I sat there next to the small window in a small wooden rocking chair just looking out and watching it snow. A small sigh escaped me as I looked back on the last years of my life. If you would have asked me then if I would be where I am today... I would have thought you were crazy. No way in hell did I ever think my life would turn out this way. This stuff just doesnt happen to people like me. It was never in the cards. I still can't believe it most days. Some days I still think I am going to wake up and this will all be a dream. Things really got crazy and of course it all started when Dean took me that one night. I thought I was in hell and I was until I fell for the bastard. Go figure. But you all already knew that part of my life. I guess the best thing to do is start when me and Dean left Sam and Alice after the twins were born to go hunting. That is when this all started. Things took a few turns for us both. Some bad and some...well you'll see. *Smiles*
Jamie Keller walked thought the motel room door and slammed it behind her, "That bastard!" She screams as she threw the lamp across the room. She picked up her back and began to pack, seething.
Dean Winchester opened the door and slammed it, "What the fuck is your problem? It was nothing, Jamie! Give me a break for once."
Jamie threw her bag down on the bed and turned to face him, "It was nothing? Dean, you had your tongue down her throat! Don't you dare tell me it was nothing! I saw you! Again!"
"What? It was just a kiss. She asked for it. Don't you get mad at me. You know how I am. You're still my favorite."
"I can be mad all I damn well want! How could you do this to me?" She began to cry. "I don't want to be your favorite if this is what I have to deal with."
"I'm sorry alright? Shit happens. Get over it already. You know I love you." Dean said and grabbed a beer.
"Yeah I use to know but now days...hell I don't know how you feel about me anymore."
"You think this is easy for me? Damnit Jamie I have done so fuckin much for you but it's never good enough. You bitch and complain all the damn time. I'm sorry sweetheart. I'm not perfect!"
"Yeah I know and I try to look past stuff, I tried to help you, but I cant..." she started and stopped herself
"Cant what Jamie?"
She looked at him with tears in her eyes, "I can't do this anymore. You don't want this to work. This was it Dean. Your last chance. My heart just can't take it anymore."
"So that's it? You are just going to throw it all away? Nice Jamie...real nice." Dean said and grabbed a beer.
"I didn't do anything! I tried. I wanted this to work Dean but it can't. This is a two way street and you don't try! I am the only one all in here!"
"Don't give me that crap!" Dean snapped, "You read too much into stuff."
Jamie nodded, "Whatever Dean. I'm done." She said and turned back to her bag and finished packing.
"What are you going?"
"I'm leaving" She said, never once looking at him.
"You're leaving me? Where the hell are you going to go?" Dean snapped.
"I don't know but away from you. I can't do this. It hurts too much. I won't sit by and watch you with her anymore." Jamie said and wiped the tears away.
"I told you that she means nothing to me! Why wont you believe me?"
"That's not the point! The point is this is the third time Dean. I have tried! I'm sorry that I am not good enough for you! I'm sorry that I love you! I'm sorry that I love you to much!" Jamie screamed.
"Don't tell me your are fuckin sorry when you are leaving me! You are the one giving up!" Dean yelled and threw the beer bottle, shattering it.
Jamie jumped and turned away, "I'm done. I...I can't do this."
Dean felt hurt. He had tears in his eyes for the first time in a long time but he was going to fight it and be hard, that's who he was now, "You know what, Fine! Take your shit and just go. I don't want you hear anyways." Those words crushed Jamie inside. "If you don't want me them I don't want you. Good luck out there on your own."
"I'll be better off out there then here with you." Jamie said.
"Keep telling yourself that sweetheart." Dean said, still trying to stay strong, not thinking she was really leaving. "When you get your ass in trouble dont come running to me."
Jamie picked up her back and turned to him with tears in her eyes, "Goodbye Dean."
Dean grabbed her by the arm and pushed her into the wall, "If you walk out that door don't you ever come back. Do you hear me?"
Jamie looked into his eyes and sighed, "Yeah...I hear you. Just like always. Bye Dean." She said and pushed him away, grabbed her bag, and walks out the door.
When that door shut something inside of Dean clicked. She was the only thing keeping in from going back off the deep end. Without her around he was nothing anymore. So much for her never leaving him. She was just like everyone else. "Fuck you Jamie!" Dean yelled out as if she could hear him. He grabbed another beer and sat down at the table, one single tear rolled down his cheek.
Jamie stood outside the motel room crying waiting on her cab to get there. She still wasn't sure where she was going but she knew she couldn't stay here. Part of her hoped Dean would come after her but she knew that would never happen. That is not who he was. If he thought she was going to come running back to him then he had another thing coming. She was done being his rag doll. If there is only thing that come out of this is that she was stronger. She was going to continue to hunt on her own. Maybe one day they would meet up again but she wasn't going to hold her breath on that one. It was time to start over. Jamie Keller was official back.
*So there you have chapter one of the sequel. This story won't be as long but it's to get you caught up on where Jamie is now. Some of you may already know if you follow her on twitter but this should be better. Please review guys! Thanks Also a banner is up and Im using a new person in the banner to go with who she is elsewhere.