A/N: This little three-shot story is an AU of A Lesson in Release about what might have happened if Jasper had included Edward in Bella's first lesson. In essence, I fanfic'ed my own fanfic. I had a lot of readers who wanted E/B/J to all live happily ever after as a threesome and even though that wasn't where the original story was headed, the idea stuck in my mind, and this was the result. Starts out quite similar but with a very different ending. I pulled it a while back when there was a witch hunt for stories with mature themes, but I've had countless requests to repost it, so here you go! Enjoy! As always, Twilight isn't mine. Most definitely NSFW.
"Edward…please?" I moaned as he pulled away from me, as was typical when we were kissing. It was inevitable. This time, I had made the mistake of licking his lower lip with my tongue as we kissed. I needed him so much and though I tried to be understanding of his fears and his limited self-control, it did nothing to alleviate the urges I had building inside me every time we kissed.
"You know we can't, love. It's too dangerous." Edward sighed as he pressed one last chaste kiss to my lips before releasing me and getting off the bed. "Besides, Alice will undoubtedly burst through the door any second if I don't leave now. We're not going far to hunt, I'll be back by morning. You won't even have time to miss me. Now go back to sleep. If you wake up before I get back, Emmett, Rosalie and Jasper will all be around." He leaned over to kiss my forehead and retreated into the bathroom to change into his hunting clothes.
I flung myself back against the pillows and groaned in frustration. Doesn't he know what he does to me when he kisses my neck, my ear, my collar bone? It drove me mad with desire for him, made me feel as though the very core of my being was going to catch fire. I wished he wouldn't be so careful all the time, that he would do something to release this almost painful craving within me.
Just then the door opened and closed again. For a split second I thought it was Alice coming to drag Edward away but when I opened my eyes, I realized it was an entirely different vampire standing inside the door. "Jasper? What are you doing in here?"
"Bella, can we talk for a minute? Where's Edward?" Jasper pleaded, his voice barely a whisper.
"Oh, of course, Edward's in the bathroom," I replied hesitantly. "What's wrong?"
Without a word Jasper walked over to Edward's sound system, put in a CD, and turned the volume up a little louder than necessary. He then came to sit on the side of the bed by me. Instinctively, I drew the covers a little tighter around me.
"There's no need to be nervous, Bella. I won't hurt you. In fact, I want to help you. I NEED to help you." His voice was still barely above a whisper and sounded so desperate it confused me.
"I don't understand, Jasper. Is something wrong? Has Alice had a vision?"
Jasper laughed nervously. "No, Alice hasn't had a vision. At least, not about anything bad. Bella, you know that I have the ability to project and manipulate emotions, correct?" I nodded silently. "Do you also know that I absorb other people's emotions, feel them as though they were my own?" Again, I nodded. "Good. So could you possibly understand how the intensity of yours and Edward's feelings for each other might be rather difficult for me?" His eyes pleaded with me to understand.
"How could our love for each other make you uncomfortable? I mean, you love Alice just as much, right?"
"Yes, I do," Jasper sighed, as though he were hoping to not have to explain. "But I didn't mean your love, I meant your lust. I know exactly how aroused you are right now, how frustrated you are that Edward is unwilling or unable to satisfy your needs. I also know that he feels the same desire you do, but for him the overpowering emotion is always fear. He really holds back purely out of fear of hurting you, although both Carlisle and I have tried to convince him that wouldn't happen. Regardless, the end result is an unending sexual tension that is about to drive you insane, if it doesn't drive me insane first."
My face flushed with embarrassment, and I pulled my knees against my chest to hide my face in them. "I'm so sorry, Jasper. I had no idea. I don't have to stay here anymore, I'll just have Edward come to Charlie's with me, it's just that I love you all so much and…" I was babbling and I knew it. Thankfully Jasper cut me off before it got worse.
"No Bella, that's not what I meant. We all love you too and I would never ask you to leave. I simply meant that perhaps you would allow me to…alleviate…some of the pressure you're feeling. Give you a release, so to speak." He said it so softly I could barely believe what I was hearing.
"WHAT? Are you out of your mind, Jasper? Are you honestly proposing that I sleep with you? I would NEVER do that! I love Edward! And how could you? You love Alice!" My head shot up to glare at him, but he simply put a finger to his lips in a silent plea for me to lower my voice.
"For the record, I KNOW how much you love Edward. As much if not more than I love Alice. Besides, I'm not proposing that you sleep with me. I want you to help me convince Edward to let me teach him how to be intimate with you. Supervise, if you will. Perhaps that way he can overcome his fears."
I put my head back between my knees. This could not be happening. "Oh. My. God. Does Alice know you're here?" My head was swirling with the onslaught of thoughts in my head, each one worse than the last.
"Yes. She thinks it's a good idea."
Jasper tentatively reached out and touched my elbow, cupping it in his hand and rubbing my forearm gently with his thumb. "It's nothing to be ashamed of Bella. You have needs, it's perfectly natural. I promise I will be as much of a gentleman as the situation will allow. You would not have to expose yourself at all, and I will not touch you, unless of course you asked me to," he said with a nervous chuckle. I moaned and hid my face further behind my hair, but he reached out and tucked it behind my ear. "I'm sorry, I was only teasing. This is rather embarrassing for me too, you know. I wouldn't ask if I thought there was any other way. But I can't take it anymore, Bella, I just can't. Help me, please. Will you let me teach you?"
I sat there silently contemplating his words. I could not deny the truth in them. I had a burning desire that was getting worse with every passing day, and no real way to release it. I was making Edward's life increasingly difficult with my attempts to push his boundaries, and apparently I was making Jasper's life increasingly difficult as well with these consuming emotions. But I had no idea what to do with them. Could I really allow Jasper to bear witness to mine and Edward's first real intimate encounter? On the other hand, I had to admit that he most certainly had enough experience to be able to talk us through it, he did promise to be honorable, and it would help everyone involved. With great trepidation, I slowly nodded my head.
Just then Edward emerged from the bathroom, looking at Jasper warily. "What's going on here?"
"Edward, Bella and I were just having a conversation about the difficulties you have been having being intimate, and the frustration both of you, and consequently me as well, are feeling. I think, and Bella agrees, that perhaps if you allow me to teach you, it might help. Besides, if I were here to protect Bella perhaps you would not be so afraid of losing control."
Edwards face distorted with rage, "Jasper, please tell me this is a joke. The whole idea is preposterous."
"I think we should listen to him," I said quietly.
"What? Are you serious?"
"Yes, Edward. I can't take this anymore. Every time you kiss me I get so worked up and then you back away. It leaves me feeling frustrated and rejected. And apparently the two of us are driving Jasper insane. Jasper promised to be a total gentleman, and even Alice thinks it's a good idea. Can't we just try?"
Edward sighed, looking utterly defeated. "Alright, Bella, we'll try. But if this gets out of hand, I'm putting an end to it and I don't want any arguments about it. Agreed?" I nodded. "Agreed, Jasper?" Jasper nodded as well.
"Okay," Jasper stated, much calmer than I expected, moving to the foot of the bed as far away from me as possible. He leaned back on the footboard, one leg folded up under him, the other dangling off the edge. "Do you have a bra on, Bella?" I nodded my head yet again, unable to speak or make eye contact. "Take it off," he commanded gently.
"But you said I didn't have to get naked…"
"Bella, please trust me. Don't you know how to take a bra off without removing your shirt? I thought they taught every girl how to do that in eighth grade or something. Take it off."
I did as I was told, and tossed my pale pink bra onto the floor by the side of the bed. "Pink, huh? I never would've guessed…" his voice drifted off.
"Jasper," Edward growled.
"Okay, you're right. I'm sorry." His voice sounded totally sincere. "Now, lay back on the bed. Good. Run your hands over her stomach. Feel how soft her skin feels there for a moment." His voice was authoritative, almost academic. No sign of underlying emotion at all. Edward laid down next to me and made sure we were thoroughly under the blankets before lifting my t-shirt just enough to lay his hands on my stomach. Edward began lightly running his fingers back and forth across my stomach just above the waistband of my pajama bottoms, tracing small circles over my skin. It felt amazingly pleasant. He tucked his head into my neck and I could feel his cool breath send shivers down my spine as he kissed me.
"How does that feel, Bella?" Jasper's silky voice cut into my reverie.
"Good," I admitted timidly.
"I thought so. Now I want you to move your hands slowly upward and lightly caress her breasts. Trace your fingers around her curves." A fresh wave of embarrassment flashed through me, and I blushed furiously.
"Bella, we don't have to do this," Edward whispered in my ear, "We can stop right now if you want."
"No, please, don't stop," I whispered back.
His hands began to move upwards slowly. When he reached the space between my breasts he swept his fingers around the bottom curve outwards toward my sides and then upwards and around, drawing increasingly smaller circles until they lightly caressed my nipples. They immediately hardened in response to the tingling sensation trailing where his fingers roamed. Edward groaned softly.
"Good. Now take one of her nipples in between your thumb and your forefinger. Gently knead it, squeeze it." Jasper's voice, though still authoritative, had taken on a slightly huskier tenor. When Edward did as he commanded, I felt a rocket of arousal shoot through my body unlike anything I had ever felt before. I became aware of an increasing wetness between my legs, soaking my underwear.
"Does…does that feel good, Bella?" Edward's voice was now strained, barely a whisper in the dark.
"Yes, Edward. It feels so good. I had no idea this could feel so good." I was trembling under his touch.
"Now do the same to the other nipple. Tug on it a little, see if she likes that sensation as well." Another bolt of lightning shot through my system as Edward increased the intensity of his ministrations. My head began to rock back and forth involuntarily.
"God!" Jasper yelled suddenly.
I was suddenly alarmed. "What's wrong?"
"I should have realized that your arousal would only continue to build, that this would get worse before it got better. I… can't take this." His voice was now pained.
"Do you need us to stop?" I asked, suddenly unsure what to do, propping myself up on my elbows to look at him, his silhouette slumped in the corner, his head hung low. I was so focused on my own pleasure I failed to see how this could distress him. After all, he was feeling everything Edward and I were feeling combined.
"No. You need to do this. We all need for you to do this. It's just…would you mind if…I touched myself? You won't see anything, I promise." Now it was Jasper's turn to be embarrassed. For some reason, the idea of Jasper touching himself while telling us how to proceed only served to increase the ache between my legs. Edward, however, did not agree.
"Must you, Jasper? This is hard enough as it is without embarrassing Bella further."
"It's okay, Edward," I replied huskily, a mixture of arousal and shyness. "I don't mind." Edward nodded his consent. I laid back down and clamped my eyes shut. I heard Jasper breathe a sigh of relief and then the quiet sound of a zipper opening.
"Now, where were we? You were squeezing her nipples. Put your finger into her mouth, get it wet, and do it again. A little harder this time."
Edward put his forefinger into my mouth and I licked my tongue around it, sucking on it gently. I heard Edward inhale sharply, as did Jasper. "That's it, sweetheart." Jasper said quietly. The kneading sensation on my nipples combined with the now cool moisture was completely different than what it felt like a moment ago, and I liked it even better. I arched my back into the sensation and began rubbing my thighs together, writhing under Edward's touch.
"Remove her pajama bottoms." By this point, all embarrassment had long since left me. All coherent thought had left me. There was only me and Edward and the sexy commanding voice at the other end of the bed. Edward took them off easily, running his fingers down my legs as he did.
"Good. You're doing fine, Edward. Now run your fingers along the outside of her panties over her core." God, I was so wet, my underwear was clinging to me and I could feel my swollen folds throbbing under his icy-hot touch. Edward traced a pattern up and down my sex and I desperately wanted to hear Jasper's voice again as the bubble of pressure inside me continued to build.
"Please…Jasper. I need more."
"Take her panties off." There was no more academia in his voice. It echoed my desire. Edward slowly removed my panties, tossing them next to my bra, then came back up to kiss me fervently.
"God, Bella. I can smell your arousal from here. You smell delicious. Are you wet, darlin'?"
"Yes. So wet."
"That's good. We're almost there. I want you to take a single finger and run it up in between her folds. Slowly. Can you do that?"
Edward did not speak, just looked deep in my eyes as he did what Jasper asked. My hips bucked in the air against his hand as he reached a sensitive spot.
"That's her clit, Edward. Rub your thumb against it. See how she reacts."
Edward did as he was told and I was overcome with the sensation, a deep guttural moan escaping from deep in my throat as the moisture flowed freely from me. Edward groaned in response. He lifted my shirt higher under the blankets and began kissing my stomach as he caressed me. It felt amazing.
"I'm glad you're enjoying this," Jasper chuckled softly, "It's only going to get better from here. Spread your legs, Bella. Wide. Lick the inside of her folds, Edward, tease her clit with your tongue."
Edward hesitated. This was the moment I had been waiting for. The moment where Edward pulled away and decided he could go no further. I tried to contain my disappointment when suddenly, I felt him lower his body between my legs, staring at me for a moment. "Beautiful" he whispered, then leaned in to kiss my sex chastely before running his tongue the length of my core, then flicking his tongue in a circular motion around my clit. Edward purred as my hips bucked into his face.
"Edward, does she taste as good as she smells?" Jasper's voice was heavy with desire.
"Better. I've never tasted anything so good in my life. Not even her blood," Edward replied, his lips moving against me all the while. He thrust his tongue inside my entrance and I was lost. My body instantly responded to finally being touched in the way it had craved for so long. I moaned again.
"I'll bet. Slide a finger inside her, Edward. Tell me how she feels." Edward slowly slid a single finger inside my depths. The surprise and the shock of his cold finger caused electrical sensations throughout my nether region.
Edward moaned in pleasure. "She feels so hot, and moist, and soft, and tight, all at once."
"I wish I could feel what you're feeling. Now thrust your finger in and out." I heard what I could only describe as a rubbing sound in the background and realized that it was Jasper touching himself in sync with the rhythm of Edward's touch. It was such a turn-on.
"Put a second finger in. Curl them upwards inside her towards her belly button." The increased stretching made it easier to feel every sensation, to feel his palm come in contact with my clit, coolness against my heat, with every thrust causing the most delicious torture I had ever known. Suddenly he touched a spot deep inside me with his fingertips that sent my body flying into the air begging for more. My other hand grabbed the sheets, desperate to hold onto anything to ground me.
"Edward! Oh Yes!"
"That's it. Again. Harder." Jasper growled. The next thrust sent me even higher and I completely abandoned myself to the feeling.
"I'm so close!"
"Keep thrusting. Faster. Rub her clit with your thumb. Take her nipple into your mouth, tease it with your tongue."
A few more frantic thrusts of his fingers and I tumbled over the edge into the sweetest oblivion I had ever known. At the same moment, I heard Jasper groan with his own release. "Oh God!" As the bubble of pleasure dissipated into peaceful satisfaction, I found myself suddenly exhausted and covered in a sheen of sweat. I curled myself against Edward under the blankets and snuggled my forehead into his neck. As I did, I felt Edward's arousal hard against my thigh, even through his clothing. I looked up to find him staring back at me, his eyes black with desire. He crashed his lips against mine and kissed me more passionately than he ever had. His tongue tickled my lip and I opened my mouth to allow him entrance. He slid his tongue against mine hesitantly at first, but then allowed the kiss to gain intensity. His hand was back under my shirt, gripping my breasts, running his thumb over my hardened nubs.
He pulled away when he realized I needed air and took the moment to remove his clothing at vampire speed, then returned to continue the assault on my senses. Just as I was close to a second climax, Edward positioned himself over me, careful to not put his full weight against me. I could feel the slight pressure of his hardened length pressing against my entrance.
"I don't know if I can do this, Bella, but I want to try," Edward whispered, "I need you so bad right now."
"I won't let you hurt her," Jasper appeared next to us on the bed. Edward nodded in silence.
"Are you sure, Bella?"
"I've never been more sure of anything in my life, Edward."
Edward took a deep breath and slowly entered me, stopping when he felt my barrier.
"This is going to hurt, Bella."
"I know. Please, Edward, don't tease me anymore…"
Edward thrust himself into me in one smooth motion. The pain coursed through my system and my hand reached out of its own accord, grabbing Jasper's hand for support, wrapping my other arm around Edward's back. Jasper traced circles on the palm of my hand with his thumb. Edward stayed perfectly still while the pain subsided, aided by Jasper's calming influence.
"Jasper, I can smell…her blood…" Edward's voice was strained.
"Edward, you can handle this. It's only a little blood. Just remember, this is Bella, and you desire her body more than her blood."
"What about you, Jasper? Are you okay?" Edward asked him, still sounding as though he were struggling for control.
"Don't get upset, Edward, but the cravings I have for Bella at the moment have nothing to do with her blood."
Edward growled lowly and I could feel the reverberations against my chest. I had to get his attention back to me, and fast. "I'm okay, now, Edward, the pain is gone." Edward nodded and brought his lips back to mine before slowing removing himself almost completely, and then thrusting in again. He repeated this a few more times before allowing himself to speed up and work into a rhythm. It was utopia on earth.
"More, harder, Edward," I moaned into his mouth as I ran my hand up his back and tangled my fingers in his hair. My other hand stayed intertwined in Jasper's, for some reason I couldn't explain I needed to touch him in even the smallest way, feel his skin against mine. I squeezed his hand and he squeezed mine in response.
"Do what she asks, Edward, you're not going to hurt her. You are in control." Edward did as I asked and within moments I was climaxing again. I could feel my muscles clench around Edward and he growled in response, finally giving in to the sensations as he thrust harder and faster than before, suddenly slamming into me to the hilt before screaming my name. I felt the cool liquid shoot into me as Edward reached his release. He carefully removed himself and slid next to me, wrapping his arms around me and making sure we were completely under the blankets.
"Thank you, Jasper. So much." I felt the mattress shift as he bent down and gently kissed my forehead before getting off the bed.
"No, Bella, thank you. You have no idea how much better I feel."
"We can guess," I mumbled contentedly, unconsciousness overcoming me quickly as I snuggled against Edward and Jasper headed for the door.