A/N: Wew, guys, it's been while, huh? I'm so sorry :( And I'm sorry to those of you that I did not reply to - I feel so horrible for it! I'll try harder this time to reply to you guys. Well, anyway, I wish that this chapter would've been a bit longer, but alas, it's only around 1,500/2,000 words. I really wanted it to be long but, ah well. Next time, for sure! Px I was really mad that I let three POVs into this chap, but I wanted to keep everything. Hopefully you like it, and hopefully I'll be able to get chapter 17 up as quick as ever, and hopefully it'll be much, much longer. Well, enjoy~!
I get out of bed and quickly put my clothes back on.
"Mana, where are you going?" Max asks, grabbing my wrist gently.
"I... I need to get back home. I need to see my daughter. And I'm not leaving Kyle alone with Barrett."
Max looked at me and sighed.
"Mana... I don't get it." I stopped getting dressed for a moment to look at the man next to me.
"You don't get what?"
"How is it possible for you to love two men? Which one don't you love anymore?"
I stared at him for few moments in silence. How could he say that? I... I only love him now... I... I don't want... Kyle...
"Mana. Listen to me. I love you. And I'm not proud of taking you away from your family. But I want you all to myself, and I get what I want. But it's obvious that you still love Kyle. I'm not stupid, Mana. I know love when I see it. You love him more-"
"No! Stop it!" I clench my fists as tears fall down my cheeks. "Max, you're... You're the only one I love anymore! Kyle's never there for me, and he loves Barrett a lot more, doesn't he? It's not fair! I didn't want to be the one who got cheated on..."
Sitting on the couch with Ms. Yue and Ms Dorothy is fuuuuun! They're like two mommies! But I want my mommy right now. I look down at my feet and frown. Ms. Yue puts a hand on my back.
"Aria, dear, what's wrong?" She asks, sweetly.
"Ms. Yue, I miss my mommy. Sometimes you and Ms. Dorothy can act like my mommies, but it's not the same. I love you two, but I just really want mommy back and I want her and daddy to stop fighting..."
A few minutes or so pass without her saying anything. Oh no, did I upset her?
"Aria, don't worry! They'll stop fighting, and when they are we can all be like one big, happy family. it's just gonna take a little time, deary. But trust me, it's gonna be alright in the end. Kay?" I looked up at her and smiled.
"I sure hope so!"
Checking to make sure I'm fully dressed, I walk out of Max's room and down the hall. He doesn't do anything to stop me. Whatever.
Walking down stairs, ready to leave, Cecillia asks me if everything's alright. I fake a smile and force out a "Y-yeah," as she opens up the door for me. I walk outside into the cold and brace myself. I didn't bring a jacket. But, just... Whatever!
I get back home and open up the door with force. Yue and Dorothy are sitting on the couch with Aria, and I don't see Kyle - or Barrett, for that matter. Aria gets off the couch and runs over to me.
"Mommy, you're back!"
"Oh, sweetie pie," I say, picking her up. She hugs me tightly and I kiss her forehead before putting her back down. "Ok, Aria, how about you go get out some blocks and mommy will play with you after I talk to daddy."
"Ooooook!" she happily walks upstairs to go into her room. Such a sweet child. I hate Kyle for corrupting her...That's all he ever does... Isn't it?
I walk up the stairs right behind her, and as she disappears into her room, I step into the room that I shared with my husband.
"Kyle, wha-" I stop as I see him and Barrett sharing a bed - our bed! How dare he cheat on me like this! Barrett turns his head to look at me, and he gets out of bed.
"Oh, look who decided to come back home. Gonna go cry to Kyle now, huh? Tell him how everything is his fault? Well, he's sleeping right now. He's tired. Leave him alone until he wakes up-"
"Don't tell me what to do!" I yell, "He's my husband, not yours!" Kyle moves around in bed a bit but doesn't say anything. He's probably still sleeping. Urgh.
"Look, Mana, I have no idea what your problem is. You cheated on Kyle first, but ever since he did the same thing to you, you started freaking out! Maybe you just had jealousy issues, I dunno. But what I do know is that you're one messed up woman, and you can't love two men simultaneously. You have to give all of your love to one person and one person only, and that should be your husband. And then that love should also go to your child and family. There are too many secrets and lies in this household. I'm sick of your shit, Mana, and I'm pretty sure everyone else is to. So you know what? Go to hell."
I stand with clenched fists in front of this man. I didn't realize it, but I'm crying. The tears are flowing without any hesitation. I don't understand. I... I do love Kyle! But Max... and... I don't know...
"M-Mana...?" It's Kyle. I look at him, and so does Barrett. Kyle tries his best to get up out of bed, and as he does, he wobbles around, not able to stand up straight. "M-Mana,I-"
"Kyle, get back in bed, you'll hurt yourself," Barrett says, walking over to him and placing hands on both of his shoulders. I shut my eyes tightly and shake my head.
"Fine! You wanna be with Kyle? Fine! Fine fine fine! I'll just go back to Max's now, because it's apparent that no one needs me here!" My throat hurts from all the yelling, but I don't care anymore. I stomp back downstairs, Yue asks what's wrong but I completely ignore her. I grab a coat and leave once more. At least at Max's someone needs me.
Getting there, I knock on the door. Cecillia opens it.
"Back again, Mana?"
"Yes. I need to see Max."
She nods her head and lets me inside. "W-where is he, may I ask?"
"Oh, um... I think he's still where he was last time with you, Mana." She sounds nervous for some reason. I ignore it. She offers to take my coat before I head upstairs, and I let her.
I give her another fake smile and a "goodbye" as I then proceed to walk up the massive staircase. Walking down the hall, I know exactly where his room is. The door is still open. He's dressed and drinking tea. He always drinks tea. He claims it to be exotic. But I'm pretty sure Kyle grew some of those tea herbs outside before. The bed sheets are cleaned - new - showing no trace of what happened only a few hours or so ago.
He looks at me. "Oh. You're back. Well if you two got in another fight, I'm in no mood to make relations since we already did a few hours ago, and I just cleaned everything up." He nudges his head toward an empty chair. I sit down. He puts his cup in front of me and pours the strong-smelling tea into it, as well as a few sugar cubes. I stare into my reflection of the light brown liquid, steam coming up from it to hit me in the face.
"So, what happened?" He asks, taking me out of my trance.
"... They don't need me there, Max. They'll be fine without." I looked up at him for a moment, but I couldn't take his sharp gaze, so I stared at the wall instead, as if it would give me answers as to why I'm doing this - as to why I'm here right now. He sighed and sipped at his tea. We stayed like this for what felt like hours.
"You know, Mana, maybe we should stop, after all."
"W-what...?" I finally looked at him, but he was no longer looking at me.
"You know, I've grown quite bored of all of this. What's the use of loving a woman when there is no love to be given back? It's all a waste, really. It's obvious that you love Kyle, I might as well give up-"
"SHUT UP!" I slammed my fists against the table and stood up. "I don't need Kyle anymore, I don't want him! You were the only person to care about me, Max, you're all I have left-"
"Stop being so selfish, Mana."
"You have daughter."
"I know that!" He's really starting to annoy me right now. I'm getting really pissed off!
"Well, since you are quite aware of it, why don't you go and try to spend time with her? A daughter needs parents, Mana."
"... But she already has Kyle. And now Barrett too. And Yue, and Dorothy, so tell me, why would she need me?"
"Because you are her mother. Not them. They cannot fill the space that you left in Aria when you chose to leave Kyle. Even if you're not going to be with him anymore, you still need to see Aria for at least an hour when you can, if not every day. I don't know what it's like to have a child. I don't know what it's like to be a parent. But I do know that a child is not something you can give up on."
"I... I'm not giving up on her! She just... She doesn't want me-"
"Mana! Stop. Right. Now. I bet you, she's crying at this very moment wondering where you are, and you know damn well that Kyle is probably trying to cheer her up, and trying to explain as to why mommy is gone. You get back over there, and actually try to reason things out. Mana I love you. But I just can't take you away from your family anymore, if this is what's going to happen. I will go with you. But it's your choice. Either go and talk things out, or run away from everything and hope that it'll get better like a coward."
His words sting. I don't understand. I don't understand anything he's trying to say, and it's pissing me off so much! But his words hurt! They hurt more than any physical pain imaginable. I don't know what to do. I want someone to tell me what I should do, but that's not going to happen as Max just told me all of the possible options!
Before I know it, I start to cry once more. I start shaking and let my hands fall to my sides. I hang my hand down, ashamed of myself, ashamed of everything I've done so far that has completely torn my family apart. I hear a chair slide on the floor and then feel a pair of arms that wrap around me. Max embraces me, hiding my face in his chest. I cry, silently.
"I don't know what to do, Max. I just don't know!"
"Shh, shh, it's alright, Mana." He sighs before saying anything else, "Let me walk you back home. I'll help you talk it out with everyone once we get there, ok?"
"O-ok..." I manage to mumble, despite the tears that are pouring out from my eyes like two small salty waterfalls. "I-ll go with you..."