a/n Huge thanks to my lovely prereaders Fr333bird and TwiWeasel, their invaluable input made this so much better, and to sue273 for her awesome beta'ing at such short notice. Thanks girls!
This was written for the Fandom4Heroes compilation.
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Pervy Propositions and Dirty Dreams – Part 2
a/n This story is a continuation of my Dirty Talking Jasper contest entry, the first part can be found on my ffn profile. Thanks to Fr333bird and Sue273 for all their help with this.
Previously . . .
I looked down at his card, still clutched in my hand. His name stood out in big bold type, mocking me, daring me to just pick up the phone. I knew then I wouldn't be throwing his card away after all. It was my only connection to him, and the thought of losing it made me feel a little sick. I grabbed my phone and entered his number - just in case I lost the card, obviously - and then set it back down on my table.
I wouldn't be calling today; to be honest, I didn't fucking know if I would ever call him. But I knew I wanted to have a way to contact him, just in case I ever changed my mind.
I threw my clothes in the bathroom hamper and walked back into my bedroom, stubbing my toe on the table as I passed and knocking a couple of things off onto the floor.
"Fuck!" I yelled, hopping round on one foot, clutching my throbbing toe. I took a few deep breaths, because that had fucking hurt, and gingerly put my foot down, wincing as my toe rested on the carpet. "Stupid fucking table," I hissed eyeing it warily.
I reached down to pick up the few things that had fallen onto the carpet, pausing as I noticed one of them was Jasper's business card. I grabbed it and moved to sit down on the edge of my bed, staring at it as it sat in the palm of my hand.
It had been two weeks since my cousin's wedding. Two weeks since I'd gone to a gay club and two weeks since I'd dreamt about Jasper. Well, that last one wasn't strictly true; it had been two weeks since I'd firstdreamt about Jasper. I'd been dreaming about him nearly every night since and thanks to the gay porn that I'd recently been watching, purely for educational purposes, they'd been getting a lot more detailed.
I placed the card back onto the table and crawled into bed, idly wondering if Jasper would be invading my dreams again tonight. They varied in location – sometimes we were in his club, sometimes my bed and the odd time we were at the bar at my cousin's wedding, which was slightly disturbing - but they all ended up the same; Jasper doing dirty, dirty things to me.
A traitorous shiver ran down my spine as I recalled some of those dirty things. It was always Jasper who was in control, never me, but I didn't dwell too much on what thatmight mean. I also didn't dwell on the fact that I'd started to look forward to my nightly visits from Jasper, since I'd sworn off women, it was the only action I was getting.
Turning off the light, I settled down into my pillow and waited for sleep to take me, and secretly hoping that Jasper would too.
Strong hands pinned my wrists above my head, and wet, warm lips trailed kisses down my neck. He ground his hips against me, the slick head of his cock rubbing along mine.
"Oh, fuck . . ." I moaned, lifting my hips up to meet his and he backed off.
I heard his soft laughter and hot breath wash over my collarbone as he sucked on the skin there. I grinned, knowing it was going to leave a fucking mark. I loved it when he did that.
"Jasper . . . please . . ." I begged, wanting his body back on mine.
"What do you want?" he whispered, releasing my hands and moving further down my body. His hot mouth found my abs, licking and biting until I was writhing and moaning underneath him. "Tell me . . ."
"I want you to fuck me . . . now, please . . ."
I felt him smile against my skin, heading further down my body and finally taking me in his mouth. He sucked my cock deep into his throat, swirling his talented tongue all around it. I almost begged him not to stop when he suddenly sat up and reached for my bedside table. Only the anticipation of having him inside me again kept me in position, hands still above my head, as I watched him roll on the condom and slick his fingers.
He smirked at me, eyes dark and full of promise as he pushed two fingers inside my ass. I cried out at the sharp sting, but he didn't stop. He fucked me with his fingers, twisting and curling them, before adding a third and stretching me until I was ready for him.
"Ready?" he breathed, gently removing his hands and positioning his cock at my entrance.
His answering smile lit up his whole face and not for the first time I thought how fucking beautiful he was. I finally moved my hands, bringing them down to grip his thighs, urging him to just fuck me.
"Edward? Edward, wake up!" Tiny hands pulled at my shoulders and a voice that definitely didn't belong to Jasper yelled in my ear, shocking me awake and tearing me oh so reluctantly from my dream.
My eyes snapped open and once I'd managed to focus properly, I glared menacingly at the intruder in my bedroom.
"What the fuck, Alice?" I yelled, throwing my hands up in the air, hopefully conveying my annoyance.
Alice was my cousin on my father's side. Don't get me wrong, I loved her pixie ass, but she had the worst fucking timing ever.
"Oh, don't give me that look, Edward," she replied, perching on the end of the bed and smirking at me. "You asked me to come round this morning, and you even gave me a key in case you were in the shower. Remember?"
"Did I?" I racked my brains trying to think back to when I'd made such a stupid decision. I vaguely remembered Alice wanting to take me shopping, and sort of agreeing in my drunken haze. I must learn to pay more attention and drink less alcohol. It was always getting me in trouble.
My thoughts immediately went back to Jasper, and I glanced down surreptitiously, checking there was no evidence of my dream lingering around for Alice to see. Unfortunately, there was, and I groaned as she snorted at my attempts at stealth.
"I see you weren't in the shower, but maybe you should go take one now. To um . . ." she pointed in the general area of my crotch, "you know . . . take care of that." I closed my eyes in defeat. Could this be any more embarrassing?
"I wouldn't have to take care of it if you had turned up ten minutes later," I snapped, resignedly getting out of bed and heading to my bathroom.
"My eyes!" she yelled in mock horror, slapping her hands quickly over her face and snickering.
I looked down and groaned again. My t-shirt wasn't quite long enough and my sleep pants were tented and leaving nothing to the imagination. Apparently, my embarrassment knew no bounds.
I grabbed a towel, grumbling about my lack of fucking privacy in my own fucking house and disappeared into the bathroom, slamming the door behind me. I could still hear Alice's laughter as I started the shower. When I stepped under the hot spray, I looked mournfully down at my waning erection and sighed, 'Not today, buddy.'
"So . . ." Alice began as I she dragged me round yet another department store. "Still dreaming about Jasper, huh?"
Yet another thing I could blame on alcohol. It seemed after a few drinks I had no filter and while out with Alice and her friends last Friday, not only had I invited her round and given her a key, I had also told her all about my evening with Jasper and my subsequent dreams.
"Um . . . no?" I squeaked, cursing at both my inability to speak properly and for making my answer seem like a fucking question. Not that Alice would have believed me even if I'd managed to sound convincing.
"No?" She stopped, turned to face me and raised an accusing eyebrow. "So, when you were shouting out, 'Jasper . . . please.'" Icringed at her loud imitation of me, furtively looking around to make sure no one was listening. "And sporting an erection the size of the Space Needle that was for someone else, was it?"
"Just how long were you in my bedroom?" I asked, narrowing my eyes at her.
"Long enough," she replied, smirking and skipping off to look at yet more shoes. "So," she said, looking at me over her shoulder. "I'll ask you again, still having pervy dreams about Jasper?"
"Yes," I sighed in defeat. "I'm still having them and yes they're still just as pervy as ever."
"You know what this means, don't you?"
Alice had some wild theory that I was secretly gay and had been suppressing my feelings all these years, and that Jasper had awoken something inside me, which was being played out in my dreams. Her words, not mine. "Yes," I answered, dutifully, rolling my eyes when she turned her back.
"And don't you roll your eyes at me, Edward Cullen." How did she do that?"You know I'm right."
I followed her around shop after shop for the next hour, before demanding a lunch break or, at the very least, coffee. She grudgingly agreed and we headed to the nearest Starbucks for coffee and cake. Surprisingly, it wasn't too busy considering it was a Saturday, and we had no trouble snagging a table. I carried our drinks and cake over to where Alice was unloading her bags and gratefully collapsed into one of the chairs.
"Look, Edward," she started, sitting down opposite me. "I know you dabbled with boys a little in High School, maybe it's time to try it again?" I should really try to keep at least somethings a secret from Alice. I was sure it wasn't in my best interests for her to know every little thing.
"Mmm . . ." I grunted, not willing to discuss it any further. We sat in silence for at least two seconds before she started again.
"Jasper owns a club, doesn't he?" she asked, stirring her coffee and refusing to look me in the eye. Oh no. My spidey-senses tingled and I just knew I wasn't going to like the next words to come out of her mouth. "We should go."
Of course, we should.
"But Edw- "
"No, Alice." I cut her off mid sentence. "For one, it's a gay club and two, I haven't spoken to Jasper since thatnight. I can't just turn up at his club. I mean, what would I say? Oh, hello Jasper, fancy meeting you here?" I knew I was babbling, but I couldn't seem to stop.
"Well, for starters," she said, enunciating each word like she was talking to a child. "You could actually call him and, oh I don't know, maybe tell him that we're coming?"
I opened my mouth, a snappy retort on the tip of my tongue, but she held up her hand and gave me the look. I knew better than to interrupt when she brought out the big guns.
"Look, Edward. I think you need to see him again. The fact that you keep dreaming about him and sex must mean something."
"That I need to get laid, perhaps?"
"Exactly!" she yelled triumphantly.
I hadn't meant by Jasper and she fucking well knew it, but I ignored her and let that one slide.
"Maybe you just need to see him again, you know, to see if there's anything there, between the two of you?" She wasn't her usual eloquent self and I raised my eyebrow at her. "Yes, I know I'm not making myself very clear, but you know what I mean."
I knew exactly what she meant and a small part of me, and one not-so-small part, agreed with her.
"I suppose. But won't we stand out? With you being a girl and me being, well . . . not gay."
"Oh, for fuck's sake, Edward." Now it was her turn to roll her eyes. "If it makes you more comfortable, I'll invite Alec and Peter."
Oh, just great!
Alec and Peter were two of Alice's friends from work, both openly gay and both single at the minute. Ever since they'd found out that I'd been to Jasper's club, they'd been pestering me to go with them and introduce them to him. While I got on well with them both, and Alice adored them, Alec had a bit of a thing for me, and didn't particularly hide it. Going to a gay club with him, felt like I was only encouraging him. It had absolutely nothingto do with the fact that I didn't want to introduce Jasper to Alice's hot, gay, and very available friends. Nope, nothing at all.
"Well?" she asked, batting her eyelashes and pouting. Like thatwould work on me, I'd seen it far too many times when we were growing up.
"Ok, fine," I caved, cursing her and her stupid big brown eyes. "We can go on Friday night."
She grinned at me and immediately reached into her purse, grabbing her phone to tell Alec and Peter the good news. I had until Friday to call Jasper and tell him that I was going to his club.
It was Thursday already and I still hadn't called him. I'd put it off, and put it off, and now I was almost out of time. All I had to do was pick up the phone and talk to him - what was so difficult about that?
Oh for fuck's sake! I snatched up my phone and searched for his number, pressing the call button before I could change my mind. I waited for him to pick up, my fingers tapping impatiently on my knee. It rang and rang and I was just about to hang up when his voicemail caught me by surprise.
"Um . . . hey, Jasper, this is Edward . . . um . . . Edward Cullen. We met at a wedding about three weeks ago and you gave me your card, in case I wanted to . . . um . . . call you . . . or whatever." I wanted to slap myself already. "I just thought I'd give you a heads up that my friends and I will be at your club on Friday. So . . . um . . . I might see you then . . . if you're there, of course. Anyway . . . bye."
I ended the call and was sorely tempted to throw my phone at the wall. Could I have been any more lame? It wouldn't surprise me if Jasper avoided us at all costs on Friday night. Fuck.
"Oh my God, Edward," Alice laughed, as I told her, for the third time, about the message I'd left for Jasper. Needless to say, he hadn't called me back. "Was it really that bad?"
"Yes, it really was," I said, pulling a dark green shirt out of my closet and slipping it on. It was eight thirty on Friday night. Alice and I were meeting the guys at Jasper's club at nine thirty. She'd come to pick me up, supervise my wardrobe and laugh again at the fucking awful voice mail I'd left Jasper. "I hope Alec and Peter aren't expecting to meet Jasper tonight, because I don't think he'll come anywhere near us after that."
"Don't be silly. You'll look so hot when I've finished with you, he won't be able to resist," she said, fussing with my hair.
"Um . . . Alice?"
"Hmm . . . ?"
"I don't want to pick him up. You know that right?" I asked, trying to look her in the eye, but she kept avoiding me. "I mean we're only going there tonight because your friends want to go, and I need to stop dreaming about him. Right, Alice?"
"Mmhmm . . . Whatever you say."
"Glad we got that cleared up then," I muttered under my breath, not missing her little giggle as she disappeared behind me.
Fifteen minutes later we were on our way, Alice drove like a woman possessed, and I hung onto the seat counting the minutes until we got there, desperately trying not to look scared.
"You can let go now," she snickered, pulling into a parking spot and opening her door before I even had my seat belt off.
I followed her into the club groaning as Alec and Peter stood and waved at us from their seats at the bar, Alec shouting my name and grinning broadly.
"Alec's as subtle as ever," Alice whispered, laughing at the look on my face until I elbowed her in the ribs.
We made our way over to join them and got a couple of drinks. After the initial pleasantries and obligatory cheek kisses, during which Alec managed to brush my ass with his fingers, we
decided to move over to the booths, where I'd sat with Jasper almost three weeks before. Thankfully, it was still too early for any of the public displays that I experienced last time. I took Alice's hand and hastily pulled her down next to me. I'd rather not be within touching distance of Alec if I could help it. I didn't trust his grabby hands. The three of them chatted excitedly, with Peter and Alec telling Alice everything they knew about Jasper.
I listened to them go on about how fucking hot he was and how they couldn't wait for me to introduce them. I could feel my skin prickle with irritation and the more they talked about him, the worse it got. When Alec declared that he'd like nothing more than to take Jasper home and ride him good and hard,I almost choked on my drink and was tempted to throw the rest of it over Alec and tell him to shut-the-fuck-up.
Thankfully, Alice stepped in, sensing my bad mood. She quickly sent Alec and Peter off to the bar to fetch more drinks.
Fuck! I thought, ignoring Alice when she put her hand on my arm and smiled at me knowingly. Was I fucking jealous? Oh, God.
Maybe coming here tonight had been a bad idea. My feelings for Jasper were confusing. Well, okay, they weren't that confusing. I mean . . . I was obviously attracted to Jasper on some level and I couldn't deny it no matter how much I wanted to. I clearly thought dream Jasper was hot and now apparently, I had jealousy issues with real Jasper. But I just wasn't ready to deal with any of this.
"Maybe this isn't such a good idea, Alice," I said, shuffling to the edge of the booth. "I should go."
"Oh, I think it's a little too late for that," she said softly, nudging me to look up.
Although I knew very well who was going to be standing there, it was still a bit of a shock to see him and by the look of things, he was just as shocked to see me. Three weeks had obviously dimmed my memory, because my dreams definitely did not do Jasper justice. His blond hair fell forward, slightly brushing over his cheeks, as he stared at me for a good few seconds before speaking. I shifted in my seat, my face heating up as images of dreamJasper, and all the things he did to me, came flooding into my head.
"Edward?" he said, looking between Alice and me curiously. His soft, soothing voice washed over me, and inside my fucking traitorous mind, I heard him whispering dirty words as he did in my dreams. I reached for my drink and gulped the rest of it, coughing as it burned my throat on the way down. "What are you doing here?"
I could do nothing but sit and stare up at him as I racked my brains for something to say, since there was no fucking way I could tell him the real reason we were here. Somehow, I didn't think that, "Oh hey, Jasper, I needed to see you again because I've been having dirty dreams about you for the last three weeks,"would be an appropriate thing to say.
Unfortunately, for me, Alice didn't feel the same way and I watched her open-mouthed and horrified as she started to speak.
"Well, Edward has been having the dirtiest dreams about you and I thought he should come to see you in the flesh, you know, to see if the real you has the same effect," she smirked at me and settled back in her seat.
Oh. My. God.
Unfortunately for Jasper, he'd just taken a swallow of his beer when she'd started to talk and was now desperately trying not to choke on it.
"I'm going to kill you later," I hissed quietly in Alice's ear. "Just so you know."
"You're going to thankme later," she whispered back. "You'll see."
When Jasper had recovered himself enough to speak, he thankfully avoided mentioning the whole dream thing, for the time being at least, but the grin and the wink that he threw my way made my skin heat up even more. Unfortunately, it wasn't the only part of me affected and as if things weren't embarrassing enough, my pants got that little bit tighter. "You should have called and told me you were coming," he said, his eyes never leaving mine. "That's what the card was for, in case you didn't realize".
"Yeah, I know. I tried to call you yesterday. I left a message, didn't you get it?" I asked, praying that just maybe he hadn't listened to it yet.
"No, I didn't," he replied, reaching in his trouser pocket. "Fuck . . . I lost my phone Thursday morning and it didn't turn up until a couple of hours ago. I haven't had time to go through everything yet." I groaned quietly as he pulled out his phone and started tapping at the screen - presumably pulling up his voicemail.
"There's no need to listen to it now," I rushed out, willing him to delete it. "I'm here now, so what does it matter? Just delete it."
He looked at me and smirked. "Oh, no. I definitely have to listen to it now." He put the phone up to his ear and I closed my eyes, resting my forehead on Alice's shoulder.
Kill me now.
I heard Alice giggling into her drink, and when I looked up, I could see why. Jasper, with his phone still wedged against his ear, was looking down at me, shaking his head and smiling with his lip caught firmly between his teeth. I reallywished he wouldn't do that last part.
"It's the second time he's listened to it," Alice said between giggles and I debated whether to kick her under the table. This was clearly all her fault.
"Really, Edward? " he asked, after finally putting his phone away. "Did you think I wouldn't remember who you were?" His eyes turned a little darker. "I remember everythingabout that night, Edward."
Oh, fuck, now I did too. I swallowed thickly, his soft, suggestive voice wrapping around me and making my toes curl. I felt Alice shift slightly, nudging me with her shoulder. She edged her way to the end of the booth and I immediately reached out to grab her wrist.
"Where the hell do you think you're going?" I hissed; panic surging through me as I realized she was going to leave me alone with Jasper.
"I'm just going to help the boys with our drinks," she replied, loud enough for Jasper to hear. "Pleasure to finally meet you, Jasper," she added, a devilish smirk on her lips. "I've heard somuch about you. I'm Alice, by the way. Edward's cousin."
"Ah, I see," Jasper said, smiling widely at Alice.
"My very small and annoying cousin, who doesn't know when to mind her own business," I muttered under my breath, giving her my best evil eye.
Jasper raised a questioning eyebrow, as Alice just winked at me, again,and disappeared in the direction of the bar. I was going to kill her.
As I sat there, debating the best way to exact my revenge, something slow and particularly painful, I failed to notice Jasper slide in next to me until his warm thigh was brushing against mine. I jumped a little at the unexpected contact, looking up into inquisitive blue eyes.
"I have to say, Edward, I never expected to see you in my club again."
I felt the heat rush to my cheeks as I had the disturbing thought that maybe he hadn't wanted to see me in his club again. "Oh." Not very eloquent, but then Jasper seemed to have that effect on me.
"Don't get me wrong," he rushed to add. "It's a pleasant surprise, just very unexpected."
I relaxed slightly at his words. At least I wasn't totally unwelcome and maybe this wasn't such a bad idea after all. Then he spoke again, "So, you've been dreaming about me?"
I opened my mouth but nothing came out, and I wished Alice would hurry with those fucking drinks because I could really do with one right now. "Um . . . yeah," I managed finally, wanting to kick myself for my suddenly very limited vocabulary.
Jasper edged fractionally closer, the whole length of his thigh now pressing against mine. "What were they about? Were they good?"
"Oh, yeah," I said my voice much deeper than normal and my lips curving up into a smile as I remembered just how good they'd been. Jasper's mouth, hands and his big hard co-
"That good, hmm?" Warm breath tickled the side of my neck as Jasper leaned in to whisper.
Fuck! Fucking, fuck!
I took a deep, hopefully relaxing breath and hesitantly turned to the side. He was so fucking close and, for a second, I was lost in those bluer than blue eyes. "Yeah," I replied, licking my lips and unconsciously leaning toward him. He was hot in my dreams, but sat here with him in the flesh he was so much hotter. Three weeks of having Jasper be the star of my increasingly dirty porn dreams made my body react instinctively to his presence. No matter how much I told myself that it was the drink, or the fact that Jasper was exceptionally attractive, the fact remained that I was sat pushed up against another man and I was hard; so fucking hard it was becoming painful.
I shifted in my seat, surreptitiously attempting to move things around down there, without being too obvious. But of course, Jasper noticed and his eyes widened, flicking back up to mine and for the first time since I'd met him, he looked vulnerable. He leaned a little closer, and I knew that he intended to kiss me. I should have been freaked out, at the very least been a little hesitant, but just like those times in High School, I was none of the above. My eyes fluttered closed, a soft sigh escaping as I felt Jasper's lips touch mine for the briefest of seconds, before disappearing again. But unlike High School, I knew this was more than just boys messing around as they explored their sexuality.
"So," Jasper said and I opened my eyes to see him smirking at me, his eyes shining with something I didn't care to think about just yet. "Still not gay?"
Our conversation from the first night we'd met came flooding back. "No, definitely not," I replied, ignoring the rather prominent bulge in my trousers and definitely not looking at Jasper's lips and wishing he'd kiss me again.
Jasper lifted his hand and I watched it move closer towards my crotch, not sure whether to cheer or scream like a girl. Thankfully, I didn't have a chance to do either as he stopped half way to run his fingers up and down the side of thigh. In a way, this was worse and my body shivered under his feather light touch.
"You're not the first boy he's kissed you know." A familiar voice piped up from beside Jasper. I rolled my eyes and sighed. Alice poked out her tongue, placed my drink on the table in front of me and proceeded to sit down opposite us.
"You see," she said, taking a quick sip, "Edward was all about equal opportunities in High School, weren't you, cuz?" She winked at me and I imagined burning all her designer shoes.
"Is that so?" Jasper purred, his finger drawing a circular pattern on my leg and making it difficult for me to concentrate on the conversation.
"Yeah . . . I mean no . . . I mean . . . fuck." I took a deep breath before explaining to Jasper about my brief experimentation with kissing boys, or more specifically aboy. We'd messed around for a little while before both of us decided we liked girls more. Turned out he'd been slightly economical with the truth and was now happily partnered up with a guy called Steve.
Jasper looked at me and I could see the wheels turning. "Hmm . . . strange you never mentioned this last time you were here, Edward." His hand stilled but remained resting on my knee. "If I'd know that little snippet of information, then I would have . . ."
"Edward Cullen, shame on you for keeping Jasper all to yourself!" Alec's singsong voice interrupted Jasper as he and Peter slid in to sit next to Alice, and I was left wondering just what he was going to say. I barely concealed the growl that was fighting to come out.
Both Alec and Peter looked over at me expectantly. I huffed a little, not caring if they heard, and grudgingly introduced them both to Jasper.
"Jasper, this is Alec Volturi and Peter Hale," I gestured to them in turn. "Alec, Peter, meet Jasper Whitlock."
They grinned and held out their hands to shake with Jasper. Alec held on to Jasper's hand far longer than necessary, quite obviously checking him out. Alec was a good-looking fucker and I wasn't surprised to see Jasper returning the favor. My eyes narrowed as I glared at Alec, and shifted my leg away from Jasper's side, slightly pissed off with him too.
The hand on my leg tightened as I tried to move, keeping me firmly in place and Jasper gave me a curious look before turning to make polite conversation with Alice's friends.
As Jasper sat and chatted at our table for the next half an hour, answering a barrage of questions supplied by Peter and Alec, the club began to fill and the scene around us became distinctly less innocent than when we'd first arrived.
I rolled my eyes, for the fourth time in the last ten minutes, as Jasper smiled but politely refused Alec's offer of a dance. Jasper's fingers had resumed their figure of eight pattern on my thigh and each time Alec made a blatant attempt at flirting, he would pause and give my leg a gentle squeeze.
Alice had been quiet for at least five minutes, which was virtually unheard of for her. She was staring at something behind Jasper and me with an odd look on her face. I turned round in my seat to see what she was looking at.
There were quite a few couples in various compromising positions and Alice was speechless for once as she openly watched what they were doing. I turned back and cleared my throat to get her attention.
"Um . . . Alice?"
I grinned as her eyes snapped to mine and her cheeks immediately turned red.
"I didn't know they did that in here," she whispered to me across the table, but everybody heard her and stopped talking to look.
"Well they do," Alec said, standing. "And it's about time we were doing it too. C'mon Pete," he grabbed hold of Peter's arm and pulled him up. "Let's go have some fun."
With a wave and a wink in Jasper's direction, they headed towards the dance floor.
Thank fuck for that!
We watched them disappear into the crowd and then there were just the three of us.
"Right," we both looked back to Alice as she picked up her purse and grinned, "I'm just gonna go use the restroom."
Subtle as a brick I thought as she sashayed off without a backward glance.
"So," Jasper said, smiling. "How have you been, Edward? It's been three weeks since I saw you, has anything changed?" He paused, his hand moving a little further up my thigh. "You know, with Kate?"
"Fuck," I spat, unable to keep the animosity from my voice. "I haven't seen or spoken to her in weeks."
"Good," he replied, leaning closer and his hand crept even higher until the tips of his fingers brushed the ever-present bulge in my pants. I swallowed, vaguely thinking that I should probably move his hand away, but not really wanting to at all. "Is this okay?" he whispered, so close that I felt his breath on my lips.
He reached up, gently cupping my cheek and drawing me toward him. My eyes closed as his soft warm lips finally covered mine and I sighed at how fucking good it felt. Instinctively, I went to deepen the kiss, but was stopped in my tracks by a very unwelcome interruption. For once, it wasn't Alice.
"What the fuck, Jasper?"
I felt Jasper tense before he pulled back slightly and rested his forehead against mine. I barely hear the whispered 'fuck', before he sat up and moved away from me, his hand no longer on my leg. I felt the sharp sting of rejection and although he'd only moved a couple of inches, it might as well have been miles.
"What are you doing here, Garrett?" Jasper asked, looking up at the man now standing next to our table. He looked fucking furious as he stared between the two of us.
"I came to see you, but it looks like you'vemade other plans. What the fuck is going on?"
As he stood there waiting for an answer, Jasper sighed, rubbing his hand over his eyes before turning back to face me. I got a horrible, sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that I was about to get ditched.
"Edward," Jasper started, his voice full of apology, "I'm sorry, but I need to sort this out."
"Yeah, fine," I muttered, suddenly feeling like shit.
"I'll be right back, I promise," he said looking so sincere, that I felt a jolt of hope that maybe he meant it. He gave my hand a quick squeeze and got up to follow Garrett, just as a confused Alice sat back down.
"Edward?" she asked, watching Jasper and Garrett walk off together. "Who is that?"
"That, Alice was Garrett," I replied, closing my eyes and leaning my head onto the back of the seat. "And I have no fucking idea who he is."
We got another round of drinks and sat chatting, waiting for either Alec and Peter, or Jasper to come back. None of them did, and eventually I agreed to take Alice for a dance. We stayed up for four songs and despite my shitty mood, she managed to make me smile and laugh.
Eventually we bumped into Peter, who in turn, pointed out Alec and his latest conquest over in the corner.
It had been two hours since Jasper had left with Garrett, and I'd finally come to the harsh realization that he wasn't coming back. When Pete asked if he could borrow Alice for a dance or two, I saw it as the perfect opportunity to leave. I'd achieved what we'd set out to do by coming here; yes, I was as affected by real Jasper as I was dream Jasper, but it appeared that my new-found feelings weren't reciprocated. I really fucking wished I'd stayed at home.
I refused Alice's urging that I go find Jasper and talk to him. Instead I had a cursory look around, decided I couldn't see him and offered her my best 'there, I've done it' face. She gave me a withering look, but thankfully didn't say anything else. She hugged me tightly, and I gave her a quick kiss, made sure that Peter would see her home and left the club in search of a cab.
How fucking typical that it was raining.
"Fuck," I mumbled, shaking the rain off me as I hurried through my front door. "Fuck, fuck, fuck."
I had no fucking idea what had happened tonight, but I knew I still felt like shit. I hadn't gone to Jasper's club with the intention of actually doing anything, had I?
I'm not gay. Not gay. Not gay. I chanted in my head, but when the image of Jasper and his friend came barreling into my head, I felt my hackles rise, my fists clenching tightly at my sides. There was no denying how jealous and possessive I'd felt as I'd watched them leave together. Fuck. I liked him - as in liked him, liked him.
I kicked my shoes off, not bothering that they splattered dirty water all over the floor, and threw my coat onto the stairs. What the fuck was I going to do now? Alice had told me to stay and talk to Jasper, but, of course, I hadn't fucking listened and now I was stuck in my empty house while they were back at the club doing God knows what. For once, I couldn't blame my stupidity on alcohol, because I'd only had three drinks.
I stomped into the kitchen and poured myself a glass of water, debating whether to watch some TV or just go to bed. The living room looked cold and uninviting, so I opted for going to bed. A fleeting thought passed through my mind, that perhaps if things had gone differently tonight maybe I wouldn't be going to bed alone. I dismissed it as quickly as it appeared, not wanting to go down that path.
Once I was in my sleep pants and a t-shirt, I climbed into bed, leaving my clothes from earlier strewn across the floor. I didn't really care if my bedroom was a mess; it wasn't as if anyone was going to see it. I lay there, staring at the ceiling hoping that I would fall asleep quickly and for the first time in three weeks, hoping that I didn't dream of Jasper.
Bang! Bang! Bang!
My eyes flew open and for the first few seconds I struggled to comprehend what had woken me up. I leaned up on my elbows and looked around, rubbing my eyes but not noticing anything out of place. My head flopped back on my pillow as I listened hard for any telltale noises but the house was quiet. Grumbling about being woken up for nothing, I settled back down and closed my eyes.
I sat upright knowing what that noise was.
I looked over at my clock. Who the fuck was knocking on my door at two fucking thirty in the morning? I briefly considered ignoring whoever it was, but when they banged again I hopped out of bed and ran down the stairs before they woke up my neighbors.
I peered through the glass, and stumbled back a little when I saw who was out there, soaking wet and shivering by the look of it. I yanked open the door, just as he raised his hand to knock once more.
"What the fuck are you doing here, Jasper?"
"I needed to talk to you," he replied softly.
We stood there staring at each other, and I was more than a little distracted by the action of his tongue licking at the drops of rain as they ran down his face. It was not until he shivered again that I remembered he was still outside in the pouring rain.
"Oh for fuck's sake, Jasper, get inside," I said, a little more harshly than I'd intended, grabbing hold of his jacket and pulling him through the door. "You must be fucking freezing."
I shut the door behind him and immediately went to take his dripping coat. He looked up at me, his eyes uncertain.
"Look, whatever you've got to say, can it wait until we get you out of those fucking clothes?" I said my voice softer than before.
He raised his eyebrows suggestively and all my feelings from earlier returned in an instant.
"Really?" I snapped, and he at least had the decency to look abashed. I reached out and none-too-gently unzipped his coat, tugging it roughly off him before hanging it on the radiator to dry. Not once did it occur to me to ask him to leave.
Despite taking off his coat, Jasper was still soaking wet. If he wasn't going to get ill, he needed to get out of all his wet clothes. I tried to ignore the sliver of heat unfurling in my chest at the thought of Jasper being naked in my house.
He slipped off his shoes and I led him into my bathroom. "There are towels on the rail. Help yourself and I'll be back in a moment with some dry clothes," I told him, pointing to the thick white towels hanging up.
"Thank you, Edward," he said, biting his lip and reaching for the buttons on his shirt. He slipped the first two free, revealing a smooth pale chest and I hastily backed out the door before he could go any further.
Fuck. I thought resting my head against the closed door of the bathroom. This was going to be a long night. I had no idea why Jasper was here, or what had happened at the club with Garrett, and I needed to keep a tight rein on my feelings until I found out. With a deep sigh, I went back into my bedroom to search for some spare clothes.
"Jasper?" I called through the bathroom door, knocking softly. "Are you decent?"
"Yeah, come in."
I pushed open the door and almost dropped the clothes I was holding. My breath caught in my throat at the sight in front of me; Jasper was very fucking far from being decent. He'd taken off all his wet clothes and was standing in my bathroom with just a towel wrapped around him, the top of it sitting very low on his hips. I groaned, almost kicking myself for not thinking things through properly. What else was he going to do, when I'd told him to take off his clothes?
Despite telling myself not to look, I couldn't help but stare. Jasper's body was smooth, and lean with just the right amount of definition. I licked my lips, unable to stop my eyes from traveling lower still. The towel was wrapped tightly around him, and my gaze lingered over the obvious outline of his cock.
"Are those clothes for me?" Jasper asked, and I noticed the uncertainty had disappeared from his voice. I looked up quickly to see him smirking at me.
"Yeah, here," I said, throwing them over to him and turning back towards the door.
"I'm sorry about tonight, Edward. I didn't know he was going to show up."
I whirled round, relieved to see that Jasper now had the sleep pants on. "Who is he?" I asked, dreading what the answer might be.
There was silence for a few seconds too long until Jasper closed his eyes and sighed heavily.
"What sort of friend?" I pushed, knowing that Garrett was far more than 'just a friend'.
"Look, it's complicated, ok?"
"Oh, I don't think it's all that complicated really," I hissed. "Are you together or not?"
He scrubbed a hand over his face. "Sometimes," he whispered, still refusing to look at me.
There was one more thing I wanted to ask, and I knew that Jasper's answer would be the decider for me.
"Were you together tonight?"
He looked up then and took a step toward me. "No, Edward." He took another step, his eyes boring into mine. "Not tonight."
I stepped away and he followed until I was backed up against the bathroom door. "Why didn't you come back, then?" I said, my heart rate picking up with him standing so close. I could feel the warmth of his body, his naked chest mere inches from me, but I resisted the urge to touch him. "I waited two fucking hours for you."
"I'm sorry," he repeated, placing a hand either side of my head and leaning in to kiss me. I turned my head to the side, still angry. He ran his nose along the side of my neck, his hot breath tickling my skin. "I lost track of time. Dealing with Garrett took longer than I expected."
I snorted in response.
"He's my friend, Edward, he deserved an explanation. When I came back to find you, you'd already left."
"What do you mean an explanation?" I asked, wanting to know just what he'd told Garrett. "And how did you know where I lived?" The thought had only just occurred to me, but before he'd even answered, I knew there was only one person it could be.
"Alice told me," he said, pulling back to look at me again.
I'd decide later whether to thank her or not.
"I told Garrett that I couldn't see him anymore." He leaned in again, pausing just before his lips touched mine. "I told him there was someone else."
His eyes darkened and he kept them open as he gently brushed his lips against mine, just as he'd done in the club. But this time, when I grabbed hold of his hips and kissed him back, there were no fucking interruptions. I closed my eyes, lost in the feeling of finally having Jasper in my arms and it was so much better than in my dreams. He felt solid under my hands, the slight scratch of stubble tickling my skin as we kissed and when he thrust his hips against me, I felt his obvious excitement pressing into my hip.
This was nothing like the kisses I'd shared with an inexperienced boy in High School. Jasper knew exactly what he was doing and it felt so fucking good. It didn't feel wrong and I didn't give a fuck that I was kissing another man, in my bathroom of all fucking places - because it was Jasper and I wanted him.
"Is this ok?" he asked, kissing along my jaw. "Is this what you want, Edward? What you've been dreaming about?" His hands were on my waist now, tugging on the bottom of my t-shirt.
"Yes," I breathed as his fingers slid underneath, stroking their way across my bare skin. "Just like that."
He pushed my top up and I dutifully raised my arms so he could pull it over my head. He slipped his arms around my waist and I gasped at the feel of his bare skin on mine. He kissed me again, hot and wet and hard, doing things with his tongue that made my head spin. His hands roamed over my stomach, slipping under the waistband of my sleep pants and gently slipping them down over my hips. I tensed at the sudden change in pace, and he immediately stopped kissing me, his hands stilling their movements on my hips.
"Edward," he said, dropping his head down and licking along my collarbone. "Relax." I felt the slightest hint of teeth, and sighed softly as my body responded. "I know what you need." He moved lower, his tongue swirling a path down my chest. "And I'm going to give it to you." His hands pushed my pants further down until they fell to the floor. "Now."
He dropped to his knees in front of me, slipped one hand round the base of my cock and took me into his mouth.
"Oh God!" I cried out, my head falling back against the door as warm, wet heat surrounded me.
It was so unbelievably good, I could barely stand it. He held me firm, sliding his lips up and down my length, and using that magical tongue to drive me insane. "Jasper . . . fuck . . ." I panted, desperately trying not to come in the first thirty seconds. It was fucking amazing but I still had some pride, and coming that quickly was so not happening.
He sucked me hard, swept his tongue across the head of my cock, and my pride went out the window.
I cried out his name, my hands now fisting his hair tightly as I emptied down his throat. Holy fucking shit! That was, hands down, the best blow job I'd ever had and when Jasper sat back on his heels, releasing me and licking his lips, I couldn't stop myself from sliding down the door and joining him. It took me a couple of minutes to get my breath back and regain my senses, and Jasper's soft laughter brought a lazy smile to my face.
"Still not gay?" he asked, stroking my bottom lip with his thumb. His blue eyes shone as he sat there, looking far too fucking smug.
"Still not sure," I said, my smile getting wider as he raised an incredulous eyebrow.
"Well," he said, pulling me to my feet and sliding my pants back up, his hands lingering on my hips. "Let's go upstairs and find out." He pushed me out the bathroom door with his body flush against mine, reminding me that he was still hard and ready to go. "Lead the way." His breath fanned over the back of my neck, I shivered slightly and almost dragged him up the stairs to my bedroom.
We burst through the door and collapsed in a tangled heap on my bed, laughing as we bounced around.
"So, Edward," Jasper whispered, rearranging himself to lie more comfortably between my legs. "Do you dream about me every night?" He propped himself up on his forearms nuzzling his nose in the crook of my neck.
"Yes," I replied, shutting my eyes and just enjoying his touch.
"Well," he grinned, shifting slightly so I could feel exactly how hard he was. "Tonight you won't have to." He raised his head and placed a soft kiss on my lips. "Tonight, you've got the real thing and it's gonna be so much better."
"Oh fuck!" I gasped. The thought of Jasper here, in my bed, doing all the things that he did to me in my dreams, had my dick stirring back to life in no time at all.
"Is that what I do to you, Edward?" he said, his voice soft and seductive. "In your dreams. Do I fuck you?"
"Yes," I managed to say, despite my mouth suddenly going very dry. I was now as hard as ever and when Jasper rolled his hips, his erection rubbed along mine and a long, low moan escaped my lips.
"Would you like me to do that now?" His lips were back on my neck. "Fuck you hard and fast, hitting that spot that will have you screaming out my name?" He sucked and nipped at the skin as he whispered dirty things to me. Just like in my dreams.
How had we got to this point so fast? I should tell him no, that it was all too soon and I just wasn't ready for anything like that yet. But as he lapped at my neck, wrapped his hands around my shoulders to hold me in place and thrust his cock roughly against mine, I was gone. Lost to the delicious sensations that Jasper elicited from my body, and I knew without a shadow of a doubt, that I wanted him. I wanted to feel him inside me, his hands gripping me tightly, as he fucked me as I'd dreamed nearly every night for the last three weeks.
"Can I, Edward?" he asked, pausing while he waited for my answer. "I want you so fucking much."
I swallowed thickly, cupping his face with my hands and tilting it up so I could see his eyes. They were full of fire and need and my chest tightened as I saw just how much he wanted me.
"Fuck me, Jasper . . . now, please . . ."
He wasted no time sliding down my body, placing kisses here and there, as he grabbed the top of my sleep pants and yanked them down my thighs. I grinned at his eagerness and he shrugged in response, smirking when he pulled down his own and I stared open-mouthed at his cock. It was fucking huge and my legs instinctively jerked closer together.
Jasper's soft laughter echoed in the room and I glared at him, suddenly tempted to suggest a role reversal.
"Trust me," he said, climbing on the bed and running his hands gently up my legs, stroking and calming me as he went. "I'll go slowly, I promise. I want to show you just how good it can be."
Biting back my nerves, I nodded, trying to relax as Jasper hovered over me.
"Do you have any . . . ?"
I watched him reach over and retrieve a condom and the bottle of lube I kept there. He snapped the bottle open, slicking his fingers before dropping it back down on the bed. "Relax," he whispered again, settling back between my legs and leaning down to kiss me as his hand moved down between my ass cheeks.
He kept kissing me, distracting me with his lips and tongue and he slid a finger slowly inside. I tensed at the intrusion, but the feel of his mouth trailing hot wet kisses down my throat took the edge off. I felt a second finger nudging at my hole, but before I had chance to worry, Jasper bit down on my neck as he slipped it alongside the first. I cried out at the feeling of his teeth on my skin, and only when he stretched his fingers did I realize he'd added another.
It still stung a little, but as he moved them in and out, curling them round, a pleasure tickled its way up my spine and I moaned. My hips moved of their own accord and I felt Jasper smile against my skin as he licked at the bite mark on my shoulder.
He sat up, keeping his fingers deep inside me and reached for the condom with his free hand. I marveled at his skills as he ripped it open with his teeth and slid it down his length with one quick movement and added a bit more lube to his sheathed cock.
He gently removed his fingers and spread my legs further apart. Oh fuck, this was it.
"Look at me," he urged, taking hold of his cock and positioning himself between my legs. I met his eyes and didn't look away as he slowly pushed his way inside.
It hurt, not gonna lie, but as soon as he was all the way in, he stopped and bent down to kiss me; the familiar touch of his lips and his tongue soothing the pain into a dull ache. Then he moved, pulling out and thrusting back in and I forgot all about the pain.
It was hard and fast, just as he'd promised and when he grabbed my thighs and lifted my hips I cried out his name as his cock hit me just right. Fuck, this was so much better than I'd ever imagined and I cursed myself for waiting three fucking weeks to call him.
He chanted my name, over and over, throwing his head back and slamming into me with abandon. "So . . . close," he said, in between breaths. "Come . . . with me."
Fuck, yes, I thought, wrapping a hand around my cock and stroking it for all I was worth. It didn't take much and three hard strokes and a twist of my wrist later, I was coming, my back arching off the bed as I shuddered with pleasure and released over my hand.
Jasper's fingers dug into my hips as he followed seconds later, biting his lip with his eyes shut tight as I felt him pulse inside me. Fuck, if that wasn't the hottest thing ever. I watched as his eyes slowly opened, a lazy smiling appearing as he saw me looking.
"So," he said, leaning forward so his hands were either side of my head. "Still not gay?"
I laughed aloud, my sudden movement causing his cock to slip out and I winced slightly at the loss. "Maybe a little," I replied, grinning.
"That's good enough for me," he said, shifting to lie down next to me with his head on my pillow.
I wriggled the covers from underneath us, pulled them up so we were both covered and turned on my side to face him. I was so fucking glad that Alice had made me go to his club, and couldn't help but smile until an unwelcome thought crept into my head.
"Fuck," I mumbled, groaning and rolling my eyes.
"What's wrong?" he asked, looking a little concerned.
"Alice told me I'd be thanking her later for telling you about my dreams. And she's right," I said, pulling a face. "I fucking hate it when she's right."
Jasper laughed, reaching out to stroke my cheek. "Well," he said, his eyes flicking down to my lips and back. "She also told me that she'd kill me if I hurt you and that you'd be the best thing that ever happened to me."
"Oh," I said, grinning again.
I fucking loved my cousin.
"So, Edward," he said, smirking and pulling me towards him for a kiss. "Since I don't want to incur Alice's wrath, I hope you won't mind me sticking around for the foreseeable future?"
"Not at all."
"Besides," he added, sliding his hand down my back and squeezing my ass, "we need to work on making you a lotgay."