeted all the guests, conversing with each and everyone happily; she definitely thought this was the best day ever.
She was so grateful to these people around her, what more could she ask for?
She was in her own happy world when she went to the buffet table to grab a glass of water and bumped into a guy wearing a white long sleeved button-up shirt.
"My greatest apologies, Hinamori-san." She didn't get to see his face because the guy quickly stood up and maneuvered his way around her before disappearing from her sight.
She didn't recognize him.
After Utau's song number, the host called her again to the stage, and she took a deep breath because this was it.
"Okay, as you all know, our Miss Hinamori here is celebrating her transition from being a little girl to a lady….and one of the bonuses to this event is not included in the program plan in your tables." Amu bit her lip in nervousness as a chorus of whispers broke out.
"We would like to have," The host looked at her paper, "Hotori Tada-" The host squinted at the paper nd stumbled, "-de-kun? Come up the stage to join us!"
Amu immediately grabbed the mic to correct the host, "Hotori Tadase-kun, please come up here."
A moment of silence passed.
Where is he?
"I'm right here, Amu-chan." Tadase suddenly appeared from behind her holding a bouquet of red flowers.
"I am honored to announce that Miss Hinamori, is not only turning eighteen today, but also getting engaged!" The host gave the microphone to Tadase as he handed her the flowers.
"Amu-chan," He started and a band of 'Awws' spread through the guests, "I just want you to know how special you are to me. So today, I hope that though this may look too experimental, and I didn't buy you an engagement ring, you'll still be happy with this." He opened a small black box with a beautiful silver necklace inside that had an intricate ruby pendant.
Amu found herself covering her mouth with the back of her hand and blinked back the tears threatening to come forth.
"I know it's probably not what you expected Amu-chan, and I came pretty late today, I'm sorry for that. I wish you'll still accept it and always be contented with our relationship. Do you trust me?"
"Ah!" She winced as she sat down on the bench and removed her heels. She touched the blister on her ankle while trying to subdue the pain.
"It hurts doesn't it? Amu-chan?" Tadase knelt down in front of her and started massaging her painful foot.
"No, Tadase-kun, it's fine, let's continue our walk and not waste more time." She pushed his hands away and started putting back the shoe when Tadase stopped her.
"Don't lie to me." He turned around and showed her his back. "Come on, I'll give you a ride."
Amu stared at him dumbfounded.
"What? You don't trust me? I can carry you." He smiled.
Amu smiled and nodded. "Yeah, I trust you."
The audience broke into loud cheers and applause as he pecked her again on the mouth.
Amu laughed blissfully as Tadase hoisted her up and swung her around, then replacing her necklace with the one he bought.
He whispered, "I love you Amu-chan." He handed her the box now containing her other necklace.
"I love you too, Tadase-kun."
This was worth it.
And it couldn't be more perfect.
Or so she thought.
Hiding behind the tree
that used to be his favourite spot
she would forgive him.
A/n: So what do you guys think? Did it kind of clear some things? Or confuse you more? Anyway, as I've said, Time loopholes will be fixed based on this!
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