A.N. Hello! This is my first try at L/J romance! This is the prologue, in diary form. This will be the ONLY chapter in ONLY diary form. Please review, even if you don't like it, so I know how to fix the stories. Thank you.

Disclaimer: Harry Potter and all the characters belong to J.K. Rowling, except for the plot and story, which belongs to me. I will not make any money on the book.

Dear Diary,

                It's me, Lily Evans again.

                I am so…I don't know, jumbled up today? I need to tell you why. You see, I've been thinking about that annoying James Potter again! I hated him so much before. He didn't even need to study to get a good score. It's like in his destiny to be the Prefect or something. But me! I need to load two hundred books for one perfect paper. I never did know what will happen if I don't study and I wouldn't try and find out. Imagine how Petunia would gloat! How could she be my twin sister, I think about that sometimes. Now where was I? Of course…I found out that I am in love with James.

                Oh my god. He is the most handsome boy I've ever seen. He is also the youngest Quidditch Captain, being only fifteen. He is also smart and nice and a perfect troublemaker and very popular. Unlike me…I don't have a soul that I can point to and say, "Hey, that's my friend and I entrust everything to her!" Not a soul. I love James so much.

                Now, there's dilemma. There's a Christmas Ball coming up.

                Professor McGonagall announced it because it was in celebration of what? I am not sure. The first defeat of Voldemort? Yes, I am not afraid to say that name. Perhaps with my nerd looks and actions, my ugly, ugly face, this is another reason why I am not liked and not popular. Oh well. But it was a ball, nonetheless. Boys have to dance with girls. But the thing is…I guess you know already. I want to go out with James.

                Oh, that really could happen! I know you would say. He didn't even know that I exist. When he talks to me, it was only like, "Hey, what's the homework?" or "Whoever you are, fetch me that owl please?" or something of that nature. He and his best friends, Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, and Peter Pettigrew are all head over heels over the snobbiest girl, Kristina. Kristina isn't even pretty. Oh sure, she had a fair amount of makeup. She's pretty much a sycophant, if I may say so myself. She's flirted with every single boy and she hates me. Wow. What a surprise? I hope you know I am being sarcastic.

                Oh dear gracious Merlin! I really wanted James to ask me out. But what are the chances of that? I try so hard to make myself appealing to him, without knowing what he sees in Kristina that made him like her so much. Oh, I would like to think that he was trying to make me jealous. How stupid... I would ask him to ask me out if I could, but what would that make me? You know how timid I can be, especially with my number one crush. Now, whenever he looks at a girl, I get all tense and afraid that he might ask that girl to the ball instead of me. Oh dear. What am I supposed to do? What if this is going to affect my studies? My parents aren't rich. They took out their lifesavings for me to go to this school. How could I fail them? I would never do such a terrible thing! Oh Merlin! Please help me. Anyone…

                Dearest Diary, I really don't know what to think now. I feel so…as I said, jumbled up.

In distress,


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