I do not know how your people mourned

so I will mourn you in my way.

Though I prayed with you, lay with you

and loved you.

I don't think in the end that was enough

though even from beyond the grave you've

continued to save me.

I have thought at times that

god was the whale but then

I doubt my god would have let

one so prone to sodomy as I to live.

Perhaps then it was yours.

Forgive me

I do not know how your people mourned.