Agnes' face broke into an ear splitting grin when she saw Maddie heading toward David's office. "Yay" she thought happily.
Maddie knocked on David's door. 'Slip and slide under." He called out cheerily.
Maddie felt like her stomach was filled with butterflies as she entered David's office. He was sitting at his desk with his back to the door and staring at the window.
"David." She called softly. He quickly spun around in the chair to face her. "Maddie."
Maddie had come here with such clear intentions but all of them seemed to have flown out the window when she came face to face with David. She hated herself but she was so afraid to put her heart on the line with him. Sure, David had repeatedly told her he loved her but he never had spoken about a future for them. He had never voiced any form of commitment to her. The thought flew across Maddie's mind, why would he discuss a future with her when she made him so unsure of their present? Agnes' words filled her head "You will lose him. Lose him. Lose him." Maddie decided to tread carefully in this mind field of love.
"I was just wondering if you had any new information on the Anderson case."
David's jaw dropped when he saw Maddie in his office. He figured she had come to apologize to him. He had figured wrong. He refused to continue with this charade! "Is that the real reason you came in here, Maddie?" he asked her carefully.
She laughed nervously and looked at him. His face was set in stone. "Lose him. Lose him." Agnes' words echoed through her mind.
"Well," she told him slowly, "maybe that's not the only reason" she admitted shyly.
David remained silent. Come on baby he urged her silently. The ball is in your court. Hit it to me. Come on Maddie.
Maddie perched on the edge of his desk. He could smell her perfume and he felt his senses reeling. He had to restrain himself from throwing her down on his desk and kissing her senseless. He remained silent and raised a questioning eyebrow.
Maddie watched him. "You aren't going to make this easy for me are you?"
Before he could stop them the words shot out of his mouth, "But I know how much you like it hard."
Maddie's face fell and she jumped off his desk. David grabbed her arm and pulled her back. "I'm so sorry. Rewind the last 5 minutes. Please." Maddie shook him off. "That's it David."
"What's it? "He asked wishing he could kick himself. Maddie was just going to tell him something important and he goes and puts his damn foot in his mouth! (Side note, Leave a tender Moment Alone. Billy Joel =David Addison)
Maddie's anger faded away as she looked into David's green eyes. So hopeful just a moment ago now filled with confusion and hopelessness. She reperched herself on the side of his desk. She swallowed hard and took a deep breathe to calm her racing heart.
"Sooo partner. I missed you last night." She whispered.
"Missed me?" "Missed you."
"Really?" David smiled into her eyes. "Well, I missed you too." He admitted.
David waited for her to continue. Come on Maddie! Why is it so difficult for you to admit your feelings for me?
Silence. They stared at each other for a long moment. Green eyes into blue ones.
"Soooo." David said in a soft, quiet voice. Both realized they hadn't been this close together without pulling each other's clothes off in a long time.
Maddie ran a finger down David's cheek. He leaned closer to Maddie until their mouths were a hair's breadth away. Maddie could feel his hot, peppermint scented breathe whisper across her face. She bent toward David until her lips were almost on his. She felt David pull back. Maddie opened her eyes to see David practically jump out of his chair.
No, he refused to allow her to skirt around their issues by using sex. Then after it was over she would want to make another pact. Damn her!
Maddie was stunned when David bolted out of his chair like his pants were on fire. Her eyes turned to him wanted to tell her a thing or two or three but decided to shut his mouth and let her do the talking.
"Is that it? "She asked him. 'Is what it?" "Us? This?" she was puzzled and hurt. David could see the hurt and uncertainty in Maddie's eyes. He hated that he had been the one to put them there. Without thinking, David went over to Maddie and pulled her into his arms. He kissed her with all the pent up love and passion he felt for her. Her arms enclosed him and pulled him closer. David knew where this was leading and he reluctantly pulled away.
"Maddie. Maddie? What are we doing?" he sat down and pulled him onto his lap. He began to run his fingers through her silky hair, taking a tendril and placing it behind her ear. Maddie could feel how much David wanted her. Why was he hesitating?
"You came in here with something on your mind. I want to know what you had to say. We can't go on this way, Maddie." David kissed her on the corner of her mouth. "You know it and I know it. David pushed a lock of hair away from her face.
Maddie began playing with his shirt collar. Unbuttoning his shirt, pulling off his tie. David grabbed her hands stopping her. Maddie looked into his eyes. "Where did you go last night David?"
He didn't answer he just stared at her with those damn green eyes. Maddie moved closer to him until her mouth was near his ear. "I didn't want you to leave."
David couldn't help himself. He laughed but it wasn't a happy one. "You sure as hell could have fooled me."
"What does that mean?" she asked.
David's head shot back. "Really, if I have to explain it to you then we really do have a problem."
Maddie stared him down but was the first to look away. "I'm sorry." She said in a small voice he barely heard.
"Why am I sorry?"
"No why do you keep pushing me away."
Maddie shook her head as tears appeared in her eyes. "I do love you David."
"Do you?" he asked her in that low, sexy voice that drove her to distraction. She nodded. David narrowed his eyes and stared at her. Waiting. Damn those green eyes! She could get lost in them forever. What was so wrong with that, she asked herself. Agnes' words ringing in her head "Mr. Addison is a good man.' Maddie agreed. David was a wonderful man. Her wonderful man if she would let him.
David refused to pull the words out of her mouth. She was a grown woman and she needed to let him know what the hell she wanted from him. He wasn't a mind reader. David heard himself say those words to Maddie. "Maddie, I'm not a mind reader." He told her gently. "I just want, no need, to know what you want. The last few weeks have been wonderful for me. If they weren't for you, I need to know that." Maddie looked into his eyes. Her breathe caught with the love and tenderness she saw in their depths. "But if they were wonderful for you, I need to that that too."
Maddie felt tears dripping down her face. David hated her tears. "Don't cry." He soothed as he pulled her close. "I don't ever want to make you cry."
Maddie smiled at him through her tears. "David. I am so sorry I've treated you so badly. So many stupid pacts and making you think I am ashamed of you .Of our relationship." She got off his lap and began to pace around his office, not looking at him.
"It's not you that I am ashamed of." She tried to explain, "It's just the way I feel when I'm around you embarrasses me when other people are around us." She stopped and took a deep breathe. "I feel exposed. I feel like they know what we've been doing." She looked at him boldly, "and what I want to do to you, with you when ever we're together." She looked away and slumped into his couch. "I love you David Addison."
"I love you Maddie Hayes." He smiled at her. David got up and moved next to her on the couch. She could smell his cologne and feel the heat emanating from his body. David moved closer until heir thighs were nearly touching.
"And what do you want to do to me, with me, whenever we're together?" David's hand slid up her thigh. Maddie felt a searing heat where his hand lay. She leaned in to him. "Oh David. Please be patient with me. Don't give up on me. On us." She begged.
David moved his hand higher. He heard Maddie catch her breathe. "Is there an us, Maddie?" The feel of her skin under his hand was making his head spin. How he loved this woman.
Maddie couldn't concentrate on his words. Why did her body crave him so damn much? She needed to put aside her fears and insecurities. David had always made her feel safe and secure. Why did that change when they became lovers? Why did she feel so vulnerable? Maddie hadn't realized she had spoken her thoughts out loud. David removed his hand from Maddie's thigh and sat up. Why did she feel so empty when David removed his hand?
"Maddie." He pulled her closer so that her head was resting on his shoulder. "I'm in this forever. I want to marry you. I want you to have my babies." He crooned to her. "I love you so much. I want you to always feel safe in my arms."
Maddie tilted her head up to look into his eyes. His look made her feel not only safe and secure but loved and treasured. "Oh David" she whispered.
"So how about another date?" he asked her softly.
"First things, first." She told him placing his hand back on her leg.
"You're the boss." He teased as he let his fingers do the talking.