Ch1

It started off like any other day at Hollywood Arts. I was hanging out by the lockers with my friends. I was telling them about my cool new thing I had bought from the Sky catalogue.

"You see, it's a toaster AND a foot warmer! Hahaha, you can put your bread in this bit, and put your feet in that hole right there. It's cool right?"

They all looked at me like I was mad. I was used to it, I knew I was different, or "special" as my Mom put it. I go to a therapist once a week, who tries to make me normal, but I don't think he's very good, because I don't think I've become any more normal yet.

"Cat, why do you need a foot-warming toaster?" Andre asked. I didn't really have an answer; I just thought it was pretty cool. It was a unique thing, and I'm pretty unique, so I thought I should buy it. Yeah, that's what I'll say.

"Well, I bought it because it's unique just like me!"

"You are an absolute whack-job. You know it's only a matter of time before some men turn up at your doorstep and take you away to live in a cell with padded walls…" I shrieked in fear. Jade was my friend, but she could be really mean sometimes. I sometimes wondered if she really liked me. I wish I was more like her, or Tori. They have other friends who don't avoid them in the corridors because they are freaks. Tori just says Jade is jealous of me because I'm nice and she isn't, but I'm not so sure. Besides, I've been in a padded cell before, and they are actually quite fun.

"Hey Jade, quit bullying Cat. You're only depressed because Beck isn't in school again!" Tori always feels the need to stick up for me. I think she feels sorry for me; I act like a child half the time and I think she feels the need to act like a big sister and look after me.

"Yeah and we all know the reason he isn't here don't we! He's too chicken to face me!" Jade had just split up with Beck three days ago, and he hadn't been in since. It was usual for them to split up; they always get back together after a few days. Beck had never taken it like this before though…

"No wonder he's not in after what you treated him like!"

"I don't need you to tell me how to treat my boyfriend, Tori! He wouldn't answer my texts, or my calls. How dare he ignore me! I should be his priority always!"

As Tori and Jade continued to argue, Andre, Robbie and I backed off slowly. Their arguments usually ended up with someone getting hurt, usually Tori. It's best not to get caught up in the middle of it.

"Let's just run and get a teacher," Robbie mumbled to us "before we have to take another trip to hospital."

"No, stay!" Rex replied to Robbie. "Chick fights are always worth watching!"

I wandered off towards my locker to get my books for the next class, while Andre and Robbie went to find a teacher to try to stop Jade from ripping Tori's limbs off her body. I thought back to when Jade and Beck were fighting. It was quite a messy break up this time. Tori and I were there, but couldn't hear what was being said because we were at Andre's birthday party and the music was loud. We were listening around the corner for about ten minutes until Beck rushed past us in tears.

I'd never seen Beck cry before. He didn't seem like the type of guy to cry. He was always so cool, and relaxed. It's why he can cope with Jade. Her fiery personality contrasts to his relaxed personality, and in a way, they bring out the best in each other. I always secretly thought that Jade wasn't good enough for Beck. She treated him like dirt, and he took it. Beck deserves someone better, someone who would appreciate him. Someone like…

No I can't say it. Jade is my friend, and so is Beck. That's all he ever will be. I admit I have feelings for Beck, but it will never happen. I'm a freak, an absolute weirdo; Beck would never go for me. I've seen him look at me before, in a way that made me feel light and fluttery, but I've also seen him look at me like the others do, with a mixture of amusement and pity.

I continued to get my books, when I heard a guy's voice whisper my name.

"What the…" I spun around, trying to see who was trying to get my attention. Someone grabbed me by the arm and dragged me over to the janitor's closet. He had a hood pulled right over his head so you couldn't make out his features. He locked the door behind us and switched off the light.

"Leave me alone! What the hell are you d…" I was cut short by him pressing his lips firmly against mine, and he wrapped his arms around my waist. I briefly relaxed into his arms and responded to the kiss, before remembering that I was probably kissing a total stranger. I pulled away from them quickly and tried to gather my thoughts.

"Who the hell are you?" He pulled down his hood, but I still couldn't make out his face in the darkness.

"Don't you recognise me?" Oh my…

"Beck? What the hell was that for? I mean, why did you...? I'm really confused!" I squeaked, breaking down into tears.

"Cat! Cat, I'm sorry! Don't, don't cry. Please, I didn't want to scare you, please just listen Cat!"

"No, Beck, no! Just leave me alone!" With that, I unlocked the door of the closet and ran. I ran as fast as I could into the toilets.

It took me a while to calm down and think. What had just happened? Beck had kissed me. Ok, so why did I react like that? Because I was shocked, and very confused. Where is Beck now? I doubt he's still in school after the way I just treated him. How must he feel? How should I know how he feels. He just kissed me. He just came into school and kissed me. Why? How should I know! Why? Why, why, why, why why!