Chapter three: Understanding
"I'm Doctor Kakashi Hatake." Kakashi said, speaking in a calm and formal manner, unusual to his typical tone of voice. "But you can just call me Kakashi."
Sasuke nodded, his eyes watched the floor beneath his feet, as if it were the most interesting thing in the world. Or maybe, he was praying for it to suddenly swallow him up.
Kakashi watched Sasuke, and observed his body language, taking mental notes in his head. It was Sasuke's first appointment, and it was also his first day at the clinic, therefore the boy was ought to be feeling a little nervous and over-whelmed by it all.
"Don't worry, today is just a short meeting for me to meet you, and for you to get acquainted with me. So there'll be no heavy stuff for today, therefore you can just relax, okay?"
Sasuke didn't nod; instead he slowly raised his head, taking a quick glance of the room he was in.
The room was small, but not too small. It had a large sofa, two smaller chairs, a small table, pens, pencils, papers and a box of tissues. The walls however were different, as they were painted a warm shade of purple with posters, pictures and random quotes pined on its surfaces. It was a different scene from the surroundings Sasuke slowly had to adjust to in other areas of the clinic, but this room was different, it was nice, and it was relaxing.
Kakashi hoped that saying this would somehow help with making Sasuke feel a little more comfortable around him, and after letting him take in his surroundings, Kakashi offered him a seat. He gestured towards the couch, and with a bit of hesitance, Sasuke slowly perched himself upon the lime green sofa. And as Sasuke took his seat, Kakashi took his in one of the smaller ones opposite from the raven-haired boy.
Silence seemed to sit heavy in the air, lingering amongst them both. It wasn't like Kakashi didn't mind the silence, or the quietness of his patient. It had more to do with the fact that it worried him. What if Sasuke continued to remain silent, and refused to open up to Kakashi? But Kakashi still kept hope, though the fears and premonitions he had lurking in the back of his head didn't stop brewing.
"So Sasuke, why don't you tell me a bit more about you? For example, you could tell me about any hobbies you may have, or perhaps what you're interested in. Do you like sport, art, music? C'mon, anything. Anything at all." Kakashi smiled, and hoped he wasn't coming off too strong. He couldn't seem to shove away the questions of doom that lingered at the back of his mind, hoping they were just worthless worries he'd laugh about later.
Sasuke was still silent; his pale fingered continuously tugging at his hoodie.
"Shall I start?" The grey-haired man asked, his eyebrows rose subtly as he spoke, while studying Sasuke's face and body language. He could see that he was still unresponsive, so he decided to start with talking a bit about himself first, then maybe Sasuke would then go on to talking about himself after listening to Kakashi. It was one of the most, and best used ice-breakers of all time!
"Okay then, I guess I'll start. Hmm, what am I interested in? Let's see... Well, for starters, I like to read novels. I often enjoy going to the gym when I can, but other than that my interests and hobbies are very few, since most time I have, I spend here at work, doing what I love the best." He ended it with a large smile, somehow thinking it would end it on a friendly note, hoping to somewhat reassure Sasuke that it wasn't hard, and that he could say anything he wanted. This wasn't a quiz, and he wasn't really analyzing or examining him just yet.
Sasuke shrugged, feeling Kakashi's waiting eyes stare at him, as his own obsidian gem-stones watched his fingers as they fiddled around the with material of his clothes. He wasn't trying to be awkward, but he felt as if he was. He just wasn't ready for this. It was hard to suddenly take in on his first day, and all he could hear in his head was his own voice repeating the same sentence over, and over again; 'God, I wish I was dead.'
Kakashi tried to keep the warm and friendly smile he was wearing on, but it faded as quickly as it formed. He was started to feel a little bit helpless, although he knew better. He was eager to learn more about Sasuke, and what it was that led him to commit endless suicide attempts. There was something about the look in his eyes, and Kakashi couldn't help but feel deeply hypnotized by its beautiful and tragic sadness. He knew he had to be patient, because Sasuke was that kind of person. He was the type of person whose mind and heart were full of over-cast rain clouds, and dark shadows lingering over his lonely being. Yet he understood that in time, the boy would slowly begin to open up. Kakashi wished that over time, he could make that happen; he just needed to be persistent as these sessions with Sasuke began to progress over his time within the clinic.
"It's okay if you're not ready to talk yet. That includes anything, you know, such as; your personal interests, things you like to do what your life is like, what your family is like etc, etc. You don't need to talk about any of that yet, if that's what you want. I want you to tell me what you want, in your own time. I'm here to listen to you, to talk to you and find ways to help you. My job isn't to keep you here in this ...shit hole... my job is to help you get out of it. I wouldn't want to be kept here, following rules and regulations that I didn't want to, but you're obviously here because you want help, or your family really wants help for you, and that Sasuke is a great start." Kakashi kept looking at Sasuke, staring at his distant eyes, which were hidden behind sleek black curtains. "All you have to do is try. Just try Sasuke, and with my help, and your effort, I'm sure you'll be out of here soon. In fact, I know you will. All you have to do is trust me, and try, and also allow me help you."
The room was silent, that heavy awkward quiet atmosphere winding around their bodies until a small sigh escaped Sasuke's chapped lips, swollen from all his biting. "Okay..." He whispered quietly, slowly nodding to show that he understood. "Okay."
A/N: I know it's been so long since I last updated, and I also know that this chapter is rather short. I just don't have any time to write, and most of the new stories I've uploaded are older stories that I've written, and have never made it onto fanfic. I like this story, and I would like to develop it further, as I find it a rather interesting idea, and to see how I expand on this idea, so I hope you all understand that I'm not abandoning this fic! In fact, I'm not abandoning any of my fics. If I have, it'll be deleted... so, if it isn't deleted, it hasn't been abandoned. I just don't have any time to write, and when I do, I can't seem to write... I hope to update some fics, and maybe post some sexy one-shots during the Holiday season, so if any of you like KakaSasu, there'll most likely be a sexy one-shot lemon up during Christmas break, so look out for it ;) Thank you for reading, and please leave a review if you want more of this fic, and if you are enjoying it so far! Reviews mean so much to me, and can sometimes push me to update and write more!