My girl is gone.
My beautiful baby girl left me.
I can't help the guilt as it eats me alive. I knew she was unhappy, and I did my damnedest to make her happy, but it was never enough. If I had only tried harder…
She had texted me a couple hours before I found her, I hadn't known what it meant, but I knew I needed to see her.
I love you babe, so much. Please don't forget me. I'll miss you. I'll always love you.
I sped to her house, ran up the stairs to find her lying in her bed in one of my flannel shirts, the letters clutched to her chest, and an empty bottle of pills on her side table. I didn't even have to touch her to know she was gone.
I'm lying in her bed now, the same place I have been since the hospital marked her time of death. The letter in my hand is wrinkled from the hundreds of times I've read it over and my tears are starting to smudge the words, but I'll hold onto it forever because it's the only thing I have left of her.
My eyes glance over the pages and a fresh batch of tears well up in my eyes. The letter reads,
My dear Beck,
Baby, I am so sorry. Please don't cry. I love you more than you'll ever know.
I was suffering, Beck. Every day was hell for me, and though you were my one reason to stay alive, the insidious darkness I was trapped in finally pulled me to the end.
I needed to get out, Beck. Please understand, and please do not hate me for what I have done.
I don't know where I'm going but I do know I will always love you.
Beck, I'm so sorry.
I cried for a good two hours before I did it Beck. I couldn't believe I was doing it, but I did. It was a relief for me, and I know it'll hurt less where I'm going, but that doesn't mean I won't miss you.
I still have more letters to write, but I miss you already. The tears won't stop falling and I wish I could see you one last time.
I hope you get my text message, and I hope you know I meant every word.
Please keep me in your thoughts Beck.
I want you to move on, I want you to forget about me as your girlfriend and just think of me as a friend. I want you to find someone who will treat you right and who will love just as much as I do.
You deserve to be happy, Beck.
I want you to watch over Cat for me. She'll most likely be a mess and I won't be there to look out for her so I'm leaving that job up to you.
Please take good care of her, Beck.
Thank you for always being there for me, and believing in me when no one else cared enough to. You have always been my best friend, and I will forever treasure you in my heart.
The pain is swallowing me whole right now. You're the first letter I'm writing and I apologize for my sloppy handwriting, my hand won't stop shaking, I'm gonna miss you so much, baby.
I will see again someday though, and I'm glad I have something to look forward too.
Don't be mad that I left you Beck. Please, I beg of you. You're never alone, babe. I will always watch over you, and be with you every step of your life. Whenever you need to talk, know I'm listening, and know I will forever be with you. Remember Beck, I'm always there.
I'm running out of things to say, but I do know that I love you, and this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. But deep down I know I'm doing the right thing.
Beck, baby, I miss you. I'll love you forever, and I want you to be happy.
All my love,
The sobs wrack through my body as I come to the end of her letter.
She really is gone.
I'll never grow to accept this.
She was the one girl I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.
And now she's gone.
You said you were always listening, well Jade, I miss you, honey.
I love you and I wish you were still here with me.
I will always love you.
A/N: Well, that's Jade's letter to Beck.
Same as before, review with what you thought, who you want to be next, and what you want Jade to say to them.