Warnings: Yaoi, sadness, shouta (Kakashi is 29 while Naruto is 16), non-descriptive sex, OOCness.
Losing the one you love is the most painful thing anyone could ever experience. And I knew that first hand, because I lost Sasuke. I lost the person that I loved and cherished more then anyone else I knew. I lost Sasuke.
It had been very painful for me in the beginning. So painful, that I had to leave Konoha. I said I was leaving to get stronger to rescue Sasuke. But that was only half the reason. The other half was because it was too painful to stay in Konoha, because everything I saw in Konoha reminded me of Sasuke. I knew there were other people that did care for me and two others that said they loved me, but the only person I would ever love was Sasuke, and that wouldn't change.
I spent two and a half years with Ero-sennin, and finally returned to Konoha.
I was a little happy to be home, because he wanted to see my friends again, I wanted to see Iruka-sensei.
I wanted to see Kakashi-sensei again.
I didn't get to spend much time with anyone, because I had to go to Suna to rescue Gaara. Akatsuki had successfully extracted Shukaku from Gaara, and Gaara died. But thanks to an old lady named Chiyo, he was alive again, because she gave her life to him.
Afterward, when we returned to Konoha, it turned out that Sakura-chan and I were being sent on another rescue Sasuke mission. I was excited. Just the thought of seeing Sasuke again made my heart flutter. But Kakashi-sensei, being injured, couldn't go.
"Naruto." Kakashi called out, and I ran to his side, thinking he needed something. He seemed okay, just a little worn out because of the fact that he over-used his sharingan eye.
"Kakashi-sensei, are you okay?" I asked. I would help him with anything he needed. I told him not to hesitate to ask for my help.
"Ah, of course Naruto. You're here, and I need to ask you something." Kakashi said, grabbing my hand, I blushed at the contact and looked down at our connecting hands.
"Kakashi-sensei?" I trailed off as Kakashi sat up, bringing his face close up to mine, and covered my eyes with his hand. He paused a moment before placing his lips upon my own. My eyes widened at the contact, and after the shock was gone, I pulled away.
"Eh? Kakashi-sensei, why did you do that?" I asked, bringing my fingers to my lips, which was still tingling from his kiss.
"Naruto, I know it's hard for you, seeing as though Sasuke is gone, but I can help you get through that pain." He told me, and I was unsure of what he meant by that.
"I know what it feels like to love the person you love most. I never thought that I would move on, but then I met you, and because of you, I moved on." Kakashi said, and I tried to interrupt him, but he continued.
"I fell in love with you Naruto." He said, and I felt something inside of me jump.
So, Sakura-chan, Sai (Sasuke's replacement), Yamato-taichou (Kakashi-sensei's replacement), and I made our way to where we heard Sasuke was.
And we found him. He had changed so much since I saw him last, and he didn't care that Orochimaru was going to take his body.
All he cared about was revenge.
He didn't care about Sakura-chan, or Kakashi-sensei.
But most of all, he didn't care about me.
We returned to Konoha once again, with a failed mission. I smiled and said that I was still going to get Sasuke back, but inside, I was broken. It hurt so much to see him carelessly toss me aside, almost kill me. And he would have killed me if Sai hadn't stopped him.
After Kakashi-sensei got better, he told me that he would give me special training. I was going to learn something that only I could learn. I was a bit excited that we were going to spend some time together. Yamato-taichou was with us as well, but we always spent some time alone together afterward.
It was amazing. Kakashi said I helped him move on, and now, I think he helped me move on. I think I loved him.
One night after Yamato-taichou left, Kakashi let me take off his mask. We've kissed many times before, but he always made me keep my eyes closed, so I never saw his face. But now, he let me, and he was gorgeous. I couldn't help but blush at it and wonder why he hid his face under that stupid mask.
"Kakashi? What are you doing?" I asked as I felt Kakashi trail his lips down my neck, onto my exposed chest. He had never done that before, and I think he noticed the increase in my breathing and heartbeat.
"Shh, just enjoy this Naruto, we can take it slow and gentle tonight." He told me.
"But-" I began, unsure if I really wanted to do this.
"I love you, Naruto."
"I love you too." I told him. Yes, I did want this. I wanted this so much, so much that it scared me. I was already half-naked, and I gasped as my sensei hooked his fingers on the hem of my boxers and pants, and pulled them down. I almost smirked as I reached forward and unzipped his vest, thinking it was unfair that he still had clothes on. After his vest joined my pants and boxers, I tugged at his shirt, and he raised his arms in the air, so I was able to pull his shirt off. I gasped in excitement at his bare chest. He was so well toned and delicious-looking. It made me wonder if he hid himself this much when he was younger.
His large hands pushed me forward onto the ground, and he spread my legs, laying in between them, he continuously kissed and nipped at my neck, as his hand trailed down my neck to my chest, tweaking my nipples as it ran lower. I couldn't help but whimper and raise my hips at the closeness of his hand.
I half gasped, half moaned as he picked up speed, pumped faster and harden with each growing second. I, as well as all other teenage boys my age did this a lot. It was natural. But I never thought how much better it would feel if someone else did it for me.
I tried thrusting upwards into his hand, but his unoccupied hand held my hips down. A few moments of this, and I exploded into his hand, yelling out his name as I did so.
After I let myself calm down a little, I let my hands travel to his pants, and undid the button and zipper. I hooked my fingers around his pants and boxers, and pulled them down. Kakashi kicked his feet to get the clothes off his body completely. I let my eyes travel to his hardened erection. My eyes widened when I saw his size.
Kakashi must have felt my discomfort, because he took my face into his hands and kissed me. It was a very quick and chaste kiss. I felt so much love pour into it.
He brought two of his fingers up to my mouth and told me to suck on them. I opened my mouth and ran my tongue across the two digits, not breaking the gaze on his eyes. He seemed to have grown a bit impatient, because he pulled his fingers away, lifted my legs, and placed them on his shoulders, which in turn, made it easier for him to prepare me.
"Kaka…shi…I love you." I told him. I wanted him to know how I felt about him, wanted him to know that he helped me move on, and wanted him to know that he saved me, saved me from heartbreak. I loved Sasuke, and I never thought I'd find anyone else that I could love that much. But I found Kakashi, and he returned my love. I've never been so happy before in my life.
"Naruto, this is going to hurt at first. Just brace yourself and try not to tense up so much." Kakashi told me. I nod my head, silently telling him it was okay. I felt as though something was tearing me apart. Never before in my life have I ever been in so much pain.
"Ahh…Kakashi, it hurts!" I said, pulling the older man against my chest. It hurt so much, and I needed some sort of comfort.
"Shh, I know. It'll go away soon, I promise." Kakashi told me. He seemed to have understood that I was in pain, because he leaned forward and kissed me. He ran his tongue along my bottom lip, and I immediately granted him entrance, wrapping my tongue around his own, before he hit something that made me moan.
Everything felt so amazing and good, and to make matters even better, I knew how much he loved me, the one who I loved more than anything else was giving me this pleasure, and I was doing the same to him.
"Kakashi…I…I'm so close." I told him, whimpering at the pleasure he was giving me.
I moaned loudly as I released onto his hand and our stomachs. A few more thrusts and Kakashi followed me into heaven, before he collapsed on top of me.
Afterward, I lay in his arms. It felt so right, I felt so complete. It was amazing. I love him; I really, really love him! It was so amazing, this feeling right now.
"Kakashi, do you really have to leave for a week?" I asked him. He had told me earlier today that he was going on a week long mission. I was a little sad, because I was going to miss him, but it was his job, and I accepted that.
"Yes Naruto, but don't worry, nothings going to happen when I'm gone."
"I know. I trust you." I said. I had no reason to believe otherwise.
Or so I thought.
Kakashi-sensei returned a week later, but he wasn't alone. He had an Akatsuki member with him. The one known as Tobi. I was confused that this at first, but Tsunade-baachan explained it all to me.
Apparently, Tobi was Kakashi-sensei's teammate, Uchiha Obito. Everyone thought Obito died years ago, but he survived somehow, losing his memories in the process. Kakashi-sensei found him on the mission, and I guess seeing him, Tobi was slowly remembering that he was Uchiha Obito.
I was happy for Kakashi-sensei, because he got his teammate back. But whenever I asked if we could spend some time together, he always said no, because he was helping Obito. I didn't mind because I understood. However, Kakashi-sensei began to ignore me more and more, to the point that, when I saw him walking the streets he didn't even say hi. He completely ignored me.
It hurt so much. I couldn't sleep at night and I was slacking in my training. I loved Kakashi even though I thought I would never love again, and the man I loved was ignoring me.
It took about 4 months for Obito to fully regain his memories, and when that happened, everything went downhill.
Kakashi-sensei once told me that he knew how it felt to lose the person you love. And now, he told me that, that person was Obito, but now Obito was back. So what would become of me?
"It's over Naruto. You reminded me so much of Obito, that's why I told you I loved you. You were only a replacement Naruto, and now that Obito is back, I don't need you anymore. Good luck following your dream Naruto." He told me, and just walked away. He walked away after everything we've been through. He walked away without a second thought.
I felt tears welt up in my eyes, and I didn't bother holding them in. I waited until I couldn't see him anymore to turn heel and run back to my apartment, millions of thoughts running through my mind.
I was heartbroken that he tossed me aside after everything we shared, but at the same time, I was happy that he had his first love back, I was happy that he was happy. Was this what true love is about? I was hurt, very hurt, but something told me it was okay. He was happy, and that was all that mattered to me.
I was only a replacement. That's all I ever was. He never really loved me just as Sasuke never loved me.
I almost laughed at this.
Who would love a monster anyway?
So it's done. How did everyone like it? The sequel is called 'Broken' and it's up and completed!