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I know that I haven't updated Married Life in a long time, I am at a loss of what to do with the story right now and it doesn't help that everything on my laptop has been whipped. I took down Becoming Awake for personal reasons that I don't want to talk about. This story has been sitting in my computer for a long time and I decided that I wanted to finish it. I am not going to take down Married Life, I plan on finishing it in the future. I hope you like this one and I will be putting Becoming Awake back up eventually.
1. I'm Just a Country Girl
I groaned as my alarm went off signaling that I was going to have to get out of my nice, warm, comfortable bed. I loved that I owned a farm, most of the time, the mornings when my alarm woke me at six in the morning I didn't like it very much. I looked over and saw that Jake was already out of bed.
I sighed and slipped out from under the covers and made my way to the bathroom and took a shower, before heading down stairs and getting coffee.
Jake and I had been married for three years now. We were happy and I had nothing to complain about. We were doing well. I spent most of my time at home taking care of everything while Jake spent most of his time at the store in town. My life was exactly how I wanted to be and exactly how I had imagined it as a little girl, although that image usually involved Prince Charming, but other than that it had turned out, almost, absolutely perfect.
After I fixed myself a cup of coffee I made my way out to the barn that one place that I was sure to find my husband.
"Howdy," I said when I found feeding Misty, our appaloosa.
"Good morning." he gave me a small as he put down the bucket that was in his hand. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me to him.
"Someones in a good mood."
"Well, what can I say? I got to see my beautiful wife first thing in the morning." he kissed. "I need to get going."
"What time should you be home?" I asked rubbing my hands up and down his arms.
"Have you given anymore thought to hiring some help? I know you don't want to but if you don't you're going run yourself into the ground. And I kind of like you how you are now without the dirt. Can you imagine how hard cleaning up after you would be then?" I had suggested weeks ago that we get a stable boy, but Jake was adamant that he wanted to do everything himself.
"I know, I know. But, look at it this way. If we get someone to help us you will have enough energy for other things." I said suggestively.
"Such as?" he raised an eyebrow.
"Oh, I think you know." I smiled into his lips giving him a kiss before releasing him. "Just think about it?"
"Fine." he huffed.
"You know I'm right that's why you don't want to do it."
"You have me there." he kissed me one more time. "I'll see you tonight."
"Love you!" I called as he ran to his truck.
"Love you." he called back with a wave.
I went back inside and finished my coffee and got breakfast before going and taking Misty out to the field. The day was warm, the April sun was boring down, it was going to be a gorgeous day. This was one of those days that made me happy that I lived in Indiana.
A horn honking startled me and made fall from my perch on the fence. I grumbled getting off the ground and saw my best friend get out of her SUV.
"Hey!" I called making my way out of the field and running toward her.
"Hey." she said hugging me when I was close enough.
"How have you been?" I asked looking slightly down at Alice. "I haven't seen you in forever."
"I've been good." she wrapped an arm around my shoulders as we walked to the house.
"Good. Working a lot, but good."
"Do you want some coffee?" I asked when we made it into the house."
"Do you even have to ask?" she laughed as she sat down at my kitchen table.
I poured us some cups and sat down beside her.
"What have you been up?" I asked after a minute of silence.
"Work, work, and did I mention work?"
"That bad?" I asked.
"The traffic in New York is the worst. That is the last time I volunteer to help train at headquarters. Now I know why we don't live there. But, enough about me." she put her cup down. "What about you? How's Jacob?"
"He's good. He's finally thinking about hiring some help." I took a sip of my coffee.
"'Bout time." she laughed.
"I know. He told him if he didn't get some help soon he was going to run himself into the ground."
"That man loves you."
I smiled. "I love him, too." I smiled.
I looked at the clock and saw that it was almost eight. Jake had said that he going to be home an hour ago. I was starting to get worried. Irritated I turned off the stove and walked into the living room and plopped myself down on the sofa. I turned on the TV, but I wasn't really paying attention to it. I was considering calling him again when I saw headlights flash across the wall. I got up from my seat on the couch and went to meet him at the door.
"What took you so long? I thought you said that you would be home at seven?" I asked when he walked through the door.
"I'm sorry, babe. I was caught up." he looked at me sheepishly.
"Caught up with what?" I asked curiously.
"I kind of hired someone." he said this so softly that I thought that I hadn't heard him correctly.
"Did you just say what I think you said?" I asked awestruck.
"Yes." he mumbled.
"Be still my heart." I grabbed my chest for dramatic effect.
"Ha ha. You are so funny." he grabbed me and started to tickle my sides.
"Tell me about this guy that you hired." I said when he released me.
"A guy came into the store today and we started talking. He was talking about how he needed a place to stay and hired and said that he could have the loft over the barn."
"When he is going to get here?"
"Tomorrow. I thought that I would leave the store closed and be here when he gets and help him get settled."
"What's his name?" I asked.
"What?" I asked, thinking that I hadn't heard him right.
"Are you alright?" Jake asked coming over to me.
He raised his eyebrows.
"Really, I'm fine. Let's get you fed." I took his hand and led him into the kitchen.
That night I lie in bed unable to sleep. There were somethings that I hadn't told Jake. And the new helping hand was one of those things. Sure, Jake knew that I had relationships with other guys. He just didn't know that I had been engaged before him.
My relationship with Edward had been intense. I was convinced that he was the one that I was going to marry, hell, I even had the ring on my finger. But, we wanted different things and we broke it off. I had been heartbroken. He had been my first everything and it was hard... had been hard to think about life without him. I had a few relationships afterward and then I met Jake. He had been my beacon of light that got me out of my funk... I had just left out about Edward. Now my past was literally coming back to haunt me.
As I dozed my conscience went back to what I thought was the happiest day of my life...
"Will you please tell me where we are going?" I asked, gripping Edward's jacket.
"Its a surprise."
"We're in the woods. What could possibly be out here."
"Just trust me." he used the power of his green eyes on me.
"I trust you." he kissed my forehead before leading me deeper into the woods.
"We're almost there." he squeezed my hand.
There was a break in the trees that led into the most beautiful meadow that I had ever seen. Wildflowers littered the grow. It took my breath away. I turned back to Edward to see him still standing in the shadows, watching me.
"What?" I asked, looking myself over. "Do I have something on me?"
"You're perfect." he seemed nervous.
"I can't believe it. The guy that streaked across the football field during a game is nervous." I went over to him and took his hands. "What's on your mind? You're not thinking about getting another tattoo are you?"
He looked at me perplexed. "Why do you say that?"
"This the same way you get when your thinking about getting inked, again."
"No, not that." he threaded his fingers through mine.
"Then what is it? You're not acting like yourself."
"I have something that I want to ask you." he bit his lip.
"You can ask me anything. You should know that by now." I smiled up at him.
Taking a deep breath he walked a few steps away from me. His back was turned to me, but I could see how tense that he had become.
Turning back to me he started, "We've known each other for a long time. I will never forget the look on your face when I sat next to you in English class freshmen year," he laughed. "I don't know what I did to get you, but I know that I never want to let you go." he came closer to me. "I love you, Bella. I can't imagine my life without you." he got down on one knee and breathing stopped. "Will you marry me?" he pulled out a small black box. He opened it to reveal a simple platinum band with a small diamond. "I know its not much, but it was all that I could afford."
I stood there speechless. Tears were welling up in my eyes as the world's biggest smile spread across my face. "Yes," I breathed.
"Yes?" he looked releaved.
"Did you really think that I would say no?"
He slipped the ring on my finger and stood and brought me into an earth shattering.
"The leather jacket." I said when we pulled apart.
"What?" he looked at me confused.
"That was what first attracted me to you. I've always had a thing for bad boys."
"I love you."
"I love you, too." I brought him into another kiss.
A car door closing woke me in the morning. I looked over to Jake's side of the bed to see that he was gone. I glanced at the clock to see that it was past ten, Jake must have turned off my alarm.
I swung my legs over the side of the bed; my feet coming in contact with the cool hardwood floor. I walked over to the window to see an unfamiliar car in the driveway. He was here, less than a hundred feet from me. I could make out the silhouette of him taking to Jake in front of the barn. I turned away from the window and went to get dressed. I couldn't delay the inevitable; I was going to have to face him at some point.
I threw on jeans, t-shirt, and my sunglasses before heading downstairs. As soon as I walked out the door the heat of the day hit me, it was unseasonably warm for April and I could already tell that by afternoon it was going to be a hot day.
I walked slowly toward the barn, they weren't in sight which meant that they were probably upstairs in the loft. I made my way into the barn and making my way to see Misty in her stall.
"Bella!" I heard Jake yell coming back downstairs.
"Hey." I forced a smile as he leaned down to kiss me softly.
"Someone slept in this morning."
"Because someone turned off my alarm." I poked him in the side.
"Hey, Jake where can I.." I heard his voice and his feet on the stairs.
I looked over at him and saw that he had stopped short and was staring right at me. He had a five o'clock shadow and his hair was shorter than it had been, but his eyes were still had the same deep look to them.
"Edward, this is my wife, Bella." Jake said jovially.
"Nice to meet you." I managed to spit out. "I'm going to go and get out of y'all's way."
I walked quickly back into the house and picked up the phone to call Alice. She picked up on the first ring.
"Alice." I said hoarsely.
"Bella? What's wrong?" she asked sounding concerned.
"You will never guess who is at my house."
She didn't say anything.
"What the hell is he doing there?" she yelled.
"Jake hired him to help out."
"No fucking way."
"There's a fucking way, especially considering he is going to be living in my barn." I ran my hand through my hair.
"I can't believe that Jake would hire him considering your history."
"About that.." I started.
"He doesn't know?" she asked sounding angry. "You were engaged to another man and he doesn't know?"
"I didn't think that it was important."
"Bella." she scolded.
"I know." I sighed.
"You have to tell him."
"You have to." I heard the back door open.
"Bel.." I heard her start before I hung up.
"Everything okay?" Jake asked.
"Everything's just fine." I said smiling despite myself.
"Edward is going to be eating dinner with us tonight, if that's all right." Jake said getting a glass of water.
"Peachy." I mumbled.
"Nothing, it's fine." I said smiling. He kissed me on the forehead before heading back out.
I sighed and leaned against the counter. I was coming face to face with a man that I swore I would never see again. I guess when they say your past comes back to haunt you is true. I still couldn't believe that Edward fucking Cullen was living at house. How did my life get this screwed up? I knew that I was going to have to tell Jake, I just didn't have to tell him now.
I was shaking the whole time that I was making dinner that night. I was trying to breath, but it felt like my lungs weren't working. I couldn't let myself think about having to talk to him that was going to send me over the edge into panic mode.
I was just pulling the meatloaf out of the oven when I heard male voices just outside the door. I kept my back to them when I heard them come in. I jumped when I felt Jake's arm wrap around my shoulders.
"What's for dinner?" he asked.
"Meatloaf." I replied.
"Sounds good. I'll set the table."
I set the food on the table and took a seat.
"Why are you standing over there?" Jake asked. I turned to see Edward still standing by the door. "Come, sit. We don't bite. Well, I don't bite. Bella on the other hand."
"Ha ha." I stuck my tongue out at him.
Edward to the seat across from me. Dinner was a quiet occasion. I picked at my food as I listened to the conversation between Jake and Edward. I had eaten all of two bits since sitting down, I just didn't have an appetite. Every once in a while Jake would give me a questioning look and I would just nod my head, telling him that I was fine.
I cleared that table after dinner and washed the dishes just for lack of anything better to do.
"Is everything okay?" Jake asked, taking the plate from me and drying it off.
"Everything is fine. I'm just tired, I guess."
"I'm fine, Jake." I handed him the last dish for him to dry off. "I'm going to go put Misty back in her stall."
I kissed him before heading out the door. I went the pasture and led Misty back to her stall. I gave her some water before closing the door.
"Oh, God!" my hand went to my chest and turned. Edward was leaning against the railing. "You scared me."
"He doesn't know." he said simply.
"Who doesn't know what?" I crossed my arms over my chest.
"I think you know."
"What Jake doesn't know won't hurt him."
"Is there a reason you didn't tell him?" he asked coming closer to me.
"You're just as arrogant as ever." I commented.
"He doesn't seem like the type of guy that you would go for."
"That just goes to show how much you know me." I walked toward the door.
"If I remember correctly," I stopped. "you said that you always had a thing for bad boys."
I looked at him with a shocked expression on my face.
"Yeah, I remember a lot of things."
He shook his head. "I know you better than that."
"That was six years ago, Edward. And I think that you're forgetting who broke up with who."
He just stood there.
"Don't have a comment for that one do you? Goodbye, Edward."
I found Jake on the couch when I walked back into the house. I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around him and kissed his cheek.
"What took you so long?" he looked up at me.
"I just had something that I had to take care of. Let's go to bed."
"Hey," he grabbed my hand.
"I kind of told Edward that you would show him around town." he gave me a guilty smile.
"When did you do this?" my brow furrowed trying to remember the conversation from dinner.
"While you were doing the dishes. I should have asked..." I cut him off.
"Its fine. I don't mind."
"Are you sure? By the way you acted tonight I didn't think that you would.
"I'm sure. Don't worry about it." I smiled. "I'm going to go get some water. I'll meet you upstairs."
I watched him walk up the stairs. I guess avoiding Edward wasn't an option, I should have guessed that karma would kick my ass. I couldn't fathom having to spend a whole day with him; this was going to be a difficult experience.
I walked into the kitchen and got a glass of water figuring that it would look weird if I were to appear upstairs without it.
Jake was already asleep by the time I got upstairs. I crawled in bed beside him. I looked up at the ceiling trying to figure out what I could have done to make to universe turn against me.