"A while ago, you asked me about love, didn't you?"
"Y-yeah, I guess I did."
"After that, I kept thinking about it, and I realize something…"
"You realize something, sensei?"
"'Humanity' is greatness in itself, and I have to consider myself part of it. In actuality, I lack confidence to let myself experience love. And so, I've begun to vaguely feel something that might be close to it."
"Wakaouji-sensei…So, have you found someone to experience it with?"
"Erm, could it be, I mean..."
"I wonder? You might find your answer by just looking into my eyes."
The man closed his eyes.
"Wakaouji-sensei. Could you open your eyes, please?"
"Come on, sensei!"
I woke up without any consciousness of it. I directly walked heading the bathroom, prepared to go to school. As I looked at the mirror, I began to think about something that just happened to me. I remembered the dream I had last night. It was about Wakaouji-sensei and her conversation, sounded fun…and it was about love. I thought he also likes her just by looking the way he talked to her and treated her, not just as his student. He looked feels more than it. I put it aside, and began to look at my own figure, then suddenly something just popped out in my head. All memories I had spent with her just popped out in my mind one by one. I stopped thinking of it as I blinked my eyes. It was painful.
As I arrived at school, I saw her walking to the class in corridor. I yelled out her name and waved my hand so that she could see me behind her. But it was nothing, someone got her attention earlier, and it was Wakaouji-sensei's calling. So I stopped calling her name out and walking toward the class.
Lunch time at school, I just bought a yakisoba bread and a juice from a vending machine near the end of cafeteria. I wasn't really hungry on that time. I didn't feel like I wanted to eat anything actually. As I finished my lunch, I returned to my classroom, went upstairs.
During my way to the class, I found Wakaouji-sensei in an empty class. I guess he was working his chemistry stuffs on the blackboard. I watched him silently. He was so awesome with that chemistry formulas, so genius. And his figure, I saw it he has a tall and stacked body, also I knew that he was so nice and friendly to the students, boys or girls. I thought, perhaps it was the reason why she could like him and respect him so much. Well, no wonder.
"Hey, Teru. What are you doing here?"she came to me cheerfully while chopping my head.
I was silent, ignored her chop and stared at her eyes, and started to hold her hand that chopped me before.
"T-Teru? What's matter with you? L-let go off my hand, it hurts."
I didn't really pay attention to her, even I didn't know that I held her hand too strong.
So you will go from my side now, huh? I can't let you go, but…to see that person…
I moved my eyes to see the chemistry teacher inside the class but still holding her hand. When I returned my eyes back to her, she had already gazing at this awesome teacher. Her eyes looked so bright toward him, and she smiled. It was different than the way she looked at me. Then I released her hand.
"Wha—what are you doing Teru?"
"You are so easy to understand, silly. Go to him."
"E-eeh? W-well, without your order I surely will go, I come here to see him after all, damn you Teru!"she pouted while rubbing his head.
I closed my eyes and just sighed a lot after this, then left that place. Left both of them.
School was over. I walked heading the downstairs but she found me walking on it.
"Yo, Teru."said her while smiling and waving her right hand.
"Hey.."I responded her with my weak smile.
"Hee—why do you show me that face? Are you sick? Or..do you have a problem?"
Yes, it's because of you…
"What? Nothing, you know I must work hard for sangosho so I won't let it happens to me easily, I'm okay."
"But I also help you right? You can count on me if you get tired."
It's so nice of you...
"Pfft. Silly, just look who you are, you are just a clumsy and troublesome part time worker, how could you help me when I'm not there, huh? I think a lot of our customers will complain about the service."I helplessly laughed at her.
"What was that? You are so mean, Teru—"she pouted.
"Just kidding, it's okay. I'm all fine."
"Are you sure?"said her with worried face.
"Yeah, I'm okay, silly. Don't worry too much about me—"I said it while chopping her head softly. I passed her then continued walking.
Just don't worry too much about me, don't pay attention for me, it hurts. More hurts when I remember something about you and Wakaouji-sensei.
I kept thinking about that over and over while walking down the stairs. I really should end this, by confessing to her. But I couldn't. It was so complicated to me. I tried to let it be but here and there finally she came to me again when I was all alone.
Keep moving, I don't know what would it be but I can't let myself in this situation forever.
So finally I reached the gate 5 minutes from the stairs. I wasn't sure she was still there with her confusion face. I dared to say that it was not really matter to me, maybe she would be going home together with Wakaouji-sensei. That might be, obvious.
I heard a familiar voice called me out of loud. Just what did she think? Isn't she ashamed of what does she do in the main road near the gate? I didn't know who's that person but soon I knew it when someone grabbed my hand.
"Wait—Your pace is surely fast, I couldn't follow you!"she grabbed my hand while panting so hard like she lost her breath.
I was shocked when I turned back to see who's grabbed my hand.
"Yuu, what's going on with you?"
"That's my line, you know! You left me behind, what's going on with you Teru?"
"Nothing, I just have to go home soon because Sangosho needs me, you already know that right?"
A chop successfully landed on my head.
"Hey, what did you do?"
"You, bipolar guy! Just what do you think of? Grandpa—I mean, master said that Sangosho is off today."
"W-well yeah, what's with you all of sudden, remembering something like that, that's not so you."I was blushing when I just remembering something about Sangosho's day off today, she got me. "So, what about I just want to study at home, huh?"
"Did you say 'what about'? Seems like you are avoiding me, what's with you all of sudden?"
"Nothing. Fine, I have nothing to do. So what did bring you here? I'm listening."I responded her while sighing.
She smiled widely.
"How about going for a walk for a moment?"
The sea breeze spoiled us gently. I have been getting used to it, since I was a kid, I have been living here, near the sea. A moment when you can see the sunshine and feel the sea breeze, I think it's the best feeling in the world, knowing that you are still alive to enjoy such the things like that. Whatever the season is, spring, summer, fall, winter, I love the sea. It remained me something about a little girl in my life, when she cried all the time, searched for her parents. And I came over her, asked her if she is a mermaid or not because she was all silent and didn't answer my question, then calmed her down, I memorized them all until now. The sea also remained me about the first encounter with her, the girl who stood up next to me facing the sea right now.
"It feels good, doesn't it?"she said while shut her eyes off, feeling the sea breeze blew up her hair softly.
"It's always be—"I said it to her while looking up at the sky.
"Hey, Teru. It's been a while we didn't have a talk just like this, isn't it?"she smiled at me gently.
"Yeah, exactly."I responded her coldly.
"Hey, what's going on with you? Could you please tell me? You are so different now, am I wrong?"
Yes, you are wrong. The different one must be you, right?
"I'm still your friend, right? Nothing becomes different, Yuu."
"That's true, but—you look so different toward me now, do I have a mistake? If so, please tell me."she said it again with her worried face which I dislike.
"What? No, no, you don't have any mistake."
Seriously you don't have any. The one who have the mistake is me, I'm wrong because I love you...
I still saw her worried face, and it was really annoying, I hate that face, really.
"Ittt'sss ookaaaay—"I said it to her while pinching her cheeks with my hands, playing with them.
"Teruuu, it hurts, you stupid!"she struggled to get my hands off her cheeks.
"Hahaha, so don't show me your ugly face, will you? I really hate it. If it's about me, I said to you, don't worry about me, I'm really fine, and sorry if I look like avoid you these days."I let go off my hands from her cheeks, she looked relieved.
"Thanks goodness."she smiled gently at me, and I was blushing a bit that way.
I'm sorry, I'm lying to you. I'm not that fine, I'm surely not. There are always be something bothering my mind. And please, don't put that face with you, I hate to see your sad face. This will be better for both of us, because I want to protect your smile, even though later it's not for me, but I would love to see your smile forever and ever.
I just wanted to tell her that, but this tongue didn't allow me to say what's inside my heart and my mind. I was hopeless about it. Maybe just the sea, sunshine, breeze, the sand, and of course myself who knows my feelings well. I was looking down to the sand, still stood up next to her, who began sitting down. And soon I followed her action.
"Hey, Teru.. Is it okay for me if I tell you something?"said her while staring at the sea and smiled a bit.
"Of course, I will be always listening to your every problem, since I'm your friend. Let me hear that."I looked at her hopelessly.
"Err, this might be not a problem, just something comes over me. And I couldn't resist not to think about it—"
Here it came. I knew what would she talk about. I couldn't do anything except listened to her.
"I think I found a new person in my life."she said it to me still staring far out the sea.
"I see—it's good, isn't it?"
"I don't know if it's good or not, but I feel, that person is so far away from me. You know, he is so close to me yet I feel the opposite, he is so far away."she smiled weakly.
The same goes to me, you are so close to me right now, but I feel we are in the long distance, like a great barrier separates us...
I couldn't respond her properly, I was thinking about the same things she just told me about. I looked at the things near me blankly.
"Hey—Teru? Are you listening to me?"
"Oh, yeah I'm listening of course."I almost out of words.
"So, say something about it, will you?"
"Okay, I said to you, isn't it good to have a special person in your life? Maybe you should go chase after him?"
It hurts, I didn't have any good words, it meant I should support her in all the way, right? And I cursed myself for advicing her something that obviously hurt my heart, with the words "chase him".
"Chase? I don't really have a self-confidence to do that, really."she said it in a hopeless tone.
"Why don't you have it?"
"He is so different with me, despite the fact that I'm still a high schooler, childish, immature, as you said I'm also a clumsy girl, what else—"
"Now, now. What are you afraid of?
"That's obvious right? He is a teacher in our school, he is an adult, and he is so mature, and I'm so far from what type of girl he likes."
Then, why don't you just choose me anyway?
"Yuu, you haven't tried it right? Thus you won't know how is it."
"But I might be not worth for him." said her while showing her sad face again.
"Do you think so? I think you are worth to him, you can go chasing him, and I think he also likes you."
"W-What did you say? Do you know who's the person we talk about?"said her holding her red cheeks and showing a bit shocked eyes.
"Silly, I know you. It's Waka-sensei right?"I chuckled.
I know it, Yuu. The way you talked to him, the way you saw him, I dare to say I know you so well because we have spent time together at school and Sangosho, you are the way easy to understand, easy to laugh, easy to cry, and easy to get my attention. You are so cheerful, yet so annoying and ignorant. And I love the way you are, even I still accept you though you love the other person…
"Eeeh…so you know, huh? I'm so embarrassed…"said her still holding her cheeks.
"Don't tell me you forgot about how did you two meet me in front of your house? You two walked home together right?"
"Ah—OH YOU ARE RIGHT! I forgot it, really…"she laughed hard that made me followed her, even though I forced myself to laugh.
A silence came over us for a while, just a sound of sea waves that could be heard. Not many people came to this beach side, she chose the place where we could stay just the two of us, that was actually my favorite place and she knew it.
"I'm such a clueless person, right Teru?"
"Why did you say that thing?"
"I was told by him once we walked home together. He told me that he just had the one he experiences in love with. But he didn't tell me who is it. I was all confused. He is so nice to me, and I guess we like each other, but then I was also thinking…what if it wasn't me and I also don't have any confidence."
That dream, came true. No, I thought it wasn't a dream came true, it was the reality.
She buried her face into her knees, and soon I heard a crying sound came from her. She cried.
I should end it, there's no way she could see me as a man, this is the best thing I will do to protect her smile. Because I know that Wakaouji-sensei also likes her as well.
"So, what should I do next, Teru?"
"Just follow your heart, I'm sure you will get what you want in the future, I will support you anyway. And I know, Waka-sensei is a good man for you. I'm also sure he can make you happy in the future."I smiled to her widely and rubbed her hair.
"So is it okay for me to chase after him?"
"Of course, why not?"
Certainly you are worth to go chasing after him. Yeah, because I know he is the way better than me.
I didn't hear any voice came from her mouth for a moment. But then she began opening her mouth.
"T-Thanks Teru, you are so kind, y-you are my best friend f-forever…"said her while sobbing.
It hurt, with that best friend thingy.
"Now now, lift your face up, okay, don't cry…"I chuckled while wiping her tears off her cheeks with my hands.
"Teru, can I have your hug for now?"
Without thinking twice, I hugged her immediately, hugged her so tight.
It really hurt inside.
Just…good bye my love. I just can hug you this tightly, because I didn't know what should I do to reveal my feelings for you, a one-sided love of course. This isn't enough, really isn't enough.
"T-Teru—are you okay? Your hug is so tight."she still sobbed while leaning her head on my shoulder.
"It's okay if it's able to make you stop crying."I still hugged her tightly.
"Pfft, stupid Teru…thanks anyway."
I didn't cry behind it. All I did was just hugged her tightly, calmed her down. I didn't cry. Because I cried inside my heart while embracing her. It was the first and the last hug for her. Best friend's hug. I could just pray for her happiness.
From now on, I will protect her smile. The sea and the sky take the stand for my promise. Whether she will come to me or not in the future, if she feels happy, then I should be happy as well. That's supposed to be best friend.
I realize something that the little girl I met a few years ago when I was a kid isn't her. I don't have a clue where is she until now, and I don't want to find anything about it, I will just let all the things flow by their own now, and all I do now is still entrusting the sunny days to erase my sadness and sorrow.
A/N: About the first dialogue in italic text, I copied it from a certain site, let's say it's from TMGS site, I don't own that translation, I just own the story and those are belong to the respective owner. Sorry If I made a lame story with the grammatical errors here and there, this is my first story that has an ending, about the others, I just couldn't finish them all oTL and about the title, Kyou mo Hare I adopted it from a song on youtube showing the best friend route of Saeki Teru's ending. And the title itself means "today is also a sunny day" (if you have a better translate of it, I'm sorry ;A;) so yeah I put the last line of Saeki's epilogue as the meaning of the title of this story. So sorry again maybe for OOCness everywhere and I know this isn't the right ending for the best friend route, I just made my own ending. But, thanks to those who read my story, I'm grateful^^