Okay so this is my first Brucas one shot. Set after 3x22. Season 3 is still to this day my favorite/least favorite season(any OTH fan can understand why i say that). I believe that if Lucas tried harder Brooke would have told him the truth about what Peyton said. Brucas will always be my favorite couple on OTH no matter what. Unfortunately there is no hope at all seeing as how we are in the 9th and final season …its going to be so hard to watch this final season…..*sighs*So yea this started out as a one-shot but as i was writing a story started circulating in my head...I guess we'll see.

Author Note #2: Okay so this is a rant so if you don't want to read it just move it right along. Okay I have watched OTH since the beginning and I have always been a Brooke and Lucas fan. Their chemistry is undeniable. I absolutely LOATHE Peyton. She has got to be the worst friend EVER. The fact that Mark Schwahn made Peyton act like that towards Brooke – her BEST FRIEND- is beyond me! Okay in the first season I believe it had to happen because everyone knew Lucas had feeling for Peyton but cmon! Everyone had finally gotten over it, Brooke and Lucas were back together and HAPPY then she wants to pop out with "oh I think I love Lucas" WTF? If I was Brooke I would have done more than just slap her. But the blame is not entirely Peyton's fault. Lucas spent all that damn time trying to convince Brooke that he was "the one for her" and instead of actually fighting for her when it really mattered HE JUST LET HER GO! If he loved her like he claimed he did then he could have won her back. No instead he just runs back to that fake-blonde, woe-is-me, boyfriend stealing whore. And on that note why did the show decide to make Lucas so f-ing bipolar. Season 1: he wanted Peyton, but settled for Brooke. Season 2: he realized he loved Brooke. Season 3: he gets Brooke after trying forever. Then after trying to get Brooke back in the first half of season 4 he just SUDDENLY realizes Peyton is the one he wants standing next to him when all his dreams come true. Bullshit! My friend and I have this theory that if Chad Michael Murray and Sophia Bush had stayed together then so would Brooke and Lucas. We all know how that ended so it probably made things a little awkward on set, maybe not idk, but that is just our theory. Whoo okay I think I got it all out lol.

Here goes….

Brooke sat in the hospital waiting room trying hard not let the tears overflow. This was not the time or place to be worrying about her own problems. She looked up and saw Lucas walking towards her.

"How's Nathan?" I asked.

"The doctor said that he is going to be okay." Lucas replied with a small smile.

"Oh thank God!" I murmured. I felt a huge wave of relief wash over me. "That's good. I'm glad he's doing better. On that note I think I'm going to head home, I am in serious need of a shower." I started gathering my stuff and got up to leave. I looked up at Lucas.

"I'll talk to you later." I said. I turned and headed towards the exit. I was almost there when I heard my name. I turned around and saw Lucas coming towards me.

"What's u-" I didn't get to finish before I felt his lips on mine. I didn't hesitate in kissing him back. I wrapped my arms around his neck and opened my mouth to him. Might as well make the most of it. I thought to myself. I knew that this was going to be the last time I got to be with him in this way. After thinking about everything that was going on with Peyton, I finally came to the conclusion that it was best to just let Lucas go; before I get my heart broken again. I don't think I could handle it this time. I just had to wait until things had calmed down to sit him down and break it off. I pulled away and looked into his gorgeous blue eyes.

"What was that for?" I asked, trying to catch my breath. He smiled and cupped my cheek with his hand.

"I love you so much Pretty Girl" he whispered.

At that moment, I didn't think it was possible for a heart to hurt this much. I knew his words were supposed to make me feel better, but all they did was break my heart even more. Tears threatened to spill over, and I did my best to keep them from falling.

"I really wish I could believe that Lucas…" I whispered, looking down at my feet. I could feel a few traitor tears roll down my cheeks.

"Broo-" he started.

"No Lucas, we can't do this here….I'll…I'll just see you later." And with that I turned around and walked towards my car. When I got in, there was no stopping the tears. I don't know how long I sat there but when the tears finally dried up, my eyes hurt from crying so much. I cleaned up my face the best I could and headed out of the parking lot.

The next morning, I didn't feel like doing anything but crawling up in a ball and wallowing in self-pity, but I know I couldn't. I had to go to the hospital and check on Nathan and Rachel. Hell, I was staying in her house, it's the least I could do was check on her while she is lying in a hospital bed. I dragged myself out of the bed and headed towards the shower.

When I got to the hospital, I stopped by Nathan's room first. Haley was in there, she had changed out of her wedding dress, but I could tell that she hadn't slept at all. I knocked lightly before walking in. Haley looked up at me.

"Hey Brooke. What's up?" she said.

"Hi Tutor Wife…I'm fine. Better question is, how are you doing?" I asked. "I'm worried about you."

"I appreciate that Brooke, but I'll be okay. Their letting Nathan go home today." She said with a smile.

"That's great Haley! I'm happy for you guys. Any word on Cooper?"

"Not yet. Hopefully we hear something soon though."

After talking to Haley for a little bit longer I made my way to Rachel's room. I stood there for a few minutes, wondering if I should stay or not. I was about to turn around when I heard a low laugh.

"Hey Bitch, Gonna leave without saying hello to your new roomie?"

"Sorry Whore, I thought you were sleeping. But I forgot, there's no sleep for the wicked." I smirked. "How you doin Rachel?"

"I'll be okay. Can't wait to get out of here though, these hospital gowns are so not my style." She laughed. I knew she probably didn't want to talk about it, but it was bugging me.

"Rachel…what happened out there?" I could tell she knew what I meant because I could see her body tense up and look down at her hands.

"I..I don't know…one minute me and cooper were arguing and the next thing I know we're crashing into the bridge." She said softly. "I don't remember anything else…"

"No, Rachel I'm sorry. It's too soon. We don't have to talk about it right now." She smiled at me in thanks.

"So..how are things with you and Blondie?" she asked

"I'd rather not talk about it, if you don't mind. " I said feeling myself getting angry all over again.

"Actually I do mind. I am here stuck in this dreary hospital with nothing to do. Now, spill". She said. I didn't really want to get into it, but maybe she could give me some useful advice.

"She told me she still had feelings for Lucas," I said in a huff.

"And?" Rachel asked with a look of confusion on her face. I felt my face heat up as my anger flared up again.

"And? AND She's supposed to be my best friend! And not only that, but not even 24 hours after she told me I found out that they kissed AGAIN! SO EXCUSE ME FOR BEING UPSET!" I could feel my eyes fill with tears and did everything in my power to hold them in.

"Brooke, that's not what I meant…." She tried to explain. I couldn't do this right now. I got up and turned toward the door.

"I have to go. I don't why I thought you could help me anyway. If I remember correctly, you tried to sleep with him too." With that I walked out the door. I quickly made my way to the car, not wanting to run into anyone at the moment. I sat in my car and tried to figure out where to go. I was pulled from my thoughts when I hear my phone ringing. I answer without looking at it and immediately regretted it when I heard the voice on the other end.

"Hey Pretty Girl…" Lucas said from the other end.

"What do you want Lucas right now is not a good time." I said quickly.

"Umm..okay well I was hoping we could talk. Can you meet me?

When I pulled my car up to the River Court, I could see that Lucas was already there waiting for me. I took a couple deep breaths and made my way over to him.

"Let's get this over with Luke." I said crossing my arms.

"Okay I guess I'll go first. "He said "I'm sorry for not telling you about the kiss, Brooke. But you have to know that it didn't mean anything. She was dying…and scared.."

"I can't believe you still think this is about the kiss! It is so much more than that!" I yelled. "I said it once but let me say again. You never let me all the way in! I am your girlfriend and you didn't even call me while you were away! You know I forgave you and Peyton for what happened last year even if it did take a while. And I actually believed for one second that you guys could actually be just friends, but I see now that's not possible. You have this hero complex about you. You save people Lucas, that is what you do. And Peyton is always the person you have to save. I understand that now. I have come to the conclusion that I will never have all of you. I asked you one thing! To just stay away from Peyton and you couldn't even do that! You could never ignore you precious Peyton!" I didn't even realize I was crying until my vision blurred and I stopped to take a breath.

"Brooke, I don't know how else to say I love you and that I'm sorry! I told you that I don't have feelings for Peyton and you don't believe me. What do you want me to do? Cut her out of my life completely? Fine, if that's what you want then fine, I'll do it." He said angrily. He threw the ball across the court in frustration.

"What the hell do you have to be angry about?" I yelled "Did I cheat on you with your best friend for the second time might I add!"

"You wanna know why I'm upset Brooke? I'm upset because the girl that I'm in love with thinks I love someone else, no matter how many times I try and tell her otherwise. It's like you've convinced yourself that I have feelings for Peyton so nothing I say can change your mind!

"You think I want you to have feelings for Peyton? Do you think I like feeling so insecure? Well guess what I don't! I wish I didn't have a constant reminder of what you two did, but I do! Every time I see you two together, those insecurities come rushing back to me!" I was getting angrier and angrier each word I spoke. I stepped closer to him until we were toe to toe. I could feel his breath against my face.

"How dare you? HOW DARE YOU?" Before I could even think about what I was doing my hand came up and slapped him. My eyes widened in shock. I can't believe I just did that. I looked up at Lucas and to say he was surprised an understatement.

"Luke…I'm so so sorry. I don't know what came over me…."

"No its okay. I guess I just never realized how upset and hurt you really were." He said. For some reason that brought on a fresh waves of tears.

"That's just it look Luke. We go days without having a meaningful conversation, so how would you know what I'm feeling. I feel like I'm in this relationship by myself, and that's not how it should be. "I knew where this was headed and I could tell that Lucas did too.

"I can't do this anymore Lucas." I whispered softly. The look on his face when he registered what I said broke my heart all over again. I had to get out of here otherwise I was going to have a mental breakdown right in front of him.

"I'm sorry…" I leaned up and kissed his cheek. I couldn't look him in the eyes so I just turned around and walked. I took my time walking to my car, desperately holding on to the tiny shred of hope that he would stop me from walking away and just hold me in his arms and never let go.

As I drove away, I looked in the rearview mirror. There he was…still standing in the same spot that I had left him.

And...scene! I hope you enjoyed! I know it ended on a sad note...but I think it is necessary for the time being. So...should I continue? Let me know!:) R&R Pleaseeeeee!