A/N: Please check out the extended author's note at the end of this chapter and thanks for reading!
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Five Months Later
"Hi," Kurt spoke with a nervous smile, looking into the tiny camera on his laptop. "It's Kurt again. Obviously. It's been a really long time since I made one of these entries, but with everything that's happened over the last few months, I feel like now is a good time to start catching up.
"I guess I'll start with the good news. The medication that I started on is working great. Well, ever since we got everything sorted out with Mark, that is. It's better than the last time. I don't feel as foggy and maybe it's because I don't have to take as much of it any more to keep everything under control. I've learned how to be really attuned to what I'm feeling and I'm able to communicate with my alters without having to transition. God, I sound like an advertisement for those stupid pills. Really, though, I never thought I'd be at this point in my life, with or without the medication.
"I'm happy to report that Mark is gone. At least, I hope he is. I don't feel his presence within me anymore, or anyone else for that matter. With the exception of Gina and Conrad, of course. I think I'm probably stuck with those two forever. I don't mind though. It's nice knowing they're there and I like to think that we've come to an understanding about who's in charge here.
"Despite the fact that at one point, Doctor Simmons basically fired me because she claimed I'd made too much progress to need her help anymore, I still meet with her once a month to make sure my dosages are still working. For the last few months, she's reduced the medication incrementally, although I'm under no illusion that I'll be completely free of the medication any time soon. I'm happy where I'm at.
"My family has been so amazing through this whole ordeal. Looking back, I can't really fathom how they all didn't give up on me, especially my dad. Blaine too. No matter how many times I pushed him away, when I really needed him, he was there. Right after the whole Mark fiasco, he helped take care of me, he helped clean and redecorate my room and Finn's as well. He helped Carole cook and took turns with Finn at the shop to help my dad out. I'm not sure what I did to deserve having him in my life, but I will never, ever take it for granted again.
"So I think that's all the good news I have. Don't get me wrong, the good definitely outweighs the bad, but there is something that I've had a hard time coming to terms with lately. With everything that's gone on in the past year, my schoolwork kind of fell by the wayside. I tried to keep up with it, I really did, but with the car accident, the court dates and finding Mark, I just couldn't do it all. After Christmas, I tried to sit down with everything that had been neglected over the fall, but it was so overwhelming that I just couldn't figure out where to start. After a couple of long conversations with my dad and Carole, I made the decision to go back to school this upcoming year and finish out my high school career as a senior.
"I hate that I'll be a year behind all of my friends. After McKinley's graduation ceremony this afternoon, Rachel's heading out on a plane to New York, renting an apartment and starting at NYADA in the fall. I can't help thinking that I should be on that plane, I should be picking out wall paint colors with her and signing up for summer workshops too. But I know I'll get there, eventually.
"The one bright spot in all this is that I'll get to graduate with Blaine now. At Dalton. It wasn't something my dad and Carole could afford, especially after all that went on last year. But as fate would have it, I found a way to pay for it. Remember how Sebastian was ordered to go to all the local schools to talk about the consequences of bullying? It was a joint effort between he and I, and it was my decision to do it that way. I just felt that his story would have a much greater impact if someone who was victimized by him spoke out about it as well. Anyway, we were speaking at this one high school in Westerville when one of the parents approached me after the presentation. She told me about her son, Ryan.
"Ryan was bullied relentlessly for years in middle and high school until one day, his senior year, two weeks away from graduation, he decided he couldn't take it anymore. He, um he ended his life."
Kurt paused, taking a moment to wipe his eyes and take a few deep breaths.
"After that, his parents went around doing the same thing Sebastian and I did. They talked to schools, churches and community groups, trying to make sure that no other kid went to the extreme that Ryan did. Something else they did was they began a scholarship, sending one kid a year to Dalton or Crawford Country Day, since they are the only schools in this part of Ohio with a zero-tolerance bullying rule that's actually enforced. His mom encouraged me to apply for it and I won. I can proudly say that I am the third annual recipient of the Ryan Jurgens Scholarship. As part of my requirements for receiving the scholarship, I have to continue speaking in the schools, but I don't mind at all. In fact, I probably would have kept doing it anyway, with or without Sebastian. I've talked to him about it, and since we're both going to be seniors next year, he's on board for continuing on with our presentations. After ten or so, we really got the hang of it and I think we both find it quite fulfilling.
"I guess that's about it. I've got to go get ready for the graduation ceremony. It's bittersweet, but I'm really looking forward to seeing Finn, Rachel and everyone else walk across that stage. Next year it'll be me and Blaine, and then from there? Well, the possibilities are endless."
Kurt hesitated before clicking the "stop record" button on his laptop. This was it. The end of one stage of his life and the start of a new one. He was going to make it, there was no doubt in his mind. Now, all he had to worry about was enjoying the ride.
I thought long and hard about how to proceed from the last chapter and ultimately, the thought that I kept coming back to was that it's the right time to end United States of Kurt. I have loved every single moment of writing this and you have no idea how much your support has meant to me. I never expected the overwhelmingly positive response that I've received over the last few months in writing this. Frankly, I'm blown away that any of you read it at all, let alone stuck with it this far. Without your support, I'm not sure I could have done it, so thank you, thank you, thank you.
If anyone is interested, I do intend to write at least a few short stories based in this little US of Kurt world, centering around different incidents in Kurt's past and how the alters played a role in those. Also, I've left it very open for an extended sequel, following Kurt and Blaine at Dalton for their senior year. If that's something you're interested in, or if you have an idea you'd like me to explore, please let me know! I'll do my best to honor that.
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Thank you again so much to each and every one of you. I'm so blown away by your patience, support and feedback. It's been an awesome ride!