Dedicated to Shadow; my baby, my kitty. 1997-2011.
I don't remember the first time we met
But I've been told we were both babies
I don't know life without, dear.
You've always been there
You would always sleep next to me
On my bed
And if you were not there
I wouldn't be able to sleep
Your scent is still on my blanket
An ugly reminder
Or soothing comfort?
I can't decide.
I miss you, Shadow.
You were always my kitty.
Not my brother's or my sister's kitty
But my kitty
You would always come to me when I called
But, as we both grew older you became sicker
I watched you eat
And at the same time I watched you starve
You became so skinny…
I could feel each one of your bones
And you would always cry in pain
And we could never figure out why
You could've been happy and pain-free
But I was selfish. I didn't want to let you go
So I made you suffer when you didn't need too.
I put my happiness on top of your well-being.
I'm sorry, Shadow. I'm sorry I made you suffer.
But now you're gone.
Now you don't have to live a life of pain.
There will always be a spot in my heart for you, baby.
Nobody can change that.
And while it may take some time for me
To get to use to sleeping
Without you by my side
I'll be okay.
Because I know that you are no longer in pain
I'll never forget the memories
They are all that I have left to remember you by
So...without further ado,
This is all that I have left to say to you
My baby, my kitty.
And know that I still love you.