Misty: This reference to Legion Mate.

Chapter 5: What Hurts The Most by Rascall Flatts

"Aichi…." The name forced through his parched lips pressuring its syllables. It echoed into his ears countering the raindrops tapping against the glass windows. The dark clouded sky and the downpour had matched Kai's current mood, but he didn't really care about the current weather.

All he cared, all that was on his mind is the news of Aichi suddenly leaving him. No warning was given as if it was completely out of the boy's will, but in that encounter, it sounded like it was. Aichi had not contacted him through text since then, neither heard anything of it from the other friends especially Miwa. But, would Aichi really tell them he left Kai for his own personal reasons? Barely any conversation was made between him and Aichi before Aichi's leave out of Kai's life. Kai laid on his bed as he stared blankly at the ceiling, only questioning himself. Why?

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry

Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me

There are days

Every now and again I pretend I'm OK but that's not what gets me

Kai's mind faded to that very moment earlier today as eyelids lightly closed, the moment he last saw and heard Aichi. Aichi invited Kai to talk privately at the local park after meeting as usual at Card Capital. However, the engagement was an exchange of silence, body gestures and facial expressions. Aichi facial features changed from the one Kai knew that defined Aichi: kind, yet sheepish at times; to that of a one-second apologetic look followed by seriousness in his tone.

"I'm letting you go."

Kai's eyes widened, breath hitched. "Wh-what?"

Aichi only closed his eyes turning on his heel not wanting to continue the conversation. "Sorry…..and farewell." Sadness was evident in his tone.

That was the end.

Kai could only watch while frozen and rooted to where he stood. Lips trembled and eyes widened in pure shock before narrowing in anguish. His name repeated in his mind along with those words of farewell like a broken record.

"Aichi….."

What could he have done to deserve this? For Aichi to walk out of his life before his very eyes? The pain stabbed through his very being, forcing his knees to buckle and legs tremble beneath him. The pain of seeing that other half of you parting further and further away from you leaving you empty.

What hurts the most, was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

Never knowing, what could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

The world had transformed from color to gray. People passing by were just mere images and just a blur as he strolled on the streets alone. He distanced himself again from the group of friends, acting cold towards them and evidently lying that he was "fine".

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I'm doing it

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, living with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken

Fingers tightly gripped at his bed sheets at his sides. Teeth gritted then lips thinned and eyebrows knitted concealing the aching pain in his chest just thinking of that moment. The pain of regret of all the things he possibly had done to chase Aichi away.

"Aichi…. Aichi… I… I love you… if only…there was a way to have you come back to me…" Of all those times they've spent together, saying those unspoken words now seemed meaningless. Guilt weighed on his chest at his failure of not letting them heard by the one he saw as his "Eternal Mate." If there was a way to turn back time…. But that thought was unrealistic.

I'm not afraid to cry

Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me

There are days

Every now and again I pretend I'm OK but that's not what gets me

"Ai….chi….."

Swelled tears stained at the corner of his eyes before dripping onto the sheets.

What hurts the most, was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

Never knowing, what could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do