Author's Notes: Written for MioneWazlib's 30 Words or Less Challenge on the HPFC. Extension of "Hardly Romance". Unrequited Bellatrix/Rodolphus, 10 30-word drabbles per chapter. Enjoy.


Rodolphus Lestrange

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Reality Check

Once in a long while, she will show some semblance of affection. It gets me to thinking that maybe she does love me after all. Then I return to reality.

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Absolutely alone

As long as I have her, I can have no one. I cannot bring myself to love another, and she cannot bring herself to love me. I am absolutely alone.

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Prince Charming

I've tried to be everything a woman could want. I'm kind to her, and never become angry, no matter what crimes she commits against me. Why wouldn't she love me?

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Virgin

I didn't want a virgin, I wanted an experienced woman. I didn't know that with experience would come independence and willpower. I wanted a virgin not in body, but mind.

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Good question

She asked me once why I loved her, and I didn't know how to answer. I think part of it might be that I know I can never have her.

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Can you hear me?

When I let myself cry, late at night, can you hear me? When my heart screams out for mercy, for freedom from from loving you, can you hear it then?

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I'm telling

I'm telling you how I need you, but you won't listen. Don't you believe me, Bella? What will I have to do to convince you? You know I'd do anything.

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Out of control

Sometimes I think I can't control myself anymore. I want to shake you, slap you, even kill you to show how I love you. But I know I'd never win.

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I love you

I do. I will always love you, but you won't do the same for me. You love only him. And no matter how I love you, you'll never love me.

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Willingness

I'd lay down my life for you. I'd fight to the death for you. I am willing to do anything for you. Why don't you let me prove that, Bella?