Chapter 3: A promise.
Vague memories drifted through Kurt's mind. Warm flesh on flesh, soft sweet lips trailing down his neck, and Blaine filling him in a way that he had never been filled. New sensations, sweet and intense, wide eyed smiles and his name whispered breathlessly.
He twisted not quiet ready to open his eyes. His limbs felt strangely heavy and he ached in some places and his stomach felt itchy but he wanted to hold on to sleep for a little longer. He buried his face in the soft pillow beneath him. It smelled familiar and brought to mind soft curls tickling his skin as he buried his face in his boyfriend's neck. Blaine, he had to wake up because when he woke up he would see Blaine. They had fallen asleep together cuddled in each other arms. But something was wrong. There was no warm body next to him. He opened his eyes thinking that Blaine had just moved away from him in his sleep. But all he saw stretched out in front of him was an empty bed.
"Blaine?" He whispered confused.
"I'm here." The familiar voice coming from behind him was warm and soft. Kurt stretched and turned to see Blaine sitting in the chair by his desk. He was wearing sweatpants and the sun was streaming through the window and glinting of his curly hair, oddly he held a camera in his hands.
"Did you just take a picture of me?" Kurt asked sleepily.
"Uh.." Blaine smiled guiltily. "Yes, but you are fully covered in it so.."
Kurt let out a small laugh, he felt so relaxed.
"Why on earth did you do that?"
"I was lying next to you looking at you and you just looked so perfect I was thinking about how much I wanted to catch this moment and make it last forever, then I had a stupid idea about taking a picture but even though it's a beautiful picture it ruined the moment because I'm not lying next to you anymore."
Kurt smiled. He understood the sentiment perfectly, last night Blaine had fallen asleep before him and he had stared at his peaceful face until his heavy eyes couldn't keep open any longer. Kurt patted the bed next to him, he wanted Blaine next to him he wanted to cuddle up to him and never let him go.
"There may be a simple solution." Kurt suggested.
Blaine laughed he reached behind him and tossed a moist flannel at Kurt. Kurt looked at it puzzled for a moment and then his sleepy brain clicked on. He wiped his stomach removing the flaky whitish traces from the previous night.
"Yuck, I can't believe I slept like this."
Blaine smiled and stepped towards the bed bending to kiss Kurt gently.
"I can, I think I'm more relaxed than I've ever been."
"Hmm." Kurt agreed kissing him back and wrapping his arms around his back trying to pull him onto the bed. Blaine chuckled lightly against his lips and moved above him. Kurt was surprised to see that when he pulled away to catch his breath, Blaine's smiled had faded.
"Are you alright?" Blaine asked him before he was able to ask what was wrong.
"More than alright." Kurt replied.
"No I meant, are you sore?" There was a twinge of nervousness in Blaine's voice.
"Oh." Kurt blushed slightly. "Only a little."
"Don't be embarrassed." Blaine said running his finger along the hot cheek.
"I'm sorry I hurt you."
Blaine placed a kiss to his jaw almost as in apology.
"It doesn't hurt." Kurt assured him. " Just like a dull ache. I didn't even notice it till you mentioned it."
He slide his hands down Blaine's back and brought him back down for more lazy sloppy kisses.
"What's the time?" Kurt finally asked with a sigh. As much as he wanted to spend all day in bed kissing and exploring, there was just so much more they could try, now they had shared this intimacy he wanted to share others that he had found too much to think of before last night, tasting each other for example. But he knew that too much all at once would ruin the moment and that his father would be returning later in the day and would expect Kurt to be home.
Much later than Kurt had expected, he had slept so long.
Blaine rolled over onto his back and ran a hand through the back of his hair. Kurt knew this was a nervous gesture.
"What is it?" He asked. "Do you need me to leave?"
Blaine grabbed him and pulled him towards him burying his face in his neck.
"No!" He said adamantly. "Don't leave."
Kurt laughed lightly.
"Okay.. okay, I don't want to leave either. I was just wondered why you were looking nervous."
"I was wondering if you would mmpph." Blaine mumbled against his neck.
"What was that?"
Blaine looked up.
"I was thinking that a bath may relax the muscles. Make you less sore."
Kurt swallowed the picture of Blaine in the bath that flicker into his mind made him instantly hard.
"You must have a few sore spots yourself." Kurt said.
"Yeah, well. I'll go fill the tub."
Blaine sat up.
"No, you're not allowed to leave." Kurt wrapping his arms back around Blaine's neck and pulling him back to him.
Blaine laughed as he lost his balance and fell back onto the bed. Kurt quickly flung his leg over Blaine to try and pin him but he got tangled in the sheets.
"Uh..oh." Kurt said realizing that both he and Blaine were now kind of stuck and what's more he was showing flashes of skin where the sheets had trusted around him.
Blaine laughed and kissed him sloppily.
"I'm stuck." Kurt whined as Blaine ran open lips over his jaw.
"Who is it who's not allowed to leave?" Blaine whispered sucking lightly on his neck.
"Blaine..." Kurt whined again.
"I like it when you try to take control, it's hot."
Kurt groaned as Blaine's fingers replaced his lips sliding down his throat.
"Let me go." Kurt almost whispered then took a breath and tried again. "Let me go." He said again with a bit more force.
"Kurt.." Blaine pulled away his eyes worried.
"I was just trying to show control.. because you said you liked it."
Blaine laughed snuggling his face into Kurt's neck.
"I thought you were mad with me."
Kurt tugged at one of Blaine's curls that were hanging down over his eyes.
"Why would I be mad at you, you are blowing my mind right now."
Blaine raised an eyebrow.
"Stop it; I know what I'm talking about."
Blaine flipped him over back onto his bed.
"You get untangled I'll go run the bath."
"Okay." Kurt said. "You're allowed to go, only because I say so."
"Thank you." Blaine said giving another fake bow as he left the room.
Kurt started pulling at the sheets that were tightly wrapped around him. He sighed knowing that the only way out was to roll, which he did ending up with him falling off the bed with a thud. He was so clumsy, why did Blaine love him? He glanced down at his body, for some reason all the parts of his body, the undefined stomach, the total lack of any manly chest hair (that he'd also hate if he had it) and the slightly jutting hips, didn't seem so bad this morning. Blaine's fingers had run along those jutting hips and kissed that chest and stomach. Blaine hadn't seemed to find him disgusting, he had looked rather..awed last night. He had made love to this body, even though it wasn't perfect. Kurt smiled at the word; it made him remember the song.
"Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than
less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You are perfect to me"
Kurt started singing softly as he walked out Blaine's room to the main bathroom. The singing was partly to stop the nervousness that came from walking though Blaine's house butt naked. He knew Blaine's parents weren't even in state but he had this horrible image in his head of them returning suddenly. That would be an awkward first meeting.
The door to the bathroom was open and Blaine was lifting a bottle of purple liquid up to his nose. Kurt leaned against the door frame crossing his arms across his chest as Blaine put the purple bottle down and lifted and orange one of the shelf to sniff at. He must have felt Blaine's eyes on him as he turned to look at Kurt. His eyes darkened, Kurt raised an eyebrow at his obvious arousal.
"Happy to see me?"
Blaine cocked his head to the side and frowned as if thinking deeply. Then he laughed.
"Of course I am. You're stunning." Blaine looked over his shoulder.
"Do you have a bubble bath preference?"
"Is that lavender?"
"Ah.. good choice, perfectly relaxing."
Blaine turned off the taps and poured the bubble bath in. Kurt took a deep breath through his nose smelling the lavender and letting it make him feel instantly relaxed, almost sleepy. Blaine whipped his trousers off quickly. Kurt knew it was more a twinge of nervousness that made him act so quickly rather than impatience. He walked over and wrapped his arms around Blaine's stomach placing a light kiss on his shoulder.
"I'm still a little nervous too. We'll get over it." Kurt said lightly.
"So.. you want to be naked around me a lot?"
"As long as I get to see your cute butt as much as possible."
Blaine took Kurt's hands and unraveled them from his chest. He turned and placed a light kiss on Kurt's nose.
"This is going to be the awkward bit."
"I had a feeling it might be."
Blaine laughed and got into the bath.
"Close your eyes." Kurt said.
"What?" Blaine asked with a cautious smile.
"Okay." Blaine said shaking his head and closing his eyes.
Kurt climbed into the bath being extra careful not to slip. He sat down in-between Blaine's legs glad that he had his eyes closed because as he was sitting down his ass was about two inches from Blaine's face.
Blaine gave a light groan as Kurt leaned back so that his back was pressed against Blaine's chest and their legs were side by side.
"Can I open my eyes?"
Kurt felt Blaine press a kiss to his shoulder and wrapped his arms around Kurt's middle. Kurt could feel his erection pressing in the small of his back; it surprised him at how alright he was with that considering that last night he had never seen Blaine naked before.
"I love you." Kurt muttered.
"I love you too." Blaine replied.
Kurt leaned his head back on Blaine's shoulder the steaming hot water was so relaxing and he could imagine just falling asleep there in Blaine's arms. Though the feeling of Blaine's slick wet skin against his own was more delicious than strawberry soufflés.
Blaine moved behind him and Kurt heard the sound of a bottle lid flipping open. Kurt fidgeted slightly not being able to see what Blaine was doing was slightly annoying. Then he felt Blaine's hands sliding over his shoulders and down across his chest gently massaging his nipples then heading back up to his shoulders leaving cool traces of shower gel and soap suds in their wake. Kurt arched his neck and Blaine placed small kisses upward towards his jaw his teeth scraping the skin lightly.
"I could lie here forever." Kurt said.
"That word keeps coming up a lot."
"Yes." Kurt agreed smiling evilly to himself as he moved his hips so he was rubbing up against Blaine's back.
"Kuuurrtt.." Blaine groaned his hands reaching down to rest on Kurt's stomach.
"Perhaps a shower would have been better. I could reach you if we were in the shower."
"I..ahh..it was about relaxing together." Blaine said with a gasp.
Kurt stilled and turned his head until he could kiss Blaine's jaw.
He lay against Blaine's arms letting himself relax. He reached down to take Blaine's hands and held them. He sighed contentedly as he ran his fingers up along the tendons of Blaine's wrists and the strong muscles that he adored. He loved this man, he had given him so much in the last year they had been together. He had been his friend, helped him deal with bullies encouraged him to sing solo's and to stand up for himself. And he had loved him, he had been their for him every time he needed somebody, he had led him gently through the process of being in a relationship. He was the one, his first love. And he had something he had to give him.
"Blaine." He said softly.
"Yeah." Blaine's voice sounded a little far off as if he was half asleep.
"When we're done here will you come with me to my house?"
"You got something in mind?"
"I have something I want to show you."
Blaine shifted slightly beneath him.
"Okay. How are you feeling now?"
"As relaxed as possible considering there is a completely gorgeous boy naked boy beneath me."
"Not so much."
"Want to get out?"
"Neither do I."
Kurt pulled the small black velvet bag out of his draw. It had been there for a long time, almost ten years but he had only opened it several times. It stayed at the back of his draws and at the back of his mind. Kurt held it to his heart and closed his eyes. He hoped that this was the right thing, he hoped this really was what she wanted. 'I love you Mom' he thought. He turned to see Blaine sat watching him intently.
He went and sat on the bed next to him. He took a deep breath feeling suddenly nervous, when he felt a warm hand come to rest on top of his he looked up. Blaine was watching him patiently.
"Are you going to show me what's in the bag?"
Kurt breathed and held the bag out to Blaine. Blaine took it and loosened the silver strings at the top pulling it open and tipping it till a small silver ring fell out and onto his open palm. Blaine held the ring up twisting it till he could see the small letters engraved on the inside of the band. Kurt.
"This doesn't belong to you." Blaine stated, though it was obvious seeing as the ring was too small for Kurt.
"My mother.." Kurt started pausing slightly when Blaine immediately put his hand on his knee.
"My mother always wanted lots of kids. But by the time I was seven and she hadn't been able to conceive she stopped saying that it would happen when it happened and let my Dad take her to a doctor. I uh.. I didn't know this till I was older, my parents didn't talk about it but I kept asking for a little sister and my mother would stroke my head and tell me that she wanted me to have one too."
Kurt paused and took a deep breath. He squeezed Blaine's hand.
"The doctors weren't looking for the cancer, it wasn't the cause of the infertility, it just showed up on some routine tests they were doing to check her general health. She.. she must have been in some pain, must have been sick sometimes but I can't remember that she ever was before the diagnosis. But it was already far along, the operations did nothing it was just too aggressive and wide spread. Mom decided it was time to stop all treatment, she said she didn't want to leave us but it was time we all admitted that she was going to."
"Kurt." Blaine said sadly as Kurt closed his eyes for second and allowed the few tears to fall.
"So we spent a few months just trying to fit as much happiness into every day as we could. Some days she was even well enough to go out but on the days she wasn't I would lie on her bed and we would sing together and she would tell me stories or teach me to sew. The day before she died she gave me this ring."
Kurt reached over and took it out of Blaine's hand.
"She had always worn it on the same finger as her wedding ring, she told me she had brought it the day she had found she was pregnant with me and that it was a promise to me in the same way that her wedding ring was a promise to dad. She gave it to me because she was breaking her promise, she couldn't look after me and be there for me everyday any more."
The tears were falling more freely now, he had not told this story to anybody. Not even his father knew. Blaine leaned his head against Kurt's shoulder.
"She told me that I should keep the ring because some day I would meet a man.."
Kurt sensed rather than saw the little shocked flicker that crossed Blaine's face.
"Yes she knew, I think it was because I sneaked downstairs to watch titanic in the middle of the night and when she caught me I told her I couldn't stop watching it because Leonardo DicCaprio was just too beautiful to stop watching." Kurt gave a small laugh and Blaine smiled and gave a little hum of amusement.
"Anyway, she told me that I would meet a man who I would want to make the same kind of promise to, a promise to love and always try to support. And that he would want to make the same promise back. She said I should give him this ring."
He took a deep breath and moved away from Blaine, turning so that he could look directly into his hazel eyes.
"That's what I'm doing. I'm asking you If you will wear this ring... on a chain." He added the last but realizing how small the ring was.
"Yes." Blaine's voice was full of emotions and his eyes were wet.
"Yes Kurt. I .. thank you.. and I make the promise Kurt. I promise I'll always love you and I'll always always support you."
He placed his hand against Kurt's cheek and leaned in. The kiss was loving and soft. Their tears mingled between their cheeks.
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