ABeautifulMess

You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
And based on your body language,
And shoddy cursive I've been reading
Your style is quite selective,
though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
that this is just what happiness is

Hey, what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions, dear
'Cause here we are, here we are
Jason Mraz

Chapter 1

"Are you serious right now? God, I can't believe you!"

"What? What can't you believe? That I actually want to marry you?" I couldn't believe we were having this argument right now. Outside and getting soaking wet in the rain.

"Edward, just stop. I don't want to deal with this right now." She walked away from me and her parents' house towards the car.

"Stop what? Stop telling you I love you? Stop wishing you would marry me? What, Bella? What do you want?"

"All of it!" she screamed.

She yanked open the driver's side door and I realized that if I didn't get in too, she'd leave me here. It was a hell of a long way home, so I climbed in the passenger side just as she threw the car into reverse.

"No. I love you and this ridiculous argument stems from your insecurities about your parents' marriage, when-"

"No, don't you DARE psychoanalyze me. I AM NOT ONE OF YOUR GODDAMN PATIENTS!"

She took her eyes off the road and in that one second I saw the tears cascading down her face. I looked out of the window and watched the rain fall for a moment before responding.

"I'm sorry. I just...I love you and after five years, I just thought that we were ready, but I understand if you aren't. I love you too much to let you go because of this one setback."

"I-"

She started to speak but a deer suddenly bounded out in front of us, causing Bella to jerk the steering wheel to the right. I could see the giant tree and yelled for her to hit the brakes but it was too late; the car was hydroplaning and she couldn't regain control.

"Edward," she cried out, just as we crashed into the tree.

My head slammed against the dash board and I struggled to ignore the pain radiating from it. I looked at Bella covered in blood as she mouths the words "I love you", and then I lost my fight with consciousness.

When I awoke it was to the smell of fire; I was on the ground and the car was blazing, smoke surrounding me.

"Bella!" I cried out, my voice sounding a little raspy. I rushed to my feet but was quickly grabbed by a tall, hulking man.

"Easy there," he said, and gently but firmly dragged me over to the ambulance on the other side of the road. "You can't go over there."

"Let me go!" I screamed frantically as he forced me to sit down on one of the stretchers inside the vehicle. I absolutely refused to lie down. "Where's Bella? Oh God, oh God, where is she?"

The man yells for sedation and is passed a needle. I kick, scream and try to scramble out of his grip but it doesn't work. In the end the needle is jabbed into my arm and I only stay awake long enough to notice the man's black eyes. Unnaturally black eyes.

A/N: Thanks so much for reading. I currently don't have a Beta for this story. If you want to volunteer let me know. Please review. I appreciate and reply to each one.

UPDATE: FOUND A BETA THE AWESOME THETINYDANCER 3/24/12