Song credit: Never Alone - Barlow Girl
We got in the ship and I stretched.
"Well, that was fun! But I think I'm ready for a shower," I said.
"Yeah, you kind of stink..." Sora joked as he walked towards his room.
"Uhm, excuse me, I only stink because you were holding me. Your stink must have rubbed off on me."
I could tell Sora was rolling his eyes from his room.
"Hurry up and shower so you can steer us to the next world, okay? I don't wanna be in this world anymore..." he yelled from behind a closed door.
I nodded, although he couldn't see me, and walked into my room, grabbing my shower needs. I walked to the bathroom and closed the door behind me, locking it just to be safe. I turned the shower on and undressed, hoping in quickly after that as to not get cold. I let my thoughts get the better of me as I went through my showerly routine.
'I wonder why Axel was brought back to life. Not that I'm complaining, but I thought they were only bringing back the bad guys. Does that mean Axel is bad? No, he would have been straight up with me; I have to trust in that. And then he was looking for Roxas...but Roxas and Sora were bonded. Does he think that they were disconnected when all this bad crap happened? Blah...too many unanswered questions.'
While Yumi was in the shower I laid on what I had now deemed my bed. I should have offered to shower first and get us going somewhere, cause girls take forever in the bathroom. I was just staring at the ceiling, not really knowing what I was going to do with myself. I had decided I was going to get Yumi's iPod and just listen to some music, maybe take a nap or something while just relaxing. So, I got up and walked into the cockpit, seeing the iPod placed in the dock. I grabbed it and took it back to my room with me, once again lying on my bed.
'Hmmmm...what looks good on here.'
I scrolled few a couple play lists until I saw one that caught my eye.
"Roxy..." I read aloud.
I clicked it and saw that none of the songs were labeled. Weird...I put the ear buds in my ears and decided to just click a random song and listen to it. When the voice started to sing I almost fell off my bed in shock. My nobody was singing. Quite well actually. But still, how the heck did she know him?! And how did she get this? I listened to a few more sings, before there was a slight pause and mumbling.
"Guys, I don't wanna do this," a female voice said.
"C'mon, do this...for me," I heard Roxas say.
There was a few shuffling noises, followed by a mumbled, "Okay, for you." There was a creaking noise, and then there was that girl's voice.
"Okay Roxas, this one's for you. Don't say I never gave you anything."
A few piano chords were played, and then I heard the most beautiful voice.
"I waited for you, today. But you didn't show. No, no, no. I needed you today, so where did you go? You told me to call, said you'd be there and though I haven't seen you are you still there? I cried out with no reply and I can't feel you by my side. So I'll hold tight to what I know; you're here and I'm never alone. And though I cannot see you, and I can't explain why, such a deep, deep reassurance you've placed in my life. We cannot separate cause you're part of me. And though you're invisible I'll trust the unseen. I cried out with no reply and I can't feel you by my side. So I'll hold tight to what I know; you're here and I'm never alone. We cannot separate; you're part of me and though you're invisible I'll trust the unseen. I cried out with no reply and I can't feel you by my side. So I'll hold tight to what I know; you're here and I'm never alone...I'll never be alone, now that I've met you Rox."
The song had picked up halfway through with other instruments, so I knew there were other people playing, but all I could imagine was this girl and her piano, singing to my nobody. She must've loved him a lot, to write a song about him like that. I thought I knew that voice, but before I could think too far into it, Roxas' voice came back with the next song. I took out the ear buds and shut off the iPod. This was too much to take in...
"Sora, the bathroom's almost yours! I just gotta get dressed," Yumi's voice broke through my thoughts.
'Hey that sounds a lot like...'
"Hey Yumi, could you do me a favour?" I asked.
I didn't even know what I was doing; my body was kind of just acting on impulse.
"And what would that be?" she questioned.
"Bake me one of those cheesecakes that you talked about the night before our adventure? I'm really craving one."
A slight laugh was heard followed by a, "Yeah sure!"
I had just bought myself some time. Perfect. I got up from my bed and looked in the hall to make sure there was no sign of Yumi. When the coast was clear I opened her bedroom door and snuck in. I was going to die if she found me here, but I needed to investigate.
I got out of the bathroom and walked straight towards the kitchen. I needed to start working on that cheesecake now so it had some time to cool down. So, right away I got everything out and preheated the little oven. I hummed the tune I was planning on using for that song Sora told me to work on and I smiled to myself.
'As much as that kid drives me bonkers, I'm glad he's around. I don't really know if I could have done this on my own. And it helps that he's super nice to look at...'
I stopped what I was doing. Did I really just think that?
'Yeah, you really did. And you know that it's true. You're crushing hard on the kid.'
N-no I'm not! I thought we already had this discussion. Yes, he looked good, but 'taken' isn't my type. He's got a girlfriend and that's that.
'But if he didn't...you'd totally like him right?'
Conversation over, I'm not doing this. To make my point about it, I'm going to finish this damn cake and go drive, just to make myself shut up.
"Hey Sora!" I yelled. "Is my iPod still in the dock?"
I practically leapt out of my skin at the sound of her voice. I was so engrossed in what I was reading that I totally forgot about the world around me.
"Sora?" she shouted.
I threw the book back where I found it and made sure her room looked the exact same way it had before I entered.
"I'll go check!" I responded, walking into the hallway.
I put the iPod back on its dock and walked to the kitchen.
"Yeah, it's still there."
"Perfect! Go shower, and I'll put this cheesecake in the fridge for you and lift off. We'll be at the Enchanted Forest before you know it," she said with a smile.
Guilt was in the pit of my stomach as I forced a smile and nodded. I left the kitchen and went to my room, grabbed a change of clothes and went into the bathroom. I closed the door, turned on the shower and stripped, jumping in the shower quickly. I wanted to get this shower over and done with; I needed to talk to Yumi. Let me explain: I had just read what I was assuming was her diary, or song book, or something like that, and it was very personal. I felt kind of bad for reading it, which is where my guilt stemmed from. But that's not why I wanted to talk to her. I found a picture that she was using for a bookmark. Said picture was of her and Roxas. As if that wasn't enough, he was kissing her. I mean, okay, so it was on the cheek, and she looked pretty surprised, BUT STILL, HE KISSED HER. Why did he get to kiss her? Did she want him to? Were they in love? Wasn't she with Riku? I NEED TO FINISH THIS DAMN SHOWER AND ASK HER BEFORE I GO NUTS.
I turned on my iPod and smiled as a familiar tune bounced through the speakers.
"...Hey, little girl on a spending spree I don't come cheap but the kisses come free. On closer inspection I'm sure that you'll agree. OOOHHHHH! Hey little girl, listen to my plea I come with a lifetime guarantee. And one day maybe we'll find that baby makes three. It's the ladies' choice; I'm the ladies' choice; the ladies' choice. I'm the ladies' choice, choice, choice. I'm the ladies' choice."
I was spinning in my chair and laughing; attempting to sing and smile all at once. I spun around and saw Sora standing in the doorway with an amused smirk on his face with his arms crossed.
"Can I help you?" I asked in a goofy voice.
"Actually, maybe you can. Grab your iPod and follow me please," he said.
I shrugged my shoulders and turned around, put the ship on auto pilot and followed him down the hallway towards the kitchen. When we got there, Sora told me to sit at the table and I obeyed. I watched him as he got out a couple plates, forks, and a knife, before he headed towards the fridge. I took the time to note what Sora actually chose to wear, just to get a sense of his style, of course. He had on a pair of black basketball shorts and a form fitting blue t-shirt. I blushed and looked away, instantly hating myself for not dressing a bit nicer. I was wearing a long sleeved white sweater that was cut at the top and fell off one shoulder and a pair of cut off jean shorts. Yeah, I scream class...
Sora cut two pieces of cake and walked over to the table, placing a plate with cake and a fork in front of me. I raised an eyebrow at him, in attempt to ask him what was going on.
"You once said you could drown your feelings in this cheesecake. I'm kind of betting on it..." he spoke.
There were a few moments of silence before Sora huffed and looked at me.
"I wanna talk to you about Roxas," he stated bluntly. "Did...did you know him?"
"I did know Roxas, very well actually."
"How?" he asked, as he poked his fork into his cake, not looking at me.
Eventually I felt my face fall into a soft smile as Sora looked up at me with confusion.
" Sora, you don't have to be afraid to ask me things like that. I worked with him in the Organization, before they were so 'organized.' I was with Roxas from the moment he was created. You see, when you fought Riku, well...Ansem, and you realized Kairi's heart, I had just parted with the King. I was told to follow Axel and Demyx. They knew you would have a nobody, and I was to make sure that he didn't get corrupt. So, when Roxas was created, I was there to welcome him into the world and I had to explain to him everything that happened. Of course, Axel and Demyx kind of ruined all my story telling by taking me captive and knocking Roxas out so hard that he forgot everything...eventually though, I became friends with the three boys and when Roxas ran away, Axel told me to follow him. I did, and I brought him to Twilight Town: the real one. Riku succumbed to the darkness about two months after that, and I left Roxas in his hands. Before you get all snippy either, Riku didn't know I had even been there in the first place, and I had to personally beg Namine to erase everyone's memory of Roxas or myself."
"That playlist on your iPod, called 'Roxy,' that's him singing isn't it?"
My face flushed and I took the iPod out of my pocket and looked at it like it was some sort of big secret to be ashamed of.
"I'm not going to lie Sora, it was him..."
"Did you love him?" he cut in quickly.
My head shot up and I felt my face burn.
"Wha-what?! Why would that matter?" I questioned.
"Well aren't you dating Riku? I feel like that would complicate things..."
I felt myself calm down a bit as I answered Sora.
"Riku and I aren't dating. Trust me, he likes some other chick. And besides, the dude's like my brother. That'd just be weird..."
"Okay...but you never answered my question. Did you love Roxas?"
"I...I don't think so. He was my best friend, and I would never let myself fall for my best friend. Besides, we all knew he was destined for someone else."
"Is that why it was hard to be my friend?" Sora asked. "Because you were so close to Roxas it was hard to see past him to see me?"
I nearly choked on the bite of cheesecake I just took. When I had calmed down I looked at Sora.
"Listen Sora, I know he was your nobody, but you guys are nothing alike. Roxas was a very different guy from you, and I don't think I'd ever confuse the two of you. It was hard for me to like you at first because...well I'll be honest, you were too damn peppy all the time! I didn't know how someone could always be so happy; it was inhuman."
Sora let out a slight laugh.
"Well, when you're friends with Riku, you gotta pretend to be happy all the time so he gets less sad," Sora joked.
'That's where you're wrong Sora. Seeing you so happy is what drove him to be so sad. He wanted what you have...'
"Sora? Have you, I don't know, felt Roxas recently?" I asked awkwardly.
Sora shook his head.
"Nope, can't say I have. Why do you ask?"
I shook my head.
"I was just curious. I mean all these other Organization members have been popping up, who's to say they didn't get to Roxas?"
Sora seemed to have thought about it for a moment but then shrugged.
"Guess we'll just have to pass that road when we get there."
I nodded and Sora and I silently ate our cake, minus Sora gushing about how it was the best thing he ever ate. When we were done I grabbed our dishes and put them in the dishwasher.
"I just have one more question for you," Sora said as I was headed towards the cockpit. "Why did you laugh when you looked at me in Deep Jungle? Was I dressed weird?"
I thought back to the incident and remembered, causing me to laugh again. Sora looked slightly agitated, but waited for me to finish.
"Sora, have you ever noticed every pair of shoes you own makes your feet look like five hundred times bigger than they actually are?"
Sora blushed and looked at his feet.
"They aren't big..." he mumbled.
"Exactly! You wear clown shoes all the time!"
Sora looked up and me and laughed a bit.
"Haha, yeah I guess I do!"
I smiled and nodded, walking out of the room.
"Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to sing more songs from the lovely musical 'Hairspray' while I continue our drive. Please, feel free to sleep while our journey takes place."
I didn't see Sora for the rest of the night, so I'm assuming he went to bed. I was piloting the ship, but I could feel myself falling asleep. So I put the ship on auto pilot and grabbed a blanket I kept near my chair. I wrapped myself up in it and kept my eyes on my surroundings as long as I could before I drifted off into sleep.
"...there's no use looking back or wondering, because love is a strange and funny thing."
I was working on Sora's song when I heard someone clapping from behind me. I was in an open meadow that was covered in daisies, so it wasn't the most hidden place in the world. Why was I shocked that someone found me.
"Your voice is just as beautiful as I remembered," I heard a familiar voice say.
I spun around and got up from the piano bench I had been sitting on, running at the blonde that was standing in the field behind me.
"ROXAS!" I shouted, running into his outstretched arms.
He picked me up and we spun around. The white dress I was apparently wearing was surrounding us as we laughed and held each other close.
"God I missed you," he said as he placed me on the ground.
"I missed you more," I whispered in his white buttoned up shirt.
We embraced for an eternity before he pulled back a little bit.
"Listen, I can't stay here long. I just had to see you," he told me.
"Yumi...do you remember, when we went to the studio that one day with all the guys?"
I smiled at him.
"How could I forget?"
He smiled back.
"So then, you remember that day when I told you I finally felt like I had a heart? That it seemed like whenever you were around, I felt whole; complete. Not like I was someone's nobody, but I was my own person."
"Of course...Roxas, what does this have to do with anything?"
"Yumi...you made me a heart. I was, no, I am my own person. And I'll never be able to thank you enough for that."
I scrunched up my face in confusion.
"What are you talking about? You merged with Sora..."
"I know. But when all the Organization members came back, I did too. Separate from Sora. And Namine is separate from Kairi too. I promise you, neither of us are in trouble."
"I'm so confused right now...so you're your own person?"
"Soon. Once everything happens I will be. I just needed to let you know I'm alright. And I'll be seeing you again before you think."
Roxas pulled me close again and kissed me on the top of my head.
"I have to go, Namine needs me. And it seems like Sora's coming to wake you up."
He pulled away and his all white clothed form began to back away.
"Wait, Roxas don't go!"
"Don't forget Yumi, I'll always love you."
I felt like someone had stuck a knife in my heart.
"Roxas...I love you too," I whispered as his form disappeared.
I jolted awake from my dream and saw Sora's worried face looking at mine.
"Are you okay?" he asked me.
He had one hand on my cheek and one on my shoulder, which, when I noticed, caused me to blush.
"Why wouldn't I be?" I asked.
"Well, you were thrashing around screaming, 'No, don't leave me, I love you,' for like ten minutes."
I blushed harder, realizing how embarrassing that must have looked.
Sora took a step back and I stood up.
"Maybe you should go sleep in your bed for awhile, I'll keep my eye on things up here."
I just nodded and walked to my bedroom. I was just super glad he didn't ask me what I was dreaming about.
Yumi walked to her bedroom and I took a seat in the captain's chair. I grabbed the blanket and wrapped it around myself as I looked around for enemy ships or any sign of the world. I felt my eyes drooping; thank god autopilot was still on. Before I knew it, I was asleep.
I was lying on the beach on Destiny Island, just relaxing and wasting the day away. Not a care in the world and not a bad guy around; yes this was the life.
"Wow...at least Yumi's dream was something unique. Why are you so unoriginal?" a male voice asked from behind me.
I didn't even have to get up to know the voice was Roxas. His stupid voice had been in my head all day.
"What do you want from me?" I asked, sitting up and looking at the kid.
He was wearing white pants and a white button up shirt, which was weird since we were on an island...
"I came to talk to you about Yumi..."
I practically jumped up from my sitting position and minimized the gap that was between the two of us.
"What about Yumi?!"
Roxas pushed me back a little and brushed off his clothes.
"First, please, can we get out of this damn heat? I'm dying here."
He snapped his fingers and we were suddenly in an open meadow filled with daisies.
"You thought this was more appropriate?" I said sarcastically.
I was wearing the same thing as Roxas, except my outfit was all in black. I had my arms crossed over my chest and he had his in his pockets, looking kind of nervous.
"Sorry, this was as close to Yumi's dream as I could get. But that's not important. Right now I need to tell you something that you won't be too happy about. So, promise not to hit me?"
I rolled my eyes.
He let out a breath.
"Sora, I screwed things up. Really, REALLY badly for the both of us. I broke Yumi's heart."
The moment the sentence left his lips I was ready to punch his lights out, but I contained my anger.
"Look, I was stupid. When she was locked up at the Organization I fell for her: hard. So when I ran, I thought I was finally free of her and the way I felt about her. But she got out and came after me. After that I knew I loved her, and it was pretty obvious to the world that she loved me back. But one night, a guy in a black coat came to me and told me that a nobody and a somebody couldn't be together. And he was right: it was never going to happen. So, I became really distant from her. I told her that the stars told me that one day I would find the love of my life, but not until I got rid of all the things that were holding me back. I told her she was holding me back. And it tore her apart, I could tell. I blew it. When I saw her start to cry, I tried to tell her I was kidding and I really did love her, but she wouldn't listen. She told me I was right and that there was someone great waiting for me. I...I never saw her again after that until I merged with you. I'll admit, I did fall for Namine in the meantime and she's great. But Sora, I'll forever regret what I did to her. I'll always have a spot in my heart for her, but I don't think I'll ever truly get over her."
That was it, I punched him square in the jaw. Roxas flew back and let out a chuckle.
"I expected that earlier..."
"YOU JERK! WHAT GIVES YOU ANY RIGHT TO EVEN TALK TO ME ABOUT THIS, LET ALONE TRY AND SEE YUMI. FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?! YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE MY OTHER HALF; THE OTHER PART OF THE GOOD GUY I AM."
Roxas stood up and brushed himself off.
"Look, I'm sorry. I messed up and I apologized to her. But let's face the reality that we're in. She's gotten over me, mostly. The last step of her getting over me is finding someone else. And Sora, I think that someone else is you. I'm telling you this to help you."
"HA! As if. She would never go for a guy like me," I spat.
"Dude...she went for a guy like me. And essentially I was you. Therefore she will go for you."
It was Roxas turn to roll his eyes.
"Look, now's not the time. Just know that we are no longer attached, but trust me you'll be fine. I came here to give you my blessing about going after one of my favourite girls, and to let her know that if you break her heart like I did, so help me God I will make sure there is only one of us standing and it will be me. Now," he pulled back a few bush branches to show me another clearing. This one held Yumi sitting in the middle humming to herself. "I know you've only 'known each other for a short amount of time and there's no way for you to like her,' but trust me, you do. It may not be love yet, but you and I both know you like her. And I'm not expert, but I'm pretty sure she likes you too. So, now's your time to go test the waters and put yourself out there."
I looked at him like he was crazy.
"What are you asking me to do here? Go over and be like 'Hey Yumi, just want you to know I like you a lot. Kay have a good one!' As if..."
"Who cares! It's a dream, say whatever you want. She won't know we set this up, so now's your chance to say whatever you want and get it off your chest. GO!"
He pushed me into the clearing and I stumbled. Stupid feet...