I ran after him the moment I heard the front door to the diner slam shut. I raced down the steps and just as I reached for the door handle, I felt a hand on my shoulder. I whipped around.
"Rory, it's gotta be me." Luke said hoarsely.
I gave him a small smile. "Okay. I understand."
"I'm... I'm sorry." He managed to say. Then, he added, "I'm sorry for all that up there, I mean."
I found Luke's eyes and locked them with my own. "Luke, I know you're going through a lot right now and it's probably really confusing but... Jess doesn't deserve this." And then I added, "Neither does Lorelai."
He swallowed hard and shifted his eyes to the ground. "I know. But right now... I gotta go find Jess." He said softly.
I nodded. "Okay."
And then he was gone. I stood in the dark diner for a moment, trying to decide my next move. A part of me wanted to talk to Nicole, mostly yell at her, but I knew it wasn't my place. None of this was any of my business to begin with. The best thing I could do at the moment was go home and be with my aunt.
And so I walked home, the wind suddenly bitter and cold. I wrapped my arms around my chest, pulling my sweatshirt tighter around me. I walked through the front door and found Lorelai on the couch, watching more LOST. I took a seat next to her.
"What episode you on?" I asked.
"The one where the annoying blonde dies. Shannon is her name, I think."
I nodded my head, even though I had no idea who Shannon was. After a moment of silence, I spoke up just at the same time as Lorelai did.
"I'm sorry!" We both blurted out simultaneously.
We looked at each other and bursted out laughing. We laughed and laughed until tears were coming out of our eyes. Nothing was particularly funny, nothing at all actually. But we just couldn't stop laughing. Once we finally caught our breath, Lorelai was the first to speak.
"I love you, Rory. And everything I do, everything your mother does, we do it to protect you. I hope you know that."
I smiled softly at her. "I love you too. And I know. I'm sorry I got so angry. I just hate secrets."
She brushed a hair out of my face. "Me too, honey."
I didn't want anything between us. I didn't want to be keeping things from her. So, without thinking, I said, "Nicole's here."
Lorelai's face drained of color. "What?"
I sighed and bit my lip before replying. "She's here... Jess and I... we went upstairs and... there she was. He freaked out and she slapped him and Jess ran off and now Luke is looking for him."
Lorelai sat up and leaned closer to me. "What do you mean there she was? What was she doing? And she slapped him! She slapped Jess?"
"Yeah... he got in her face and said some nasty things."
"Rory, you didn't answer my first question. What was she doing up there?"
I closed my eyes, afraid to look at her as I answered. "Kissing Luke."
She closed her eyes as well and let out a breath that she had been holding in. She rubbed her temple and after a moment of silence, she said, "I should've known. It's always been this way."
"What do you mean?"
"We've always... almost had something, but he's always either talking to Nicole or about to talk to Nicole or Nicole just left and there is just never a time where he can fully commit to me because she's always there, even when she's not physically there."
"Why don't you fight for him?" I whispered.
She stood up and shook her head. "Because he has somebody, Rory! You don't mess with people's relationships, okay? That ruins lives!"
"Well, if he can't let go of Nicole then... why can't you just let go of him?"
She bit her lip. "Because... he was there for me when my life fell apart. It was a really long time ago but I screwed up everything and he was the only person who stood by my side. He was the only one."
"You don't want to know. And it's not important, okay? I'm just going to have to learn how to let go of Luke. Because he will never let go of Nicole. Ever."
"I'm sorry." I said softly.
She shrugged. "Life isn't a fairytale. You don't get the happy ending just because you want one, you know?"
I went to bed for the night then. Luckily, the next day was Saturday and I got to sleep in. I needed it after that night. When I finally rolled out of bed, it was almost eleven. I checked my phone for messages from Jess but there was nothing. With a sigh, I made my way into the kitchen.
Lorelali was doing paperwork for her job. I sat down next to her at the table. "Hey."
"Look who finally decided to join the rest of the world."
"Do we have coffee?"
"Think about that question for a moment and then decide if you should still ask it."
I rolled my eyes and stood up and poured myself a cup. Then, I sat back down at the table.
"How are you doing?" I asked her.
She shrugged. "I'm fine... or I will be, anyways. Look, Ror, I'm used to this with Luke. The only difference is we kissed this time. And then he sealed his fate with a kiss from Nicole."
"It hurts though. I was cheated on. And I know that's not the same thing but... it hurts to know they chose somebody over you."
Lorelai gave me a small smile. "Yeah, it hurts. But I can't get in the middle of him and Nicole. I refuse to. So, all I can do is just lay low for awhile."
"I understand." I said grabbing her hand. I squeezed it tight and then let it go. "I need to go talk to Jess."
Lorelai nodded. "Just be careful what you say, alright? He's in a rough place right now."
"I'll be careful, I promise."
I headed outdoors and walked to Luke's. I had already figured he probably wasn't there and I was right. I peaked inside and saw Luke but no Jess. He could be upstairs but I doubted it. I knew where he was.
I walked to the bridge and there he was; at the end, dangling is feet over the , I walked over and sat down next to him. He didn't look at me. Just looked out at the water.
"Beautiful day." I said.
He didn't respond.
I sighed and laid on my back and closed my eyes. I don't know how long I laid there before he spoke up. I think I fell asleep, honestly. But when he spoke, it startled me and I sat up and looked over at him.
"Luke told me I was right... about... all of it."
"Well that's good, right?" I said softly.
Jess shrugged. "He said all this time he had never even considered how it made me feel... to have Nicole coming and going. He could only see how it affected him. So he kinda thanked me... not for calling her a slut but... for saying everything he was too scared to see himself."
"So what did he do? About Nicole?"
"I don't know. He hasn't told me. All he said was I was wrong about one thing. Nicole's not the last strand connecting him to my mother." Jess looked at me then and met my gaze. "I am."
"He's right. You are. And nothing can change that. Nicole can never have that connection with either of you. She's not your mother."
"It's weird because I hate her... but I hate her because I will never actually hate her, you know? She means a lot to me but I just... snapped."
"Understandable. She's hurt you both a lot."
Jess sighed and threw his arm around my shoulder, pulling me into him. I kissed he cheek and then laid my head on his shoulder.
"This is our spot, isn't it?" I said smiling.
"No. We don't have a spot. We are not twelve."
"Jess! This is our spot and this isn't up for debate. We have a spot!"
"I'm going to push you into our spot if you keep saying that." He mumbled.
I giggled and kissed his lips. He pulled me into him, deepening the kiss. His hands ran up and down my back and I ran mine through his hair, breathing him in, tasting him. After a while, we had to come up for air. Our out breath, we pressed our foreheads together, trying to breath.
"We're pretty good at that kissing thing, huh?" Jess said.
"We should get back on that then." He leaned in but I pulled away, laughing.
"No! I have got to get home. Plenty of time for kissing later."
"Party pooper." Jess said, standing up and helping me to my feet. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder as we walked.
And when we reached my front porch and saw Luke's truck there, I should've known right then that something was wrong.
"Oh god, what are we going to walk into this time?" I asked Jess.
He looked just as confused as me. "Better find out."
And so we walked inside and straight into the kitchen, where the screams were coming from. And they didn't stop when they saw us. In fact, they got louder.
"You have no right to come into my house, Luke. I don't want to see you right now! Don't you get it! This is killing me, standing here with you!"
"Let me explain! I need to explain, Lorelai!"
"You don't get that option! We've done this for years, Luke... and I'm not getting between you two."
"There is nothing between us, I ended it!"
Loreali started crying now. "You always end it! Always. But yet, you let her back in... Luke... I can't be a part of this."
"Because you're a coward!" He screamed back. "In every aspect of your life, you are a coward!"
Lorelai took a step towards him. "Don't you dare say that! You have no. right."
Luke shook his head and pointed at me. "You're too afraid to tell Rory the truth. And you are too afraid to be with me."
I stepped forward. "Oh my god, if one more person mentions the truth and doesn't tell me what it is, I swear, I will go insane."
"Tell her, Lorelai!' Luke screamed.
Lorelai was crying even harder now. "Don't do this." She whispered to him pleadingly.
"I never thought it was right to keep it from her... sixteen years, Lorelai. Sixteen years!"
"And I told you it's not my choice! Or yours!" She cried.
Jess threw his hands up in the air, "For god's sake! Just shut the hell up and tell her before I do!"
I threw Jess a quick glance. He had told me he didn't know anything.
Luke glared at Lorelai. "Tell her!" He demanded.
"No!" She screamed.
Luke shook his head. "Tell your daughter the truth, dammit!
A silence fell over the room. I looked from Luke's dark and angry eyes to Lorelai's, filled with tears and shame and embarrassment.
Tell your daughter the truth.
"I don't... I don't understand." I whispered.
Lorelai couldn't meet my eyes. She sobbed and looked at the ground. Luke's face was no longer angry but soft and gentle as he looked at me. "Lorelai's your biological mother, Rory."
A/N: YES, I am aware all of you already guessed this would happen. hahaha I fail at being subtle! :) There's a lot more to the story that you'll see next chapter :) AND SO THE PLOT THICKENS. And what is wrong with me? Why do I have Rory walk in on fights and kisses and secrets ALL THE TIME? It's like the only way for me to have anything important happen. I fail. haha. Anyways, let me know what your thoughts on this chapter are!
Fun facts: This is the first chapter I haven't started with dialogue of some kind.
Jess and Rory on the bridge and Jess saying "He said I was right.. about all of it." Parellels the episode where Jess finds Rory on the bridge and says Dean was right about all of it ;)
And Lorelai telling Luke "It's killing me standing here with you" Parellels the time she said that to Chris.
I like to throw in little things like that! Makes writing this more fun ;)