At the moment I'm feeling extremely depressed cause 1) the trip to Disney sucked, there was nothing happy about it. 2) I got nothing that I wanted for Xmas only things I needed which were clothes. 3) my bf of 1 week broke up with me cause things weren't working out and he saw me as a friend. He didn't even give us the chance to really get to know each other! or even go on a date or two! -sigh- sorry if this chapter will be depressing...I fucking hate my life.

In this chapter will be contents of the book as well as episode 5 and 6.

Disclaimer: I only own Safiya


The first page held the index but I skipped to where the real reading began. I read all day while Undertaker worked on corpses. Once I finished it was just about sunset. The basics of the book were:

The color of your wings show your importance. With good angels white is the most important they symbolize archangels like Michael, Gabriel, and Raphael. After white in order are pink, brown, purple, green, grey, brown/orange, blue/white, green/pink, and red/orange. For bad angels the most important are usually bad colors. In order are black, silver, white, red, dark gold, and green. What they represent:

Good:

White: Archangels

Pink: Love, my area. There is one so far, me.

Brown: Animal, they deliver animal souls. There are four, James, Jeremy, Janet, and Julia. I think it's weird that there names all begin with J.

Purple: Music, they're voice can be heard before death, before you fall asleep, when you wake up, etc. any time you wouldn't pay attention until you here the melodious voice. There are two, Melody and Erik.

Green: Plants, they help plants, make sure everything is balanced with the plants and help farmers with their crops in secret. There are four, Pamela, Ivy, Frederick, and Jacob.

Bright Gold: Good luck. There is one, Joseph.

Grey: Weather, they bring rain, snow, wind, and help with seasons. There are two, Sonya and Edgar.

Brown/orange: Fall, brings the season of fall. There is one, Autumn.

Blue/white: Winter, brings the season of winter. There is one, Jack also known as Jack Frost.

Green/pink: Spring, brings the season of spring. There is one, Henry.

Red/orange: Summer, brings the season of summer. There is one, Summer.

Bad: These angels are often referred to as fallen or demons but still hold a place in angel court.

Black: Darkness/evil. There is one, Lilith.

Silver: Pain, they cause pain mentally, physically, or emotionally. There are three for each pain, Damien, Draco, and Vlad. All are brothers.

White: Massacre, they cause chaos whenever they can using whatever excuse. There are two though in the book it says they joined together. Whatever that means. Ash and Angela.

Red: Sex or Lust, they influence unsafe sex, one night stands, or sex without love even rape. There are two, Seth and Verona.

Dark Gold: Bad luck often mistaken for good luck until something bad happens. There is one, Jinx.

Green: Greed, they influence people to indulge in money until they either die or commit enough sin to end up in hell. There are two, Nathaniel and Mariana.

With each angel were pictures of the most current ones. I memorized them so I could make sure if I ran into one of them I'd know how to deal with them.

The enemies of good angels were: most demons, the devil, most bad angels, bad witches/wizards, Jin/Genies, and most vampires.

Friends were: all shinigami, aged demons that knew how to act, good witches/wizards, elves, fae/fairies, and the main shinigami/angel of death; in the book it says he has disappeared.

The enemies of bad angels were: most good angels, few demons, good witches/wizards, and shinigami.

Friends were: few good angels, most demons, bad witches/wizards, and vampires.

The only way to kill a good angel is to be killed by a shinigami with their death scythe or be killed by a demon attack.

The only way to kill a bad angel is the same way as killing a good angel.

Rules for good angels were:

1. Do not kill humans unless necessary to mission or job.

2. Do not have sex unless partner is lover or soul mate.

3. Do not mate with demon or bad angel unless proper paperwork is signed and you have permission.

4. Do not take a soul from hell.

Rules for bad angels were

1. Do not attack good angels.

2. Do not mate with shinigami or good angel unless proper paperwork is signed and you have permission.

3. Do not take a soul from heaven.

4. Do not kill demons, shinigami, or vampires unless absolutely necessary or is in a mission.

The rest of the book was mostly the history of angels.

I closed the book with a sigh. I set it aside with the letter. My stomach then let out a grumble. I heard Undertaker chuckle from over near the basin where he was washing his hands.

"Would you like to go out and eat?" he asked me once he was finished. I nodded while smiling shyly and holding my stomach. He held a hand out and I grasped it allowing him to pull me up from the chair I resided in for the past couple of hours.

We left his shop to go eat. I slid my arm into his and we began walking.

"Aren't you going to lock your shop?" I asked curiously.

"Nope." he replied smiling. It was a little hard walking with him because he had a skip in his step but I managed.

"Why not?" I asked.

"Know anyone who would want to steal body parts?" he asked chuckling. I laughed.

"No. I suppose not." I replied. We were finally out of the alley and onto the street. Other couples were out and about. Undertaker and I received many weird looks but I paid them no mind.

"Where would you like to eat, love?" he asked. I thought for a moment putting a finger to my slightly pouted lips and looked up.

"How about the diner down the street from my mother's hospital? I often go there for lunch." I replied looking at him with a smile.

"Alright, the diner it is then." he said nodding once then pulling me along into a skip. I laughed before skipping with him. He may be weird but he was a great person to be around him. I gazed at him fondly as we slowly came to a stop in front of the diner.

We stepped in through the doors and waited to be seated.

"Hello Safiya, I haven't seen you in a while." Tanya, a waitress I had gotten to know greeted me.

"Hello Tanya, I've been busy lately. Table for two please." I requested after greeting her. She seemed to just notice the smiling Undertaker. Her smile disappeared and she nodded hesitantly before grabbing two menus and leading us to a table.

"Right this way my lady." she said. She then seated us at a table in the back. The only light we had was a candle in the center of the table and a candle in a holder on the wall.

She set down the menus.

"I'll be back for your orders soon, would you like something to drink while you wait?" she asked seemingly nervous around Undertaker.

"Water for me please." I said then looked to Undertaker.

"Red wine, if you ya don't mind." he requested. She smiled nervously then nodded.

"Right away." she said then left. Undertaker pulled out my seat for me.

"Thank you." I said sitting down. He chuckled and nodded before sitting across from me.

"So how long have you been an Undertaker?" I asked without looking at my menu. I already knew what I wanted.

"A long time. Since long before you were born actually." he replied chuckling. I giggled.

"Wow. So I guess shinigami can live a while too huh?" I asked. He nodded.

"I wish you wouldn't hide your face." I said softly as he looked at the menu. He looked at me with a small frown.

"Well I can't have people gettin' suspicious over my eyes now can I?" he replied tilting his head at me.

"No I suppose not." I said. Tanya returned with our drinks.

"Thanks." I said. Undertaker just nodded his head and began to sip his wine.

"Are you ready to order?" she asked. I nodded and looked to Undertaker who gestured for me to go first.

"I'll have my usual of roast pork with specialty potatoes." I said.

"I'll take the same." Undertaker said with that usual smile of his. Tanya nodded and took our menus.

"Would you like dinner rolls while you wait?" she asked. I nodded. She then left.

"So how will I know when I've found my love? I've never done this and in order to do my job I have to be in love with someone." I asked him.

"Oh you'll know. To be in love is a great feeling." he said excitedly before giggling. I laughed.

"I sure hope so. Otherwise no one would want it. Wait. How do you know?" I asked. He shrugged and giggled. I smiled and chuckled while shaking my head and giving him a fond look again.

The rest of our dinner went well with me telling him some of the jokes he's heard from me that he wanted to hear again. Luckily we were in the back so no one paid attention to his laughing.

He payed the bill for me and we left and headed our way back to his shop.

In the middle of our walk I heard a strange roar come from down an alley.

"What was that?" I asked looking into the dark alley.

"I don't know." Undertaker replied.

"You go ahead, I'll see you later." I said running into the alley to find the source of the noise. Once I did I regretted ever looking. I froze a stared in shock as a man with shocking red long hair stood over my mother with a strange machine stabbed into her. I recognized his clothing.

"Grell?" I whispered in shock. Then I felt my wings come out from my back because of such a shock. He turned to me and was surprised. I fell to my knees looking at my dead mother as she laid lifeless on the ground.

"What-why-why did you kill her?" I asked with tears falling. I noticed Ciel and Sebastian standing off to the side but didn't acknowledge them.

"Why?" I whispered before looking down closing my eyes and sobbing. My wings curled slightly around me. I heard a rustle of fabric then footsteps coming closer. I opened my eyes and looked to see Grell, the man that just killed my mother standing in front of me.

"Why?" I repeated. Then I felt pure anger. Not giving him a chance to respond I flew at him and pounded at his chest relentlessly but pathetically as well. He just held my upper arms and allowed me to do so. My hits grew slower but eventually stopped and I collapsed into his arms and cried.

"She grew to weak my dear. She became just a plain woman. No longer the madam red, I grew to love. But I have you now. My red angel. Since the day you came back home I knew you were different. You had become the angel you were born to be." Grell spoke softly as I sobbed. I felt hands on my shoulders pull me away. I saw it was Sebastian glaring at Grell.

He then looked at me with soft eyes.

"An angel's tears should not go to waste." he spoke softly. Then he bent down and licked my tear covered cheek. I gasped and tensed. He let out a pleasure filled sigh.

"So divine and sweet with pure innosence." he said with closed eyes. When he opened them they glowed pinkish red with slits. I gasped and pulled away.

"You're a demon!" I cried with shock. He smirked. I then looked to Ciel with questioning eyes. 'He contracted with a demon?' I thought. Ciel nodded seemingly reading my thoughts.

Grell sighed. "Farewell Madam Red, my angel." he said before beginning to walk away.

Ciel closed my mother's eyes before speaking. "Well what are you waiting for? I thought I ordered you to put an end to Jack the Ripper. It's not over yet." he said. Grell stopped walking. My tears were still flowing as I kneeled beside Ciel and shielded him from the rain using my wings. Ciel looked up at a shocked Sebastian.

"One is left. Stop standing there and kill him!" Ciel ordered. Sebastian then smirked evilly.

"Certainly." he replied. Grell sighed tired and annoyed

"I was going to spare you. Professional courtesy and all that, but if you insist." he said then his odd machine started up again and he swung it at Sebastian who quickly dodged. I closed my eyes and turned away not wanting to see the bloodshed.

I unfurled my wings the curled them around Ciel and I to protect us. My eyes remained closed until I felt it was the right time to open them. Ciel left from my wings and I opened my eyes to see him put the coat on my mother. He remained kneeled beside her. I couldn't bring myself to join him, fearing I would begin to cry again.

I heard Grell screaming above us and looked up to see him falling towards Ciel but Sebastian hit him causing Grell to land a few feet away. Grell's weapon landed close to us with a coat jammed into it.

"I am sorry my lord I misjudged the distance." Sebastian said with a close eye smile.

"You look pretty awful." Ciel said with a smirk.

"He caused me a little bit of trouble actually." Sebastian said. I stood up and walked over to join them. Avoiding looking at the coat covered body of my mother. Though tears continued to slip down my cheeks one by one.

"I'll...show you...someday." a beat of Grell grumbled out. Sebastian looked over at him and walked over to the weapon.

"Oh dear, I suppose one can't kill a reaper with fists alone." he said while pulling the weapon from the ground.

"Well then, I'll just try this, his very special reaper scythe." Sebastian said walking over to Grell and pulling the coat from the weapon, un-jamming it. Grell pushed himself up shakily and tried to crawl away in panic but Sebastian slammed his foot on Grell holding him in place as he started up the weapon.

"We finally found something you're good at, screaming. And as a reward I shall kill you with your beloved weapon." Sebastian said as he lifted the scythe preparing to strike.

"No please stop!" Grell cried from under Sebastian's foot. My eyes grew wide and I ran to them.

"I can tell you who killed the kid's parents." Grell shouted. Ciel and I gasped. Sebastian began to bring the weapon down.

"Sebastian wait!" I cried out running to him with an arm outstretched. But I wasn't the one to stop the weapon. I froze and looked at the pole that stopped the scythe. All our eyes followed it up to a rooftop where a silhouette was standing.

"I apologize for interrupting!" he cried out and retracted his pole which seemed to be hedge clippers.

"Let me introduce myself, I am William T. Spears and administrator of the grim reaper staffing association." he said showing us a file in his free hand. He then fixed his glasses using the clippers.

"I've come to retrieve that reaper there." William said. Grell gazed up at him happily.

"William, oh William did you come to save-" Grell was cut off by William jumping down and landing on Grell's head. Even though he killed my mother I still felt concern. I guess an angel of love isn't really capable of feeling hate. William then opened the file/book and began to read from it.

"Attention reaper Grell Sutcliffe, you have violated several regulations. First you killed people not on the 'to die' list, second you used a death scythe modified without authorization, and finally you offered someone classified information regarding the identity of his relatives murderer." he finished with another kick to Grell's head which was still in the ground.

As William closed the file/book it disappeared and he stepped off Grell to stand in front of Sebastian and I. He then bowed.

"I apologize for all the trouble this wretch has caused. Here please accept my card." he said then used the clippers to pull a card out of his jacket. He held it in front of us. I took it when Sebastian made no move to retrieve it.

"Honestly, I never thought I'd see the day when I'd have to bow my head to demon scum like you. Though I don't mind bowing to an angel." he said then stood straight and looked at me.

"I had heard there was a new angel on Earth but wasn't sure if the rumors were true. Tell me, are you the angel of love I've been hearing about?" he asked. I nodded. He gave a small smile.

"Glad to know the angel of love is a beautiful pure girl, unlike the last one." he said. Then turned and grabbed Grell with his clippers.

"Wait! What happened to the last angel?" I asked causing him to stop.

"He was tainted with lust and fell. We now know him as Seth, an angel of lust. Now come along Grell, we're already short handed and now you go and give me more paperwork to do." William said then turned to leave again dragging Grell behind him. Sebastian threw Grell's weapon at William only to have him catch it between two fingers. William turned his head to glare at Sebastian.

"I assume you'll want that, yes?" Sebastian said with a closed eye smile.

"Yes thank you. Now if you'll please excuse us." William said and let it drop onto Grell making him groan in protest. William fixed his glasses again then continued dragging Grell then they disappeared into the darkness.

Sebastian sighed and relaxed. I then remember Grell and William's eyes and let out a soft gasp.

"Their eyes, were they-?" I began to ask but Sebastian cut me off.

"Yes, they were reapers." he said then turned and walked over to Ciel.

"I'm sorry my lord I allowed half of jack the ripper to escape." he apologized. Ciel didn't reply. I turned to look at him and saw he had a thoughtful face mixed with sorrow.

"It's alright, it's- done." he said. Though his face still held sorrow. Sebastian kneeled beside him and felt his face.

"You're chilled to the bone master. Let's hurry back to the house now. I'll make some hot tea to warm you up." he said.

"That's a good idea." Ciel said before standing. Though he stumbled and fell onto Sebastian. I stepped foward to help. Sebastian tried to help him but was pushed away.

"But master-"

"No! Stay back I can stand on my own." Ciel said harshly. Tears came to my eye when I realized he's just trying to be strong and mature even though he's just a child that has lost his aunt.

"I'm fine, just a little tired that's all." he said. He and Sebastian began to leave.

"Um, Ciel?" I said bringing my hands to my chest shyly. They stopped and turned to me seeming to remember I was still there.

"What is it now?" he asked.

"Uh, I have no where else to go." I replied looking at him with tear filled eyes. He looked at me shocked then softened at the sight of my tears.

"You may stay with us as long as you wish." Ciel answered with closed eyes. I smiled softly and began to follow but stopped and looked at my mother's body.

"The police will take care of it well my lady." Sebastian informed me. I looked at him and nodded then caught up to them. Sebastian cleared his throat causing me to look at him. He then glanced to my wings.

"You wouldn't want to walk the streets with your wings in plain sight even at this late hour." he said.

"Oh right." I replied then closed my eyes and made them disappear not realizing that I left behind a red tipped pink feather behind.

It took us an hour to walk back and Sebastian gave Ciel hot tea and sent him to bed while I took a got bath then cried myself to sleep.

A few days later was my mothers funeral. I couldn't bring my self to go inside and look at her body so I remained outside clinging to Undertaker and crying into his chest listening to the church bells ringing and the sobs coming from few of my mother's close friends including Lizzy.

Ciel arrived with Sebastian a red satin dress on his shoulder. Ciel went inside while Sebastian remained beside an open carriage full of red rose petals. I sniffled and cried more as I watched them flitter into the church blown by the wind to create a beautiful dance of petals.

I laid my head on Undertaker's chest as he held me close and stood next to the carriage. I ignored Sebastian glares at Undertaker.

A few hours later the funeral was over and mother was buried. We now stood in front of the grave of the last victim of Jack the Ripper. I chuckled at a song I had written a few weeks ago and began humming, they were silent as they listen to me. I then sang the words and eventually the whole song softly but loud enough for them to hear.

"If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh well
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satinLay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger,
I've never known the loving of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand,
There's a boy here in town, says he'll love me forever,
Who would have thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life, well,
I've had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I've been singing
Funny when you're dead how people start listening

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh
The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep them in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls." I faded out. It was silent for a few minutes before I spoke again.

"So this is her." I said while gripping Undertakers arm which held a bouquet. He smiled down at me.

"Yes indeed it is. My last customer from Jack the Ripper." Undertaker replied.

"Apparently she was an immigrant, she had no family to claim her body in this country." Ciel informed us. Undertaker started to poke Ciel lightly with his free hand.

"So our kind earl had me pretty her up and bury her, even had a gravestone erected. An extremely noble act on his part eh?" Undertaker said while continuing to poke Ciel.

"This isn't noble at all, the noble thing to do would be to save her, and I could have if I put her life first. But no I had to catch them. Apprehending Jack the Ripper was more important. I knew they intended to kill her, I knew yet I let her die along with my aunt." Ciel said. Tears gathered in my eyes again and I clung to Undertaker tighter. He pulled me with him to stand behind Ciel. he bent down to speak to Ciel.

"You regret what you did my lord?" he asked.

"No I don't. Jack the Ripper is gone forever. And I've done exactly as her majesty's asked of me." Ciel replied. I scowled at the mention of the queen.

"Victoria eh? I don't very much like her. She just sits back and watches as you do all her dirty work for her. It doesn't seem fair to me." Undertaker said.

"My thoughts exactly." I commented softly.

"That's what the Phantomhives do, it's our duty." Ciel began while lifting his hand with the Phantomhive ring on it.

"Passed down through generations along with this ring." he finished.

"That ring reminds me of a collar a master puts on a dog. You're forever tied to the queen by that ring." Undertaker commented. I pulled away and looked at him questioningly but he ignored my look and attempted to put his hand on Ciel's shoulder but Ciel rejected his touch.

"I chose to this life. Stop!" Ciel cried pushing Undertaker away but Undertaker just grabbed Ciel's tie and pulled him close.

"Lord Phantomhive, you should be wary of the path your duty is taking you on. That collar may choke you yet." Undertaker said harshly before releasing Ciel. Ciel then stumbled into Sebastian's arms. I just stood by and watched this happen.

"But we wouldn't want that would we? Do come by if you should need my assistance again. You and that hilarious butler are always welcome." Undertaker said shoving the flowers into Ciel's arms then walked off. I looked back and forth between Ciel and Undertaker before following Undertaker.

"What was that about?" I asked softly once I caught up.

"Oh just a little warning to the young earl." Undertaker replied and chuckled. I wanted to question further but decided against it.

On our way back to his shop I stopped at my mothers old office.

"I'll see you soon Undertaker." I said then went inside. I gathered my belongings then posted a note on the door saying the our doctor's business was closed until further notice. I'll continue it when my spirits raise but for now I'll remain with Ciel.

I then took a long walk to Ciel's estate. Once I arrived Sebastian took my bags and took me to my room. I thanked him and began to unpack. For now I shall reside in this estate and help Ciel as much as I can.

R&R please. I don't know when another chapter will be out. Im extremely depressed and need to get my life together. Goodbye.