Dedicated to Shadow; my baby, my kitty. 1997-2011.

I don't remember the first time we met

But I've been told we were both babies

I don't know life without, dear.

You've always been there

You would always sleep next to me

On my bed

And if you were not there

I wouldn't be able to sleep

Your scent is still on my blanket

An ugly reminder

Or soothing comfort?

I can't decide.

I miss you, Shadow.

You were always my kitty.

Not my brother's or my sister's kitty

But my kitty

You would always come to me when I called

But, as we both grew older you became sicker

I watched you eat

And at the same time I watched you starve

You became so skinny…

I could feel each one of your bones

And you would always cry in pain

And we could never figure out why

You could've been happy and pain-free

But I was selfish. I didn't want to let you go

So I made you suffer when you didn't need too.

I put my happiness on top of your well-being.

I'm sorry, Shadow. I'm sorry I made you suffer.

But now you're gone.

Now you don't have to live a life of pain.

There will always be a spot in my heart for you, baby.

Nobody can change that.

And while it may take some time for me

To get to use to sleeping

Without you by my side

I'll be okay.

Because I know that you are no longer in pain

I'll never forget the memories

They are all that I have left to remember you by

So...without further ado,

This is all that I have left to say to you

Goodbye, Shadow.

My baby, my kitty.

And know that I still love you.