"K-Karou? Where are you going?"
I flinched as I heard my brother's half-asleep voice behind me. I turned around slowly.
He rubbed his eyes before looking at me. He looked at the box I was carrying and the suitcase I was pulling.
"You could have told me you were going on a trip." he replied, not understanding what was happening...or at least, pretending to not understand.
"I-I'm not." I answered.
He shifted around uncomfortably. "Then why do you have that stuff?"
I bowed my head, unable to look at my brother's face. "You know why..."
"K-Karou..." he started towards me.
"Stop." I said while backing away. "Please, just stop."
"No Hikaru. Just go get back in bed with Harhui."
Realization finally struck him. He knew why I was leaving. "Please Karou." he begged. "Please don't leave. I'll end it with Harhui. It'll be you and me, just like before."
I chuckled slightly as I remembered how we used to be. It was me and him against the world. No person and no thing could every separate us. And we wouldn't have ever dreamed of letting any body...but that ended a long time ago.
I closed my eyes as I felt a tear roll down my cheek. "We can't go back to the way things were...and I can't ask you to leave her. That would be cruel."
"And this isn't?" he started. "Leaving in the middle of the night while I was sleeping. After all we've been threw, I wouldn't have even gotten a good bye?"
I sniffled slightly. "After all we've been threw, I know you wouldn't have let me say good bye."
We stood there in silence for a while. Nobody moving, both of us barely breathing.
"So this is it? This is how we come to an end? I thought it was supposed to be you and me against the world? Whatever happened to that?" he asked, voice getting slightly louder.
I winced as I recalled what he was talking about. I childhood pinky promise we made.
We watched from our place on the bench as two friends fault over a girl with long black hair.
"Hikaru?" I said, looking at my brother.
"Yea Karou?" he asked while looking back at me.
"We'll never get in fights like that, will we?" I asked.
"Of course not." he replied.
"You promise?" I questioned.
"Pinky promise." he said while holding out his pinky.
I smiled and wrapped my pinky around his.
"It's you and me against the world Karou, and that's how it'll be for the rest of our life."
I sighed contently.
I smiled gently as I remembered the event, but my smile soon faded when I remembered what was happening.
I sighed before speaking. "Things change Hikaru...people change. They grow up...and they grow apart."
"But not us, we're better then regular people. We can still be the way we were." he tried to reason.
I shook my head before looking up into his tear stained eyes. "No we can't Hikaru."
"Why are you fighting me so much?" he asked/yelled.
"Because I know that even if I do stay, even if you do leave Harhui, nothing will change. I'm still gonna be in love with you and you're still gonna be in love with her...all that will do is hurt you. And I know it doesn't seem like I right now, but I don't wanna hurt you."
"Please stop. Stop making this harder then it has to be." I begged.
"Please." I begged with tear-filled, red eyes.
He looked like he wanted to say something, but decided against it when he saw the desperation in my eyes. His head dropped.
I sat the box I was holding, on my suitcase before walking over to him.
I wrapped my arms around his frame and held him close to me. I tried my best to hold back tears, as my brother cried on my shoulder. I pulled him back and looked at him.
"I know it doesn't seem like it, but this really is for the best." I told him before pressing a kiss on his forehead and letting him go.
I walked back over to my stuff and picked up the box again.
I turned around and gave Hikaru a sad smile. "Bye Hikaru."
"Bye Karou." he waved sadly.
I turned back around and grabbed my suitcase. I pulled it off the ground and closed the door behind me. I walked down the long hallway to the elevator and pressed the down button. When the elevator arrived, I pulled my suitcase on it and pressed the button for the garage.
I waited for the doors to close before sliding down the back wall, tears streaming down my face.
I stayed like that for a while, tears falling down my pale skin, before getting up and wiping my eyes before the doors reopened.
I walked threw the dark lower level to my car, finishing my keys out of my pocket and opening the trunk.
I threw my stuff in and closed the trunk before opening the door. I looked over at the two cars next to me. The one next to mine was Harhui's. The one after that was Hikaru's. I looked down and sniffled.
I didn't want to go. I wanted to stay with my brother...my best friend...my lover. But I knew I couldn't. He didn't want me, but he just couldn't admit it. And I couldn't take it any more...watching him and Haruhi from the sidelines. It hurt. And though I really didn't want to, I knew I had to. I had to leave my twin and let him enjoy the rest of his life, without having to protect me. And through I know it's the right decision, for both his and my happiness, I can't help the burning pain in my chest right now, that's telling me to run back to him. That's telling me to apologize for putting him threw this pain, even for a few minutes. That's telling me to run back and kiss him, like that would somehow make everything better...
But I knew it wouldn't.
So I climbed in my car, eyes blurred from all the tears, and drove as fast as I could out of the building and to someone's house. Someone I knew could lessen the pain.
A/N: End of part 1/3. Hope you enjoyed it.