Kingdom Hearts does not belong to me
Hey guys! Happy AkuRoku day/month!
I know it's been a while since my last update and I really am sorry for that. I thought I'd be doing a lot of writing this summer but that just didn't happen. A lot of stuff was happening with me and I wasn't in the mood to write and then I was busy and then I wanted to write but just couldn't seem to get the words out and yada yada yada. Excuses, excuses, I know.
If you've put up with my infrequent activity and lame excuses this entire time and stuck with this story through all of my hiatuses I am so truly thankful. Seriously, you guys are the best readers anyone could ask for. I feel like I owe you guys hugs and cookies and ice cream and a plethora of other goodies to show my appreciation. But all I have to offer is this long awaited chapter.
So I hope you enjoy!
Watching Roxas break down like that nearly killed me. Having to watch the one you love suffer, and not being able to do a damn thing about it is the worst kind of torture. Sure I could hold him and tell him that everything would be okay, but I couldn't give him what he really needed. I couldn't heal his dad. Not that I really wanted to, but if it made Roxas happy…well I'd do anything if it made Roxas happy.
It still shocked me how much he meant to me when I'd only known him for a month. Wow, had it really only been a month? We'd been through so much and he meant the world to me; I felt like I'd known him forever. And I planned on knowing him forever too. There was no way I could let him go now.
I tightened my arms around Roxas' sleeping form and nuzzled my face into his hair, breathing in his familiar scent. He'd ended up crying himself to sleep in my arms and, carefully so as not to wake him up, I'd carried him from the couch to my bed so that we could sleep comfortably. But I had yet to fall asleep. I was too wound up and worried about Roxas. Plus, Roxas kept twitching and mumbling in his sleep. I held him tighter and whispered soft reassurances every time, but it had little effect.
Finally, around 3 in the morning, Roxas had calmed down and was sleeping soundlessly. I shut my eyes and tried falling asleep but of course that's when I realized how thirsty I was. I tried ignoring it, really wanting to sleep and really reluctant to leave Roxas but the more I ignored it the worse it got. I'd only be gone a few minutes; he'd never know I was gone. So with a resigned sigh, I slowly snaked my arm off of Roxas' waist and got out of bed.
As I was walking across my room, my phone started going off in my pocket. I jumped out of surprise before digging my phone out. I hurriedly left my room, groaning internally at the name on the screen, before answering my phone.
"It's 3 in the morning Larx! What the hell could you possibly want?"
I heard Larxene giggling, along with loud music and shouting in the background.
"Axie, baby! I misssss youuu."
I rolled my eyes in annoyance, already regretting answering my phone.
"You're drunk, Larx."
She let out a shrill laugh that made me pull my phone away from my ear.
"What? Noooo! I've only had 2…6 drinks. I'm completely sober. I promise! And I'm totally not crossing my fingers if that's what you're thinking."
I shook my head as I walked into my kitchen, rummaging through my cabinets for a clean glass.
"You're completely hammered. Where are you?"
Finally finding a clean glass, I turned the faucet on and waited for the water to get cold enough.
"Fiiiiiiine, don't believe me! I'm at Dem-Dem's! He's having a party!"
She made it sound like the most interesting thing ever. However, the fact that I didn't know Demyx was throwing a party kind of stung. I filled my glass up and took a sip before replying.
"Why wasn't I invited, huh?"
I heard her shouting at someone that she was talking to me before answering my question.
"Ummmmm, that's probably cause you've been spending soooooo much time with that cutie of yours. Duh! You knooooow, he's really not as bad as I thought! We talked and you like totally deserve him Axie. I want you to be happy and I can tell he makes you happy! So he's a-okay in my book! You can come to the next party! And bring your cutie too!"
I was taken aback by her sudden honesty. Note to self: next time I wanna know what Larx really thinks, get her drunk. I was trying to think of something to say, but before I could there was a faint voice asking her to dance.
"Omigod! Axie! You should see the total hottie that wants to dance with me! Gotta go! Love yaaaa!"
"Larx, wait! Be careful! And don't drive home!"
"Fine spoil sport! Dem-Dem already took my keys anyways!"
And with that, she hung up. I stared at my phone with a bemused expression before shaking my head and stuffing it back into my pocket. I started to lean back against the kitchen counter, planning on finishing my water and then heading back to bed. But before I could, a shout came from my bedroom, making me drop my glass.
Dead, accusing eyes staring at me caused me to jolt awake, sweaty and tangled up in the sheets. I was thrashing around, trying to get my limbs loose, when my nightmare came rushing back to me. Cold fear gripped me and I rolled over to curl into Axel's side, seeking his comforting warmth. Only, he wasn't there. Not bothering to think logically about why he wasn't there, the terror of my nightmare still fresh, I panicked.
A second of silence followed by the sound of glass shattering on the floor, Axel cursing, and then his feet hitting the floor as he ran back to the room. He threw the door open, worry and fear etched on his face. His crossed the room in two easy strides and plopped down onto the bed before gathering me into his arms. I clung to him and noticed that he was slightly trembling.
"You scared the hell out of me babe…Are you okay?"
I shook my head, clinging to him even tighter.
"I had a nightmare…and when I woke up….you were gone. You were gone…."
My voice cracked a bit and I knew I was close to tears. I didn't see how it was possible for me to cry anymore after how much crying I'd done yesterday but apparently it was.
Axel held me tighter, moving slightly to kiss the side of my head.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry…I'm here now, I'm always here Roxas."
We held each other like that until my fear subsided and my heart quieted down to a normal pace. I loosened my grip on him and pulled away slightly, but just enough so that I could see his face. He reached his hand up to swoop my hair out of my face and the corner of his lips pulled into a smile as he looked down at me.
"You okay now?"
I thought the question over, not sure how to answer. I was far from okay, but I didn't want Axel to worry about me too much. At the same time, I was tired of putting on a mask and acting like everything was okay when it wasn't. I was tired of bottling everything up until I felt like I was going to explode. A deep sigh left my lips as I shook my head.
"No, not really."
He nodded in understanding and started rubbing comforting circles into the small of my back.
I nodded, leaning into him again and nuzzling my face into his chest. I felt his chin rest on the top of my head.
"Wanna talk about it?"
I nodded and took a moment to gather my thoughts before speaking. I told him how it had started out with me in the ICU just looking at my dad, but then his heart had flat lined and the next thing I knew I was in the morgue looking at my father's dead body. How cold and empty I felt because he was dead, but also slightly happy that I was finally free. But then his mouth opened and started shouting that it was my fault. And then his eyes opened and I couldn't look away from his dead and accusing gaze. I was paralyzed with guilt and that's when I woke up. Afraid and alone.
"I just can't get his eyes out of my head…the way he was looking at me…I just feel so guilty Axel!"
I shuddered, a violent sob working its way up my throat. I started to wipe furiously at my eyes, trying so hard not to cry. Axel gently moved my hands away before taking my face between his hands.
"Roxas, listen to me, you have absolutely nothing to feel guilty about! It was an accident, a mistake. It could've easily happened even if you guys hadn't fought that night. It was just bad timing. If anyone's at fault it's your dad. He shouldn't have been driving while he was drunk. There was nothing you could do about it! Believe me!"
I shut my eyes, finally letting the tears run free. I wanted to believe him so badly but I just couldn't.
"I've wished him dead so many times Axel…I hate him and I can never forgive him…I want him to die but I don't want to be alone…he's my dad..."
I was choking out sobs, unable to keep them under control. Axel pulled me into a crushing embrace again, whispering fervently into my ear.
"Oh babe…Shush, shush. It's okay…Everything's going to be okay."
The conviction in his voice was so strong that I almost believed him. I nodded, not wanting to talk about it anymore. It was something that we would just have to agree to disagree on.
"And Roxas, you'll never be alone. You've got me and your friends. We love you and we're not going anywhere. Even if you wanted us to, we're just that stubborn."
I couldn't help but chuckle at that. He was right; they were all too stubborn for their own good. Axel pulled back to smile at me before scrunching his face up in mock disgust.
"Your face is covered in snot. So not attractive."
I glared at him as he laughed and reached over to procure a tissue from his bedside table. He proceeded to wipe my face off despite my protests that I could do it myself. Once he was done, he leaned forward and gently kissed me; managing to erase all my irritation and worry. I wanted to keep kissing Axel, it was a much needed distraction and just felt so damn good, but Axel pulled away and let out a big yawn.
"Sorry, I haven't really slept yet."
He gave a sheepish shrug as he smiled apologetically at me. My brows knitted together in confusion.
"At all? Why?"
He shrugged again before lying down on his side and pulling me with him, curling around me with his chest against my back and bringing his arm around my waist.
"Too wound up after yesterday, I guess. Plus you were mumbling in your sleep."
I instantly felt bad, a new wave of guilt washing over me.
He chuckled before gently kissing the back of my head.
"It's fine Roxie."
I jerked my head back a bit in retaliation to the unwanted nickname, earning another round of chuckles from him. He buried his head into the crook of my neck and tightened his hold on me. We lay in there in silence for a bit, not needing to say anything, completely at ease with each other. My eyes were dropping shut as sleep started to reclaim me. Axel's breathing had slowed so I knew he was almost asleep too.
"Don't go anywhere, okay?"
"No worries, too tired to move."
"No, I mean-"
"I know what you mean Roxas, I'm not going anywhere."
Satisfied with his answer, I told him one last thing before falling asleep.
"I love you."
"I love you too."
I was slumped on my couch, flipping through the TV channels, and glaring at all the crap that kept showing up on the screen. I was bored. Completely and utterly bored. Roxas was gone; he'd left a few hours before to visit his dad at the hospital. I'd wanted to go with him but I'd had to go into work. So I gave Roxas my key, making a mental note to make a copy for him, and headed to work while he headed to the hospital.
Only for my boss to let me go early…The one day I really needed the distraction of work, my boss turns into a saint and sends me home early saying, 'You work too hard Axel! You need a break!' Never bothered him before how hard he worked me and everyone else. Though I did have to admit it was nice to come home from work without my back aching from moving furniture all day.
I gave up on finding something good on TV and threw the remote onto the coffee table, groaning as I layed down and rested my head against the arm of the couch. I was tempted to call Roxas but I knew he couldn't answer while he was visiting his dad. I could've called Larxene but I didn't feel like catering to her while she recovered from her hang over. That also ruled out all my other friends since they were all at Demyx's party last night and had probably gotten just as drunk as her.
With a groan I rolled over onto my stomach and buried my head into the couch. Maybe I'd take a nap; I was still pretty tired seeing has how I had only gotten like fours of sleep last night. Or I could kill an hour shopping. There was next to no food left in the apartment and I really needed to stock up. Before I could make my mind up; my phone vibrated, announcing a text.
Hey Axel. Just left hosptl, headin home. How's wrk goin?
I couldn't help but smile and jump off of the couch in excitement. I quickly typed up a reply before heading to the bathroom to clean up a bit.
Booooring. My boss sent me home erly tho! Hurry home! :)
I still had around 20 minutes before Roxas was here. Once again, I was bored. I pulled my phone out and stared at his text, as if that would somehow make him get here faster. My lips pulled up into a grin. He had called my apartment his home. I mean sure, I could be reading too much into it but it made me happy all the same. We hadn't been dating long but I wanted him to move in with me. I loved falling asleep with him in my arms and I loved waking up to his face. It was hardly the right time though, not with his dad in the hospital.
While I was silently musing over how long I should wait before seriously asking him to move in, time managed to pass rather quickly. Next thing I knew, I heard light footsteps on the stairs outside and then the front door was being pushed open. Once he had the door shut behind him he looked up and smiled at me.
I had been really nervous about Roxas going to the hospital by himself, especially after how hard it was on him yesterday. But he seemed perfectly okay and worry was replaced with relief as I crossed the room and kissed him in greeting.
"Hey, so how was your dad?"
He stepped around me as he shrugged his jacket off and threw it over the couch.
"No change. No better, no worse. Just the same as yesterday. He's strong though, I'm sure he'll pull through. He's too stubborn not to. Is there nothing to eat in here? We really need to go to the store soon."
I raised my eyebrow in question at his nonchalance. Roxas gave up on rummaging through the cabinets for something to eat before walking back over to me. I wrapped my arms around his waist before pushing him up against the back of the couch.
"Someone's being strangely optimistic? Don't get me wrong, it's good. Just not really like you. Plus, it's understandable for you to be worried."
Roxas shrugged his shoulders before wrapping his arms around my neck.
"Well, I thought a lot about what you said last night. Or this morning, however you wanna think of it. You're right. I've got you, Sora, Riku, Kairi, and Namine. No matter what I'm gonna be taken care of, whether I want to be or not. Don't get me wrong, I am worried about my dad…really, really worried, but I can't help point out how much easier and happier I'd be if he was out of my life. Either way, things will manage to work out."
I really wanted to believe that Roxas was as okay as he said, but after how upset and guilty he'd felt this morning I just couldn't. I tried to keep my doubts off of my face though, not wanting to push Roxas. Sure I wanted him to confide in me, but I could wait. He'd talk when he was ready.
"You're sure your okay?"
Okay, so old habits die hard. But at least I didn't call him on his lie. He smiled and nodded.
"Yea, well as okay as I can be all things considered. Really Axel, I'm managing. Now enough talking, kiss me."
More than eager to do just that, I pushed my concerns away and focused on how soft Roxas' lips were and how much I loved him.
I hated lying to Axel, I really did. But I was tired of worrying everyone around me and feeling like a burden. So I'd keep my worries and problems to myself for a while. I just wanted to enjoy being happy with Axel and not have to worry about anything else. His kiss left me breathless and eager for more. Axel was on the same page and we started to make our way towards the bedroom.
But before we could even make it through the bedroom door, my phone started going off. Axel released my lips reluctantly as I dug my phone out of my pocket. I groaned in frustration as I read the text from Sora. Axel touched his forehead to mine as he tried to regain control of his breathing.
"What is it…?"
"Apparently Sora and others think they need to check up on me…They are on their way over here."
Axel groaned as well.
"Now? Can't you tell them to wait till later?"
I shook my head regretfully.
"I wish! They'd never listen."
Axel chuckled before pecking my lips and pulling away.
"Hmm sounds like you really want it Roxie?"
He waggled his eyebrows at me in a suggestive manner. I felt a blush making its way across my face. I turned away before he could see and texted Sora back. I mumbled a 'maybe' under my breath, and from Axel's chuckle I'm sure he heard me.
"So, I get to meet your friends huh? Should I be nervous?"
I shrugged, thinking over his question.
"Well technically you've already met Namine, but that doesn't really count. I'm not really sure how to prepare you. My friends can be…what's the word…Overprotective? Intimidating? Moronic? Idiotic? Loud? Obnoxious? Annoying? Unpredictable? Need I go on?"
Axel chuckled and nodded as I finished my overindulged, yet very accurate, description of my friends.
"Ah, so 4 Larxene's then? How the hell do you handle that? I can barely handle one!"
I rolled my eyes as I laughed, though he had a good point. I was pretty sure the girls would get along very well with Larxene. Though, thinking of the three of them together was kinda scary.
"Practice I guess? I'm more than used to it. Though it is hard to handle sometimes. Gotta love them though."
A smile spread across my face as I thought about how much they meant to me. Sure, things had been really rocky lately but they were always there. They had always been there. I'm not sure where I'd be without them. Hell, without their pushing I doubt I'd be with Axel. I better thank them for that.
"So, they know where I live?"
I looked and nodded, rubbing my neck nervously.
"Uh, yea, sorry about that. Sora kinda forced it out of me. You know, in case you were a psycho killer or just a jerk or something. If I disappeared he wanted to know where to find me so he could come to my rescue. I told him he had nothing to worry about but he was adamant."
I knew Axel wasn't upset or mad about me telling Sora, but still I started rambling feeling like I owed him an explanation. He chuckled as he shook his head at me.
"Relax babe, its fine. I was just curious. I like that they take care of you, though I do have to be careful. One wrong move and they'll be beating down my door."
He laughed at his own joke, and I started to tell him that was something they'd really do but before I could, a few knocks came from the front door. Axel winked at me before turning to answer the door. He barely had the door open before a brown blur came running at me.
"Roxas! Are you okay!? God, I was so worried about you! And what's with you having him call me instead of calling me yourself!? Talk about an anxiety attack!"
I smiled at Sora before looking up at Axel's bemused expression at Sora's behavior. I couldn't help but laugh.
"Hey! Why are you laughing? This isn't funny Roxas!"
That made me laugh even harder, which only made Sora even more annoyed. He opened his mouth to yell some more but I silenced him with my hand.
"Sora! Breathe! I'm fine! Now, I'm going to take my hand away but only if you promise to calm down, okay?"
He glared at me but after a moment he conceded and nodded his head in affirmation. He threw himself at me in a hug after I moved my hand off his mouth.
"You have to stop worrying us like this bud."
I returned the hug, whispering a quiet apology, before looking up at Axel and my friends as they watched the exchange. It struck me as weird that Namine was hanging back behind everyone else, looking uncharacteristically nervous. I shoved my hands in my pocket, not liking how I was suddenly the center of attention.
"Uh, hey guys."
Riku nodded at me and gave a small wave, Kairi smiled at me, while Namine barely looked at me. I didn't know what to think of her behavior. Was she still mad at me? I sure hoped not, I really didn't want to have to deal with that on top of everything else.
My attention focused back onto Kairi as she crossed the room and wrapped me into a tight hug, before pulling back at staring at me with concern.
"Are you really okay Roxas? What's wrong with your dad?"
I smiled at her reassuringly as I pulled away.
"Yea, Kai, I'm fine. My dad's in a coma, but I'll fill everyone in on that in a bit okay?"
I motioned my head towards Namine and she nodded in understanding, though she looked even more concerned now after hearing about my dad. She looked back at Namine before turning back to me with a guilty look on her face.
"We uh…well we all kinda ganged up on her after you left last time. She was really pissed, but now she just feels really guilty. I think she's nervous you won't forgive her. I've told her how ridiculous that is but still-"
I saw Namine's head snap up as she heard what Kairi was saying, I smiled at the fact that her usual fire was dancing in her blue eyes. I was starting to really worry after what Kairi said but looking at her now I knew she'd be just fine.
"I can totally hear you, you know? I mean damn! Let me speak for myself, thank you!"
Kairi blushed guilty, before motioning for Riku and Sora to follow her over to the couch. Axel did the same, winking at me as he passed, while Namine walked up to me. She looked a tad nervous again but at least she was acting like herself now. I opened my arms a bit, quietly asking for a hug. She looked at me with a doubtful expression.
"You sure you wanna hug me? I'm a selfish bitch after all…"
I rolled my eyes before pulling her into a hug.
"You're not a selfish bitch Nams. I know you didn't mean it."
She hesitated a moment before returning my hug.
"I'm sorry Rox, I really am. You know you can always come to us. We'll listen and help as much as we can."
She pulled away and threw an amused look my way before heading over to sit next to Kairi.
"But at this rate I'm gonna turn into a therapist. Kind of an issue seeing as how I'm already into that art school."
She made it sound like no big deal but you couldn't miss the excited gleam in her eyes. I quietly laughed at the sudden change in her as I followed her and plopped down next to Axel. He smiled at me and threw his arm over my shoulders, pulling me closer to his side. I got a tad nervous again because all of my friends were staring at me again. I cleared my throat, ready to get the introductions out of the way.
"Uh, okay, so this is Axel obviously. The hyper-active brunette is Sora, and that's his boyfriend Riku. And the girls are Namine and Kairi."
Everyone waved and smiled at the mention of their names. My friends were still staring at me expectantly, all of them looking very concerned. I groaned and glared at them all.
"Guys, I'm fine! Stop looking at me like that!"
Namine leaned forward and glared right back.
"Cut the crap Roxas! You are totally not fine. We know you better than that. Now spill! What happened with your dad?"
I groaned again and let my head fall back onto Axel's shoulder. I considered refusing to tell them, but I knew they'd end up forcing it out of me eventually. Better now than later. Besides, I did owe them an explanation after having Axel call Sora yesterday. So I told them about fighting with my dad and how he left the house drunk. How he got into a wreck and was taken to the hospital. I spared them the details of everything that was wrong with him and just said that he was in coma and there wasn't much else the doctor's could do now. I somehow managed to keep my voice even and calm, trying to prove that I really was as okay as I was acting.
"So yea, that's what the past few days have consisted of. I went to the hospital this morning; no change. But before you guys freak out, I'm fine! I promise. Yea, I'm worried and want him to pull through and all but if he doesn't it's not like my worlds gonna end or anything. You guys won't let it."
There, that sounded believable didn't it? I sure hoped so. I wanted to put their minds at ease so they'd stop fussing over me. I mean Axel had believed me hadn't he? Then again he didn't know me as well as the others.
"Bull. Cut the act Roxas, you're not fooling anyone."
I looked over at Riku, wanting to throttle him for not letting my lie slip. However, I didn't let it phase me. I shrugged and grinned at him.
"Okay, so maybe I'm a tad more worried then I'm letting on. But worrying and freaking out isn't going to help anything so why show it? It's not like he deserves any compassion anyways. Everything will be okay, I'm sure of it."
They all seemed shocked by that response. But they all seemed satisfied with that answer and let it go. Well, all besides Namine.
"Who the hell are you and what have you done with Roxas?"
She raised her eyebrow at me before placing a questioning gaze on Axel. He chuckled and shook his head.
"Don't look at me; I've got nothing to do with it. I'm just as shocked as you are."
I looked up at him in surprise. I guess he hadn't believed me then? I guess Axel was right. I was a horrible actor. He looked down at me apologetically and whispered quietly so only I would hear.
"Sorry, but you really are a horrible liar babe."
Great, now he could tell what I was thinking. That's exactly what I needed. I pouted, feeling rather annoyed, but he quickly erased that annoyance as he kissed me. He made it so hard to stay mad at him. We broke apart and started laughing as Sora started yelling excitedly.
"Quick! Someone take a picture! We need documented proof of this!"
Everyone laughed thinking he was joking, but then he quickly dug out his phone and pointed it at me and Axel.
"Go on! Do it again!"
I glared at him and shook my head.
"No Sora, that's just weird. If we want pictures we'll take them ourselves. Put your phone away."
He whined and pouted as he reluctantly shoved his phone back into his pocket. I stuck my tongue out at him and he flipped me off in retaliation. I then noticed that Namine and Kairi were whispering to each other and not really paying attention to us.
"What are you two scheming about over there?"
They grinned at each other before chiming together in perfect unison.
I grimaced, not liking the sound of that at all.
"Sora, should we be scared? I'm feeling kinda scared right now."
"Very scared, Roxas, very very scared."
Namine rolled her eyes as she pushed herself off the arm of the couch and strutted over to the kitchen.
"Oh don't get your panties in bunch. We were just saying how dreadful it is that we are now the 5th and 6th wheel. Not that we aren't happy for you Roxas, we totally are. But I mean what I need to do to get some nice guy to pay me any mind, huh?"
She meant it as a rhetorical question but Sora, Riku and I decided to answer anyways.
"Don't intimidate every guy you meet?"
"Get a personality transplant?"
"Stop being evil?"
She blatantly ignored us as she started rummaging through Axel's fridge.
"Geez! How do you guys live? There's like no food in here!"
I pointedly stared at Axel and he looked away sheepishly.
"I know! I just hate shopping okay? Look, why don't we run over to the convenience store and we can buy some snacks? Come back and put on a movie? How's that sound?"
Everyone voiced their agreement and few minutes later we were all filing out of Axel's apartment.
Every sort of junk food that existed had to have been dumped onto Axel's kitchen table when we got back. The question wasn't what had we bought, but what hadn't we bought? The girls went chocolate and cookie crazy, Axel insisted on getting some strange flavor of ice cream I'd never heard of before, Sora needed to have his Oreo's and sour patch kids, Riku wanted his usual bag of Dill Pickle chips (I mean come on, gross right?), and me well I was happy with a bag of pretzel's. Though I'd end up having a little of everyone's stash, besides those nasty chips. And of course, popcorn. Lot's and lot's of popcorn.
Sora and I were standing in the kitchen, pouring the myriad of snacks into bowls as we waited for all the popcorn to pop. Riku and Axel were sitting on the floor in front of Axel's movie collection and were debating on what movies to watch, while the girls were debating on whether to order a pizza or not, as if we didn't have enough food already.
As if he could read my mind, Axel looked up at Namine with an evil smirk on his face.
"Sure you wanna do that ladies? You might get…fat!"
He made it sound like the biggest catastrophe that could happen and they both looked horribly affronted. Riku chuckled and gave Axel a fist bump before going back to perusing the movies. I couldn't help but laugh at their expressions as the girls plopped down on the couch and started pouting. They both glared at me when they realized I was laughing at them.
"He's fitting in nicely, isn't he?"
I looked over at Sora, who was nodding in Axel's direction. I nodded in agreement. I was really glad that everyone was getting along with him so well. I didn't want to have to choose when to spend my time with Axel and when to spend my time with my friends. I wanted to spend my time with them together and it looked like I was going to get my wish.
"It's kinda hard not to like Axel though."
The microwave beeped, signaling another bag of popcorn was done. I starting nibbling on a pretzel as Sora pulled the bag out and dumped it into another empty bowl.
"You tried pretty hard, failed miserably though."
I rolled my eyes and softly hit his arm.
"Oh shut up, I was young and stupid then."
He threw another bag of popcorn into the microwave and started it.
"I like him Rox, he's good for you. You two go well together. The way he looks at you…well, I know you're in good hands. And I'm sorry to break it to ya bud, but you're still young and stupid."
I rolled my eyes as I leaned back against the kitchen counter, gazing fondly at Axel.
"Thanks, cause I was soooooo seeking your approval. You're the one that forced us together in the first place, did you forget that little detail?"
He looked at me with an innocent 'who me?' expression before motioning for me to hand him the last bag of unpopped popcorn.
"Seriously though, thanks. I was being stupid. I don't know what I was thinking. I…I love him Sor."
A moment of silence and then I heard the bowl he was holding clatter as it hit the counter. I looked over at him to see him gaping at me. I couldn't tell if he was going hug me in excitement or cry. Neither happened. Instead, he ran past me and fell onto Riku.
"Riku! Our little flower's all grown up and in love! Can you believe it?"
I was left speechless. My face probably looked like a tomato with how much I blushed. Geez, did Sora have to announce it to the whole world? Not that I really minded anyone in the room knowing but still. And what was that 'little flower' bullshit? Making it even worse, the girls started waggling their eyebrows at me and then proceeded to act like they were swooning before falling into a fit of giggles. My embarrassment died a little a little when I saw the amusement in Axel's eyes though. As long as he didn't mind I was fine. He noticed me staring and beckoned for me to come over to him.
So I walked across the room and tucked my legs beneath me as I sat on the floor next to him. He winked at me and I smiled in return, humiliated that it still gave me butterflies when he did that. Would I ever get used to the effect he had on me?
"Hey, talking about me huh?"
I nodded and started shifting through the movies that were laying in front of us on the floor, heaving a troubled sigh.
"Yea, they don't think you're good enough for me and think I should break up with you. I don't know what to do…"
His jaw dropped and his face was painted with confusion. I somehow managed to hold back the laugh that so desperately wanted to come out.
"What? But-but I thought things were going fine? Wha-what did I do-"
I couldn't hold it back anymore, I started laughing and shaking my head at him as he glared at me.
"Relax! I'm just messing with you, they love you Axel."
I smiled apologetically at him. He continued to glare but I knew he wasn't really mad. Namine's voice grabbed my attention and I looked over my shoulder at her.
"Yes, Axel is just grand! Now can we get on to the movie watching please? What are we watching anyways?"
Wondering the same thing myself, I looked back at all the movies on the ground and I started to feel a bit uneasy…Riku got up from the floor after putting the first movie in and walked over to the loveseat with Sora.
"Well, me and Axel kind of ended up choosing scary movies, and as we all know, Roxas doesn't do good with scary movies."
The girls shared a look of excitement before settling onto the far end of the couch, sharing a blanket between the two of them. I threw a glare at Riku before pushing myself off of the floor and headed into the kitchen to grab all the bowls of snacks and popcorn. Axel followed to help me.
"Why did you did pick scary movies then, huh? I swear you guys do it on purpose."
I should probably be used to this by now but I wasn't. I shook my head in annoyance but I wasn't going to ruin everyone else's night by insisting on different movies. I'd never hear the end of it. Axel and I finished placing all the food onto the coffee table before taking up the other end of the couch. I snuggled close into his side, taking comfort in the fact that I wouldn't have to suffer through these movies alone. He took hold of my hand and gave it a squeeze as he whispered into my ear.
"Don't worry Roxie, I'll protect you."
I groaned and elbowed him gently in the side.
"How many times am I gonna have to tell you that I hate being called Roxie?"
He chuckled as he reached over the arm of the couch to flip the light switch off before looking back at me.
"Okay Roxas, let's make a deal. I'll stop calling you Roxie when you legitimately start hating it. How's that sound?"
"Haven't you been listening to me? I've always hated it!"
"Uh huh, then why do you blush every time I say it?"
I couldn't think of a good come back for that. He was so damn frustrating! Mostly cause he was right but there was no way I was ever going to admit that. Everyone laughed at my flustered expression and Namine reached her leg out and prodded my side with her foot.
"Oh come on, this is supposed to be fun Roxie."
I glared at her and slapped her foot away.
"Don't you start too! Just start the damn movie already!"
Axel's body shook with silent laughter as he reached for the remote and pressed play. Despite being irritated by Axel, I scooted as close to him as I could without actually being in his lap. Riku hadn't been kidding; I really didn't like scary movies. Okay, maybe that's an understatement. They terrify the hell out of me! And as if the movies don't scare me enough, every time we would finish a scary movie my stupid friends would think of ways to scare me even more. In short, scary movie marathons were not my idea of fun.
The first one we watched wasn't so bad. It was more gory than scary so it didn't really bother me. The second one made me jump at a few parts but I didn't end up covering my eyes, which was saying a lot for me. The next few were a lot scarier and I resorted to burying my face in Axel's shoulder when I couldn't bear to look. I could feel Axel chuckling every time I did and I would elbow him gently in the ribs in retaliation.
As much as I hated the movies we were watching, they at least served as a good distraction from thinking about my dad and how concerned and freaked out I really was. It was exhausting acting like everything was okay when it really wasn't but I really didn't want Axel and my friends to worry about me more than they already were. I shut my eyes, hoping to get a short nap, but after only a few minutes my phone started going off.
Out of habit, I ignored it at fist and let it go straight to voicemail without looking at my phone. Everyone I'd want to talk to was already in the room with me so I didn't really care who was calling. It started to go off again and I felt Axel shift so that he could reach into my pocket and pull my phone out. I shifted as well, trying to get more comfortable so I could actually fall asleep but then Axel started shaking me gently. I groaned and glared up at him.
He smiled down at me sadly.
"Sorry Roxas, but it's your dad's doctor…"
I KNOW! I'M SORRY FOR THE CLIFFHANGER! DON'T KILL ME!
I was gonna write a lot more after that but if I had done that it would've been a monster of a chapter and it still wouldn't be done so I made the decision to turn what would've been a monster chapter into two smaller, yet still long, chapters.
I start school the 19th so I'm not entirely sure when I'll be able to have the next chapter up but it will be up at one point or another. PLEASE just bare with me. If I had it my way I wouldn't write all day, every day but unfortunately I have to put other things first.
Once again, thank you so much for putting up with me. I hope you enjoyed this chapter. Let me know what you think, please!? I love getting reviews.
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