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It was Christmas Eve, another lonely day for me.
I decorated the tree with my father's ornaments. They were the same ones I decorated with when I was a child, but this year it was just for me.
My dad passed away earlier in the year, and I moved back here to Forks.
Because I was tired of the big city life, and my mother's constant intervention in my life.
Always wanting to introduce me to various men she knew, always claiming that I could have anyone I wanted.
But I didn't want what she had, I wanted to find genuine love.
The real deal, not some fleeting feeling. I wanted toe curling kisses, hot longing looks. I wanted the one. Would I ever find it here in Forks? Doubt it. But I could hope.
I decided to go out for a drive, it was just starting to snow. So I took my dad's pick up truck and started down the driveway headed toward the 101.
It was always such a beautiful stretch of the highway. I loved the peacefulness of it, the snow falling on the trees.
My dad and I would go for drives whenever he wanted to talk about things.
He was a quiet man who loved fishing, baseball and drinking his favorite beer.
I was a lot like him, in the quiet department, but not in fishing or baseball. I did enjoy the occasional beer. Even though I prefer wine and a good book.
As I drove I thought about the last time I was on this road, my dad was driving and I knew there was a point to being out here.
As he drove, he kept trying to start a conversation but was having a hard time finding the words.
He finally pulled over near the cliffs going toward La Push, and he started to talk about what he was trying to say.
He told me the doctor found some cancer and that there was nothing they could do. That was when he told me that he was going to die. I cried as he knew I would, and he held me.
We weren't very affectionate with each other, too much alike in that department. My mother on the other was too affectionate with every one.
He passed away in February and I moved back here.
I liked the quietness of it, and it helped that my career, as a writer could be done here. Not many people knew that I wrote best selling books.
I used a fake name, and never used a close up picture on my books. Always a picture of me, but either I was reading a book or looking away from the camera.
It's not that I wasn't proud of my work, I just liked being secretive. I didn't want all the publicity that went along with the fame.
I just wanted to get my words out there.
My mother enjoyed telling everyone she had a best selling author for a daughter.
I used the name 'Marie Swann'.
I know not really original, but it works for me.
As I took the curve on the 101, I saw a car pulled over the side of the road.
It was a newer car, a Volvo maybe. But I'm not a car person, so I wasn't sure.
The hood was up and someone was up under the hood.
I pulled up behind the car and got out.
I didn't know anything about cars, but I could check to see if everyone was okay.
I could just hear my father's voice telling me to be careful, and to have the pepper spray ready, just in case.
I chuckled slightly as I patted my coat pocket. The ever present can of pepper spray was in there.
Some habits die hard, I guess.
I walked slowly to the car, and what I saw I was not prepared for.
"Hi, do you need any help?" I asked as I looked up at the man in front of me.
"Hey, thanks but I think this dang car is dead," he said looking up.
I took in his appearance. He was tall, crazy bronze hair that stuck out from under his Mariners cap.
Holy shit, it's Edward Cullen. The hottest pitcher that the Mariners have had in a while.
"Edward?" I said.
He looked me over as realization dawned on him.
"Bella Swan, wow I haven't seen you since graduation," he said.
"Yeah, I've seen you in the papers, looks like you've done well."
"Yeah I guess so," he said looking down.
There's the shy guy from high school. We never really talked in high school, he was the shy baseball player and I was plain, shy Bella.
"Don't be modest Edward, you're the hottest pitcher that the Mariners have had in a while," I said as my cheeks burned red.
He laughed slightly.
"How's your father?" he asked.
"He passed away in February," I said looking down at my hands.
"Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't know," he said as he reached out and touched my arm.
"It's okay, how are your parents and Alice?"
"Good, I was just on my way there, for Christmas Eve. But my car had other plans," he smirked.
He always had that smirk, and truth be told it was always nice to see.
"I .. I could give you a ride if you'd like."
"That'd be great, I'm sure they'd love to see you."
"I don't know about that, they probably don't remember me," I commented.
"Oh, I'm sure they do, who could forget Clumsy Bella," he laughed as he grabbed his bags.
"That's probably true. I kept your father busy with all my klutzy ways."
We walked to my truck in silence, and as we got in I of course slipped on some ice.
I grabbed onto the side of the truck.
"Crap," I said finally getting up in the truck.
"Some things never change," he said with a smile.
"I guess they don't," I sighed.
"Are you okay?" he asked genuinely concerned.
"Yeah, I'm fine."
As we drove, we talked back and forth.
"So Bella what has become of you? Last I heard you were in college in New York, then you went to LA, and then to Phoenix. So what did you become?"
"Well, I'm a writer. I have several best sellers."
"Really? I don't remember seeing your name on the best sellers list. I would've remembered that."
"Oh, you've probably seen them, but didn't know who it was."
"Why don't you tell me what you've written?"
"I wrote Winter's Haven, Winter's Remorse and Winter's Return."
"I've seen them and I was intrigued by the covers, but I haven't read them. They are written by Marie Swann right?"
"Yep, that's me."
"My mom and sister read them. I actually bought them each a set of them for Christmas which I still need to wrap," he said looking over at me.
"I could sign them if you'd like. I'm sure they'd like that."
"That would be cool, but could I tell them who you are?"
"I don't know about that, I'd rather keep that a secret."
"Okay, but I don't know how I'll explain meeting the author though," he smirked.
"Well, I'm sure you'll figure it out."
It's funny how you remember where someone lived, even though you never went there. But in Forks, everyone knew where the Cullen's lived. Big, fancy house in the middle of nowhere.
I pulled into the winding driveway and just admired how beautiful everything looked. The house was always beautiful, but decorated for Christmas, it was simply beyond words.
It looked like no one was home.
"Did they know you were coming home?" I asked looking over at him.
"No, I wanted to surprise them," he said.
We got out and got his bags, then walked to the door. He unlocked the door and led me inside.
He walked around turning on lights and looking for his parents.
"Hell, it looks like they left or something," he said.
"I'm sorry," I offered.
"It's okay, maybe they will be back later or maybe not," he said as he listened to some messages.
I just stood there quietly as we heard that the family was on the way to Seattle to surprise him.
I couldn't stop the laugh that escaped my lips.
He looked over at me, with a look in his green eyes.
Shit, I may have pissed him off.
"Sorry," I said.
He walked towards me, kind of like a lion stalking his prey.
"Bella, its not nice to laugh at this situation."
"I know, I'm sorry," I said backing up to the wall.
"I should be upset that their not home, but I'm not. Because now I get you all to myself," he said as he moved his hand along my jaw, "stay for dinner. I'm not a great cook, but my mother always has something prepared."
"I guess, I could stay."
"Good," he said as he brought his lips to my cheek. He kissed my cheek and went to the kitchen.
This could not be happening, Edward Cullen kissing my cheek.
I followed him as he pulled out various things from the fridge.
When he was done, he had a nice spread of food, and we sat down to eat.
The conversation flowed freely as we learned more about each other.
He laughed when I told him of all the people that my mother tried to have me go out with, but I was never interested in them.
He told me all about the women in Seattle that wanted him, just because he was a baseball player. He told me he wanted more than that. He wanted to find the one.
I could understand that, I wanted to find the one too.
I couldn't believe how easy it was to talk to him. Most of the time, I'm so shy around men that they lose interest in me and walk away.
After we finished eating we went to sit in the living room, we sat on the floor by the fireplace and continued to talk.
He went to get the books for me to sign, and he laughed as he thought about what Alice would say if she knew who wrote them.
I took the books from him and our hands touched.
I feel a tingle go through me as our hands touched.
He felt it too, as a smile spread across his face. He always had the most amazing smile ever. I could never get tired of looking at it. His eyes sparkled as he smiled.
I quickly signed them and handed them back to him. He opened the cover and looked at what I wrote.
"Bella, you didn't have to sign them with your name," he said.
"I think I can trust them to keep my secret," I smiled over at him.
"I'll keep your secret, Bella," he said as he leaned forward as I leaned in too.
He placed his lips on mine and we moved together.
The kiss was soft and gentle, it was a kiss that I have never had with anybody else. It was like it lit a fire within me. I could feel the kiss all the way to my toes.
I put my hands in his hair and pulled him down to me. We continued kissing until we had to pull apart to breathe.
We leaned our foreheads against each other and whispered, "Wow," together as we stared into each others eyes.
I pulled him back to me claiming his lips once again.
I could feel the heat between us, as I ran my tongue over his bottom lip.
He parted his and met my tongue with his, both of us sliding them against each others.
His hands went around my back, pulling me closer to him.
I moaned into his mouth as he deepened the kiss. I could feel him laying me back on the floor.
His body covered mine and we continued kissing.
"Edward," I murmured as he kissed along my neck.
He nipped and sucked the skin into his mouth as I turned my head slightly so that he could have better access to it.
Slowly he moved his hand up from my waist, over my side and stopping right under my breast.
He looked up at me, silently asking for permission.
I nodded slightly as his slowly moved his hand over my breast.
His fingertips lightly brushed over my already hardened nipple as I arched my back. Pressing my breast into his hand.
I wanted him so badly but I was not sure if he was willing to go that far.
Having Edward Cullen right here with me in that moment felt so different from anything I had with past relationships. With him I wanted it all. It was like we fit together and it felt so right.
He pulled my shirt up just enough to get to my skin right above my belly button. He placed open mouth kisses there and then kissed my belly button while he sucked in my belly button ring.
That shit was hot. I felt the wetness start dripping from me.
"Bella that ring is so fucking hot baby."
Once he was done with that he slowly made his way up my stomach taking my shirt with him.
He kissed right under my bra then going into the cleavage that I have and placed a kiss there and then moved to the top of my breast.
He was setting my body on fire and I was not sure that I could handle this much longer before I exploded.
"Oh god Edward that feels so good," I breathed out.
I had to do it. I had to rub his crotch. I felt it pressing into me and I wanted to get him to where I was. I wanted him to get pleasure as well.
I placed my hands on his pants and worked them until I had them unbuttoned and unzipped. I was just going to touch him over his boxers or whatever he wore.
Ever so slowly I placed my hand at his waistline and started to move down. Once I got to where he should have had something on there was nothing.
Edward fucking Cullen was going commando. Shit I have gone this far I might as well finish.
Taking him in my hand, I started to stroke him. He bucked his hips letting me know it was feeling good.
"Baby go a bit faster. Your hand feels so good doing that."
I took his advice and picked up my pace.
It's been awhile since I have done this. I just needed that push.
Edward started to kiss behind my ear.
"Bella I want you so badly. You have to tell me to stop before this goes too far."
"No I want this please."
He went back to kissing me and he started to remove my shirt and then my bra went next.
He stopped and took me in.
"My god Bella you are so beautiful."
He captured my lips again and took his hand and rubbed my breast.
The skin to skin contact felt like nothing I have ever felt before.
Kissing down my collar bone to the top of my breast then he went and sucked my right nipple into his mouth all the while taking my left nipple in between his fingers.
I pushed towards him more. I need him to be close to me.
I still continue to stroke him but I wanted more. I slowly sat up and kneeled on my knees.
I took the hem of his shirt and pulled it off. I threw it somewhere behind us. At this point I really didn't care where it went.
Next I slowly started to move his pants down his legs. He stood up so that I could remove them completely.
From where I was kneeling I got a perfect look at his cock.
It was long, thick and so hard. I licked my lips.
I slowly moved my head towards his perfect cock. I placed a kiss on the tip.
"Bella," was all he could get out before I engulfed his cock into my mouth.
What I could not fit in, I placed my hand around and stroked him. I took my other hand and rubbed his balls.
I swirled my tongue around his shaft.
God he said I was beautiful, he was just the same.
He placed his hands in my hair and set the pace he wanted.
I listened to him moan and whimper as I sucked on him.
I wanted to taste his cum. I was never one for swallowing but with Edward it all seemed so different.
I hollowed out my cheeks and sucked on him harder.
He started to twitch and I knew that he would let loose soon.
"Baby that oh god feels so good. Don't stop."
I put a little more pressure on his balls and I felt him hit the back of my throat before he let his hot cum squirt down my throat.
I took everything he gave me and I licked him clean before I released him with a pop.
"Bella that was just WOW I can't even describe it any other way than that."
He pulled me up to him and pulled down my pants and they joined the rest of our clothes somewhere in the room.
I'm sure that our clothes were everywhere in the room.
He pulled me to him and kissed me with everything he had in him it seemed.
I'm pretty sure I felt it too.
He was kissing me so good that I didn't even realize that he had me laying on the floor in front of the fireplace.
"Bella it's your turn now. I want to taste you baby."
I could not say anything because I wanted that more than anything.
I watched as he went and settled in between my legs and he looked up at me through his eyelashes.
I watched as he snaked out his tongue and let it go flat down my center.
I could not help but to let out a moan.
It started off slowly and then moved faster and before I knew what was happening he had inserted those oh so long fingers inside of me hitting that spot.
I came undone and came all over his face.
I called out his name and once I could get my breathing back to normal I pulled him up to me.
"Edward that was amazing. I have never had it feel like that before."
"Oh Bella I'm not done with you yet baby. I'm going to make you come some more tonight.
"Please babe I want more."
"I can't say no to that Bella, not when you beg me like that."
He got up and walked away from me and I felt the lost full force. I felt the lose of him being close to me and I wanted it back.
He was back before I could get all worked up into a tizzy.
"Bella are you sure baby? We don't have to."
"No Edward I'm sure, I want this. I want you."
That's when I noticed the silver package in his hand, that must have been why he got up.
I took it from him and tore it open. I took his cock in my hand stroking him a few times before I took the condom and placed it at the tip of his cock.
I rolled it down and then massaged his balls a bit. I wanted touch him anywhere I could.
He settled in between my legs again and I felt his cock at my entrance.
"Are you sure baby?" he asked me. All I could do was nod.
I was so wanting this. He made me feel wanted and if I dare say loved.
He took his time with me. He didn't rush anything and made sure that I was okay with this.
No other man had ever done that. All the one's I have been with only wanted to get their rocks off and to hell with me.
He slowly entered me. He paused for a second.
"Baby oh god you are so wet and so tight."
"For you babe, only for you."
He pushed in more and I wrapped my legs around his waist which made him go deeper.
Moaning out his name just seemed to egg him on even more.
His picked up his pace and made sure to reach my sensitive spot.
He felt so amazing moving in me. He took his time. He did not once just fuck me. It was more like he was making love to me.
That's what it felt like to me.
"Baby I'm not going to last long. This feels so good. Never felt this before. It's so amazing."
"For me to Edward. Right there. I want to cum with you."
He took one of his hands and placed it between us and started to rub my clit. That sure as hell was going to send me over the edge.
Wanting to touch more of him, pulled his face to me and put everything that I felt in that moment into that kiss.
We both moaned at the same time and I felt my stomach tighten right before I explode around him.
I felt him twitch inside me and I knew he was getting ready to explode himself.
I looked into his eyes once he pulled away from our kiss. We were both breathing hard and he did the same, looked into my eyes.
I saw the same thing in his eyes that I hope he saw in my reflecting back to him.
We screamed out each others name.
Once we came down from our high he placed his forehead on mine and we just stared at one another.
After a moment I could not take the silence anymore and I finally said.
"There are no words for what just took place. I have never felt like I would melt before, during or after what we just did."
He leaned over me looking into my eyes. He said, "I have never felt anything like that either Bella. It was so I can't even come up with words for it."
He pulled me to him and we laid down covering ourselves with covers that I never even knew were there and watched the fire burn.
It felt so right being in his arms. I'm not sure what was happening between us, but I so wanted to see what might happen.
We laid there wrapped in each others arms. I couldn't help but think about what just happened. We made love to each other, and we didn't think about any thing.
"Bella, what are you thinking about so hard?" he asked as he rubbed circles on my back.
"I'm... I was just thinking about what we just did..."
"You don't regret it do you?"
"No not at all. I just don't want you to think I do this sort of thing often."
"I know that Bella, I don't either. But there's just something about us being together that feels so right."
"I know it does, and I don't want to ever let go of you."
"You don't have to, I never want to let you go either."
I pulled him down to me and we started kissing again.
My hands went back to his hair as he deepened the kiss. I could feel him against my leg and I couldn't help the giggle that escaped my lips.
He pulled away and looked at me.
"What?" he asked looking puzzled.
"Just you, I can't believe you are ready again," I said as I tried not to giggle again.
"It's you, baby. I can't get enough," he said as he sat up and pulled me with him.
We kissed again and moved closer to each other. I could feel every inch of him and I wanted him too.
"I want you too Edward. I've never felt like this before."
He lifted me and aligned me with his cock. Slowly he pulled me down on him and once he was fully inside me, we both moaned.
"Mmm.. you feel so good," I said as I placed my arms around his neck.
He slowly placed kisses along my neck as I started to move up and down him.
Each downward thrust I made, he would thrust upward.
It felt so good. He was hitting places in me I never knew existed.
His fingers found my nipples and he gently rolled them between his fingers before he took one in between his lips.
He slowly swirled his tongue around it, before he gently bit the tip of it.
I must have gasped, because he pulled away and looked into my eyes.
"Baby, are you okay?" he asked concerned.
"Yeah, it just felt so good and so unexpected."
We moved with each other, both working together to reach our peak. I could feel the familiar coiling in my stomach as I clenched him tighter.
He panted my name as I felt his cock swell even more, before he came hard inside me as he reverently chanted my name.
He continued thrusting upward a few more times before I came hard around him.
I moaned and panted his name as he held me tightly.
"Mmm... you feel so good. I want to stay like this forever," I said against his lips.
He nodded his head as he held me close to him.
He kissed me as he laid us down again.
I snuggled into his arms as I yawned.
"Sleep love, I've got you," he said kissing my forehead.
I smiled as I felt him wrap me in his arms and we both fell asleep.
I woke up and looked around, I wasn't sure where I was until I turned and saw Edward laying behind me.
He looked so peaceful, I really didn't want to wake him but I needed to use the bathroom.
"Edward," I whispered as I nudged him.
"Hmm...," he mumbled.
"I need to get up."
"M. kay, love," he said as he let me go. "Hurry back."
I hurried off to the bathroom, grabbing my shirt off the floor as I went.
I turned on the light and looked at myself in the mirror.
My hair was all over the place and my lips were swollen from our kisses.
I finished in the bathroom and went back out to where Edward was laying.
I snuggled back up to him and he wrapped his arms around me.
He mumbled about missing me and was glad I was back.
I loved the feel of his arms around me.
I could hear voices as I was starting to wake up.
I wasn't sure who they were, but I could hear them getting closer to where we were laying on the floor.
I got closer to Edward.
"Holy hell it looks like someone threw clothes every where," a man said. "Who's truck is that out there? Wait, these are Eddie's clothes except for the black lacy thong."
I could hear footsteps coming toward us.
"Hey, everybody Eddie boy has a woman in here with him. It looks like he finally got lucky."
Edward finally woke up and looked up when he heard the voices.
"Fuck, that's my brother," he said as he pinched the bridge of his nose.
"Yeah I figured, what are we going to do?"
"Just follow my lead."
"Sure whatever you say," I giggled.
"Yeah Emmett I did get lucky actually. I actually got lucky twice. When was the last time you got lucky twice in one night with your girl?"
I just looked up at him, and couldn't believe he said that.
"Trust me," he whispered.
"Edward, do you have a girl in the living room? Don't you think she'd like her clothes back?" a woman said.
I recognized her voice. It was Alice.
"Yeah I think she would, how about my clothes?" he asked.
I heard the clothes being dropped in front of us.
"Can you all give us some time to get dressed please?"
"Oh no Edward Anthony Masen Cullen. You have to tell me who this mystery girl is."
"Alice just let us get dressed and then your question will be answered I promise."
"Fine," she huffed as she walked away.
How in the hell are we going to explain this to his family?
"I think it's safe to get dressed now. What do you want to tell them Bella?"
"Maybe telling them the truth Edward. Honesty is always best. I mean we are grown adults and we made love. They can't stop us."
"That's true but are we going to try and see what happens with us? I mean can I call you my girl? What we have I think is so real and I really don't want to let you go."
"Yes Edward I'm your girl as long as you are my man. I'm just worried once you leave and go on the road that you will think you could find someone better than me."
"No love that's not going to happen. I'm a one woman kinda of guy and trust me when I say that I have had many dates and I have felt nothing for them like I do you. I think I even love you but I know it's to soon to say that and yes you can say that I'm your man."
I wasn't sure about any of it. But I trusted that Edward was telling me the truth, when he said that he may love me. Because I felt the same way about him. But it was too soon to say that.
He called for his family to come in as I sat on the couch next to him.
They came bounding in the room, his brother leading the way. He was swinging my black lacy thong on his finger.
They all looked at us and Emmett started to laugh at something. I really don't know what was funny though.
"Well look who Eddie brought home, little Bella Swan," he said as he dropped the thong in Edward's lap.
I could feel my cheeks burning, and I knew they were deep red in color.
"Emmett, that is enough. Bella is my girlfriend, and you will show her respect," Edward said angrily.
"Since when is she your girlfriend?"
"Yesterday, well last night," he said as he took my hand.
"Edward, dear would you care to explain how this all came about? We were going to Seattle to see you," his mom said.
"Yeah, well I thought I'd surprise you and show up for Christmas Eve, and my car tore up and Bella drove me home. We started talking and one thing led to another and here we are."
"So in one night you two got together? You two have not seen each other since high school," his mother said.
"Mom it just feels so right with her. I have never felt like this with anyone else. Bella feels the same way."
He squeezed my hand as he said it.
I could tell that she was somewhat okay with it, but also didn't want her son to be hurt.
"Edward, I can see the love between you two. Even though it seems quick, sometimes these things just are. Esme, let's leave it alone. They are both adults and we can't run our children's lives," his father said.
"I guess you're right dear."
"Thanks mom," Edward said smiling over at me.
"Bella, its so good to see you again," his father said to me.
"It's nice to see you too, and not in the ER," I said as we laughed.
"Merry Christmas," Alice said hugging us, "Welcome to the family Bella."
We continued to talk for a bit, but then I felt it was time for me to go.
"Edward, I'm going to head home so you can enjoy Christmas with your family."
"Are you sure? You can stay," he said as we got up.
"Yeah, you need to spend time with them and I can see you later tonight."
He nodded his head as I got my coat and shoes on.
"I'll come over later if you'd like me too," he said.
"That would be great," I said as I reached up and kissed his lips.
We pulled away and he grabbed his coat, and put it on.
"Where are you going?" I asked.
"I'm being a proper boyfriend and walking you to your truck," he smirked at me.
"Edward, I'm capable of walking to my truck myself."
"I know, but I don't want to pass up the opportunity to kiss these beautiful lips again," he said as he ran his finger across my bottom lip.
As he did my breathing hitched, and I could not contain the soft moan that escaped me. The slightest touch from him ignited something in me.
He opened the door, but before we could get out of it his mother was calling my name.
I turned towards her.
"You don't have to go dear," she said as she stood in front of us.
"I know, but Christmas is about family and I just …"
"You are family now," she said looking me in the eye.
I really didn't know how to answer her. I just wanted to go home, this is the first Christmas without my dad and I just wanted to be alone for a bit.
"Mom, Bella knows she more than welcome to stay but I think she wants to be at her house, since this is the first Christmas without her father," he said as he squeezed my hand.
It was as if he knew what my thoughts were.
His mom nodded and pulled me into a hug, "If you need anything, don't hesitate to call, okay?"
I nodded and gave her a small smile.
We walked to my truck and I stopped, I turned to Edward.
"Thank you for saying that to your mom, but how did you know?"
"I could tell babe, your pretty easy to read. Plus I understand you."
I threw my arms around him and hugged him close.
"Thank you for understanding, trust me I'd rather stay here in your arms."
"Mmm.. I like the sound of that," he said as his lips claimed mine.
We kissed for what seemed like an eternity before we pulled apart.
"I better go before we get carried away here in the driveway," I laughed looking up into his amazing green eyes.
"Yeah, that wouldn't be good. Is it still okay if I come over later?" he asked suddenly unsure of himself. Nothing like the cocky baseball player that he is.
"Yes, I want you to come over later, so we can continue this," I said pulling him to me and kissing him hard.
We kissed for several minutes before we pulled away and I got in my truck.
"I'll see you later," I said.
"You can count on it baby," he winked as he shut my door.
I nodded and started the truck.
I pulled out of the driveway and watched as he stood there until I turned on to the main street.
Whatever I did to deserve this, I was grateful.
In someways, I think my father had a hand in me finding Edward on the side of the road.
As I drove home, I thought about Edward and how just pulling over to help someone turned into something more.
I would've never thought that I'd sleep with Edward Cullen, let alone be his girl.
I pulled up to my house, and parked in the driveway.
Walking slowly to the door, I was careful not to slip on ice, like I always do.
I opened the door and turned on the Christmas tree and went into the kitchen to see what I could throw together for dinner.
I decided that left overs would be great, so I went to take a shower.
While in the shower I thought back to Edward and I making love.
I remembered how his hands felt on my skin, how he knew just how to touch me. How to make me feel things I've never felt before.
I couldn't believe how gentle, how loving, and how sweet he was with me.
As I finished up, I got out and dried off.
I brushed through my hair and went to find some comfortable clothes.
I went back downstairs and into the kitchen.
I took out a bottle of my dad's favorite beer and I went to sit by the Christmas tree.
Opening the beer, I thought of how my dad used to make Christmas special for me.
When I was a kid, he'd dress up as Santa for me. As I got older, he'd take me shopping and buy me anything I wanted.
But the most special thing he did for me was just spending time with me.
I'd miss that most of all.
Sitting there as the tears fell down my cheeks, I lifted the bottle toward heaven and told my dad that this one was for him and that I missed him so much.
I must have dozed off in the chair because the next thing I heard was someone knocking on the door.
I got up and answered it and it was Edward standing there with a basket and a smile.
"Hi," I said looking up at him.
"Hi baby. What's with the crying? This is suppose to be a happy time."
I didn't answer him at first, I just stood there looking at him. I was not sure how to answer that question.
He walked passed me closing the door behind him.
He looked around the room and zeroed in on the beer sitting there.
He took my hand and pulled me towards the couch. He sat down and pulled me onto his lap.
"Bella please tell me what's wrong. You have me worried here baby."
"I...I umm...I was thinking about my dad and the stuff we use to do together and I had a drink for him. I guess thinking about all the stuff we use to do got the better of me that's all. I just miss him so much. This is the first year without him and I'm just not handling it very well that's all."
I hope that I did not scare him away with me saying what I did. He asked so I told him what was wrong. I just hoped that he would understand how I was feeling.
"I'm sorry Bella, I should've insisted you stay with me at my parents house."
"No, Edward. I needed to be alone," I said putting my arms around his neck. "Thank you for coming over."
"Not a problem, I wanted to spend more time with you. Besides my mom made me bring Christmas dinner to you."
"Really? Didn't you already eat?"
"No, I couldn't. I sat there at the dinner table watching my mother and father, Emmett and his girlfriend and Alice and her boyfriend, and I was just alone. I just wanted to be with you. My mom noticed how I was looking at everything and the look on my face, so she got up and made two plates and put them in the basket and sent me over here."
I just looked up at him, I had no words to say as the tears fell from my eyes.
"Bella," he said wiping the tears away, "my heart is yours if you'll accept it? I know it's sudden but I can't be without you."
"I.. I want to be with you. I don't care if its sudden, my heart is yours too," I said hugging him.
He pulled away to crush his lips to mine. His kiss was full of want and need. His lips hungrily captured mine.
My hands found their way into his hair. He had the softest hair and every time I'd pull on it, he would let out the softest moan.
While we continued kissing, I rocked against him and he moaned loudly against my neck.
"Bella," he said.
"Mmm..." I moaned as his lips nipped my neck.
I wanted him, but I wasn't sure if I wanted to stay here on the couch or go to my bedroom.
The choice was taken out of my hands, as Edward wrapped his arms around my back and stood up.
I wrapped my legs around his waist as he started walking up the stairs.
Once we got upstairs, I directed him to my room and he opened the door, then kicked it shut as we kissed some more.
He walked us to the bed and then he sat me down on it.
I scooted back on the bed as he pulled his shirt off and started to take his pants off.
I watched as he pulled them off and stood before me in his boxers with a smile.
He climbed up the bed as he ran his hands over my legs as he went.
He stopped once he reached the waistband of my sweats and slowly pulled them down, I lifted up so that he could pull them completely off of me.
He smiled as he tossed them somewhere behind him.
I watched as he looked me over with that smirk on his face, and slowly he ran his fingertips over my skin. He pushed my t-shirt up as his hand moved over my stomach, leaving a tingling feeling behind.
He continued to push my shirt up and over my breasts, his fingertips ghosting over the nipples as I lifted up so that he could take it off.
I laid back down as he laid next to me.
"Edward," I murmured, my eyes locked on his and he lowered his head again kissing me gently.
I moaned against him, my body arching up into his as he pulled me closer. My chest rose and fell with labored breaths as he held me close for a moment, feeling the soft curves of my body against the hard muscles of his.
"So, beautiful," he breathed and my body arched into him at his words, and I kissed him, my fingers winding into his hair as I pulled him closer.
Any reservations he had disappeared with that kiss, and he groaned, rolling over until he was on top of me and his knee was parting my legs.
My hips arched up to meet his and he cursed the fabric that separated us. His hands were running up and down my sides, feeling as my skin warmed to his touch.
A soft cry tore from my lips as he pulled away, only to be replaced by a breathless moan when his mouth closed around my breast.
"Ed….Edward!" His lips curved in a wicked smile against me and he flicked his tongue against the nipple, moaning when he realized just how sensitive I was. "Oh my God, Edward," I gasped.
His hands skimmed down my sides as he continued to suckle and lick my nipple, his fingers hooking into the sides of my lacy blue panties and drawing them downward. I bucked hard against him when his fingers slid into my heat, reaching deep inside as he pressed his thumb hard against my clit.
A scream ripped from my throat and he switched to my other breast, licking and sucking me hard until all he heard were my moans.
"Edward, please. Faster. Please," I panted.
He grinned at the desperation in my voice. His fingers delved deep into me as his lips traced a path down from my breasts, across the perfectly flat stomach, until he was kissing the soft skin of my hip.
My body strained and writhed against him, and he inhaled deeply, taking in the scent of my arousal.
He covered my sex with his mouth, taking one slow lick up my wet folds, finally tasting me as if it were the first time. "Edward!" I moaned again as his tongue lapped against my clit, and he began to strike up a rhythm, his fingers pulsing in and out of me in time with his sucks.
I knew he could feel my arousal, how turned on I was. He could feel my heels digging into his back, the muscles tensing and pulling and my body bucking wildly into him. I was close.
So close to flying apart in his arms, and he increased his pace, his arousal only mounting when my fingers flew to his hair. I screamed one more time before I stiffened and wetness coated his fingers as my orgasm washed over me.
His eyes met mine and he almost lost his composure at the lazy look of satisfaction he saw. My hair was spread over the pillow, perfectly mussed from thrashing, my eyes half-lidded, my mouth parted and my breasts heaving.
The fingers that I had clenched in his hair, nearly pulling it from the roots, now ran gently over his face, ghosting over his mouth. He sucked my fingers lazily, his own fingers continuing to pump into me until he felt my entire body calm.
"Come here," I whispered, my voice was soft and gentle.
He crawled up, settling between my legs again and kissing my mouth softly.
"That was amazing," I whispered softly. My hands drifted toward his boxers, and Edward fought to stay in control. "But I think you can do better," I purred.
He groaned when he realized that I was using my feet to pull that last barrier from him and he dropped his head, kissing me long and hard once again.
His hands ran down my body, hooking underneath my legs to bring them around him, and he pulled back, bracing himself on his arms.
"Come on, Edward. Please," I breathed.
He watched, mesmerized as I reached down, gripping his shaft and pressing the tip against my entrance. "Make me yours." The soft plea reached deep into him, wrapping around his heart and pulsing in his groin.
He pushed into me roughly, smothering my moans with his kiss. I fit around him like a glove, enveloping him in warm wet heat. As we began to move against each other, I felt the familiar tug of my heart, the need to wrap him in my arms and hold him forever.
"Bella," his voice was hoarse with passion as he looked into my eyes. "You're mine and I love you."
I nodded wordlessly, my eyes clinging to his.
I arched and twisted as he pumped into me, his pace quickening. "Always yours, I love you too."
I could feel him getting closer and he bent his head, needing me to fall over the edge with him. His mouth latched onto my neck, finding just the right spot to lick and suck until I was as frantic as he was.
"Almost there," he whispered. "Come with me, Bella." He ground against me one last time, sucking furiously at my neck as I came around him, my entire body wrapped around him, milking him and drawing out every ounce of passion in him.
Finally calming, he collapsed onto me, his body spent and his breathing labored.
As we laid there, I ran my fingertips slowly up and down his back as we tried to regain control of our breathing.
My soft giggle drew his attention, and he looked up, curious at the soft smile on my face.
"Best Christmas present ever," I whispered as he laughed, moving up my body to kiss me soundly, still buried inside me. "So you're really mine, huh?" I asked softly.
He nodded, his eyes sparkled with contentment. "And I'm yours?"
"Oh yeah," I agreed.
He grinned down at me, "I've caught you and I'm never letting go."