Agnus castus. I'm not stupid. I know what it means, and I know why it is currently sitting on my bed. Why, you ask? Well, simply because Scorpius Malfoy doesn't care.
He knows I have a crush on him.
The agnus castus means 'indifference'. So, he doesn't care.
I hate him.
I opened my heart for the first time in my life, and this is what I get.
I just want to die.
Even my parents don't know much about me. All they know is what I choose to tell them. And a lot of what I tell them is lies. The only person who ever knew everything about me is dead.
They murdered her.
A few Death Eaters—the crazy ones, not ones like Draco Malfoy (why can't I get away from Scorpius?) who are trying to be peaceable, the really crazy pureblood only types—are coming back. And they killed Gracie Farland. They killed my best friend.
I think I have right to hate them.
And now, Scorpius leaves me the agnus castus, which Rose confirmed as being the flower of 'coldness' or 'indifference', and I think I've reached the breaking point.
But it'll get better.
It has to, right? Because if it didn't get better, no one would ever live past their teenage years, and I want to see what life is like outside of Hogwarts first.
So I won't do anything stupid… yet.
Well, that came out being weird. It started out R/S and then became Lily. I've fallen in love with writing her, I swear. So, more flowerful things about random characters coming soon to computers near you!
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