Catch up for you all since it's been a fair while since my last update:
Matt found a confession of love from Tai (?) hidden on a computer; he and Tai heard a dirty, fictional story about themselves being spoken over a phone; Matt nabbed a piece of paper from the pile of romance stories that Tai and Izzy had found in the fiction forest, and has kept it to himself. He has started avoiding the others.
Tai has taken particular offence with Matt's decision to not share a room with him at the Taito Resort. Following Izzy's advice, he goes to find Matt and talk, so that he can find out what the big problem is. Tai is unsure of whether he has done something wrong, or whether the stories about the two of them have simply freaked the child of friendship out.
Tai smiled awkwardly at Matt. He had found the blonde boy hanging about in the resort, playing the loner. Even Gabumon wasn't with him, which seemed strange since he usually hung to Matt like a furry shadow. "I'm sorry?" Tai offered, trying to break the quiet.
"Why? What have you done this time?" Matt leaned against a corridor wall and frowned.
"Well, nothing. I just..."
"I swear, if it's something bad I'm going to flay you."
"What? No, it's nothing bad." Tai laughed gracelessly. "I mean, I don't know. I just figured I should apologise in case I've done something stupid, or hurt your feelings, or something."
"Oh." Matt loosened up, and his voice lost its hard tone. "Well, thanks. But you've not done anything wrong."
Tai smiled. "So does that mean we're cool?"
"Sure. Whatever. We're cool."
"Good." Tai said. "'Cause I hate it when you're angry at me, or when you're sad because of me. I just wanted to make sure I hadn't done anything..." He trailed off a little, noticing that Matt was suddenly staring at him with eyes that were shocked and shimmering.
Matt's lips parted slightly. "What did you...?"
"Wh-why are you looking at me like that?" Tai jumped back a step and half raised his fists. "What did I say now?"
"You hate it when I'm sad?"
"Of course I do." Tai said uneasily. "Now cut it out. C'mon, you're being creepy."
"I'm...sorry." Matt shook his head and abruptly ran away, a vulnerable edge to his voice.
"Wait up!" Tai lunged forward to pull the taller boy to the ground but missed. He regained himself and chased Matt down the corridor, not fast enough to catch up to the blonde but too fast to avoid running into the door that Matt had disappeared behind. He bumped into it and fell backwards onto his backside with a quiet whine.
"...are you ok?" Matt asked, hesitantly opening the door again to peek through the crack.
Tai looked up at Matt with a frustrated pout, eyebrows lowered. "Why are you running away from me?"
"Uh, nothing." Matt closed the door again, leaving Tai confused and sore, and still on the floor.
Izzy was sat by a leafy tree at the side of the beach with his laptop open, idly watching as his friends played volleyball beneath a faded blue sky. It was unusually hot, considering that the afternoon was beginning to fade away. He wiped his forehead and looked down at his keyboard. On top of it lay a few sheets of paper – unread pages from the pile that was hidden in his and Tai's room. He had hoped to get through them in private, but since Tentomon had insisted on coming down to the beach he had brought them with him. He would just have to be careful about anybody else seeing.
"What are those Izzy?" Joe asked, sitting down beside the redheaded boy all of a sudden.
Izzy cursed silently. "These? They're nothing important."
"Are they the same things you were reading in the forest when you and Tai fell behind the group earlier?" He asked, inquisitively. "C'mon, show me. If it's a secret then it's safe with me."
Izzy swallowed. "Well..."
Matt closed his eyes and drummed his hands against his head, while mumbling about how stupid a person he was.
"Maaaatt." Tai said from the other side of the door.
Possibly, Matt thought after a few more beats against the side of his skull, he had over-reacted a little bit. He definitely shouldn't have run away from Tai like that. It had riled the excitable brunet up and now Matt would never be able to brush him off.
"Come out so we can talk."
But what else should he have done?
"Or at least tell me what the problem is."
Tai had practically mimicked every word of the obsessively loving computer file from before, and that was really disturbing. And wrong. And kind of, he thought very quietly to himself, romantic.
"You're being so weird today..."
And if he hadn't run away, then – his thoughts became super quiet again – he might have actually kissed Tai, until either his lips hurt or Tai punched him into his senses.
"If you won't come out then I'll come in, and I'll make you tell me what's wrong. Don't think I won't!"
I need a miracle to get out of this, Matt thought.
"That's it. I'm coming in!"
"Have you been out in the sun for too long Izzy?" Mimi asked, holding a hand over him in a vague attempt at offering shade.
Izzy frowned. "You don't think it's possible?"
"Well, they are always all over each other. But I just assumed it was platonic." Joe shrugged, rubbing his nose.
"So did I." Izzy offered. "But the more I think about it the more logical it seems."
Mimi giggled as she read from one of the pages. "Now that you mention it, they would make a pretty cute couple. Wouldn't they? And just imagine the babies!"
The two boys looked at each other, half-amused. "Er, Mimi?"
"What's going on over here guys?" Patamon interrupted, floating towards them with T.K. following in his wake.
"What do you mean you can't hear me?" Matt asked.
Tai smacked his ear a little and inserted a finger inside and jumped up and down on the spot.
"Knock it off would you?"
"I can't hear anything!" Tai hopped closer and grabbed at one of Matt's hands. "Help me!"
"Uh..." Matt froze, and tried to get over the skin to skin contact that had been thrust upon him. He had held hands with Tai before, but never without gloves on. And never in such a weird situation as this. "...you really can't hear?"
"What?" Tai shouted.
Matt cringed, and his thoughts darted about in a flustered panic. "This is not good."
"What are you just standing around for? Do something Matt!" Tai cried out.
"Shut up and let me think!"
Tai tilted his head, as if he had recognised that Matt was shouting.
Matt sighed. He squeezed Tai's hand tighter and wondered if they should go get help. "Man, I wish I knew sign language."
"Let me get this straight." T.K. asked, puzzled. "You think my big brother loves Tai?"
"No. Well, possibly." Izzy looked flustered. "I mean, it's not my place to spread these kinds of rumours."
"But now that you've brought it up, I can't help myself from seeing it." Joe scratched his head and sighed. "It seems kind of obvious now."
"I don't understand. I thought we all loved each other?" Biyomon offered, flapping around in a confused circle.
"I think they mean it in the romantic sense Biyomon." Tentomon buzzed.
"I suppose Tai might love Matt..." Kari offered. "But I'm not sure if Matt feels the same way."
"I wouldn't put it past him. He does seem to get lost in Tai's eyes sometimes..." T.K. said, thoughtfully.
Mimi gasped. "I thought that it was normal for friends to do that?"
"Only as normal as it is for friends to have their hands in each other's pockets." Joe remarked.
"Or talk about each other all the time..." Kari said.
"Or share lunch every day..." T.K. added.
"The line between uncomfortably close friends and budding lovers is a blurry one. Really, we can only speculate on their relationship." Izzy suggested.
"True." Joe replied. "But if they are just friends, then they are so uncomfortably close that it makes me feel uncomfortable, too."
"Maybe I'm under the spell of an evil Digimon!" Tai said, shivering where he stood.
"..." Matt answered, utilizing a series of shrugs and meaningless hand gestures.
"Am I dying?"
"...!" Matt replied.
"I was fine a moment ago!"
Matt pulled back, and his shoulders drooped a little.
"...?" Matt mouthed something that seemed like a question. And then he started to drag Tai back towards the door.
"Tai does stare at Matt a lot when he thinks nobody's looking." Agumon said, earning nods of agreement from the group.
Sora, the final person to join the discussion, crossed her arms. "But that doesn't mean he loves Matt, Agumon. And let's look at this logically. Tai couldn't be gay. He's too...you know." She motioned in the air with her hands.
"Good at sports?" T.K. offered
"Brave?" Gabumon suggested, a red volleyball impaled upon his horn.
"Dirty..." Mimi shivered.
Joe laughed. "I don't think any of those things make a difference."
"Oh..." The Digidestined bowed their heads a little.
"Tai wouldn't like us talking behind his back about him." Izzy said, taking a piece of paper from Palmon's hands and returning it to the others. "Forget about these stories, and about Tai and Matt. It's none of our business."
Most of the group agreed, and returned to their game of volleyball, after finally pulling the ball off of Gabumon's head. Izzy began to tap at his laptop absently. He wondered if Tai would punch him if he ever found out what they had been discussing, or if he would take it in his cheery stride. Perhaps, Izzy thought, it would be a little bit of both.
"If I Could Hear Your Voice." Tai read from the plaque on Matt's door. "...what's that supposed to mean?"
"I'm not sure." Matt frowned. Tai never thought he'd be so happy to hear his friend. "But you should probably avoid this room from now on Tai."
"Yeah. You don't have to tell me twice." Tai laughed quietly despite his lasting anxiety, and slung an arm around Matt's comfortable shoulders. "Maybe you should avoid it too. Since it's got such strange powers."
They stood close together like that for a few quiet moments, each listening to the vague sound of the other's breathing. Tai thought Matt's breath smelt sort of nice. "You know, if there aren't any more rooms left to stay in, you could always come share with me?" Tai asked hopefully.
Matt frowned. "Tai, I already told you..."
"I know. I know. But I thought, considering the situation, you could change your mind." He released Matt from his grip. "C'mon, would it be so bad to share a room with your best friend?"
"No. But it isn't-"
"And you shouldn't be alone on this strange island anyway."
Matt folded his arms. "I'll be with Gabumon."
"But you won't be with me, and we always do everything together." Tai argued. "C'mon. Why don't you want to?"
"It's not that I don't want to. I just don't think it'd be a good idea."
Tai tilted his head like a confused puppy. "How come?"
"Because, ah...um, actually, forget I said that." Matt struggled. His cheeks were flushing. "What I meant was..."
Tai huffed, impatiently. "Fine. Forget it, I'm tired of trying to figure you out." He shoved past the blonde. "I'm gonna go out and play in the sun before it's gone. And you can just mope around up here all day, all on your own, without me around, if you really want to so bad."
"But..." Matt tried, before abruptly changing his tone and blowing the hair out of his eyes. "Fine, whatever. I'll do that! Numb skull."
"So. What do we think about Matt?" Mimi said, knocking the volley ball over the net towards Joe. It struck him in the face and he yelped.
"Matt?" Gabumon repeated.
"Yep. Do we think he likes guys?" Mimi asked happily. "We discussed why Tai might, or might not, but what about blondie?"
"I thought we agreed not to talk about this." Sora said, knocking the ball back over the net. Tentomon grabbed it and hurled it back over at Joe.
"I know. But what Tai and Matt don't know won't hurt them." Mimi giggled.
T.K. laughed along with her. "You make a good point. But...don't tell my brother I said that."
"I don't understand what any of you are talking about." Gomamon asked with a typical laugh, padding his way along the volleyball area.
"Hey Gomamon. Where have you been?" Joe asked, pleased to see his companion.
"Swimming with the locals. I was asking around to see if they knew anything about the island, or the resort, but..."
"Nobody has any idea?" Gatomon purred, cynically.
"They know less than us." He sighed. "But I did learn something."
"I'm really hungry." He laughed again.
"Very informative." Joe shook his head. "Though now that you mention it, I'm kinda hungry too. Do you think they have a kitchen up at the resort?"
"Guys, can we get back to the topic at hand?" Mimi interrupted, impatiently.
"Matt!" She answered excitedly, and a little scarily. "What do you think about him?"
"I don't know Mimi." Joe lamented. "Maybe? It's possible that he could like Tai. I mean, he's very...sensitive about him in particular."
The group hummed in agreement.
"That's a good point."
"I'm not so sure..." Sora said.
"Ok, I've got something. He's also so pretty and fashionable!"
The group hummed again.
Sora sighed. "But that doesn't make someone gay."
"But it certainly paints a picture." Mimi lectured, suddenly speaking as if she was an expert on the matter. "And you know what else? He's so effeminate sometimes."
"He is?" Kari asked with a laugh in her voice. "He might be sensitive now and then, but I'm not sure if he's girly."
"I agree with Kari. In a fight, he's happy to throw the first punch."
"And he's not afraid of danger either."
"Hey, I'm girly and I'm not afraid of danger!" Mimi interjected. "And Sora isn't afraid of throwing a punch. Although I guess...you're not really that feminine, are you Sora?" Mimi laughed sweetly.
Sora frowned, unsure of whether to be offended or not.
"He likes video games..." T.K. continued, a thoughtful frown on his face. "What does that mean?"
"Video games aren't really a factor here T.K."
Joe knocked the ball over the net and to the ground. "Realistically, how is anything we're talking about a real factor in whether Matt, or Tai, is gay?"
"What did you say Joe?" Tai asked, walking up to the group with his shirt off and his tanned torso exposed, ready to join in the game. He looked suddenly flustered. "I thought I heard my name."
"Oh. I was just-"
"We were just wondering where you were." Mimi butted in, smiling mischievously. "So, Tai. Have you been...having fun with Matt?"
Matt sat uncomfortably on his bed with his treasured piece of paper held carefully in one hand. Phrases flashed against his eyes, and his lips quivered along with each word that he read.
"...tongue slipped into his mouth..."
Even following his frustrating fight with Tai, and the embarrassment that came with nearly letting slip his thoughts, he could find some temporary peace of mind in fantasizing about the headstrong brunet. He rubbed against the protrusion in his crotch with the lower palm of his hand, and suppressed a small groan as he continued to read.
"...took Tai's hand, placing it on his naked member..."
Imagining that his hand was his obnoxious best friend's hand, he hurriedly unzipped himself and gripped his arousal through his underwear. His thumb hooked itself around the waistband, patiently waiting to unveil what was beneath. If only it was possible to do this with Tai for real, Matt thought. If only he could just unzip, release his hardened member from its confines, take hold of Tai's willing hand, and –
Matt cursed under his breath, and evacuated his hand from his underwear with an irritated sigh.
He hated this place. It mocked him with fantasies that he couldn't resist, realities that he couldn't have, and truths that he was afraid of, all at the same time. He stood up, his erection still poking out from behind his underwear through the unzipped gap in his jeans, and unhappily concealed himself again. This adventure was supposed to be an escape from his worries. He wanted to explore, find monsters, defeat evil, be at risk of dying, anything that would distract him from himself. But instead the only thing to confront him was –
He walked out of the room again and went for a walk. His peace of mind was gone completely. Maybe he should just go and find Tai, and make things right between them, he thought, before things had a chance to get awkward.
This chapter had a big scene in it that was powered by KeruKeru's fic about a deaf Tai in love, called If I Could Hear Your Voice. It's very cool. Go check it out. And then go and have a look at his other stuff too 'cause he's really ace. (Yeah I had to edit bits of this bit because I got it wrong...it's fine now though).
Also, you know that piece of paper that Matt nabbed in chapter 4, and was reading from at the end of this chapter? Written on it is a tiny, naughty little fic called Untitled, and it was written by the totally brilliant neo-chan. Look that name up.
So, you wouldn't believe how many 'chapter 5's I scrapped before ending up with this one. Geez. It was like, no matter what I did I just couldn't write anything half decent. Even now, I'm worried that what I've uploaded here isn't great. But I figured I've gotta just stop worrying and get something done or I'll drive myself nuts running in poorly scripted circles. So...yeah. This is what it is, and I hope it was alright!
Tune in next time for: extended scenes involving WET TOPLESS GUYS, and some /DREAMY/ kissing. ;D
All the love in the fanficcy world to you fabulous people who keep coming back to read this. Please tell me your thoughts. I would be really, really freakin' grateful. :)