Sabrina's Journal

I've been noticing it for a while. I've been noticing the looks that Jimmy gives me when he thinks I'm not looking. He looks at me like no one ever did! He looks at me like I'm someone special…

I'm not going to lie and say that I've never thought about Jimmy that way, but it just can't be! We're friends and that's all! Friends, JUST friends! In fact, no, we're not friends, we're best friends. He's my best friend; he's the person I know I can always trust; he's the one guy that knows what being friends with a girl is! And I can´t mess that up…

I've thought about it. A lot actually. The truth is that, every day that passes, I think more and more about it! I've given to temptation a few times recently. I've given to temptation when I couldn't resist and put my head on his chest, while slow dancing. I've given to temptation when I told Shelly I had found really hot when Jimmy yield at me. But I can't do it anymore! I can't give to temptation again! I can't mess our friendship if I'm not sure of my feelings! 'Cause I know that, if we start a relationship and for any reason break up, we're never going to be the same, we're never going to friends again, at least not like we used to!

But I've got to stop! I have to stop thinking about Jimmy that way! I'm dating Wyatt for a long time now, and I can't simply break up! I'm in love with Wyatt, not Jimmy! I don't really love Jimmy, it's just a crush, it will go away! (or will it?)

This thing I have with Jimmy is the best thing that ever happened to me and I can't screw that up because of a silly crush that will probably go away in a couple weeks! (or not…)

I love Wyatt, not Jimmy!

Who am I trying to fool, I don't really love Wyatt, in fact, I don't think I ever did… He's the pretty boy, and I'm the desperate girl! While Jimmy is the sweet, loving and caring boy…

I'm in love with Jimmy, and I'm officially screwed!