Rome was asleep when I woke up at 3 a.m. I couldn't sleep. I decided to take a shower to try and calm my nerves; I knew it was getting really close to the job day. After the burning water had loosened up all my muscles I felt even more awake. I walked back into the bedroom and saw Rome was passed out. I got dressed and grabbed my keys and left. When I pulled up to the front of the house I took a deep breath and prepared myself for a screaming battle but when I walked in I found Dom on the couch…. Alone, no Kazy in sight.
"Dom," I whispered, shaking him a little. He grabbed my waist and pulled me onto the couch with him. I lost my balance and crashed down next to him.
"I'm sorry, lets kiss and make up," Dom said, he was clearly still sleeping and he sounded all groggy. I realized he thought I was Kazy, before I knew what I was doing I rolled onto my side so I was facing him and we kissed. And we kept kissing. I could say he rolled me and his hand on my back was keeping me pressed against him but it just wasn't true. The second my lips touched his it was like a time machine. I felt like I was just out of college and things were perfect between us, but I wasn't a college girl anymore and things weren't perfect between us and there was Kazy… oh my god Kazy. I shoved away from him causing myself to fall off the couch. The ground was hard and I felt the full force of my body hit it.
"Ash are you okay?!" Dom asked. He rolled onto the floor next to me and grabbed my arm helping me up.
"Don't touch me," I said, yanking my arm away from him. Why did I just do that? I sat on the floor and we looked at each other for a full minute.
"I thought you were Kazy," he finally said.
"I'm so sorry," I whispered. I covered my mouth to stop from crying.
"It's not your fault, I did it all." We both knew he was lying. "What are you doing here? Is everything okay? Where is Rome?"
Rome. I felt myself about to be sick. I also couldn't remember why I came here. I didn't know what to do and before I could think I was asking the last question I wanted to know the answer to.
"Did you really think it was Kazy?" The way he kissed me it was just too similar to how he kissed me all those years ago. I couldn't believe he kissed Kazy the way he kissed me. The look on his face told me he knew exactly who he was kissing.
"I don't know what I am doing here, I have to go. I am so sorry," I said scrambling. Dom followed me out to my car and didn't let me open the door when I reached it.
"Please don't go," He asked.
"Look you thought it was Kazy okay? It was dark and you were basically asleep still. You heard a girls voice in the middle of the night at your house and who else would it be? You thought it was Kazy."
"I knew when I grabbed you. Kazy doesn't feel like this." He moved his hand under my shirt and traced his fingertips over my stomach and around my back. It was just like old times. He knew I loved the light touch over my abdomen. "She doesn't fee like this either," he leaned in and kissed me.
This was different though and I was thinking straight. I pushed him back after his lips touched mine for no more than a second. Dom and me were over and I remembered why I came here and suddenly my mind had changed completely.
"I remember why I came here," I said.
"Clearly not for the reason I want," he mumbled, stepping back from me.
"I came to tell you I am leaving. Getting away from you and this craziness."
"What about Vince? Rome? Brian?" he asked.
"They made their choice when they decided to pull this job tomorrow. And if I'm being honest they made their choice years ago, and it took me till now to realize it. I will always be second to whatever you order and that's not good enough for me. You should be with Kazy, she is right for you."
"You are going to break Vince's heart," he said.
"I guess we will finally be even then."
That took Dom by surprise. He knew I was right but clearly wasn't expecting me to be so blunt about it. The more I spoke the more I realized jus how right I was. I was shaking inside but I wasn't going to let Dom see that. I opened the car door and stepped in but Dom grabbed the door as I tried to close it.
"So now you're all about getting even?" he asked. This was one of those moments Dom tried to use wisdom and tried to use your feelings and insecurities against you. "Where are you going to go? Racing isn't easy when no one knows you."
"No one knows me? Dom's Ex, Trans Ex, Vince's baby sister? Sounds like I will make a lot of friends without even racing. You made sure I'd be someone when you decided to leave me. People know who I am."
"You don't need to do this," he said.
"You are right I don't need to do it. I could get over this job being pulled and I could get past the betrayal but I don't need to. Know why? Because I don't need you."
I slammed the door closed, ripping it out of his hand and backing out. I didn't watch him stand there; I was done caring about his judgments. I was done caring about everyone actually, as I got further away I realized there was one person I owed and the thought of what happened had broken through my mask and I lost it. I cried, there were sad tears and angry tears and I cried about things I'd never cried over before. I ended up pulling over because I couldn't even see the road. I cried over what happened years ago. Over my brothers arm, over them leaving. Over Vince choosing Dom not me. I cried over my mom's death and my father doing it. I was shaking so hard in my car. It was still so early in the morning but I needed help. I pulled out my phone and pressed the only speed dialed number I had.
"Hello?" The voice on the other end was groggy I clearly woke him up.
"Help… I cant… please" I choked out between sobs. I started coughing, choking on my own tears.
"Where are you baby girl?" Rome asked. I tried to speak but it just came out as a squeak. "Don't move, I'll come find you. Just stay put." The call ended and I continued to lose it. I couldn't tell you how long it took for Rome to find me; it felt like a second before he was opening my door. He ripped me out of the car and I was in his arms. I latched onto him and balled even harder if that was possible. He held me and I could tell he didn't know what to do.
"I have to get out of here," I managed to mumble into his shoulder.
"We can go back to my apartment," he whispered rubbing my back.
"NO!" I pulled away so I could see his face. "I need to leave, right now. I need to get far away from here."
"Okay we can go, but we have to go back and get a few things alright? Clothes and passports okay?" Rome asked. I nodded and latched back onto him. He leaned into my car to the best of his ability and took my keys out of the ignition, closed the door and locked the car. He didn't even try and put me down. He wiggled us into the driver seat of his car and hit the road. When we reached his apartment, he got us inside and then gently eased me onto the ground. I did everything I could to stay in his arms.
"Baby I don't ever want to let go of you, but if you can just stay here we can leave sooner. Is that okay?" he asked. The way he looked at me… I'd never seen anything like it. I knew if I said no he would carry me around but I wanted to leave and I agreed. He still hesitated, but put me down and ran into the other room. It was only a few minutes later when he returned back with two bags.
"You stopped crying," he said, with a smile. I nodded because I was scared if I opened my mouth the tears would return. "Where is your passport?" he asked.
"Home," I whispered.
"Do you want to wait till the morning to go get it?" he asked. I shook my head and stared to panic that he would make me wait and I didn't have my car now to leave. Tears escaped my eyes but Rome pulled to him before I could loose it. "We will go now." He put his free arm under my butt and lifted me. I wrapped my legs around him and he headed for the car. He dropped me right outside the passenger's door and went to throw the bags in the trunk. I got in and balled up. We were outside my house before I was ready. I saw Vince's car in the driveway.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" Rome asked. I knew he was watching me stare down this car. I opened the door before he had even cut the engine. I opened the unlocked door and walked in, I headed straight upstairs to my room. I pulled my biggest bag out of the closet and started throwing clothes and everything I could find in. I grabbed my backpack from college and put all the important paper work, my diploma and other financial things inside. I took the bags and ran down the stairs.
I had been in such a rush that I hadn't seen Vince asleep on the couch. The only time Vince slept on the couch was because I couldn't sleep or because he was worried. I knew he was worried about this job and probably me. It made me hesitate but not for more than a second. I no longer owed him anything, and I didn't feel bad for walking out on him when he had done the same to me. I wasn't trying to get even but it just worked out that way. Rome was standing by the car when I walked out, he ran over and grabbed the bag out of my hands but I held onto my backpack, it not only had important paper work but all my spare cash which was more than any of the guys probably thought, along with the money I had in the bank.
"Are you ready?" He asked. I looked up at him and realized he was about to give up everything for me.
"Why are you doing this with me?" I asked.
"I don't want to, I want to stay and have you work things out with everyone, be a part o f the team. I like it here and love the family the team has created for me, but I see that's not what's best for you. And right now all I can think about is how to make you happy. If I thought you'd be happy without me I wouldn't go, but when I got your call I knew this is what you needed and I just want to give you everything.
"Rome… I love you." He smiled and kissed me.
"I know you do baby girl and I want to spend everyday proving I deserve it, and telling you how much I love you."
Tears… as if I hadn't cried enough. Rome hugged me tightly, but I think he knew these were a different type of tears. He kissed the top of my head before pulling back from me so he could get a look at me.
"Where ever you want to go, we will go." I nodded. He tucked me into the car and headed around to the drivers seat. This was right for me this is what I needed. Vince was right all those years ago when he was raining me. I wasn't meant to be apart of this team, I never belonged anywhere near them, he was right. I'd have to tell him one day. But right now I needed to focus on me and the man next to me.
"Where are we going baby girl?" Rome asked.
"Far, far away."
A/N I think I have one more chapter before wrapping this up! Can't wait to hear what you guys think, I could always bring them back or let Rome and Ash run away and be happy. One more couple to warp up. I have a feeling it wont be as happy. What do you think?