The letters that in this universe prompted the rule change.
I'm so sorry that this had to happen and I'm sorry there wasn't a way for both of us to live. I would have done anything just to have one more day with you. I hope you know how much I love you. I want you to know that if everything had gone according to plan, I would have proposed after you won the 75th games. When you go back to District 2 I don't want you to be hung up on me. Just because I'm no longer with you it doesn't mean that you can't be happy. I hope you can find someone else who treats you well. You truly deserve the best, Clove, better than what I ever gave you.
I really thought that we were supposed to be together but everything happens for a reason. At least we were able to share so many wonderful moments together. Even here, in the games, I found times when I was just happy to have you around. You are my everything, Clove. I love you so much. I didn't tell you that enough. I hate myself for taking time with you for granted. If I could do it all over, I would spend every day with you. I'm sorry for all the fights and rough times. They were all my fault; I was stupid. I didn't mean anything that I ever said to you in a fight.
Clove, I was so lucky to have known you. From the first time I saw you throw that knife, I wanted to know everything about you. You always made me feel better after a bad day and were the one person who had my trust completely. There was no one else for me. Ever. You were it. I don't know what I did to deserve having you in my life. I must have done something right.
Like I said earlier, I believe everything happens for a reason and now I see that you were put into my life so I could learn to love. Without you I would have turned into a monster so thank you for keeping me sane. If everything does happen for a reason then I think, as heart breaking as it is, that we were put in this arena so I could learn about sacrifice and something worth fighting for. Before it was always about winning and doing whatever I could to put myself on top. But after knowing you, I put someone else before myself. That is why I had to do it, Clove. I wouldn't have been able to live with myself knowing that I was alive only because you were dead. Clove, I know you and please, don't do anything rash. You deserve to have a long and happy life. Don't you dare kill yourself just because I'm dead. Think of all the wonderful things about life. I'm just one person, a screwed up one at that. Despite what I'm sure you're feeling, don't do it Clove, please. I would never want it.
If there is a life after this one, know that I will always be with you. If I can be by your side or watching over you, I promise that's where I'll be.
I want you to have everything of mine back home. The clothes, pictures, belongings, everything. I never told you, but I have a journal under my mattress that is really all about you. Take that as well.
You made life so much easier. I was a better man because of you. I love everything about you. I always wanted to shake you whenever you said something bad about yourself. To me you are perfect. I love your rare smiles and the way your green eyes shine when you are happy or have an idea. I even love when you go all sadistic on me. You are going to do great things and I hope I will be able to watch you from above. I'm going to miss how your hand fits in mine and your rare laughter, but I know that what I have to do will be worth it if it means you get to live. You were always meant to win the Hunger Games and I refuse to let you die in the arena. Clove, I can't even imagine life without you. You're stronger than I am so I know you'll be able to be happy after the games, but I wouldn't have been able to. This is all for the best. If you died, I would have killed myself right after.
As much as you joked about me being your rock, you were always mine.
This probably isn't the place to say it, but I'm sorry I got you pregnant. Being in the games is stressful enough; I can't imagine how rough it must have been for you while trying to keep everything under control. I wish you would have told me sooner so I could have helped to carry the burden. You have to allow yourself to confide in others, Clove. It doesn't have to be just you going at everything alone. I felt awful about leaving you but there wasn't another way.
I'm sorry that I had to leave you, especially now. You don't know how badly I wish I could have met our son or daughter. You know that I had to die in order to keep you and our child alive. It would have killed me to lose you along with our baby. If there was anyone I would have wanted to have kids with, it would have been you all the way. I know you will make a great mother. If you ever doubt it just remember that I have complete faith in you. Clove Tenea, you can do anything. I hope our child looks just like you, Clove. Then it would be perfect.
I'm sorry you feel alone right now, but alone is better than dead. Keep your head high and do all the things we wanted to do together. Thanks for getting me through the sleepless nights back home when it was just you and me against the world.
I love you more than anything. I'm sorry I will miss seeing our child grow up and I hate that I will never get to see you again. I hope that you have a great life, Clove. You deserve nothing less. I know how much you love to look up at the stars so I promise you that I will always be up there, shining just for you.
I love you so much. Thank you for everything.
To my Son or Daughter,
I wish I could have met you. I'm so sorry that I'm not around for you. I want you to know that you were not just abandoned. As much as I wished I could have been with you, I had to die in order to save your mother and you. Promise me that you won't give here a hard time, alright? I'm so sorry about the way things worked out and I hope you know that I love you and your mom so much.
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed me. I wanted more than anything to have been able to hold you in my arms and protect you. Please don't ever volunteer to be in the games. It's not worth it.
I'm sorry and I love you.
And that's it. That's all I have for you. Thank you all so much for reading this story. Your comments seriously make my day and pushed me to finish this. I can't even begin to express how much your support means to me. I can't believe how much has come out of this story! There is even a roleplay blog on tumblr based off of it! (clato-thevictors seriously check it out, they do an amazing job). It was incredible how this story was able to connect me to so many people. I even met my tumbr best friend Maddie because of this story! Thank you all for the favorites, follows and the incredible amount of reviews! I never imagined having my first ever fanfiction being so popular (I didn't even think I would get 20 reviews at one point). I have to thank two of my best friends Phoenix and Bianca (Glimmer and Katniss- I'm Clove, obviously haha) for helping me come up with plot points and reading every chapter. I want to give a special shout out to those of you who read this story through google translate or went through with a dictionary. Thank you so much I can't believe that you read this despite not being fluent in English. I wish I could respond to all the guest/anonymous questions because they have made me feel so great that you enjoyed reading this.
I hate saying goodbye to Clove and Cato and to you all as well. It has been a great run and have to thank all of you for being along for the ride.
May the odds be ever in you favor.