Once in the bedroom I begin to reminisce about all the nights Edward and I had spent in this bed together. All the nights where we just laid in each other's arms, talking about whatever crossed our minds. All the mornings where we were each other's personal alarm clocks. All the lazy afternoon's when all we did was watch movies and cuddle. Stop stalling, I tell myself. I grab my things at vampire speed and pack all of it away in a large trash bag. I can't help but look into the nightstand drawer and find the ring that should've been on my finger all along. I sit down on the bed and reverently slip it onto my ring finger.
For the first time I look at the ring, at all of the small details that I didn't care to notice before. The intricate filigree setting that covered the thin white gold band, and the beautiful cut of the emerald as the light from the room hit it just right., Edward knew this ring was absolutely perfect for me. And for the umpteenth time I find myself thinking back to the night Edward proposed to me. The night that I ruined both of our human lives with my insecurities about marriage; our fifth anniversary together.
Unbeknownst to me Edward had planned a small party at my Dad's house to celebrate. It was just both sets of our parents and a couple of our closest friends in attendance. There was a huge banner that read "Happy Anniversary Bella & Edward" on it with little tea candles and balloons everywhere in the party area. It was so cute. We had dinner made up of all my favorite foods, music and a little bit of dancing too. Everything was going well, my parents weren't at each other's throats and I was having fun until Edward turned the music off and called for everyone's attention. He pulled me over to the center of the room and got down on one knee.
"Isabella Swan., It feels like I've loved you forever. I think my heart was always meant for you; to find you, and love you for the rest of my life. I honestly can't think of anything that would ever make me happier than watching you smile or hearing you laugh. I want to wake up in the morning and know you're there. I want to see you after a long day of work and know that it's my ring on your finger, and my name you whisper. Will you marry me Bella?"
I couldn't answer his question because my mind was racing and it felt like I was hyperventilating. I wanted to say yes but the word was stuck in my throat. All I could see was a marriage like the one my parents had. Loud arguments, separate rooms and going days without speaking to each other. We would both be miserable and indifferent to each other. We would no longer be together because we loved each other, but because we would have nothing else. The cycle would continue until one of us decided to leave the other. God forbid if we were to have children and have to watch them get caught in the middle of an ugly custody battle. Marriage was, as I saw it, just wrong on so many levels.
"No,." I say softly before pushing past the small throng of people to get out of the door.
"Bella," I hear Edward call," Edward called before grabbing my arm to stop me. "Don't run from this. Don't run from me."
I looked at him and suddenly I'm angry. Angry that he'd put me in this position. A position where I had to say no. He knew I didn't want to get married. We were doing just fine without being married and we would continue to do so. I yanked my arm out of his grasp and walked out of the door of my parents' house and into the heavy rain.
"Are you serious right now? God, I can't believe you!" I'd yelled to him.
"I always knew that ring would look amazing on your finger."
My eyes pop open at the sound of Edward's voice, and I am lost for words. He's standing right in front of me and there are so many things that I need to say to him; so many things that I should have said a long time ago, but the words won't come. An immeasurable moment of time passes as we look at each other.
A small laugh escapes us both and I gesture for him speak first.
"Bella, when you first explained the whole vampire thing to me, I didn't understand how I was supposed to just pick myself up, erase the time I spent grieving, and not freak out. It felt like I didn't know you anymore. You became this supernatural being that I knew nothing about. I guess I wasn't sure how to love you. I wasn't sure how to reconcile the Bella that I loved with new vampire Bella. I was so hurt that you lied to me, that I let anger cloud the decisions I made about us. I was wrong and I'm so sorry, Bella. I don't know how I ever thought I could live without you. I love you, Bella."
My mind raced with all I had just been told. He loves me. Edward still loves me. After everything that I put him through he still loves me. I get up off of our bed and stand so that I'm facing him.
"What are you saying, Edward?" I ask holding my breath and attempting to quell the hope that springs up in my chest.
"I'm saying that I want to be with you, Bella. I'm saying that for you, and for our love, I want you to change me. I'm saying that I want to spend an eternity with you. A very meddling and omniscient vampire helped me realize all that I stood to lose if I let you go. I don't want to be without you."
"I love you too, Edward, so much. And I'm sorry, Edward. I'm sorry for lying to you and I'm sorry for the way I behaved when you proposed. I've had a lot of time to think about it and you were right. I was so scared that we would end up like my parents that I pushed you away. If I could do it all over again I'd say yes in a heartbeat."
"Really?" He asks stunned. I simply nod in response as he drops down to one knee.
"Bella, will you do me the honor of becoming my wife?"
"Yes! Of course I'll marry you, Doc. I would love to become your wife."
Edward stood up and kissed me.
"Forever, Snow," He promised against my lips.
"Forever, Doc," I affirmed.
Our love would transcend all of eternity.
Hello all! Here is the betaed version of the epilogue. I am so thankful to TheTinyDancer for being such an awesome Beta and dealing with my verb tense confusions. I am also super super grateful to everyone who reviewed, favorited, and followed this story. I love you all!