Intermission - Ice In The Mind
For as long as he had been who he was, that was important.
First to see what. Then to see how. And then why,
Why did it happen?
Not 'how' as the lesser would say.
It had all been made perfectly.
His hands squeezed the chair, blood running down his fingers.
What had he miscalculated?
What had he done wrong?
Why had he miscalculated?
HE HAD THOUGHT OF EVERYTHING!
All this time! All this work! All those sacrifices! Were they for nothing?
IT WAS ALL FOR NOTHING!
WHY? What had he missed? What little detail had he missed?
What had changed in his experiment?
WHAT? WHY? HOW?
What... The what he knew.
He calms his anger, hides it behind a veil.
He had failed.
His anger rises again, but he chills it, forcefully, though his teeth grind together.
How... The how he knew.
Bile rises up his throat and he swipes the table of his work, sending paper and bottle viscera alike to crash to the floor.
He had been bested by a superior force.
Eyes, yellow and evil glare at the sole candle of the room, and it flickers from his vile will.
WHY had he been bested? No, not why had he been bested, a superior force always defeats an inferior one.
It was logical!
So logically, he should have won!
HE SHOULD HAVE WON!
But he didn't!
He lost! Why had he lost?
He had made every preparation, foreseen everything!
Were his jutsu not superior?
THEY WERE SUPERIOR!
Was his will not superior?
IT WAS SUPERIOR!
Was he not superior?
HE WAS SUPERIOR!
So, how had he lost? Why? What had changed?
He remembers... a violet, grape-like fruit, a flicker of light within it... Then he remembers pain.
HUMILIATION AFTER THE PAIN!
The fruit... was that the why?
No. It HAS to be! It MUST be!
He must have it... the fruit...
He must have it... the why...
He is a scientist. He must know. He must always know.
He glares into the darkness and schemes once more, but he still is concerned.
WAS THAT THE WHY?
Orochimaru's sleep never came that night.
That night he shuddered like the child he had sworn he never was, frightened once more. Uncertain.
He couldn't find out the why.
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