A/N – AU. What if Anakin had lost his nerve after the battle of Geonosis? This is my thoughts on the matter. I do not own Star Wars, OR the song. A tad bit of swearing, but hey- it's in the lyrics, I didn't write them! 'I'm Not Okay' belongs to My Chemical Romance, and 'Star Wars' belongs to George Lucas. PLEASE R & R! I've been struggling a hell of a lot recently, and so knowing how to improve would be nice. Any comments are nice, but nice ones especially. Please.

Anakin turned to face Obi-Wan, his eyes filled with frustration.


Obi-Wan stared at his apprentice.

"I beg your pardon?" he asked, uncertain if he had heard correctly.

"I'm not going to. It still hurts too much."

Anakin turned away from his master, nursing the wound on his upper arm, still extremely painful from how Count Dooku had removed the lower half of his arm less than a fortnight ago.

Obi-Wan looked at Anakin in confusion. Anakin was good at sparring, everyone knew it! Surely, he thought, Anakin would have enjoyed something like this, a break so soon after all that had happened at Geonosis.

Anakin turned back to face his master, pure venom in his eyes.

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say

Obi-Wan looked at Anakin in plain confusion. What was he doing, bursting into song? But Anakin wasn't finished.

I never want to let you down or have you go-

It's better off this way!

"For what?" Obi-Wan asked exasperatedly.

For all the dirty looks

He turned to one of the young, female apprentices.

The photographs your boyfriend took

The girl looked at him in sheer embarrassment – she had not known that anyone had known about her relationship, or indeed any of the photographs that he had taken six months ago.

Anakin turned back to Obi-Wan.

Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

Anakin was referring to an incident on a mission three years ago when Obi-Wan had indeed jumped out of a second floor window to escape, and broken his foot in the process.

I'm Not Okay!

I'm Not Okay!

I'm Not Okay!

He then turned directly to the other side of the room to face Mace Windu, whom had sensed something wrong.

You wear me out

Obi-Wan looked at Anakin in pure shock. This was unheard of, treating a member of the high Jedi Council like this!

"Anakin, come to your-"

Anakin broke him off.

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?

He turned back to Mace Windu.

I've told you time and time again,

You sing the words but don't know what it means

"To be what?" Obi-Wan asked in confusion.

Anakin turned back to face him.

To be a joke and look

Another line without a hook

I held you close as we both shook

For the last time – TAKE A GOOD HARD LOOK!

Anakin was shaking in frustration – how could they not understand him?

I'm Not Okay!

I'm Not Okay!

I'm Not Okay!

You wear me out!

He burst out of the room, unable to take the ignorance and frustration any longer. He then came to face Aayla Secura, who simply gave him a puzzled look. He then blew his top. Time to get personal, he thought. Time to mention her lover-boy Kit Fisto.

Forget about the dirty looks

The photographs your boyfriend took

You said you read me like a book

But the pages are all torn and frayed!

Ki-Adi Mundi and Plo Koon then turned into the corridor he was in, and both of them stared at him.

"Is something the matter, Master Skywalker?" The Cerean Master asked him calmly.

The calmness in his voice then really set him on edge. He gritted his teeth.

I'm okay.

"Really?" Mace Windu burst out in a cynical way.

That then only increased Anakin's anger.


I'm okay now!

"Well it doesn't sound like that." Plo Koon commented, folding his arms.

But you really need to listen to me

Because I'm telling you the truth

I mean this –


"I'm not sure that I believe you." Ki-Adi Mundi said simply.

Anakin looked at him in a voice that sarcastically said "Never…"

Trust me

I'm Not Okay

I'm Not Okay!

Well I'm Not Okay,


I'm Not Okay!

I'm Not Okay...!

Anakin then stared at his mentors in frustration. He needed a break from them. It was the first time that he had sworn since he had been on Tatooine, and he needed a break from them. Those emotionless idiots. He then turned and left in the direction of the main hangar, leaving the Jedi to stare at him in astonishment. A trip to see Padmé was in order.

Ki-Adi Mundi then turned to face the others.

"What got into him?"