4.03 The Girl Next Door tag

Chapter One - Duty

You can't change who you are.

I know. I've tried.

If you kill humans, I'm going to find you and kill you.

It's who I am.

I'm a killer too.

The difference is I kill evil.

It's simple, black and white.

You are what you are.

No gray.

The hunger is too strong.

We're fools to think differently.

That only causes more pain, more death.

I don't like it, but that's the way it is.

You may not kill today or tomorrow.

But it's coming.

I can't risk another life.

I'm sorry.

That's just the way it has to be.

The End


October 2011

All standard disclaimers apply.

Dean, you shocked me with your actions and yet I understand. A hunter's life is a hard life, with brutal actions that damage the man as much as the creatures he hunts. How you maintain your humanity, how you build that shield around your heart to not feel the pain, how you've managed to remain upright for all these years, is truly amazing.

But something's coming. A confrontation, a collapse of your walls, an acknowledgement of the pressure and the pain. It is inevitable.

I only want to bear witness and see you rebuild, stronger than ever. I am so scared for you, but I know you will come through the other side. You are too strong to falter now.

Guh…these boys are tearing my heart out yet again. Nothing is ever easy for them, from the external threat to the inner battle. And yet they persevere. One only hopes there are more of their kind out there, in the real world making those hard decisions to protect us, regardless of the personal cost.

Thanks for reading. I'd love to hear your comments on the drabble and also on Dean's actions.

Just look at our little horror show now! Bold and true and unafraid to get down and dirty. I love examining those shades of gray.

So far I have eight drabbles written and will post more soon.

Later, B.J.