Disclaimer: All characters belong to Maggie Stiefvater.
Genre: Romance, Angst, and Drama
Date Finished: January 3, 2012
The chill of winter works its way down my spine causing my skin to be covered in goosebumps. It is coming, coming closer to me. It is getting harder and harder to stay human. Soon, the wolf will take over me.
Oh, how I wish I could stay human all year around! Oh, how I wish that I could just stay here in her arms! Her arms are so safe and sound. I do not want to leave my lover. Please, please, let winter's chill stay at bay a little bit longer. Let me stay with her.
When I turn into a wolf, I probably never will become human again. I will live and die in wolf form leaving her waiting and wondering what has happened to me. I have not told her my fate. This is my last year. I do not understand why and how I got so few years as a human, but it just happened. You get a few years of changing back and forth, but soon your body can no longer change. You just do not come back to your human form.
I am nearing that time.
Snow is starting to fall and winter's chill is getting harder to ignore. Please, just a few more days. I want to stay with her. I love her.
The wind whips around me sending the wind chill down.
Pain and fire start erupt through my body. No, No, NO! Not now, not ever. I am changing. No longer will I walk around on two legs, wear clothes, talk, play my music, and be with her. No more of that. It will all be gone.
The pain grows greater. I am becoming less and less human. My human body is almost gone. The animal is becoming me. I am fading, fading fast.
Fight! I must fight. I must not give in.
The air grows colder. Snow is making it very difficult to see. My body is slowly freezing.
It is getting harder and harder to stay human. The more I fight, the weaker I become.
Breathing hard, I fall to my knees. It cannot end this way. I am in love, but I am a wolf.
I am losing.
Winter's chill is winning.
I am no longer Sam.
I am just a wolf howling for the lost of the love of my life.