Goodbye Is Never Forever
Holy Shit! Holy god damn it fuck! Why now? Why does it have to be now? Kiba and I just…I mean we really just…and Ino had to come and find us and….fuck! What was she thinking? What was she going to do? Would she tell anyone about what we were doing? I swear to god if she even thinks about telling anyone I'll…I'll…well I don't know what I'll do but it won't be pretty! And how the fuck did she even get into my house! Uhhh this girl just keeps consistently ruining my life! Does she just get her rocks off by making me and Kiba miserable? Oh my god! Kiba! He was probably taking this whole thing a lot worse than I was. I stopped glaring at Ino who seemed to just be standing in the doorway awkwardly with a hand covering her mouth and the widest eyes I have ever seen and turned to look at Kiba. He seemed to have the exact same reaction that she had. He looked completely immobile, frozen into place like some kind of horrified statue. I looked down his body and even though I knew this so wasn't the time to be thinking this kind of stuff I still couldn't get over beautiful he looked naked. Naked! Holy shit we're still naked and she can see EVERYTHING! I desperately grabbed for the covers on my bed and yanked them up furiously blushing uncontrollably. She seemed to come over her shocked state as she watched me pull the covers over our bodies.
"I-I need to talk to you. I'll wait in the living room so you guys can get dressed." And with that she was gone. I looked over at Kiba. He was shaking. I pushed myself up against him, holding Kiba as tightly as I could. Kiba's body seemed to twitch into mine but his shaking seemed to die down enough so that he could hold me as well.
"It's all over Naruto. Everything's ruined and now I-I'm going to have to back to that place and I am…I can't…"I could feel the warm drops of Kiba's tears fall on my shoulder as he spoke. Why did this have to happen? Kiba didn't deserve any of this and I swear I am not going to be the reason for him going back to that awful place. He'll never go back there as long as I'm around. I'll find a way to fix this but first I needed to go deal with Ino.
"Kiba it's going to be okay I promise. I'll never allow for you to be forced to go back to that place. Let me go see what Ino wants and I'll be back and we'll figure this whole think out, okay?" Kiba didn't say anything but nodded. I slowly pulled away from Kiba, not wanting to leave his warmth. I walked over to my closet and found some clean clothes to put on. Kiba stared at me the whole time while I was getting dressed making me blush more and more. As soon as I was fully clothed I got back on the bed. Ino had ruined our one moment together but I wanted one last kiss from Kiba. I needed something more than just the memory to savor. I needed his kiss. I gently placed my hand on his tear lined cheeks and pressed my lips to his softly. I think Kiba needed the kiss as much as I did because he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me deeper into the kiss. Even with everything going as bad as it was I still couldn't stop myself from melting into his delicate lips. Kiba was my everything and I would do everything in my power to keep him happy. All too soon we broke our kiss and even though I still wanted more I forced myself to get off the bed.
"I'll be right back. Just stay here Kiba." Kiba nodded as I turned and left the room. Ino had better have a good reason for breaking into my house and ruining my time with Kiba! Ino was sitting down on the sofa in the living room but she was covering her face in her hands so I couldn't tell what she might be thinking. But she didn't matter to me. I just wanted to get back to Kiba as soon as possible. So I would be sure to make this conversation quick.
"Why did you come here Ino?" She lifted her hands away from her face and looked me directly in the eyes. She was extremely difficult to read so anticipating the way this conversation was going to go would be difficult.
"I'm sure you know what happened between me and Kiba already. And I figured that he would come over to your house for support because you guys seemed to have a really good connection but I never realized how deep it went. When I got to the front door it was already open so I decided to walk in and ended up finding you two naked in each other's arms." I looked away for a moment and blushed slightly to myself while I waited for her to continue.
"This isn't something easy to say especially considering how much pain I have put Kiba through but it still needs to be said. I want Kiba back. I know what I did to him and I know it's not within my right to ask for it but it's just the way I feel." She got to be fucking kidding! She wants Kiba back! She fucking cheated on him. She had him and she threw him away! She doesn't deserve to have Kiba after what she did to him.
"Do you know how messed up that is? You cheated on Kiba! And you just expect him to come back to you just like that?" There was no way I would ever let this happen. It already killed me the first time I had to watch them together when they were a couple and I was not going to go through that much pain again.
"Well why not? Are you two dating now?" I froze for a moment, blushed and looked down at the floor trying to avoid her gaze.
"Well no but…"
"Exactly so it's not even up to you. Besides I'm not the only bad person in this scenario. You took advantage of Kiba's feelings for me and made him sleep with you. Pervert! Jeez had I known you were gay I would have never let you stay near Kiba in the first place." What the fuck! I'm the one who took advantage of Kiba! She was seriously pissing me off now. I didn't take advantage of Kiba's feelings, right? I mean having sex right after a break up does look kind of suspicious but Kiba was the one who said that we should. I mean I would never take advantage like that and after all that we've been through and all that we've said that makes it real, doesn't it? Kiba did enjoy himself with me, right? Uhhh why was I doubting myself now of all times? But I just couldn't help it I needed to know if Kiba really liked me or not. I didn't want to take advantage of him or his feelings. I just could stop myself. But for now I needed to be strong for Kiba and believe even though I have doubts that Kiba meant what he said about loving me.
"That's not true at all! I in no way took advantage of Kiba!" I started screaming at her probably more than I should have but I desperately didn't want it to be true.
"Whatever. Look I didn't want to have to play this card but it doesn't seem like you're giving me a choice. If Kiba doesn't end this little fling with you I'm going to tell everyone about what you guys have done. Do you really want that? I know how Kiba's parents feel about this sort of thing and they are not going to be happy when I tell them what their son has been doing. " She wouldn't dare! She's really threatening to out me and Kiba! Does she have any idea what will happen if she does that! Kiba would be forced to go back to that horrible place and it'd be all my fault. I can't let that happen but I also can't just stand by and watch while she takes Kiba away from me again. Also what would happen to me? What would my parents think? Would they ever send me to a place as awful as the one Kiba went to? It's killing me just to think about it. What am I supposed to do?
"Why are you doing this to us?" I thought she had started to like me. Was she being completely fake the entire time we hung out that day when Kiba and I got milkshakes? How could she be so heartless? Why couldn't she understand that Kiba doesn't like her anymore, if he ever did, and just move the fuck on? I could feel my body shaking but could do nothing to stop it. I wanted to cry and fight and yell and knock that pretty head off her shoulders but I couldn't move. I just sat there with a headache that would pound harder after every second that went by as I stared at the floor unable to meet her gaze.
"Because Kiba was the only boyfriend I've ever had that my parents liked. He was sweat, funny, charming, handsome and an all-around good guy. If my parents ever found out that we broke up because I had cheated on him they would kill me. So I need Kiba, at least as a trophy boyfriend, someone that will make my parents proud and make them get off my case for the rest of my life. And if you want your secret to stay secret then you're going to do exactly what I say and stay away from Kiba from now on, you got it?" I didn't know what to do; I didn't know what to think. How could this be happening? How could she stand there and tell me that I could never see Kiba ever again? She is without a doubt the biggest bitch I've ever met in my entire life. In less than ten minutes she had completely destroyed my entire life and I could do absolutely nothing to stop her. How could I? What would come of me standing up in defiance and refusing to let her take Kiba away from me? She'd just tell the entire town about our relationship and worst of all she'd tell Kiba's parents. And they'd sent him back…back to that horrible place where he would be constantly and mercilessly told that he was a sinner, a disgrace, an ugly monster that shouldn't exist. I couldn't bare to do that to him. I couldn't be responsible for ruining his life. I need to let him go so he can achieve some measure of happiness. I would protect him even if it meant giving him up to someone as awful as Ino. I raised my head just enough to look into her as I started to cry and said the words I knew I was going to regret for the rest of my life.
"I got it."
"Good, now I'm going to get Kiba and take him…"As soon as I heard her footstep begin to move towards my bedroom I immediately jumped to my feet in hurry trying to stop her.
"Wait…just wait…l-let…let me…let me be the one to tell him, okay?" If I wasn't going to be able to see Kiba ever again I wanted every last second I could have with him even if our last moments together rip my heart apart.
"Fine. It doesn't make a difference to me. But after today you are never to near Kiba again." That was last thing she said before she got up and left me there in the middle of the living room unsure of what I should do next. I looked around, mostly at nothing, I guess because I wanted to buy as much time as I could before I had to go and tell Kiba what Ino had told me. I was still crying silently to myself as I waited. I stood there for seemed like an eternity. Not thinking, not looking at anything, it was as if I wasn't even part of the world anymore. That I had somehow stopped time and watched as everything around me began to freeze into place. The only think that allowed me to believe I was still alive was shallow breathing. Reality did come back to me as soon as I heard the door to my bedroom open. I watched Kiba step out slowly and carefully never taking his eyes off me. His footsteps were staggered as he began to move towards me. He had put on the clothes that I had handed him before I left the room. As soon as reached me he immediately wrapped his arms around my tender waste and pulled me in for a hug. I could do nothing but melt into his embrace. He was so warm and gentle. I never wanted this moment to end. I could feel tears start to fall faster down my cheeks as they slid off and landed on Kiba's shoulder. Kiba pulled away first even though I tried to pull him back to me and looked into my eyes.
"What did she say Naruto?" It was now or never. I would have to tell him eventually so I might as well just do it now.
"She wants you back Kiba and she said that I'm not allowed to talk to you anymore."
"She did what! She doesn't have the right to say those things. And she's the one who cheated on me. I would never go back to her, not after what she did to me but especially not after what we just shared. What we did meant more to me than I think I will ever be able to express. I'm so happy I have you in my life and I want you to always be in my life. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me Naruto." Kiba reached out and grabbed my hand and brought it up to his lips to kiss. I wish I could be with you forever to Kiba but I would hate myself for all eternity if I was ever the reason that you got sent back to that place.
"That's not all Kiba. She um… s-she said that if I didn't end our relationship that she would tell everyone in town about us including your parents." Kiba immediately dropped my hand and his eyes got bigger than I've ever seen them. Tears started to form at the end of his eyes as he slowly took a step back. I could tell he was thinking about the consequences of us being found out and especially about that evil place he wished he had never experienced. And in a slip second decision I leapt forward and pulled him back into a tightly pressed hug. He started to push away at first but then relaxed and wrapped his arms around me. I pulled back just a bit to look him in the eyes as we held each other and kissed him lightly on the lips. He gave me a half smile and moved down to kiss me passionately. His tongue tasted so good. I loved everything about him and the fact that I was being forced to give him up as unbearable. I had just begun to know him! I wanted to know more about who he was as a person, as a friend and if I was lucky enough to get a second chance, as a lover too but all that was stolen from me by a bitch named Ino. All I had left were these last remaining kisses that I would cling to for the rest of my life. I pulled back slowly, regretting it even as I did it but I needed to know what was going to happen next.
"Kiba you are the most precious person in my life and I want you to be happy. I could never allow myself to be responsible for sending you back to that awful place so I think you should go back with Ino. "Kiba's eyes widened in shock. I think he knew that he very well might have to do just that but hearing it from me seemed to make it all the worse for him. I stood next to each other in silence and awkwardness for the next several minutes, neither of us even daring to breath. Kiba's eyes were on the floor and he seemed to be having an inner conflict by the way his body kept shifting around. I slowly raised my hand to his chin and lifted his head up, bringing him out of his inner conflict, so that I could look him in the eyes.
"I love you Kiba." That's when Kiba's tear gates broke down and a river of endless tears came flooding down his cheeks. It was hard to tell if he was happy because his face seemed to go back and forth unpredictably from a smiling face to a crying one every half second. I leaned in close and kissed him passionately, so that he would stop crying and as a tongues locked I knew that he was all I would ever need in life. All I need is Kiba and I would be the happiest man in the world. As soon as we broke the kiss, Kiba looked at me and couldn't stop smiling. But I only got a quick look at his beautiful smiling face before he leaned down and kissed me again.
"I love you too Naruto." We held each other in our arms not wanting to ever let go for what seemed like the longest time. Even though this was most likely the last time I would ever be able to hold him my arms I couldn't a way to be sad about it. I love Kiba and he loves me too and even though I don't know what the future holds for the two of us, I do know that our love will bring Kiba back into my arms again.