Stealing Edward's Innocence
My eyes cannot help but drop, and I quickly bring them back up, but it is too late as he already sports that half-crooked smirk on his lips and to goad me, he licks them slowly.
"Your turn." His voice is soft, deep, and low. It is seductive, yet sexy and God I want to.
"Edward…we probably you know…" my eyes fall down to a very well endowed cock that is uncut and do I dare say…perfect?
"Tell me Icy, what are you thinking right now?"
I realize I had lost focus and am now staring at it when I realize how perverted I must be in his eyes, when I look back at him. My right brow lifts in surprise. Is that arrogance, or confidence? '
No, it is something else.
Seeking approval or reassurance?
"I am thinking that if I stand here any longer, I won't be held accountable for my actions. Edward…we need to establish some boundaries, and if you are asking if there is a physical attraction to you, my answer is yes and it isn't about your looks, or the length or girth you are endowed with."
He frowns, cocking his head to the right. His tone of voice is snarky. "The old, size doesn't matter line? You are seriously going to use that, when I am standing here in front of you, sporting one hell of hard on that is solely because of you, and you do not care about how big I am. I suppose the next thing you are going to say, "It's all in how you use it!" His temper has risen and I must have insulted him on some level.
"That isn't what I meant. You are not small by any means. Look at you! When you do this kind of thing, it throws me a little! You are young, and for you to be so confident, bold even, where does that confidence come from? Then, you take what I say and turn it around!" I hiss.
I reach and grip him by the throat and push him against the wall. My anger is spiking now too.
"You never even knew my kind existed until you were clued in. I am struggling with the way you seem to act. Like you are trying to be someone you aren't, but you are…fuck….I don't know what the fuck this is…I just know that…." I wave my other hand between us, "this between you and me…well…it is not common, or normal and believe me, you could be two fucking inches and it wouldn't matter, and I don't know why that is, but it is."
The anatomy or the life of a vampire is still a mystery to me and humans are just as mysterious because my memories fade as time goes on. I am sharper but the human side is getting lost in my long ago past.
"Edward…there is a reason I stole you from your bed while you were sleeping. Over the years, I have learned that a vampire like me has one mate in this life. One soul that they are bound to even before they ever meet, and when they do, it alters us permanently and you really have altered me and it's scary and frightening and exciting."
"Wait a minute what the hell did you just say?" the crease in his forehead deepens as he is listening to me now.
"You were made for me and me for you. Therefore, you belong to me." I let go of his throat and step back.
"The fuck I do! You do not own my soul or me. What a bunch of shit! You do not even know me! You are fucking crazy!"
I frown and he reaches out and grabs my arm stopping me from exiting.
"I am leaving and you are damn well going to let me. You cannot hold me here any longer. I won't allow it! I have a life you know. I have family, friends and people that must be wondering where I am. You may be beautiful and I may find you sexy and erotic in your own way but I don't belong here. I don't belong to anyone. I am my own person. I have a future planned out and I do not anywhere, where it said, "Crazy bitch comes into your life and tries to take control" in the blueprints. Let me fucking go!" His hands ball into fists and he is huffing before he reaches down, takes the towel, and heads for the door.
Of course, I notice his erection all but disappeared when his anger took over.
He looks over his shoulder, sighs, then stops, and turns to face me. "Fucking kill me then, because I will not stand by and let anyone run my life. It is my life. Fate or no fate. I need some pants. I want you to seriously consider taking me home willingly. I won't tell a soul."
I walk up to him and lean in close to his neck. My throat is like white-hot fire coursing through it.
"If I let you go, do I get to see you again?"
"Then no." I move so fast he has no time and I lock him in his room. He is cursing and pounding on the door.
I make my way out to the car and take off into town to buy him some clothes. I really want to talk to Jasper, but to do that would jeopardize losing Edward so I cannot do that.
I have to do this my way. Call me a misguided vampire, I don't care. There is no rulebook in this life that says find your mate, declare your love, and live happily ever after.
Edward is human. He is male. He is unique. He is stubborn, but it doesn't matter. What does is that he is mine. He just needs time to accept what is.
After spending a ton of money, I head back to the cabin and the moment I step out of the Jeep, I smell him.
I drop the bags I have in hand and run for the door throwing it open. My heart felt like it had cracked wide open.
Edward's bedroom door stood open. Hesitating, I walk down to stand in front of it.
I lost him.
I barely caught him and now I have lost him.
Robshandmonkey~ © 2012
Chapter End Notes:
In my head...I answer which ever character speaks to me...usually Edward dominates me...but sometimes Bella takes control...