Authors note: Hey guys! I'm back! SURPRISE! And I'm so excited!
So, in this story, I decided to try something different. So, here goes a thank you to 'malfoycats', one of my reviewers for 'Mixed Feelings'. I was reading her review and apparently she was listening to 'Fix You' by Coldplay while reading the last chapter, and so I went to check the song out, and guess what? This came out. My first song fic. And a long one at that. So thank you so much girl!
Also, I am aware that this idea has been done a couple of times but believe me, mine will be different. Even the background is. And, of course, this story will be full of angst and kind of sad. But believe me, you'll like it.
Summary: One normal day at the office, until Kono walks in and announces that's she is engaged. Steve doesn't seem to like the idea, but why? Did something happen between them? Is Kono really happy with her engagement? Steve/Kono romance later on.
So, read the first chapter and let me know if you like!
Normal day at the office. Perfectly normal. Another killer behind bars, another round of paperwork to be filled, another day spent at the office. Lunch time came and went, and both Danny and Chin were already at their desks finishing another stack of papers. Steve had just walked in with the biggest smile he had ever had. And of course, this didn't go unnoticed by Danny.
"Oh Super SEAL." Danny greeted, not getting up from his desk. "What are you smirking about?"
Steve just continued smirking at him.
"No reason." Steve said, shrugging. And it was kind of true. He had just woken up today and felt better than ever. He hadn't been able to stop smiling all day.
"No reason?" Danny asked, unconvinced. "You smile twice a year, and you're telling me there's no reason to be smiling now?" Danny taunted him, but not even that made Steve drop his smile.
"Stop bickering Danny. Get back to work." Was all Steve said before heading to his own office. He opened the top drawer, taking out a couple of files, before glancing around headquarters. He frowned. He couldn't spot Kono anywhere.
He shrugged it off. Probably just going out to lunch. God knows that woman deserved a break.
Another hour went by, and ok, now Steve was starting to get worried. It wasn't like her to be late. Not like this.
"Hey Danny?" Steve called to his friend's office.
Five seconds went by and Danny appeared on the doorway. "Yeah?"
"Do you know where Kono is? Did she go out or something?" Steve asked him, trying not to sound too concerned.
Danny shrugged at him.
"No idea. Why?" Danny asked back, frowning.
"Nothing, nothing, she just… hasn't been here for a while." Steve explained.
"Right…" Danny replied, apparently not convinced. "Anyway, don't worry, she should be here soon. Oh, almost forgot…" Danny said as he waved a file from Steve's doorway. "We got a case."
"Ok, I'll be right there." Steve said, almost not paying attention to what Danny was saying, searching for his Iphone. Danny walked out to the tactical table and Steve dialed Kono's number, bringing the cell phone up to his ear.
The number you called is not available at the moment, please leave a message….
Great. She wasn't picking up. Steve put his phone back into his pocket and got up from his desk, heading to the conference room.
"So, what do we got?" Steve asked as soon as he spotted Chin and Danny already downloading the pictures into the table.
"A case." Danny cleverly responded, getting him a smack upside the head by Steve. "Hey! Seriously, what have I told you about that?" Danny protested.
"Nothing that I listen to." Steve replied, smirking at Danny. "Now, seriously, what do we got?"
"Ok, fine. So, meet Mr. Christian, specialized arms dealer with-"
"Hey guys!" Danny was interrupted as Kono walked in, strangely cheerful, and met them at the table. "Sorry I'm late. Do we have a case?" Kono calmly asked, and frowned as she saw their astonished faces.
"Uh, what?" Kono questioned.
"Uh, honey…" Danny started. "What… what… what is that?" he asked, pointing at her hand.
Still frowning, she looked down at where he was pointing and realization spread across her face. "Oh, right!"
The three men stared wide eyed at her hand and waited for an explanation from her part.
"Well…" Kono said, a smile gracing her features. "I'm engaged!"
Chin's jaw dropped.
Steve's eyes widened even more.
And Danny was the first to explode. Of course.
"WHAT?" Danny half yelled, completely taken by surprise.
Kono let out a sigh. "I'm engaged, Danny." She repeated, eyeing the blond detective."Is that clear enough for you?"
"How?" Danny immediately asked.
Kono looked confused back at him.
"How am I engaged? Jeez Danny, you never thought I'd get married, well that really is what a lady wants to hear-"
"No." Danny interrupted her, still staring. "I mean, how? I didn't even know you were seeing someone! How did you keep such vital information from me? I never realized you were dating!"
Kono gave him a sweet little smile.
"Well, yeah I have. His name is Jake and I've been seeing him for the past six months and-"
"Six months?" Chin suddenly asked, raising his voice. "For six months, and you're already getting married?"
Kono let out a huff.
"Coz, I'm mature enough to make my own decisions. And yes, I'm getting married because I love Jake, Chin, I really do." Kono calmly explained him, trying to make Chin see she actually wanted this.
"But you still haven't answered my question. How did you keep this from me?" Danny asked, sort of hurt by the situation.
Kono chuckled a bit. "Danny, it's not like I walk around telling everyone I'm dating some guy. And besides, I wanted to see if it would ever work out first. Turns out, it did!" Kono finished with a bright smile, looking at the ring.
Danny looked at Chin, who looked at Steve, who looked at Kono, who was still looking at the ring.
Finally, Danny got a little over the surprise and opened his arms for her.
"Well, congratulations!" Danny said, giving her a tight hug and whispering in her ear. "If he ever hurts you I'm going after him."
Kono punched him playfully on the arm before muttering a "Shut up." And turning back to Chin, she saw him heading towards her, his arms also open wide.
"Congratulations little coz." Chin said with a smile before enveloping her in his arms. He gave her an even tighter hug and she laughed. Always the over protective one.
When they broke apart, he kissed her once on the cheek and wished her good luck.
"Thanks coz." Kono said, smiling back at him.
And then she turned towards Steve.
7 months ago
"Kono?" Steve knocked on her door as hard as he could. "Kono, come on open up!"
She still wouldn't open it. He tried the door handle again, hoping that somehow the door would open if he would use enough strength. Nope, not an inch.
Suddenly, without any warning whatsoever, the door trashed open, Kono appearing on the other side, her usually happy face now replaced by anger and grief. "What do you want Steve?"
"What do I want?" he repeated as he pushed past her into her apartment. "Well you took off running right after we booked the guy, so I think it's pretty clear what I want!" he half shouted at her.
"I'm sorry, was the assignment not over?" Kono shot back at him. "Because as I remember it, the guy was booked, the crime scene all cleared up and the hostages released, so yeah, I had every right of to come home!"
Steve let out a huff. She couldn't keep doing this; she couldn't keep hiding like she was now. She had to start letting things out instead of running the other way.
"Kono…" he took a second look at her face and it made his stomach tighten. "… you've been crying."
Kono's face got hard and her jaw was set.
"Steve now is not the time." She warned.
"The hell it isn't Kono!" Steve replied as he took one step closer to her. "You can't do this! You can't keep this to yourself! You have to talk to someone about it!" Steve raised his voice. She had to understand this.
"I have to talk to someone?" Kono repeated, incredulously. She shook her head and gave an ironic laugh. "Ok, fine. You wanna talk, Steve? Let's talk!" she said as she shoved past him into her kitchen. He followed suit, right behind every angry step she took.
"Let's talk then." She said as she leaned against the wall. "I screwed up. There. Is that good enough for you? I screwed things fucking up, and I ended up having to kill someone! There you have it! Are you happy now Steve?" she shouted at him, but he didn't even flinch.
"Kono, I told you don't do this!" Steve yelled back at her. "This was not your fault! How can you even say that?"
"Of course it was my fault!" she opposed, anger rising in her. "If I hadn't moved on the guy that soon he would have never raised his gun at me, and I would have never had to kill him with three fucking bullets to the chest!" she shouted.
"The guy had a gun pointed at you! The situation required you to take him down, how can you possibly blame yourself?"
"Because I put myself in that situation!" she yelled again. "I was the one to blame! I am the one to blame! I should have talked him into turning himself in, I should have never moved on him that quickly, I-"
"Kono you did everything you were supposed to do!" Steve started to exasperate. If she kept this up she would have a break down. "You did everything by the book, you did absolutely nothing wrong! Kono…" Steve took two steps towards her, and then he was in front of her. "Please, please don't blame yourself. There was nothing you could have done." His voice got softer, and he could see the tears start to spill in her eyes. "Come here."
He wrapped his arms around her, and she buried her head in his chest, her tears now falling uncontrollably. He kept her as close to him as he could get her, his arms settled around her waist as he now leaned against the wall, her body pressing against his, the moisture from her eyes leaving a stain on his shirt. Not that it was important, anyway. He whispered reassuring words on her ear, that everything was gonna be ok, that it wasn't her fault, that this was only temporary, it would get better. He felt her grip on his shirt stronger as a new round of tears and sobs started. He didn't stop holding her for a moment. He just held her tighter even, his hand coming up to brush against her hair, something that he knew usually soothed her in times like this.
Her sobs weren't so violent anymore, but her tears still broke free no matter how much she tried to keep them in, and she cursed as she just kept crying non-stop, seemingly not able to loosen her grip on Steve.
"Shhhh, it's ok." Steve whispered. "I'm here. I'm here."
Without knowing why, she felt relieved to hear that. To hear he wasn't leaving, that he was gonna support her. That's when her tears finally subsided, and her hands fell from his chest, coming up to wipe the unshed tears from her eyes, leaving only the dry trail of them down her cheeks.
She lifted her head to look in his amazingly blue eyes and tried to give him a smile.
"Thank you." She whispered, and they both knew what she meant. She was thanking him for making her shatter, because right now that was what she needed, and Steve knew that. And she was thanking him for not leaving her, for being there for her.
For protecting her.
Steve smiled down at her, and brushed a stray of hair from her face. "It was nothing." He looked intently into her dark brown eyes. "Are you better now?"
She sniffled a little before giving him a reassuring smile. A poor one.
"Yeah. I will be."
They continued to gaze into each other's eyes, lost in the moment, and only then did they realize just how close they were to one another, their faces inches apart.
Kono licked her lips unconsciously, and watched as Steve's eyes feel from her eyes to her lips. Hers mimicked the action, and in that exact moment, they knew what was about to happen. Both of them. And they knew, they oh so well knew that they shouldn't do it, that it would be wrong, that it would be giving in on what you're not supposed to give in.
And yet. It didn't stop it from happening.
His lips descended on hers, slowly, carefully, his gaze locked with hers, and his arms slipped back around her waist, and she put her arms around his neck again.
As soon as they're lips touched, they both knew they wouldn't be able to stop. Not tonight.
Which is why they weren't all that surprised when they woke up together, in her bed, the next morning.
And then she turned towards Steve.
Authors note: SO? What did you guys think? Is it worth continuing? Did you like it? Hate it? Pleeeeeease let me know what you thought!