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Bonnie sat on her bed after visiting the witches house with Stefan. She was trying to figure out a way to open the one coffin that wouldn't budge. Looking through her grimoire, she heard a knock on the front door. Bonnie looked at the clock wondering who it could be this late. Going down stairs, she opened the door to see Elena standing there with an unreadable expression on her face.
"Hey Elena. What are you doing here this late?" Bonnie asked. It's not normal for her to be out this late knowing there are hybrids running around. Thought Bonnie.
"Well I wanted to see how things went with the coffins and Stefan so I figured I would come by" says Elena.
"It went as expected. The coffin wouldn't open like Stefan said. I think its sealed shut with a spell. But Elena you could have just texted or called me. You also knew I was coming to the boarding house tomorrow to talk to everyone about the plan. So why are you really here?" says Bonnie trying to understand her best friends motives to risk her life just to come over here.
"Bonnie I did something tonight and I regret it." Elena explains.
What? What did she do? Is everyone ok? She didn't make another deal with Klaus did she? These were all the questions running through Bonnie's head.
"What did you do Elena? Are you ok?" she asks.
"Yea I'm fine. It's just... well you know how close Damon and I have gotten in these past few months? Well I care about him and everything but I don't want to be with him. Tonight when he was leaving my house he told me why Stefan saved Klaus and then he... he kissed me Bonnie." says Elena.
"What happened when he kissed you?" Bonnie wonders. She feels this weird unexplainable feeling inside when she hears that Damon kissed Elena.
"I was going to push him away but I just froze. It didn't mean anything to me. I thought it would since we've become such good friends but it didn't. I'm still in love with Stefan. And when Damon told me that he saved Klaus to save him I was thinking about why Stefan would do that if he doesn't have his humanity back on. I think Stefan can still be saved Bonnie. I think that's why I didn't push Damon off. Because he caught me by surprise and I was thinking about Stefan.
"Bonnie I don't know what to do. It's going to be awkward now when I see Damon and even Stefan. I know Stefan says he doesn't care about me anymore but deep down I know he does. He just doesn't want to feel the guilt. Bonnie what do you think I should do about Damon?" Elena asks after her ranting is finished.
All Bonnie can think of is why she felt that weird feeling after hearing about the kiss. But hearing Elena's last question pulled her from her thoughts.
"Elena I don't really know. You at least need to talk to him. You kind of owe him an explanation. We all know how Damon feels about you. So if he thinks you kissed him back or whatever then he's probably going to try and talk to you about it anyways." explains Bonnie. She figures this girl talk is going to last a while so she asks Elena if she wanted any snacks.
"Yea thanks Bonnie. I'm just so confused." Elena says while making herself comfortable on Bonnie's bed and eating some chips and drinking some water.
They talked for another hour or so before Elena went home. The next day was Caroline's birthday and Bonnie, Elena, and Matt all had something special arranged. Bonnie walks up to Elena while she was decorating Caroline's locker.
"Sorry I'm late." Bonnie says a little out of breath from walking so fast.
"It's ok. I just got here myself...So what made you run late?" asks Elena while hanging up more decorations.
"Practicing new spells." Not really, just couldn't stop thinking about that damn feeling I got last night and also had to meet up with Stefan to go over our own secret plan that no one knows about. Thought Bonnie. Geez I hate keeping secrets from Elena. We're like sisters.
"There's something I need to tell you and you're probably not going to like it." Elena's statement broke Bonnie out of her ramblings.
"What?" says Bonnie, not liking where this could go.
"Jeremy's leaving town. He's going to stay with some family friends in Denver." Elena said with a look of sympathy on her face. Why is she looking at me like that, it's her brother that's leaving.
"Jeremy wouldn't just leave you here by yourself to deal with Klaus." Bonnie states trying to figure out why he would all of a sudden be leaving.
"I know. I had Damon compel him." explains Elena.
"He's not safe here Bonnie. Klaus already tried to kill him. He'll get a better life if he leaves. I just wanted to let you know because I know you guys still have stuff to work through. So I'm letting you know so if you want to say goodbye." Elena points out.
So that's why she was looking at me with sympathy. I haven't thought about our break up in a while. Between the homecoming plan being ruined and now Stefan with the coffins I haven't had much time to think about anything else beside getting rid of Klaus. And the feeling that came over you last night while talking about the kiss between Damon and Elena said a voice in the back of her mind.
"Bonnie are you listening to me?" asks Elena.
"Oh sorry Elena. I was just thinking about how I'm going to say goodbye." Bonnie lied.
"Oh. I'm sorry Bonnie. This must be pretty hard on you huh?" wondered Elena.
"Well I wish we could have worked everything out because we were pretty good friends before we got together but him leaving is for the best. He deserves a better life. He hurt me really bad but he still deserves to live happily. And if him leaving is the only way then it's ok." rambled Bonnie trying to mask the semi hurt that she felt. She really was happy he was leaving because he did deserve to have a better life. She just wanted to make things a little better between them. Now she won't be able to.
"When is he leaving?" she asked Elena who was being weirdly quiet.
"What? Oh he leaves in a couple days." Elena says getting back into their conversation.
"Elena are you ok?" Bonnie asked curiously.
"Yea I'm fine... it's just Damon just walked in and I haven't figured out what to say to him. Umm can you cover for me?" says Elena while walking away without getting a response.
Ok that's weird Elena never runs from her problems. Thought Bonnie.
"Have you seen Elena?" asks Damon. Breaking Bonnie out of her thoughts.
"Well hello to you too Damon." answers Bonnie sarcastically.
"Not playing Bonnie. Have you seen her? There's something I need to talk to her about."
"No I haven't seen her. She was suppose to meet me here to decorate but she's not... obviously."
"What's with the attitude?" Damon asks.
Why can't he go annoy someone else. Even though he's not trying to annoy me but hey he always does no matter what. Bonnie laughs to herself because that's so true.
"Now your laughing at nothing? I think somethings wrong here." says Damon a little annoyed that Bonnie isn't answering him.
"Look Damon I know what you want to talk to Elena about but just give her some time. She's been through a lot lately. She doesn't need to be pressured by you." Bonnie doesn't know where that came from.
"So she told you about the kiss?" Damon wonders why Elena would do that when they haven't talked about it yet.
"Yes." answered Bonnie. Again there's that feeling. It's like this spark through her body but not a good spark. Not a jealous feeling but... it's just too hard for her to explain.
"Well I wish she would have talked to me about it before telling anyone." Damon mumbles, more to himself.
Bonnie heard him whether he wanted her to or not. She could understand what he was saying but she still had to ask "Why?"
"I asked why? As in why do you wish that?"
"Oh. It's nothing." says Damon dismissively.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes Judgy. Why do you care?"
"Well Damon I was just trying to be helpful but since your being an ass like usual, I'm just going to finish up what I was doing." Bonnie says a little angry but not knowing why.
She turns around to finish up Caroline's locker when a hand grabbed her wrist.
"Hey. Bonnie I didn't mean to be an ass. I'm just confused. Between trying to get Stefan back, getting rid of Klaus and the kiss, my heads just a little messed up." Damon apologized. Well in Damon's way at least.
"Damon I know your going through a lot too, but Elena's going through more. I heard what you did to Jeremy.
"Here comes the judging. Listen it was Elena's idea and Alaric's." interrupts Damon.
"Actually I was going to agree. It was in his best interest. I'm glad you did it. I was going to say thank you." explains Bonnie.
"Oh. Why are you thanking me? Aren't you guys still on the outs?" Damon being his curious self.
"Yea but I have a couple days to work it out. Plus he still deserves a better life even if he cheated on me." says Bonnie, starting to feel all the heart break again but tried to hide it.
"So just give Elena time. She will talk to you when she's ready." Bonnie says again. Changing the subject before the hurt showed in her eye.
She's trying to hide behind the issues between Elena and I. Why? She doesn't have to pretend to care. I don't even know why I kissed Elena though. But I'm glad I did. Because now I know I don't really love her. Well I love her but I'm not in love with her. I knew once our lips touched that it wasn't her I was meant to be with. She's also still in love with Stefan. Which is good because he still loves her.
"Damon?" Bonnie's word were like a bomb going off, breaking through his walls of thinking.
"Are you ok? You were looking off into space for a while"
"Yes. I'm good. Actually I need to tell you something."
Umm. What could he need to tell me? Bonnie thought.
"Ok" says Bonnie.
"Don't get mad but I went and talked to Stefan earlier. He... well you see he kind of told me about your guys plan..." Why was I talking like that? I'm Damon. I don't get nervous. So what if she gets mad.
"Ok? Whats so bad about you knowing the plan?" Bonnie asked not quite sure where this was going.
"Well for starters your not being involved. Elena would die if anything happened to you."
So that's why he doesn't want me involved, because of Elena. Wait! Why else would he care?
"Damon. I don't care what you say. I'm already involved. Stefan doesn't care so you shouldn't. It's my decision."
"Fine. I knew it would be useless trying to talk you out of helping. But anyways since Elena's not here, I'm leaving. If you see her tell her I'm looking for her." he says. Turning and walking away without getting a response.
She already knows your looking for her. Bonnie thinks to herself.
Standing there doing the decorations she wonders why Stefan would tell Damon about their plan. It was one that Bonnie and him came up with together and they were pretty sure it would work. The plan wasn't that bad. The dead witches once again agreed to give her their powers because they want Klaus gone as much as everyone else.
I can't believe that witch. She's so willing to go up against Klaus with all that power again. Knowing quite well what it will do to her. Doesn't she understand that people care about her in this town. If she dies Elena will be devastated and Stefan already said he would be there to comfort her. That's another thing. Why is Stefan so willing to let Bonnie do this? There's only one way to find out.
I can't believe my brother is still hiding in this house. It sucks too because the witches aren't happy with me so they always have to make my entrance difficult.
"Hello again brother." I say to Stefan, who's just sitting there in a chair.
"Damon." is all Stefan says.
"Why are you so willing to let Bonnie go up against Klaus? You know she will die." I ask him.
"Why do you all of a sudden care brother?" asks Stefan. Are you kidding me? Why does everyone think I don't care about her? Wait! When did I start caring about her?
"Well I care because Elena will be devastated." I lied.
"Please. You already told me you're not in love with Elena, Damon. So stop using that as an excuse."
It's true. When I came to see my baby bro earlier to talk about the plan, I confided in him. That's when he told me he still loves Elena. He just has to pretend like he doesn't so she's safe from Klaus. Thinks Damon. It's nice to be able to talk to my brother again.
"I care Stefan. Ok. I care about everyone in this little group. I don't like it, but I do. Happy?" I snap at him.
"Yes. I've waited so long for you to care." explains Stefan.
I look at him like he's crazy. How can he think I never card about him? I always have. I was just blinded by my love for Katherine that I let my love for him go, but I never stopped caring about him.
"But anyways, why are you willing to let Bonnie die? You guys were friends." I prob trying to get back on topic.
"We still are. But this is the only way we could think of to kill Klaus. If we can't get that coffin open then its our last option." Stefan states. I can see how much he doesn't want Bonnie to do this in his eyes.
"Stef. We can't allow Bonnie to sacrifice herself." I say in a hurry because I hear someone approaching.
The dead witches quickly hid the coffins. Stefan and I are immediately alert. I went out toward the front while Stefan took the back. Walking out the door I see Bonnie standing there, looking around. It's like she sensed the other person too, which she probably did with her witchy juju. She didn't appear to have noticed me. Watching her, I see a man come out from behind a tree. Running as fast as I could, I appeared right behind the man. I pulled his heart out before he could advance on her any more.
"Thanks" she says breathing a little heavy but trying to cover it up. She tries to be so brave which most of the time she is. It's actually quite attractive. What? Why did I just think that?
"No problem. So witchy, what are you do here?" I ask her.
"I came to talk to Stefan... and you since you know, about the plan." she explains.
"Oh. Ok well like I said your not doing it. We will find another way." I tell her.
"Damon it's not your decision. But anyways I think I found another way to open the coffin." Bonnie says. That's when I notice she kind of nervous.
"Well Stefan should be inside. But hey did you see Elena?" I ask trying to find out if she told her I need to talk to her.
"Yes I seen her. But like I said she needs time Damon. You love her. I get it. I really do. But this isn't about you, it's about her." she says looking a little hesitant looking at the ground. Probably thinking I'll get mad.
"Your wrong." I say simply.
Why did I say all that like I was hesitant or nervous?
"Your wrong." I hear Damon say. I look up to his eyes. I didn't know what he was talking about so I decided to ask.
"What do you mean?"
"Your wrong. I don't love her. Well ok yes I love her but I'm not in love with her like everyone, including me, thought." he explains.
I dont know what to say. Up until now I thought he was in love with my best friend. And he explained that without any sign of sadness or hurt in his eyes or voice.
"Oh." was all I could say. I don't know why, but I kind of felt happy to hear that.
"Wow. I thought you would say something like 'it's about time you realize she's your brother's girl' or something." he says like he really thought that of me. Which he probably did since he thinks I judge him all the time.
"No Damon. I understand. So does Stefan know?" I ask. I know he could hear us but I didn't want to say anything in front of him if he didn't know.
"Yea. I told him everything. He also told me he talked to you about his humanity being back on since he took the coffins. So you know he's only acting when he's around Elena and everyone else." he states.
"Yes he did." I say.
After that we started walking into the house. Of course the witches still tortured Damon when he enters. I think they only do it to get a laugh out of it.
"You know they really need to stop doing that. We're all on the same side." Damon says agitated.
"Damon they won't stop because of everything you've done in the past." I state like its the most obvious thing in the world. I look at him and see the regret in his eyes. I know what he's thinking about.
"Bonnie I'm sorry for everything I've done to you in the past..."
"Listen. You already apologized like a million times. I know your sorry but it's not that easy for me to forgive you. I know you didn't mean to. I know you wanted to punish Emily. And honestly I'm not sure if I'm still mad about that. I don't think I'm mad about any of it anymore because there's been way too much more important things going on since that. So stop apologizing. Ok?" I interrupted him. He's said sorry too many times. But I think I already forgave him. I just couldn't admit it to anyone yet.
"Ok. As long as you know I am sorry." he says opening the door to the basement. The look on his face made me really believe him. I know he's tried to change and he has. He's not like the man that came here wanting to hurt everyone and everything in his path. And now that Stefan's back, he seems happier.
I'm standing here watching Damon and Bonnie. Yes, kind of creepy, but it just seems weird that all of a sudden my brother cares about what happened to Bonnie. He says he's not in love with Elena, which I'm glad about, but he's protecting Bonnie more than usual.
I can over hear what their saying. I can't believe Damon told Bonnie that he isn't in love with Elena, my Elena. I wish I could go to her and be with her. It hurts so much not being honest with her. She really thinks I don't care about what happens to her or anyone else. I have to keep pretending that I don't care so we can get rid of Klaus.
I stand here watching those two watch toward the house. This whole time I thought I lost everything I cared about. I thought Klaus turned me into a monster. But truth be told, I was just making it seem that way. Here I was in the witches house. I had my brother back, probably better than before. I also had my friendship with Bonnie back. I just hope after everything I can get Elena back. I know it will be hard but I'll do whatever I can to make everything right again.
I heard Damon apologizing to Bonnie and that brought me back to reality. Wow. Damon's apologizing... again. For some reason it just seems different this time. I think it was the tone of his voice. I couldn't hear any sarcastic tone in it. It sounded like a real apology. I look toward them when they enter the basement. From the look on their faces, Damon did mean his apology. I doubt Damon noticed the look on Bonnie's face but I did. She actually believed him this time.
Walking into the basement with Damon right behind me, I look to Stefan. I could tell he over heard everything. So his question was not what I expected.
"Hey. What brings you here?" he asked looking at me. I guess he didn't want us to know he was listening to us.
"Oh Stefan don't act like you didn't listen to us." said Damon. Surprisingly playfully.
"Fine. I was just being nice. So Bonnie, you think you found a way to open the coffin?" Stefan asked with humor in his eyes from his banter with his older brother. I guess they worked certain things out since the last time I was here.
"Actually I'm not positive but it's worth a shot. I think the woman in this photo could be of help to us. I just have to track her down and ask." I told them while showing them the picture.
"Who is it?" that was Stefan. Looking at the photo of two women.
I was about to answer until I was interrupted by Damon.
"That's you and your mom." he stated.
I looked at him. How did he know it was my mom and I?
"Yea. It's my mom and I." I said a little stunned that Damon knew this.
"Damon how did you know who was in the photo before Bonnie said anything?" ask Stefan thankfully so I didn't have to.
Damon looked down, as if he didn't know how to answer his little brother. From the look I saw on his face it seemed like he was embarrassed. So I answered for him with what I thought was the right answer.
"You knew it was us because you seen us back then. Because of the deal with Emily." I said but it came out sounding like a question.
"Yea." he sounded a little reluctant to answer.
"Ok. So what makes you think she can help us open the coffin?" Stefan asked, getting back on topic. I think he could sense the questions I wanted to ask his brother but decided to stay on point.
"Well she's a witch so maybe both our powers put together could open it." I muttered, not really wanting to see my mother after 15 years. She left my dad and I not looking back, so I didn't really need her in my life besides for this issue with the coffin. If she could actually help.
I could tell she wasn't really looking forward to seeing her mom again. I know she left when Bonnie was young so I can see why she'd be hesitant. I know all about disappointing parents. I looked at Stefan and seen that he could tell also.
"You don't have to do this Bonnie. We can find another way." I told her. For some reason I didn't want to see her get hurt over this.
"Yes I do Damon. We don't have any other options." she snapped. Which clearly meant it was already getting to her.
I walked over to her completely forgetting Stefan was in the room. I got in her personal space and she didn't move back or flinch. Probably because I wasn't being mean or harmful.
"Bonnie I know what it's like to be disappointed in a parent. You haven't seen her in a long time. I know it hurts. So you don't have to do this. We will find another way." I said sincerely. I don't know what came over me. I just didn't want her hurting over a woman that didn't give a damn about her enough to stay in her life.
"I have to do this. Yes she left me but we need her. I at least have to try and get her to help. If she doesn't then we will find another way." she told me.
"So what makes you think she can help open it? I mean you and the dead witches can't get it open to why do you think your mother can?" Stefan asked her. Us both just remembering he was there with us.
"Well the dead witches can't tap into all their powers. They have some of their powers but not all of them. My mother and I have all our powers so put them together and it should be enough to open the coffin." Bonnie explains to us. She kept side glancing at me. Probably wondering why I kept telling her she didn't have to do it. Which to be honest I didn't know the answer to that. All I knew was I didn't like the idea of her hurting over it.
Stefan broke through my train of thought when he asked "So how do we find her and ask her?"
"Well I asked the Sheriff if she could get information on every Abby Bennett in the country. So Elena and I are going to look through the files later when I go over there." she answers.
"Which I should be going so I'll let you guys know if we find anything." Bonnie says while getting ready to leave.
"I should be going too. Stefan you know you can come back to the boarding house now right? The coffins are safe here." I said to my little brother. I hated him out here alone. Plus I kind of missed him at the house.
"Damon you know I want to but it's just too hard. Elena shows up randomly and I need to keep up pretenses." he says with hurt in his eyes.
"Well she thinks I'm going to bring up the kiss so she hasn't been over so it's safe for you to come back for the night at least." I felt like I was begging. That's not good. I seen amusement on his face.
"What?" I asked.
"Nothing. You just seem lonely there by yourself. It's nice to hear you say you want me to come home." explains Stefan.
I look to see Bonnie smiling. What was she smiling at? Was I that different now?
"Well I'm not lonely. It's just too peacefully there. So are you coming or not?" I was getting irritated now.
"Sure. But the first sign of Elena I'm leaving." he says even though I know he doesn't want to. He wants to be with her so bad it hurts him.
"But I'll me you there. I need to go hunting first, trying to get back on my diet a little at a time." he says.
"Ok. I'll see you there." I told him while we all walked out. I was surprised to see Bonnie still here with us. Stefan walked out into the woods opposite than us. When he was gone I turned to the little witch beside me.
"What were you smiling at back there?" I had to ask. It was bothering me. Not because she was smiling at me but because, if I was being honest, it was the fact that I liked that smile on her. It seemed genuine.
"It's just nice seeing this side of you once in a while. You used to only care about Elena, or that's what it seemed like. It's refreshing seeing you care about your brother. Even if you don't want to admit it, you love him and your happy he's back." she says walking toward her car. I then remembered I didn't drive here.