I Will Carry Your Burden Chapter 12:
The Gilbert House
A/N: Here is the next chapter in this story. I know that you all have been waiting for this update for a while now. Things, mainly school and work, have been really crazy. But the bright side is that things have finally calmed down and I have made a promise to write something at least once a week. So the updates shall be rolling out more frequently now. Anyways, here is Chapter 12 of I Will Carry Your Burden! Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I do not own Vampire Diaries or its Characters.
So far the ride towards Mystic Falls had been extremely silent and very tense. The car felt stuffy and for some reason I found it hard to breathe. Tyler hadn't so much as made a sound. In fact, the werewolf hadn't even bothered to look in this direction. Something was wrong. It could be felt in the air. The magic that had surrounded us when we were officially secluded was gone, or at the very least dissipating very quickly. At this rate, by the time Mystic Falls came into view there would be more space between us now than when we had first started venturing down this crazy road. So as we sat in silence, I stared out the window watching the trees go by and already missing the fresh air that I knew would evade me at the that I now called home.
More time passed and as it slipped by my control and patience went with it. But not Tyler's. Oh no. He remained unfazed by the fact that nothing was going well. His attention stayed on the road. His jaw relaxed, hands thrumming on the steering wheel to some miscellaneous tune in his head. He was the image-and I mean the perfect image- of indifference and ease. Before I could stop myself I sighed deeply. That seemed to capture his attention.
"What wrong's babe?
Oh now I was babe. "Nothing," was my noncommittal answer.
"Jer, really? I can feel and see your unhappiness. Something is bothering you. Besides I know you. I know when something is wrong w-"
"You. Don't. Know. Me. Do you hear me? There is a lot that I have been through. And those things have changed me a lot since the last time that I was here. You think you know me but you really don't. But you are right about one thing. Something is bothering me, unlike you."
"What's that supposed to mean?" I could see his nose starting to flare and his hands were clenching the wheel. Now he was giving me a reaction. Up until now he had been completely silent and had not even bothered to spare me a glance. And as sick as it sounds I reveled in the fact that he was now responding in some way to me. It didn't matter that it was a negative reaction.
"What was going to happen after we got back to Mystic Falls? Huh? Was all this just a way to get me to open to you? That way you can make my life a living hell like old times. Or maybe I was just another notch on your bedpost."
"Where the fuck is all of this coming from? I already told you why I brought you up here. I explained clearly what was going on and what you mean to me."
"But you never told me what was going to happen after we got back."
"Is that what all this is about? You being concerned with the future?"
"No Tyler. It's not the future that I'm concerned about. It's the uncertainty of ours that has me like this."
We were both very quiet for a moment. Then I felt his hand grab mine and instinctively I intertwined our hands together. Tyler gave a gentle squeeze and then spoke, "No, we cannot be sure what will happen. Anything can happen at any moment." I was about to speak until Tyler cut me off. "Let me finish, please. There is one thing that I can assure. I can assure you that I will be there for all the moments that I am allowed to be there for. I will be there for our first dance, our first home cooked dinner. I'll be there for the first time you say that you hate me and don't really mean it. There for the moments when you want to be held tight and the ones where you don't want to be bothered. As long as there is air in my lungs and you allow it, I will be there. You are my mate, nothing can break that bond."
I took in everything that he had said and boy was it a lot. Tyler wasn't the opening up type. I knew that from plenty of experience, but right then in that moment he was an open book. The question was whether or not I was going to exploit that and try to get more information out of him or was I just going to take what he said at face value and let it go. Of course with the feelings that I was currently sifting through I decided to go with the former.
"So, will we be avoiding each other at school and around town to avoid damaging your image?"
That seemed to hit a nerve. "Is that what you really think of me?"
His jaw clenched and his body grew extremely tense. But what really hit me was the way he sounded so wounded. And the pain in his voice bothered me more than I thought it would. I had caused that pain. Not only by asking that question but also by not having the answer that he wanted to hear.
"Honestly Tyler, I'm not so sure what to think of you right now. I admit that I feel the pull that ties me to you every day. And I would be lying if I said that I didn't want you so bad that it feels like an addiction. But this has all happened so fast. In a short period of time I have moved to a new place, met a werewolf, slept with said werewolf, and learned that I am a mate. Tyler we barely know one another. Yes, we have practically grown up together, but there have also been major gaps in between the times that we have spent together or seen each other."
"So what do you suggest," whispered Tyler.
"I suggest we slow down. Before you even object, I'm not saying that I don't want to see you or be with you. I'm just stating that we need to take time to get to know each other. Meet each other's friends and family, tell embarrassing stories about our childhoods, spill our guts about that one chick flick that you don't want anyone else to know you love." I actually got him to smile with that last one. "I'm not saying no to you Tyler or to this, whatever it is. I'm just saying I don't want to rush it and miss out on all the good stuff that comes in the middle."
"Okay, I understand. We will do it your way….for now." I playfully smacked his arm as we shared a laugh together.
"Am I meeting your family today or is this too soon?"
"I know my aunt wants me to bring you to the house but I think it's too soon. So you can drop me off and I will try to diffuse the situation."
"If you insist, but call me later on tonight."
"Are you already missing me?" I joked, but I noticed the slight tinge that his skin took and noticed that he was blushing. What the hell? Tyler Lockwood does not blush.
"Maybe I am. Anyways, we are here at the infamous Gilbert House."
I looked away from him with a shocked expression on my face as I noticed that he was right. And right on the front porch was my aunt Jenna and Elena. Boy this was just going to be great. I leaned over and kissed Tyler quickly before jumping out of the car and shouting back at him, "Call you later." When he pulled away I saw my guardian prepare to object so I spoke first. "Can we do this inside? I have some things to tell you and I kind of don't want an audience on our doorstep." I expected her to object in some way but to my pleasure, and surprise, she nodded and walked back into the house. As soon as the lock was turned the quiet was disrupted.
"Who the hell was that and where the hell have you been?" And now the fun starts.