Alright everyone, I do want you to know that I HAVE NOT abanonded my stories. I'm just SO busy with school, I'm a PSU student and with my work load and after having lost our beloved JoePa 2 months ago, it's been a REALLY hard ride. I WILL continue writing, however I do want all my reader's to know that I will not be updating my stories until the term is over. If I'm lucky I'll hammer out a chapter here and there but the odds of that happening are very doubtful. I WILL have the story updated again by the end of may, ( there's another author on here who will kick my butt if I don't update so I will!) so until then I leave you with this. ENJOY!
'We need to talk' my mind kept repeating those words over and over again. Why did we need to talk? What needed to be said right now that couldn't wait. One of Eric's hands moves from my shoulder to my face.
Looking me in the eyes he speaks, "Lux, I want to kiss you. Trust me I do, but I don't want the two of us getting into something without first talking." Running his hands down my arm's to grab my hands, "We seem to always have an issue about talking between the two of us, and we jump to conclusions and assumptions that get us into trouble. Let's talk," Eric rises off the bed smiling and pulls me up. "But first, let's go eat our cold Chinese food."
We sit together eating in what can only be described as the most awkward silence, both of us afraid to say anything. I looked up from him several times to say something but I kept closing my mouth and turning my head back towards my lo mein. Pushing it around a few times with my chopsticks Eric breaks the silence.
"If you're trying to make sure it's dead I assure you it is" he says chuckling; looking up at him I can't help but smile too.
"Dead? I think you're mistaking me for someone who eats animals," I reply to him smiling. I'm so happy that he was the one to break the silence. Putting down my chopsticks I get up from the counter taking my glass of water with me and walk over to the patio doors, looking out at the city around us.
Looking at the city lights and the people below makes me lose myself in the memories of the past 6 years. It takes me back to senior year, my graduation party on the roof of Baze's, dancing and singing with my friends. How happy I was, and yet I felt like something was missing, he was missing; it takes me back to standing on the balcony of my apartment drinking my tears away after running into Jones and Tasha in the hallway and how happy they were to be together, inviting me out to some party to tag along with them and feel more like a third wheel than an actual friend.
I don't know how long I've been standing there looking out the window lost in my memories before I sense Eric beside me.
"Penny for your thoughts?" He asks me softly, turning to him I offer him a small smile before replying.
"Trust me, they're not worth a penny."
"Well I told you that we need to talk, didn't I?" he asks rhetorically, " This might be a good place to start." Reaching his hand up and tucking a piece of my hair behind my ear before placing his palm on my cheek, "Tell me what's going on inside your head."
With everything that's been going on inside of my head I'm almost afraid of telling him about what's going on inside my head, I'm afraid to tell him how I feel, to tell him that Cate and Baze don't know I'm here, to tell him that after 6 years he's still the one person that can get through to me. That can make me feel special, after being apart for 6 years I'm still in love with him. I look into his eye's, reaching my hand up grasping onto his. "Why don't we sit down and I'll tell you what's going on inside my head."