Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns all characters.
As I drove to the carnival, I held her hand in mine. I thought about the kiss we shared by the car and I hoped that I didn't push her too far. She did kiss me back, so I guess she was okay with it.
Truth be told I loved kissing her and I hope to be able to kiss her again tonight. But I definitely won't push her.
I want her to be comfortable with me, not afraid.
I am in love with her and I want to be with her forever. If she is pregnant, I won't run. I want to be there for her and I know that she was scared to even ask me about us using protection.
I know that I have to prove to her that I'm not like her stupid ass ex-husband.
I would never hurt her.
I looked over at her as I pulled into the parking lot. She looked so unsure of things. I squeezed her hand and she looked at me.
"Bella, are you okay?"
"Yeah, just thinking," she said as she looked down at our hands.
"What about, love?" I asked.
"Us," she smiled.
"Really? What about us?"
"About how I feel safe with you, and that …" she stopped talking and looked out the window.
I parked the car and turned towards her.
"Baby, what is it?" I asked.
She turned to me and placed her hand timidly on my cheek.
"And that I'm falling in love with you, and it scares me," she said looking up at me.
"Love, don't be scared. I'm falling in love with you too. I want to be with you," I said as I moved my thumb up against her cheek.
She smiled at me as I leaned in and placed a kiss on her lips.
When we parted, I placed a kiss on her forehead and she giggled.
"Are you ready to go have some fun?" I asked.
She nodded as she opened the door.
I quickly got out and ran to her side, helping her out of the car.
I took her hand as we walked toward the carnival.
She was a little tense as we walked, but I held her hand in mine.
When we reached the ticket booth, I bought two wristbands.
Once they were secure, we started walking around.
I loved watching her.
She looked at everything with a sense of awe. It was beautiful to watch.
We rode on a few rides, before I talked her into going on the ferris wheel with me.
Bella had to go to the bathroom before we went on it.
I went up to the ferris wheel operator and talked to him.
I offered him fifty dollars to stop the wheel when we reached the top.
He readily agreed.
I waited for Bella with a smile on my face.
When she walked back to me, I held my hand out to her and I led her to the ferris wheel.
"Edward, I'm not sure about this," she said as she looked up at the monstrosity.
"It'll be fine, Bella. I'll be right with you," I said reassuringly.
She looked at it and then back at me as we moved forward in the line.
As we got there, we showed the attendant our wristbands and he winked at me.
We got in the seat and strapped in.
Bella was literally shaking in fear.
"Baby, it'll be fine. Calm down, and take a deep breath."
She did as I said and appeared to be a bit calmer as the ride started. She grabbed a hold of my hand tightly.
I chuckled a bit. Knowing soon that we would be stuck at the top and I'd be able to kiss her and tell her how much I wanted to give her the world.
I couldn't wait.
As we inched closer to the top, I was worried that if I said too much of what I felt for her that she'd freak out.
So I thought that I would just say how much I truly cared for her.
I smiled over at her and pulled her a bit closer.
We came to a stop and she looked panicked.
"Bella, it's okay. I asked the attendant to stop us here. There's nothing wrong," I said softly.
She looked at me and kinda smiled.
"I want you to know how much I care for you. My feelings for you are really deep, and I hope that doesn't scare you. I want us to be together, Bella. Whether you are pregnant or not, I want you and Shane in my life."
She smiled at me.
"I want to give you the world, baby. I know that you experienced a lot of bad stuff with your ex-husband and I want you to know right now, that I will never treat you that way. I will never force you into anything and I want our relationship to be based on trust, love and respect. Will you be my girlfriend and make me the happiest man on earth tonight?"
I looked into her eyes as I waited for her answer.
I couldn't believe that Edward got me on a ferris wheel. I always hated them. But I felt safe with him.
Even though he did pay the attendant to stop us at the top.
I couldn't believe the words that he said to me, and then he asked me to be his girlfriend.
I know that I should be answering him, but all I could do was stare at him.
As I looked at him, I could tell he was in agony waiting for me to answer him.
I was scared of answering him and I was scared not to.
I wanted to be with him, but I was so scared that if I was pregnant that it would change everything.
"Bella," he said as he placed his hand on my cheek.
I looked up at him and blinked a few times.
"I.. I want to be your girlfriend, Edward," I said as he smiled at me.
"Baby, you've made me the happiest man alive," he said as he leaned over and kissed me.
I slowly opened my mouth to him as his tongue slid against mine.
I forgot that we were at the top of the ferris wheel as we kissed.
He pulled away and pecked my lips as the wheel started moving.
I smiled at him as he kissed the top of my head.
The ride slowly stopped and we were the next ones off.
He held my hand as we got off of the ride.
"Bella, I meant everything I said up there."
"I know you did, and I feel the same way you do."
We walked around some more talking and holding hands.
Several times we stopped to kiss and then we'd laugh about how teenagerish we were being.
It felt good being with him, and I felt more carefree than I have ever felt in a long time.
We rode a few other rides and shared an elephant ear, but I was getting tired.
"Babe, are you ready to go?" he asked.
"Yeah, I'm feeling kinda tired. I'm sorry."
"Don't be sorry. I've had a great time. I'll take you home."
"Okay, but when we get to my house, will you come in with me? Alice brought over a pregnancy test and I think its time we found out."
"Sure, I'll come in with you. Now matter what happens with the test, I'll be there for you," he said as he kissed my forehead.
I nodded and he led me to his car.
I hoped that what he said was true, because I'm beginning to think that I am pregnant.