Breakdown

From: J. Shepard

To: Thane Krios

Thane,

Thanks for letting me know you've arrived safely. I really wish I could have gone with you, but I am still confined to the Citadel. Are you settling in okay? Is the desert everything you hoped for?

I've read the reports you asked the doctors to send me (well, Mordin explained them to me), and it sounds like your recovery is going well. Really well, actually! I'm so relieved you agreed to the surgery, Thane, I can't even begin to tell you. I keep thinking of the things we can do when this whole nightmare is over. Places we could go, where we could live and all the trouble we can get into together.

The whole universe has opened up for us, Thane, and it's made more determined than ever to get rid of the Reapers so we can enjoy it together.

How's Kolyat doing? Has he forgiven me for punching him yet? I'm glad he's with you; this will give you some time to reconnect, and he can make sure that you are cared for properly. My last attempt at making drell cuisine didn't go so well, as I am sure you would like to forget! Just relax and get well, and spend as much time with Kolyat as you can. We'll probably be very busy when you rejoin us.

Everything is quiet here for now, though. The Normandy is stuck on the Citadel while the Council considers my report. I know many of them think that I am exaggerating the danger at best, and at worst outright lying, just to get myself out of trouble. I dread to think what it will take to prove to them I am telling the truth. I am trying to get the crew to enjoy their extended shore-leave, but they're all just as twitchy as I am. We know what's coming.

I miss you. I could use some of your patience right now, and everything seems so much easier when you are here. The bed in my quarters feels too big without you sharing it. I wish that you were with me, but knowing that you are recuperating is the next best thing.

Take care of yourself, love, and say hi to Kolyat for me.

From: Thane Krios

To: J. Shepard

Siha,

I am feeling much better. The air here agrees with me. The desert is everything I had ever imagined but will be far more beautiful when you are watching it beside me.

All the time that I have left belongs to you, though I will admit that I am pleased that the amount of time has increased. Before I met you, I did not believe that I was worthy of a transplant, but fighting the Reapers at your side is a worthy cause, one I can be proud of. You have given me everything and I look forward to exploring the universe at your side, Siha.

I am performing the exercises diligently, and even if I was not inclined to do so, Kolyat would make sure of it. We are growing closer each day, though there is still the distance of years to overcome. He is not the child I left behind, and I am not the man he remembers. I have missed so much of his life and it is still difficult for him to understand why I left him. I am grateful that we have this time together, even though it means being apart from you.

I know the Council will see the truth of your words. I just hope they see that truth in time to prepare. You are a persuasive woman; I know that you will get them to see the sense in your warnings.

If you need me, Siha, for patience, or support or simply to hold you at night, I will come to you. I can convalesce just as easily on the Citadel or the Normandy as I can here. I miss your body besides mine as well, but I have many memories of you to ease me into sleep.

May the Goddess Arashu watch over you until we are reunited.

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From: J. Shepard

To: Thane Krios

No way, buddy. You're staying put. The doctors said that breathing warm, dry air would help to speed your recovery. Right now your job is to bask in as much sun as you can, do your exercises, and relax. Commander's orders.

When we come to pick you up I expect your scales to be bright and glossy, and your stamina to have increased as much as the doctors expect. Believe me, I'll be checking it!

Don't worry about me, I'm just feeling sorry for myself. I hate being stuck here, idle and useless, bandying words with politicians and trying to get them to act while I know that there are enemies out there that I should be fighting.

Things have improved slightly though. The Council have received reports independent of mine of a Reaper sighting and have sent us to investigate. They have also sent along a couple of 'impartial witnesses' to give them yet another report when we get back. I also know they are, unofficially of course, to keep an eye on me and the crew and report back anything suspicious in our actions.

Well, let them watch. They'll see what we're up against soon enough.

I'm glad you are getting along better with Kolyat, even if it is difficult at times. He's bound to have questions and lingering hurt feelings, though. If I ever met my parents, the first thing I would want to know is why they left me behind. It will just take time and patience to work through your issues, and now you have both of those things.

My memory isn't as good as yours, true, but my imagination more than makes up for it! I've started wearing one of your old shirts to bed. It doesn't fit properly; barely reaching my thighs and not quite fastening over my chest, but it's soft against my bare skin and it still smells like you. When I close my eyes it's like you are holding me.

What memories do you relive before you go to sleep? I can't help being curious.

Look after yourself, love, and I'll see you soon.

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From: Thane Krios

To J. Shepard

Siha,

Please be careful while you investigate the Reaper ship. I do not like the thought of you in battle without me being there to guard your back. My health is improving every day; it will not be long before I rejoin you to fight at your side. I look forward to that day.

I hope that the evidence of the Reaper ship is compelling enough to cause the Council to take action. You have nothing to hide from your watchers, and much to gain if you win them to your cause.

I have confided in Kolyat the reasons why I left him behind, told him of the fate of each of his mother's murderers. He is no longer a child, to be protected from the ugliness of the galaxy. He was not pleased, though he was satisfied, after I had finished talking. He knows that I did not leave him lightly, and knowing that Irikah's killers no longer pollute the worlds has given him some resolution as well. I think things will be much better between us now. Thank you, for suggesting that I ask Kolyat to stay with me, and for your constant support in this.

If you meant to encourage my rest, you probably shouldn't have put that image in my mind, Siha. I look forward to making a memory of you in my jacket- and even more so, helping you out of it.

Until then, I console myself with the memories of your hair; bright against the white pillows as you lie beneath me, eyes heavy-lidded and dazed from my kisses. I remember the warmth of your body, the softness of your skin as I caress and explore you, the way your heart pounds and your chest heaves with your rapid breathing. Mostly, I remember how you curl into my body afterwards, head on my chest and limbs draped over me. You trust me to hold you and guard your rest, and I know I am blessed to have you so close to me.

I will never have enough of these memories, Siha.

Be safe on your mission and I will rejoin you soon.

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From: J. Shepard

To: Thane Krios

I'm glad I checked my messages after I got back from the mission, I don't know if I would have been able to concentrate if I had read it before I left!

The mission itself wasn't that dangerous. The Reaper itself was dormant, though crawling with Husks, but the data we collected was more than sufficient to convince the Council that they need to start preparing for an invasion. If just one Reaper turned up now, we'd be toast, let alone a whole fleet of them.

I'm so glad you and Kolyat have had a chance to discuss Irikah. I know it must have been difficult, but resolving some of the issues between you must be such a relief. Have you talked to him about us yet? I understand if you haven't. Whatever you decide to do, know that you will always have my support.

I should probably tell you that I am in bed at the moment, curled up with a data pad as I re-read your last message. I can almost imagine your voice reading it to me, murmuring softly in my ear. I should get you to describe those memories more often.

Goodnight, Thane. I think I will have some very nice dreams tonight. Maybe I'll describe them in my next message.

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From: Thane Krios

To: J. Shepard

Siha,

I am relieved that you have returned safely, and that the Council has finally decided to take some action. Hopefully, we will not be entirely unprepared to fight the Reapers now.

As much I would like to read about your dreams, Siha, perhaps you would rather tell me in person? The doctor has declared me fit for active duty again. I have sent a copy of his recommendation to Mordin so you can see for yourself.

I am eager to rejoin the crew of the Normandy and even more eager to see you again. I have not told Kolyat of our relationship yet; I thought that perhaps we could tell him together when you come to pick us up. I doubt he will be surprised, however. I have not been entirely subtle about the regard I have for you.

I will see you very soon, Siha. Please have my jacket waiting for me.

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From: J. Shepard

To: Thane Krios

Thane,

The Reapers have attacked Earth. The Normandy is headed on a direct course there. Millions have already died; we can't afford to take any detours, not even to pick you up.

I'm so sorry. I don't know if it's more selfish to wish you were with me, or to be glad that for now at least, you are out of harm's way.

I hope you know how much you mean to me, Thane. Getting to know you, being with you, has been the best, happiest part of my life. You have been my strength and my comfort. You have made every battle easier by giving me something to fight for. You have given me hope, made me plan for a future beyond darkness and war and death.

I hope you know that I love you.

But if Earth falls, if I fail, you will have to help rally your people, and the hanar, and the Council, and anyone else strong enough to resist. You know the danger; you know what needs to be done. I don't plan to fail, of course, but just in case.

Crap. I didn't mean for this to sound so much like a goodbye letter. It's nowhere even near as poetic as yours (yes, I have already read it. Sorry). I mean for us to have a future together, Thane, never doubt that. We will see a desert, and I'll get a sunburn and I'll make you try ice-cream. We'll have a whole universe to explore and help rebuild once this fight is over and done with. Hold on to that thought. I know I will.

I've decided not to write about my dream here; I am going to save it until we see each other again.

I should go, I need to at least try and get some sleep before we arrive.

I love you.

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To: J. Shepard

From: Thane Krios

Siha,

I understand that you could not come for me, but that does not ease my frustration. I would give anything to be at your side now, to be the strength and comfort you spoke of. I feel so useless here, with the whole hostile galaxy between us, and nothing but words to offer you.

I believe in you, Siha, and I will look to and pray for the future you wrote of. If you have already read my letter, then you already know what you mean to me, but I will say it again here. You awoke me. You are my purpose now, the best part of me. I will be here to listen to you speak of your dreams, of anything you wish, when you return to me.

Please return to me.

I pray to the Goddess Arashu for your protection more earnestly than I have ever prayed for anything.

I love you, too, my Siha. I love you.

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BREAKING NEWS

The SR2 Normandy, captained by the most well-known human in the galaxy, Commander Shepard, has been destroyed in battle with the Reapers above planet Earth. The fate of her crew is unknown. The planet itself has gone dark, all communications have been lost. It is unknown how many Reapers attacked the planet, or how many humans have survived the assault.

The Council has been criticised for their slow response to the threat, something Shepard herself brought to their attention several years ago. If she is lost, it is likely that the galaxy has lost its first line of defence.

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From: Thane Krios

To: J. Shepard

Siha,

Just send me word that you live, and I will come to you. Even if I have to fight a thousand Reapers to reach you, I will come.

I have sent you a dozen messages now, and none of them have been received. I must believe that this is for another reason than you being dead. I cannot even endure the thought of it. I had resigned myself to my own death, never yours. What use is a longer life if I cannot share it with you?

I ask Amonkira that this message reaches you, and that I find you.

Please, Siha, my love, answer me.


Based on this kmeme prompt: Basically, let's say in ME3 Thane's condition is too bad for him to actually be out fighting. But he got the surgery or is getting some medical treatment and getting better. That's his job while Shep goes out and gives the finger to the Reapers.

He's all anxious waiting for her to come back to him (maybe on the Citadel, or Kolyat moved from there to be with his dad on a more desert-y environment for the healing after the surgery). I'd like to see this part the most- especially Thane stuck in memories maybe? And they get news that it doesn't seem the Normandy pulled through. The ship is nowhere to be seen, and debris is everywhere, ect. Kolyat might even be sad.

Whether Shep does return to him or not/news finds the Normanday is anons choice (though OP does have a leaning towards happy endings).

I had such technical problems typing and posting this up it wasn't even funny. So this version is slightly more refined than the one up on the meme.

Part two will be up soon! Any reviews are always welcomed.