I was walking home alone from The Grill. The party that was being held there was in full swing but I just couldn't get myself to have fun.
He was still on my mind. Everyday, every hour, every second, I just can't get myself to stop thinking about him. Ever since the phone call I made to him he was always on my mind and I kept having this hope he was listening, I had the distinct feeling he was. I couldn't just drop Stefan like it was nothing, he means something to me.
The night after the phone call I broke it off with Tyler and it devastated me. I care about both him and Stefan deeply but Stefan is the one I fell so hard for that only he can pick me back up. Tyler was hurt but I told him it wasn't because I didn't want to be with him, it was because I had to sort out my feelings.
It was true. I had to get rid of my feelings of Stefan so I can be with Tyler. Stefan isn't coming back and I constantly had to keep telling myself that. Hes not going to return and I had to move on.
For the millionth time that night I whispered to myself that Stefan was gone.
"Hes not coming back Caroline, Stefan is not coming back."
"Are you sure Caroline?"
No it couldn't be him, he was with Klaus but I heard his voice. That wonderful noise that made my undead heart stop.
I turned around slowly, ready to realize that my mind was playing tricks on me.
"In the flesh," he said with that smile that I'd rarely seen grace his lips.
Tears started welling up in my eyes. It was really him, it was really Stefan.
"Care come on don't cry," Stefan said coming over to me and wiping the tears away with the pad of his thumb. He always was such a good friend.
I couldn't help it, when he put his hands on my cheek I put my hand on my arms to make sure he was real.
"It really is you Stefan," I said with tears falling down my face and smiling at him.
"Yes Caroline it is me."
I slapped him.
"Caroline what the hell?"
"Your an ass you know that?" I asked him and then started walking away. Key word, was a good friend.
"I thought you would be happy to see me?" Stefan asked following after me.
I turned to him. "I am happy to see you but that doesn't mean I'm just going to fall right into your arms. You hurt me Stefan, alot, and just because I told you how I felt about you doesn't mean I'm not pissed at you."
I turned and walked away again. I heard Stefan laughing behind me.
"What!" I yelled turning back to him.
"Nothing, I just missed the way you would get yourself all worked up over something. Hearing it again just made me happy," Stefan said.
That made me want to run into his arms and tell him I was sorry for hitting him but I had to hold it back. Stefan was probably here on some business for Klaus and he would just get up and leave again. I had to stay strong and not get my hopes because I knew if I did he would hurt me again.
I put on a straight face and turned around to keep walking home. I stopped shortly when Stefan was in front of me.
"Don't do that!"
"Caroline will you please just let me talk to you?"
"Why so you could just get up and leave again?"
"Caroline thats not fair."
"Your right its not, but I don't want to talk to you so just go do whatever business Klaus wants you do and when you leave don't come say goodbye," I said walking again.
"Why don't you want me to say goodbye?" Stefan asked.
I stayed silent.
I kept walking.
"Caroline!" Stefan yelled pulling me into his grasp. I was close up against his chest and staring into the beautiful green eyes.
"Tell me why you don't want me to tell you goodbye," he said
I looked up at him, feeling the tears well up again.
I sniffed and looked down.
"Caroline," Stefan said getting a little irritated which was odd for him.
"Because hearing you say goodbye and watching you walk out the door would kill me. If I saw you walk away from me I knew it would be the end and I would never see you again, but if you left without me knowing I would have hope that you would return someday. That is the only thing that would keep me alive, that small bit of hope to see your face again," I told him.
Stefan just looked at me as if he didn't know what to say. He looked into my eyes and l looked into his, neither of us breaking eye contact.
Finally he hung his head and spoke. "You are so stubborn Caroline."
"I take that as a compliment."
I smiled back and leaned into him. I missed my friend so much.
"Why did you forget about me Stefan?" I finally asked.
"I didn't forget about you Caroline."
I pushed myself away from him. "Don't. Don't tell me lies."
"No Stefan. You forgot about me, just admit it."
Stefan sighed. "Fine I did. I forgot about the promise I made and you will never know how sorry I am for not being there for you when you needed me."
Tears fell down my face. "You broke your promise Stefan. You broke it."
Stefan came over to me and hugged me tight. "I know Caroline and I'm sorry, I am so sorry."
I came into the living room of the penthouse looking for Stefan. I expected him to be waiting for me when I got out of the shower but he wasn't.
When I walked in I only saw my bastard of a brother Klaus.
"Well good evening to you too little sister," Klaus said looking up from some kind of small square thing that was on top of his lap with a bright screen. Gosh technology has really upgraded since the twenties.
"Where is he?"
"Hes out on an errand for me."
"Its just like you to send him off when I wanted some time with him," I said angrily while sitting on a chair.
"Hes my errand boy Rebekah not yours."
I huffed. "Where did he go?"
"Thats not any of your concern," Klaus told me
"I don't care I want to know," I said.
"You are such a brat you know that?"
"I am not a brat, do not call me a brat!"
Klaus chuckled. "Whatever you say."
"Where is Stefan?" I asked again, demanding.
"Hes in Mystic Falls. He went to torture his brother and latest girlfriend to prove to me hes on my side."
"Latest girlfriend?" I asked feeling the anger start to rise in me.
"Your not the only woman fighting for Stefan's heart sister, their are three other young ladies as well."
"Who?" I asked with menace in my voice.
"Jealous are we?" Klaus smirked as he got up from his seat.
"Shut up. Who are the other girls."
"Well you remember Katerina don't you? Thats the first girl, the second is her doppleganger Elena, the third is Elena's friend Caroline who he left to torture and you my dear sister are the fourth. Four lovely young ladies competeing for one man's eternal love," Klaus laughed while leaving the room.
I sat there seething. Katerina was one woman I had pledged to kill because she hurt my brother Elijah. This Elena girl was the doppleganger so her death belongs Klaus and Caroline, whoever she is, will pay the price of falling for the man that belongs to me. Her death will be done by my hands.
Stefan and I walked to my house. I let him come inside so we could talk. My mom worked a late shift tonight so I didn't have to worry.
"Okay talk to me," I said sitting on one of the chairs. Stefan kept trying to explain while we were walking here but I told him to wait. Mostly for the reason I could break down after he left. It still hurts my best friend wasn't there to help me when I needed him.
Stefan sat down on the couch. "I'm sorry I forgot about you when I left with Klaus. I'm sorry I wasn't there to protect you from your dad. I am so sorry for hurting you."
I looked at him and could tell he meant it, he meant everything.
"I'm sorry for not telling you sooner about how I felt about you," I said.
When Stefan told me it wasn't going to happen between us I did give up but I always had buried feelings about him. They got smaller as I started dating Matt but then I was turned into a vampire and Stefan was there for me all the past feelings came back and they stayed, even when I started falling for Tyler.
"Can you tell me when this happened? When you started falling for me," Stefan said.
"Its always been happeing Stefan. I didn't just drop the feelings I had for you the night you rejected me, they stayed with me all the time. When I was with Matt and when you were so deep in love with Elena those feelings stayed. I never gave up on them, they were just buried way deep in the back of my mind and when we became friends they got stronger," I told him.
Stefan was deep in thought. He seemed to be concentrating on something.
"What are you thinking?" I asked.
"How I could have missed all the signs that you liked me. Thinking about it now there was alot and I just didn't pay attention to them."
I smiled. "I tried to hide them as well as I could."
Stefan smiled back. "Well you did a pretty good job."
We laughed a little and then it got silent.
"What about you? How did you feel about me?" I asked.
"Honestly Caroline I didn't think much, like you said I was always about Elena but when you transitioned I got to know you and I liked what I saw. You were funny, creative, and just always happy. I never met anyone like you. You reminded me of my best friend Lexi, I mean she wasn't always happy she got annoyed sometimes, but you just always had a reason to smile and I loved that about you. Your the only person I know who can smile through tough times."
I smiled. Hearing Stefan say he loved something about me made me get butterflies.
"I'll admit I just thought we were friends, people even thought of us as best friends," Stefan continued.
"We are friends Stefan and I accept that. I may have always had those feelings and small hope we could be more than friends, but it didn't change the fact you love Elena and will always love Elena."
"I don't know if theres still me and Elena. After the things I've done she probably has a whole different view of me," he said looking down.
"So your still Ripper Stefan?"
"I will always be a Ripper. I can't change the fact I'm a vampire and I have a lust for blood, I need to stop trying to be human because I will never be human again. Its time to stop being what I want to be and start being what I am."
"Stefan just because your a vampire it doesn't mean you have to be a killer. Accept the fact your immortal, accept that blood is what you will always crave for but keep some humanity. Humanity keeps us human but we will never be human, thats the only thing we need to accept, that our human lives are over," I said moving to sit next to him on the couch.
"So you accepted the fact already?"
"I accepted it when you left. When you were around I stayed on the bunny stuff because you made me think it was the closest I will be to human but I knew you'd be off of it so I had to accept that this is what it is to be a vampire, to have a craving for blood. So I just moved on from the fact I wasn't human anymore," I said. "And think you have to kill to be a full vampire. You can still be a vampire without killing."
"And how do you figure?" Stefan asked.
"The feelings that keep us human, keep us from killing, which means we are in control of our bloodlust. We are still vampires who survive on blood but instead of taking the easy way out and turning off our feelings, the feelings will keep the humanity in us to not kill but still feed."
"So your on human blood?" Stefan asked.
I saw something go through Stefan's eyes. It looked like admiration, as if he was glad someone finally understood what he was trying to accomplish as a vampire.
It was silent again after that. Stefan and I sat on the couch just looking at each other, staring into each others eyes.
Soon the space between us became smaller and I could feel the heat of Stefan's lips on mine. Our lips met in a heated kiss.
We battled for dominace. Our hands reached for each others shirts and both fell to the ground, our hands roamed each others body trying to touch every inch of skin exposed to us.
The kiss became rougher and we both started to get imaptient. I felt my back hit the wall by the stairs, I was so wrapped in the kiss I didn't even feel Stefan move us. Our fangs both came to the surface and I could feel my eyes turn red and the veins portrude, but it felt normal.
Having my fangs out while I was kissing Stefan felt normal and neither of us held back. When Stefan broke our kiss to start kissing my neck I saw his eyes changed and fangs were out just like mine. He started kissing down my neck and I could feel his teeth graze my skin. My hands were roaming over his chest and abs and it felt amazing, he was well built.
I stood there as Stefan hand my arms above my head against the wall and was trailing kisses everywhere he could. I couldn't believe this was happening, Stefan Salvatore was in my house kissing me.
He dropped on hand from my arms and let it slide down the side of my body, his thumb running over my breast and down my stomach.
I felt the warmth of his hand disappear but the breath of his mouth by my ear.
"I'm so sorry Caroline."
Before I could comprehend what was going on, I felt a pain in my neck and I was surrounded by darkness.