You Complete Me-Stabbing Westward
I am lost In the darkness
Between two worlds
And here I'm struggling
You're the light
That I've been seeking Cuz my whole life
There's been something missing
Can make me whole
Just one touch
You complete me
Rescue me From this blackhole
It sucked me in And left me dying
You're the truth That I've been seeking
Cuz my whole life I've been lying
God I pray You'll find me worthy
Of the right To stand beside you
And of your truth And of your passion
And of the right To sleep beside you
Those who had their heartbroken will know that its a cold feeling with crushing grief and unending agony. So I turned on to the age old antidote, alcohol.
And the crappy music somehow helped too. The lyrics seemed to be tailor made for me.
I heard you're doing okay
But I want you to know
I'm a dick
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?
I tried to make you happy but you left anyway
The doorbell rings but I ignore it. Whoever it was will go away . I was in no mood to entertain anyone during my tenebrous brooding.
'M trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
I get thoroughly annoyed when the person continues to ring the doorbell. Who was it that couldn't leave me alone even at this time.
"What ?" I growl as I yank the door open angrily. And just as always a paralytic attack seizes me. What the hell is wrong with me? I'm pretty certain I resembled a frozen fish at this instant.
She seemed to be taken aback by my hostility. "Can I come in?" she asks hesitantly.
Why was she here? Is she here to deliver the blow to me in person? I have to congratulate her, which would prove to be slightly difficult with all the begging I'll be doing to take me.
"Sure" I say.
She looks me straight in the eye and declares "Tad asked me to marry him"
"Oh?" I say.
"Is that all you have to say" she demands hotly.
I was flabbergasted by her anger. What did I say? "I'll say whatever you want me to say"
"Damn you" she snaps and starts pacing.
"Excuse me?" I say amazed.
"You heard me Cooper Cartwright, damn you" she repeats "I just told you I'm getting married and your eloquent reply is oh?"
"What did you want me to say Heather?" I cry "I was there too. I heard it along with everyone. Should my congratulations be in order?"
"I told him I have to think about it." She says.
"And you're here to think?" I ask.
"Yes, no..." she says frustrated "I don't know"
"Well good for you" I spit "You have my best wishes."
"Stop it. I didn't say yes." She exclaims.
"You didn't say no." I remind her.
She twirls me around so that we're facing each other." Is that what you want me to do? Marry a guy who doesn't believe in anything I stand for and doesn't even in fact own a television? "
"Does it matter what I want?" I say bitterly "And if I must recall correctly I told you this had disaster written all over it"
"Yes you did" she says her eyes fixed on mine.
I cant help noticing that in our heated argument we had moved so close to each other that our lips are inches apart. I don't know how it happens or who makes the first move but this distance finally reduces to zero. I'd fantasized about it so many times but the real thing is something my imagination couldnt capture. Like the smell of her and her heat radiating from the think fabric of her top. I grip her as tightly as was humanly possible and she lets me run a hand through her luscious sadly she pulls back too soon.
"Don't do this" she practically implores me.
"Why not?" I ask.
"Because " she says briefly closing her eyes "I won't be able to leave after this"
"Do you have to?" I say softly.
"I don't know. You tell me"
"Do you even know what you want?" I question dubiously.
She doesn't reply back but she demonstrates very nicely what she actually 'wants'.
"Just so you know" she says quite out of breath "I don't want to marry him"
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"Good to know" I say and continue kissing her. And this time she doesn't push me back when I bend down to kiss her neck. She closes her eyes and moans softly. Taking this as positive sign I continue down, slowly opening the buttons of her top. Every pop displays the butter soft skin beneath. I simply admire her beauty as its finally removed running a hand through her stomach. I continue kissing her neck and chest , no clothes hindering me now. She pulls me closer to her and starts undoing the buttons of my shirt. I draw back to let her remove it completely. She caresses my chest sending shivers down my body. She takes my face in her hands and gives baby kisses on every inch of skin available, to the top of my slightly prickly stubble.
"Ill shave tomorrow" I tell her.
"No " she says "I like you this way only" And she kisses me there too before capturing my mouth on hers. It was the most wonderful kiss ever. In all honestly I had kissed many women in my life , but no one had ever done it quite like her. With so much feeling and passion as if her life depended on this kiss. If it were to end the world might finish. She did it with just as much fervor as she did the rest of her things. I was slightly frustrated with stooping down so low considering her height distance. I pick her up and carry her to my room. She tugs at my pants when I put her down and helps me remove it completely. She takes of hers too in one sweeping motion. I help her remove her underwear and her bra. I lower my head and kiss her between her breasts, running my tongue up to her neck. I am struck by her exquisiteness, her bonde hair shimmering in the dark. And all I can think is what a fool I've been. I can clearly see the love shining in her eyes. And we finally meet together as one as I bury myself deep within her. She hugs me her arms going across my shoulders. I pull back both of us completely spent and lie next to her. Her eyes were closed but she wasn't asleep as I stroked her hair.
She finally opens her eyes "I love you" she whispers.
"You are the answer to every prayer that I offered. You are a song, a dream, a whisper and I don't know how I could have lived without you for as long as I have. I love you more than you can imagine"
Her eyes fill with tears "Why didn't you tell me before?"
"Because the girl I loved had moved in with someone else "
"Just because the guy I loved was so slow that he just wouldn't admit that he loved me"
"And now?" I ask. Was she going to leave me even after all this?
"Now nothing, its not possible for me to leave now. Still poor Tad. He does love me"
"What did you say to him?" I say. Somehow I could empathise with him. Competition as he was I just couldn't wish bad for him.
"That I couldn't marry him. In fact I broke up with him. But he told me to think about it before saying no. I shouldn't have led him on and now I feel guilty."
"Heather don't " I say "None of this was you're fault. He's a big guy and you didn't force him to be with you. You didn't lie to him or anything "
"I guess you're right" she confesses "But this doesn't make me feel any better"
I kiss her squarely on the mouth "And now?"
"Much better " she smiles. "Thank y-" she catches herself mid yawn and looks at me sheepishly.
"Go to sleep " I chuckle.
"Uh huh" she says her eyes dropping close and she drifts off in a few minutes. Even though I didn't want to sleep but my tired body shuts down on its own and I'm soon in dreamland.
I'm very confused when I wake up next day. Not only did I wake up in the middle of the night with nightmares and I was pretty certain there was someone in my arms. Now this was an impossibility since I wasn't a casual dater and I most certainly didn't bring hookers home. I open my eyes slightly and then close them back again. No way! I was obviously still dreaming.
"Am I that bad a sight?" she tease me lazily.
"Are you for real?" I say focusing my eyes on her "Tell me I didn't just imagine last night."
She grins suggestively "Why don't you find out for yourself."
That's how we end up on top of each other twice in twelve hours.
"Still not convinced that I'm here? " she questions me as we lay wrapped around each other as closely as possible.
"Well I have to say it does seem like a dream. Yet here you are..." I tail off.
"You think this past year has been a vacation for me?" she says touching my cheeks lightly stopping her fingers at the base of my mouth.
"Surely you couldn't have been in that bad a situation- "
She cutes me off "You're wrong. I suffered just as much as you. I feel like I'm finally... home." She suddenly pushes me and flips on her back.
"What?" I say surprised "What did I do?"
"This is all you're fault." She says her voice muffled by the pillow. "If you've just told me this a year ago none of this would have happened."
"Ill make it up to you" I say tracing her spine with my thumb.
She shivers slightly "How?"
I show her instead. Action speaks louder than words, right?
"Stop staring" she mutters.
"Wha-" I say as a look up from my inspection. She rolls her eyes at me and shoves another spoonful of cereal in her mouth. My cereal was left forgotten in front of me. I had better things to do (see: ogling the legs of a certain girl).Now don't blame me. She was wearing my T shirt which reached her mid thighs leaving her legs completely bare. Would you blame the man for staring?
"Don't you have something better to do?" she wants know.
"Actually I do." I raise my eyebrows up at her.
She blushes at my lewd innuendo which really makes me amused. How many girls did you meet today who had the decency to blush. Especially her blush which made her look all the more endearing.
She finishes her breakfast and walks up to the sink. I see it as a perfect chance for a proposition I was scheming since morning.
"How would you like a second proposal in twenty four hours?" I whisper.
"Let me come out of the horror of one" she says " and then I'll think about yours."
"Hmmm" I say pretending to think "Well how about you move in back with me?"
"Very subtle" she says but she was smiling now.
"It's not my fault I fell in love, you're the one who tripped me!" I say.
She just laughs "Geez when did you get so cheesy?"
"Its not like I had anything better to do" I shrug "than watched mindless movies. Wait I got another one. You are the only person that can make my heart beat faster and slower at the same time."
She turns to face me and wraps her arms around my neck. "I don't want to hear lines from some trashy movies. I want you to say what you really feel. "
"I love you" I say "But you already know that and since you already said no cheesy stuff I'll just ask you simply. Will you marry me?"
"Do you promise from this day forward, to have me for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and health, until death do us part." She asks me.
"I do " I say. "Do you promise to love, honor, cook for, clean up after, surrender your share of the covers, live with foul smelling flatulence and give up power of remote?"
"I do" she says and then adds "Except for the remote part. Do you pledge your life as a loving and faithful husband."
"I do " I say gravely.
"Well then " she says equally solemnly " in that case I will marry you."
Okay everyone I completed the story in a week as promised… but very few reviews. I know its lame but please comment. There's an epilogue too which ill post later Thank you everyone for reading