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A/N: Yes you're not seeing things this is really a chapter! I know I'm in shock too, I promised you I would get some chapters up as soon as I could. Also as promised I went back to the original of this story; it's a little different but same concept. I'm hoping this is an ok chapter and makes sense it's been a while since I last wrote, sorry for any mistakes you come across. I went back through but I'm sure I missed some things. As always leave me some love
My name is Isabella Marie Uley; I'm 18 and I live with my older brother Samuel Uley, or Sam, as everyone calls him. Our mom died four years ago; I was 14 years old at that time and Sam was 18. She was hit by a drunk driver one night on her way home from work. Since Sam was already 18, he stepped up and became my guardian, so I wouldn't be put into foster care. Our dad had left us while my mom was still pregnant with me; Sam says he wasn't much of a dad anyway from what he can remember. So for the last few years, it has just been Sam and I. Sam has opened his own construction company, he does all the work here on the reservation. I just graduated high school a month ago, will be heading off to college soon. Besides Sam, I have my boyfriend Paul Lahote, and my good friends Jacob Black, Leah Clearwater, Quil Ateara, Embry Call and Jared Cameron. Sam and I are lucky to have great friends in our lives. We are a small, but close-knit family.
A few months ago Sam had disappeared for a few weeks; no one had been able to find him. I had never been so worried in my entire life. I knew Sam would not just abandon me, but where could he have gone? Harry Clearwater and Billy Black acted suspiciously around that time, like they knew something about his disappearance. Paul stayed by my side while Sam was missing, if it wasn't for him I don't know what I would have done. After two weeks of worrying for my brother Sam came home, but he was no longer the brother I knew. Sam grew several feet, grew 10xs more muscle than he originally had. I was so happy to see him wish the feeling was mutual.
A few days after Sam returned home Paul became really sick, and refused to see me so I wouldn't catch what he had. It's been so lonely without Paul; Sam ignores me and avoids me. He doesn't come home until sometime after I've gone to bed and he's always gone when I wake the next morning. The only one I had to lean on was my Paul but now he's ignoring me and won't see me or take my calls. My friends are all busy; I just wish I knew what I did wrong to Sam and Paul so I could fix it.
I sit here in my bathroom sick to my stomach as I wait for the scariest test of my life to finish. It's been two weeks since I heard or seen Paul or Sam; I could use them right now. With all the stress lately I didn't notice my period was late, I'm on the pill but looking back I was dumb and skipped a few pills. Now I sit here at 18 waiting to see if I'm going to be a mommy or not. I don't know what I'm going to do Sam and Paul won't talk to me I'm so scared and alone.
Finally after 3 minutes the timer on my cell phone goes off alerting me that the pregnancy test is ready. I get up and with shaky hands slowly look at the pregnancy test, in bold letters it screams at me "Pregnant". I drop the stick and rush to the toilet just in time to throw up; luckily my hair was already up!
After flushing the toilet and brushing my teeth, I slowly make my way back to my bedroom to make a call I don't want to make. I'm excited to be having Paul's baby but I'm scared how he's going to react with the way he's acting lately.
My stomach starts to churn again as the phone rings waiting for him to pick up. Finally on the 3rd ring Paul picks up.
"Hello" Paul's gruff voice answers.
"It's me please don't hang up, it's important I really need to talk to you." I rush out hoping he'll be my Paul on the line and not the new Paul who doesn't like me anymore.
"What the fuck do you want Bella? I told you when I was ready to see you or talk to you I'd call or show up." He all but shouted into the phone, I swear he even growled in there.
"I know and I have been giving you space, but this is important and I can't keep it from you." I said nearly in tears, most be the hormones I've heard about when your pregnant.
"Listen Bella I've been meaning to say and do this for a while. I don't give a shit what you have to say, I'm done with us. It was good while it lasted, I'm no longer in high school and I want to explore with other girls and not be tied down anymore I'm too young for that shit. Besides you're going off to college I'm staying on the rez I don't want to wait around for you. If you still don't understand I'm done with your ass lose my number and don't come around me." Click.
I stood frozen for a few seconds, minutes or hours I don't know I was in complete shock. This isn't the Paul I know or love, the Paul I know would've never given up on us or talked to me so harshly.
I didn't even get to tell him I was pregnant, he didn't let me get a chance. Before I could think any more on it I heard the front door open, desperate to have my big brother wrap me in his arms, wipe my tears and tell me it's going to be ok I rushed downstairs.
"Sam thank goodness your home I could use my big brother, I need to tell you something and Paul just broke up with me." I rushed out in between my sobs. As I tried to hug Sam he tensed up and stepped back from my embrace and crossed his arms over his bare chest.
"I don't want to hear what you have to say Bella; do you blame Paul wanting to break up with you? Your so damn needy, always crying and needing 24/7attention. Your 18 years old for fuck sakes grow the hell up Bella, how do you expect to survive college if you keep acting like a child? Its time you start acting like an adult instead of a toddler who needs others to wipe her own ass. I'm also done with you, I'm grabbing some things and moving the fuck out, you can have the house. Like Paul said don't contact me after today." With that he turned on his heel walked into his bedroom for a few minutes before coming back out. He didn't even look at me or acknowledge me before he walked out slamming the door beside him.
Once again I was frozen in shock, I can't believe this is happening to me, the two men I could always count on left me within minutes. I sank to the floor crying my eyes out before exhaustion won out and I passed out in a fetal position on the floor. I woke the next morning still in the same fetal position with dried tears on my face. Hoping that yesterday was a nightmare I had, I rushed to Sam's room to find his dresser drawers opened and emptied.
I decided to shed no more tears for my brother and boyfriend well I guess now ex-boyfriend, I have a human being growing inside me and I need to be strong for him or her, even though I just want to curl up in a ball and die. Time to put my big girl panties on and do what need to be done, from now on I won't let another man or family member break my heart.
After hours of packing, taking anything down in the house that would remind them of me down, hours of researching housing and jobs in California I was set to finally leave my home and make a new life for myself and my unborn baby.
After loading up my SUV that Sam bought me as a graduation gift, I went back in the house to make sure everything was gone, and leave Sam and Paul a last message.
Dear Paul and Sam,
Not sure if you two will bother reading this or just throw it out. I just wanted to say I'm sorry for whatever I did to make the both of you hate me so much and say cruel words to me. I want the two of you to know that I'm going to listen to your wishes and leave the two of you alone forever.
Sam I took the liberty of taking down any pictures that had me in them, I cleaned up anything else in the house that would remind you of me. The house is completely cleaned up, now you can move back in and no longer be reminded of the child you had to take care of.
I've decided to leave permanently you'll never have to see or hear from me again, I hope you two will live long healthy lives and be happy most of all.
I know you don't love me or care for me anymore but I'll always love and miss my big brother. Paul I'll always love you.
With that I folded up the letter, stuffed it in the envelope and laid it on the counter for them to read or throw away. With nothing else to do I grabbed my keys and purse, closed and locked the door. Before getting into my car I took my house key off putting it under the porch mat. As I get into my car I look around my home well I guess not anymore saying a silent goodbye.
As I drive away from the only home I've ever known, my family and friends I let a few tears escape as I drive away to my new life , new me and new adventures.