Hey All! It's AJ again. So this story is going to be honing in on letters, and writing. And Spoby. Duh ;)

Preface:

Dear Toby-

There is only one word for a child who loses their parents: Orphan.

Only one word for a person who loses their spouse: Widow.

But there is an endless stream of words that describes a person who losed their first love: Broken. Alone. Hurt. Abandoned. The list is endless.

The things I wish I could say. That's another endless list.

Why does everything have to be so complicated?

And I know writing this is pointless, seeing that I'll never have the heart to let you read it.

But, it gives me some sort of release to know that I am still able to say these words, if not to your face, then to the one in my mind.

I'm so sorry.

I love you.

Maybe, when the world stops trying to pull itself out from under me, we can have a chance.

I pray for that.

-Spencer.